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Thursday, June 30, 2005

Staring. Juz staring at the screen.

Nothing has sunk in. YET.

| 6/30/2005 04:30:00 AM

Tuesday, June 28, 2005

Ive been keeping these feelings inside of me for weeks now. All bottled up.

If u haf been reading my previous entries u do noe that ive been feeling happy. Exceptionally happy. Beyond words.

Yup it's true.

I AM HAPPY.

U muz be thinking: "Wat the hell?? It's normal to feel happy."

Yaaaa i noe it is but as for me... ive not felt such happiness in a long long time. Im not saying ive been sad. Im not saying ive been angry. Ive been thru all that. It's normal for feelings to fluctuate.

Sometimes im sad. Sometimes im angry. Sometimes im over the moon. Sometimes im hyper. U get my drift??

Do u noe wat kind of happiness im talking abt?? Well i cant find the words to describe this feeling either. For me it's indescribable. It's smth that u need to experience for urself. Smth that u need to be able to haf gone thru to understand how im feeling.

Frankly speaking... it's been abt 2 yrs...
2 yrs since ive felt dis way...

It's been a long time. Yup. Definitely.

In the span of 2 yrs sooooo many things haf happened. Back then i wld haf regarded them as a bane. All those bad lucks. All those roller coaster rides. All those times when i was trying to figure out wat actuali happened. Wat went wrong. Where did my fault lie...

And then it got to a point that i juz got angry... at them. Juz plain angry.

After that i learnt to accept things as they come. That stuff happens for a reason. That God has his plans for us. That he noes wat's best for us. So i resolved not to hope animore. I resolved to juz sit and wait. I resolved to be very patient.

Then smth major happened earlier this yr. Which no doubt made me erupt. Oh yes i did. It was as if a dormant volcano juz erupted. I think it was worse than the eruption of Mount Pinatubo. Reali!! I kid u not!! I juz simply erupted and i swore to myself that if someday i come acros that Glow-In-The-Dark Anneh i will skin him alive.

I will use my Catwoman's powers to jump on him (no sexual intentions watsoeva)
I will use my No Guli powers to shake him senseless and stab him
I will use my long Medusa hair and wrap it round and round his body and suffocate him and crush his balls wif it too

But then again it's all thanks to him that i am wat i am right now.

When that shit happened... i started to question God. Which was wrong but i cldnt help it.

Cos i prayed hard. For US. For good things to come my way. For him to be safe and sound. For him to be able to do well in his final year. For him to be in good health.

Well he had good health indeed. Healthy. Alive and kicking at Blk 817. But where did that leave me?? I didnt get wat i wanted.

I wanted US to happen. But God didnt fulfill that simple wish of mine. So i reali started to question God. I noe it was sinful. It's juz that if there wasnt going to be an US why make him appear in my life??

I noe some ppl are meant to stay in my life while others are juz passing by. I noe that. It's juz that if he was meant to pass by then so be it. Dun implicate others. Dun implicate my dearie. Dun implicate my cousins. Dun. It's not nice at all.

But it's all thanks to the Glow-In-The-Dark Anneh that i got to where i am today. Now. Right at dis very moment. Its funny how he was meant to juz pass by in my life but yet he has managed to create such a huge impact in my life. But still that doesnt mean he's forgiven.

After that whole fiasco. After all those questionings i realized that if i want smth reali badly i shld continue praying for it. Pray i did. For him. For US. But wat i didnt bear in mind was... God wld give us wat we want provided we show him how badly we want it.

Maybe im born to be a receiver. Maybe it's a common trait among ppl like me who are born as the only child in the family. It's selfish in a sense. I noe. My parents always taught me to share. To spare a thot for others. They did a good job.

But wat was a gal to do when a guy gave her more than enuff attn?? The attn that she has been craving for?? The love and concern. I duno if it was my fault. But i juz wanted to give him space. It wasnt as if i cared for him less. Reali it wasnt. I juz didnt want to be clingy. I am not clingy by nature anyway. I didnt show to him how much he meant to me.

So yes. Despite praying hard i guess i didnt show God how badly i wanted there to be an US. All i did was prayed. Action speaks louder than words. That wasnt smth that i adopted back then.

So now i realize i shld be pro-active in some ways. Ive quit praying for wat i want. Instead i choose to pray for the ppl that i love. My parents. The Kukuz. My close frenz. I realize that i can nvr show these ppl enuff how much i love them. How much i care for them. I dun haf all the strength in the world to divide my time wif everyone and to actuali sit and talk wif dem. To actuali show them that they mean a lot to me. The least i can do is pray for dem.

Im sure God noes wat i reali want deep down inside. I dun have to say it. I dun have to pray for it cos i noe He truly noes wat i want badly. Instead ive chosen to show to God how much i reali want dis thing to happen. Ive chosen to show to God that im willing to make things work now. If He reali gives me a chance i wun let it go to waste. I will go all out.

Like i did 2 yrs ago.

And this time i will try my very very best not to let history repeat itself.

Actions reali speak louder than words. So i will do juz that.

| 6/28/2005 01:58:00 AM

Monday, June 27, 2005

U noe the feeling of contentment??

The feeling of juz being satisfied wif ur life??

I am feeling that right now.

| 6/27/2005 03:06:00 AM

Saturday, June 25, 2005

Me, Lulu and Shaik had a talk. I mean a chat over msn. U all noe that most of the time we often crap. However we did have a serious chat. Well we discussed some serious issues which isnt necessary to be explained over here.

I duno how to say it. It's good enuff that Shaik and Lulu understand. I dun need the entire world to understand me.

So yes. I can finally say that i am.....................

Uh-huh... yes... I am....

So that means my next step is to....................

Ahhhhhh yessssss...... correct....... that shld be my next step......... it's reasonable and sensible.....

So who cares if im taking such a big............................................

It's all becos i am....................................

Oh yes i am.

*giggles*
*giggles*
*giggles*

| 6/25/2005 02:11:00 AM

Friday, June 24, 2005

I cant believe that im feeling nervous??

Can somebody tell me why am i feeling nervous??

Even i cant fathom why im nervous. I usually dun get nervous over such stuff. In actual fact im always excited. Up to the point that i wun be able to choose what to wear. Only then will i seek the help of my frenz.

And now after countless assurance from them...
Countless suggestions...
Countless what have yous...

I AM NERVOUS

Why??!! Im not supposed to feel this way. I have been waiting for weeks now for this day to come. Ive been getting all excited. All psyched up. Now ive turned into a wreck. I duno why. Pls. There's gona be Lulu, Toonie and Shaik. There's no reason for me to be nervous since i'll be with totally lame and crappy ppl that i noe.

Ugh!!

Can somebody slap me?? Pls??
Give me a tight smack across the face so that i'll realize that this whole thing isnt such a big deal??

U noe what?? Now i dun even feel like going. I shld juz stay home and sit in front of the laptop and surf away. Chat away. Stare at the screen. Then my face will turn rectangular juz like this laptop. Then my eyesight will deteriorate. Then i wun haf a reason to wana wear shades tmr.

Which i repeat is a ridiculous idea. Wearing shades inside the mall. Wearing shades in the cinema. Gaaaaaaaawd. But yes. That thought did cross my mind.

Do u noe what im talking abt?? Do u noe why i wana wear shades?? If i tell u, den u will end up laffing at me.

The truth of the matter is....................

I dun wana make a fool of myself
I noe i shld juz be myself but what happens if being myself means i'll be super nervous??

Gaaaaaaaaawd

I duno what's wrong wif me?? Confidence is attractive. I shld be confident that i'll be able to carry myself well and then things will go smoothly.

U noe.... Smooooooth. Smooth operator....

Smooooooooooooth. Yeah so smooth that even a pair absolutely rough jeans can glide across the roughest rock on Earth.

Smooooooooooooooth. Even smoother than gliding a piece if soap across ice.

Even smoother than skating on ice.

Even smoother than letting a piece of ice slip thru my hands.

Even smoother than a baby's ass.

Ok shut up.

| 6/24/2005 01:24:00 AM

Thursday, June 23, 2005

I haf a project to do tmr. No i mean later. After i've woken up.

I wana decorate my new black v-neck tee that says Diva across my boobs but if i stand in front of the mirror it'll be Bitch. Ahahahahhaha. Bought it at Bugis Village on tues evening.

And seeing that the black top is kinda plain except for those words...
And seeing that black is sooooo not smth that i wld wear...

So i will decorate it with nice colourful buttons and sequins and feathers or what haf u. Hee. Den it will be black with a dash of colours. I LOIKE. Den i will wear the black top. If not i wun wear it.

So yes. Hopefully i get my project done. If not i wun be able to wear it on friday.

And yes. I need to pack the stuff that i bought for my frenz. Write them notes. Hee.

Looks like i'll be busy later. Got stuff to do.

| 6/23/2005 01:38:00 AM

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

BACK FROM BANGKOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IM BAAAAAAAAAACCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!

OH MY GAWD
OHHHHHHH MY GAAAAAAAWWWD
OH MY GAWD OH MY GAWD OH MY GAWD

OH
MY
GAWD

I duno how to describe the shopping experience in Bangkok. I can assure u that u will be satisfied. Like seriously reali satisfied. And i tink u will go maaaad like i did. I bought stuff. There were times i cldnt decide which ones were nice cos almost everything seemed nice!!

I changed S$150 but i still got some money left. I think if i convert the baht i'll get S$40 back. So technically i spent around $110 on these:

Jeans
White knee cropped pants
White top
Purple top that bares some parts of ur back (which my parents didnt mind)
Blue and white skirt that ends below the knees
Purple silk bag
Bag featuring Jessica Simpson on the cover of Vogue mag
Blue handmade sandals
1 purple seashell necklace
1 flower necklace
A pair of earrings
Green Polo tee for AM
Stuff for Kukuz

ALL THAT FOR S$110

Ok Kukuz..... the thing that i bought u guys aint pretty or nice or girlish or dainty or whatever. I dun even noe if u ladies wld like it. I bought it simple becos ive not seen it in singapore. Its cute la. Hahahahahahah.

Oh my gosh!! Before we got off the plane juz now they gave us orchids. Each passenger got 3 orchids to pin on their tops. Den Daddy gave me his cos i tink he malas to pin it and malas to hold it. So then i started to menggatal. I pinned all 3 orchids onto my hair. Den i didnt wana look like some crazy minah bunga i took out one.

And den i told Daddy to take a video of me wif the orchids. Me getting all excited abt the orchids. Ahahahahaha. Den took a few pics wif the orchids in my hair. Reali!! My aunt commented that i was sooooo happy and she told me to relax.

Den my uncle picked us up and he was soooo surprised to see me. He said ive changed into a beautiful Thai. Den he greeted me in Thai. Siap dgn hands together sekali and he bowed. Ahahahahahahah. FUNNEH!!

Ohhhhh yaaaaaaaaa..... den at Bangkok we were at the diamond factory. Den one of the staffs was attending to my aunt. Den she asked my aunt who i was. After that she said in halting Thai accented English:

"She is very beautiful"

Ahahahahahahahahahahaha

I swear i cld haf laughed and rolled abt then cos that comment was FUNNEH. Reali!!

Ohhh ya!! Den my hotel room was S$50 per nite. Fucking cheap sia!! Imagine if the Kukuz shaire a room. Waaaaaaaah!! Reali damn cheap!! And trust me my hotel room was reali nice. Reali!! Bathtub. Beeeg bed. SPACIOUS.

Ok ok. Actuali all i wana say is that i wld soooooooo lurrrrrrrvvve to go to Bangkok wif the Kukuz. Reali!! It's pretty safe and my parents gave me the green light. So now im waiting approval from all the parents of the Kukuz.

Cmon ladies... if we save $100 per month till June nxt yr den we wld haf more than enuff. Furthermore it's the Thailand Grand Sale in June. Muz go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MUZ GOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeee......

Oh ya noreen... I did take some pics wif Daddy. So yeah juz wait for me to upload them here. Hee haw.

Lalalalalalalalala.

Batman... Catwoman No Guli Medusa is back. We can go patrolling together alreadi. I dun need Invisible Scream Siren animore. Heeeeeeee. And wif regards to that qn of urs abt Catwoman...... It's a YES..

| 6/21/2005 03:14:00 AM

Friday, June 17, 2005

Finally...... im updating. Wif a proper typed out post. Instead of pics. And more pics of myself. And the rest. Cant help it. I noe all of u luuurrrrrrvvve seeing my pics. Im pretty rite?? Nice eyes rite?? Sexy rite??

BEAUTIFUL RITE??

Ahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.

Ok now im laughing all by myself. Im reali cracking myself up.

Soooooo tmr i'll be leaving for Bangkok. Am i excited?? Of course ah!! Who wldnt be excited at the thot of goin on a holiday kan?? Take plane some more. Waaaaaahhhh!! Ahahahahaha. OK i sounded so jakun but yes la. Its been like 4 yrs since i took the plane. Haha. So excited gilerrr ah. Excited gilerrr babe!! Excited gilerrr siol!!

Hahahahahaha. Gosh!! Im talking like some minah. Sori la. Reali excited. The last time i took a plane was to Phuket. So now it's to Bangkok. Heeee. Wait i come back, im gona start speaking in Thai. I'll scold all of u using all the Thai bad words. Hahahahaha.

Ok which one of u ladies are sending me off tmr?? Like very very early?? Ok i dun wana trouble any one of u but it's exciting rite?? If any of u flies off i'll be there to send u off too. So tmr u all better pretend to cry ok?? Then Daddy can record everything on his videocam. Haha.

So let me talk to u abt Daddy. Ni Noreen mesti suke. Maklumlah somebody has a crush on Daddy. Gosh Noreen!! If u see him wif his nice new short haircut i think u tak boleh angkaaaat!!

Soooo... as u all noe Daddy is a man of few words. Grunting or nodding is as far as he wld go. But whn he talks, he will repeat the same thing over and over again juz to emphasize on his point. That can be a real pain cos he's ALWAYS not right but i'll be too tired to argue so i'll juz shut up and he thinks he won the argument. Ok that aside......

Do u noe how Daddy treats salesmen?? He will juz stare at them from wherever he is.... it's usuali from the sofa. He will be reading the papers wif his glasses halfway down his nose and he wld say:

"Dun want ah. I dun want"

Then he'll get back to reading no matter how much the salesman beg him. But wait. That's not the funny part. Let me tell u smth funny.

U noe there are teenagers who go around selling Wall's Ice Cream?? Ya they will bring wif them that beeeeg box. Pitiful rite?? It's kinda heavy and they get paid peanuts. So one evening they were at our doorstep. So Daddy was out there reading the papers wif those glasses of his and his kain pelikat. The gal was trying to get Daddy to buy the ice cream but he didnt want to. Then as a last resort i heard Daddy say:

"I said i dun want. Wait i call the police then u noe"

-faints-

U all might find it funneh but its not!! Pls!! He thinks he wld scare off the kids by telling them he wld call the police?? Cmon la Daddy. Pls. They are licensed to do that waaaaat. Sheesh.

And then on Tuesday while having a very late dinner at Beach Rd i told Daddy:

"Ayah, if my frenz send me off on sat, i will tell them to pretend to cry tau. Den u record eveything on ur videocam k?"

-silence-
-no reaction-

Ohhhh yessss.... There wasnt even a smirk on his face. NOTHING. At least if he had a look of i-think-my-daughter-and-her-frenz-are-nutz i wld haf been more than happy. But no. He continued eating his mee kuah.

So yes Shaik. Im the only child to a one of a kind father.

Juz now after teaching nabilah tuition i talked to my uncle. Becos he wanted to show me the nice places in Bangkok. So both of us were bent over looking at the map. And then he asked me how much money i brought over there. So i juz told him for myself i changed S$150. I got 3500 baht in return. Den he said its not enuff. Muz bring at least S$500.

Eh giler ke?? U give me money ah. I dun haf that much cash to spare tau. Sheesh. Anyway sikit sikit can mintak Daddy la. I noe Bangkok is a shopping haven but i wun buy everything that i see rite?? Rite?? RITE??

Okies. Before i leave for Bangkok i wana ask for forgiveness from all of u. If terkasar bahasa ke. If i hurt any of u. Ok im not being pessimistic la but who noes what might happen right?? Malang tak berbau. Mishaps happen during the most unexpected times. So ya. Shld smth happen to me or shld i not come back here.....

Den ya la. Forgive me for all my mistakes. Its been a blast having all of u in my life. Hee. Wonderful. Life has been oh so wonderful. Especially lately. Oh yesss.

Now now.....

Has my Batman returned from his gala premier all around the world?? Has he?? Can he puhleeese send me a signal from his wateva bat gadget?? Ahahahahahaha.

Dearest Batman...
Catwoman No Guli Medusa is awaiting ur return. Oh yes i am. I miss ur lameness.

| 6/17/2005 04:22:00 PM

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

| 6/15/2005 12:07:00 AM

Sunday, June 12, 2005

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Yes ladies and gentlemen.......

The face up there is THE face of the week.

THE face that ive been showing off all week.

THE face that i think has gotten my mom suspicious.

THE face that my aunt felt like slapping.

THE face to sum up how ive been feeling all week.

What more can i say...... life has been good.....

PS: Noreen takkan u tak ingat the makcik yang jual that ayam yang colour merah. Its not fried chicken wing. Its the one wif the gravy.

| 6/12/2005 06:52:00 PM

What i bought on Friday
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Waiting for the impending arrival of the love of my life: Muka takot yg tak menjadi
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| 6/12/2005 06:48:00 PM

Saturday, June 11, 2005

"I wun call u hot becos it's a word used to describe bitches. Beautiful is a word used to describe women like u"

Hawhawhawhawhawhawhaw

He find me beautiful. Hawhawhawhawhawhawhawhawhawhaw.

Aku sudah melayang entah ke maner. Oh yes. I floated away to God noes where last nite and im still floating right now. All smiley. I noe for a fact my mom suspects smth cos EVERY time my hp beeps she ask who it is.

Hawhawhawhawhawhawhaw

Ok. I cant sit still. It doesnt help that i've got lots of stuff to do today and i duno whether i shld sms or not.

Was talking to Lulu till around 6am and i was up by 845am.

Hyper!! Hyper!!

| 6/11/2005 10:33:00 AM

Friday, June 10, 2005

U want me to update??

Im sori i cant becos im still hyper and too busy laughing and gushing over.................

Hawhawhaw

Not gonna tell yoooooooooouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Ape ni Shaik censored pic?? Hawhawhaw. Den i also wun put any of my pics taken yday cos i can also label dem as censored simply becos i looked ugly.

Hawhawhaw

Am i making sense?? No??

Hawhawhaw

Do u think i care??

Hawhawhaw

Right. I juz raised my voice at Nabilah becos she didnt noe the difference btwn area and perimeter. U shld haf seen her face. So takut. Imagine my serious face and my high voice.

Hawhawhaw.

Right. Tuition is gonna end in 45mins. Im gona go get stuff at jurong point.

Pls eh Noreen. I wldnt want eusof as my hubby even if he's the last guy on earth.

| 6/10/2005 01:08:00 PM

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Pls excuse me if i start chatting wif all of u in CAPS on msn. That juz means im hyper. All hyper. Im not like Lulu who chats in CAPS when she's in a bad mood. Whn im in a bad mood i dun go online at all or i will give short, curt answers. Mcm org yang tak cakap banyak.

So yes im hyper. I was considering if i shld type out this entire post in CAPS but i decided against it cos nanti sakit mata memandang. Haw haw haw.

Ive been up since 630 am. Yes yes. Partly cos my mom woke me up to help find her green bag. Bag belajar yg she puts her telekong and sejadah in and her change of clothes after work. It's a BEEEEEEEG green bag but surprisingly it was nowhere to be seen. So she left for work wif another telekong and sejadah in an ugly red flimsy bag.

But i juz remembered that i saw the BEEEEEG green bag in the car boot. Haw haw haw. Daddy put it there. Haw haw haw. Better sms her now.

So i was up at 630 kan?? Actuali even if my mom hadnt woke me up i wld still be up early. When both my parents were up i was actuali awake but pretended to close my eyes je. Peluk bantal. Cover my face. Haw haw haw.

Den after they left i went to 7-Eleven. Bought Straits Times and Berita Harian. I went down without bathing. Haw haw haw. After that then i bathed, washed my hair, put stuff on my face and sat down to read the papers. Then i disturbed Shaik. I told her to get up and scrub the floor and feed the birds.

Pls dun ask me why i smsed her that whole load of crap cos i seriously duno. Like i told u im hyper. So now Shaik is up. Up, up , up and away. Do u noe wat scene is being played in my head?? The starting of Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban. I think the aunt or was it the cousin who ballooned up while at the dining table. Haw haw haw. Den u noe rite balloons rise into the sky and float away. Haw haw haw.

So i juz read ST. Not much coverage of last nite's match. I think they cldnt make it for printing time la. Afterall the match only started at 8:45pm. So ya by the time it ended got no time la. Ape seh that Bertalan Bicksei actuali grabbed Razaleigh Khalik by the neck. Wat the hell brudder??

Dah la ur name is weird even for a Hungarian. Pls dun be a sore loser. Pls eh. It was only a foul from Razaleigh. The referee did his job pe. Luckily he didnt book u or smth. Pls la. It was a minor thing. Juz take a look at how rough ur players were on Saturday. And did the referee booked ur players for all the late tackles??

He didnt. Be thankful for that. I think it was becos the referee kencing manis so he nvr book ur players. But then who cares. I think if the referee had booked ur players then Spore wld haf won by a bigger margin. Cmon la brudder. If u want ur team to win get them to chop off their long hair. Discipline sikit. Cemane nak main wif long hair?? Esp ur goalie. No wonder he cldnt see the ball properly. His long hair muz haf blocked his sight.

Haw haw haw

LIONS I LOVE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LUB U VERY THE STRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LUB U TILL THE MOON AND BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LUB LUB U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I LUB U DEEEP DEEEEEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can somebody puhleeeese tell me why im hyper?? Pls?? Thank God i didnt watch the delayed telecast of the match on TV 1 last nite. Shaik did. I didnt dare switch on the tv outside cos i was supposed to be asleep. Supposed to je but i was actuali smsing Shaik.

Daddy has blamed my late nights as the cause of my fever. Yaaaaa. He said that all those late nights made me sick.

"Mcm maner tak sakit?? Org tido time malam. Ini tak. Terbalik pulak. Macam burung hantu. Siang tido. Malam tak."

Eh ayah. Pls eh. I dun sleep during the day either tau. The latest is until 2pm. Den i'll be up on this damn laptop doing my investigations. Ayah jgn la cakap sembarangan. Ayah takde rumah pe. Ayah tak blh cakap gitu. Ayah duno wat goes on everyday.

Haw haw haw

Ok i reali tink im going mad. On tuesday i was on the way home and there was a jam at CTE. So i was smsing Shaik and she was telling me that she wanted to get a dress. I was being a brat and refused to help her find one simply becos if she gets a dress then i wun be known as the Kuku wif a dress. Ok fine i noe Liz has a dress but it's not that kinda dress im referring to.

Den while caught in the jam suddenly all these images started flashing into my mind.

Dresses. Tops. Yellow. Red. Blue. ACCESSORIES. Bags.

Yes. The things juz flashed one by one. Reali tak bedek. And then i started smiling and wishing that i had all the money in the world to buy them. Like i can juz walk into a store and grab wateva catches my eye without having to worry abt the price.

And if i haf all the money in the world to do that i wun be a snobbish shopper. Oh i certainly wun. In fact i'll be nice and smiley to the shop assistants cos i'll be too happy that im buying stuff from them. And if they are nice to me i'll give them tips too. Haw haw haw.

And pls i wun even shop at wateva Luis Vuitton or those reali high class shops cos i dun tink their clothes are all that nice. U want expensive but nice clothes?? Go to Mango or Armani Xchange or Topshop or Miss Sixty . Ok nvm.

Moooooviing on.........

Do u noe how much im dying to spend my money?? Do u noe how much im dying to get a blue tube from Fox?? Do u noe how much im dying to get that red halter from Fox?? Do u noe how much im dying to get myself a piar of pants?? Those that end juz below my knees?? Yes i dun wana wear jeans all the time. I wana wear those kind of casual pants.

Do u noe how much im dying to get another yellow top?? Do u now that i need to get a pair of purple earrings cos i already haf earrings in pink, green, blue, white, yellow, orange but NO PURPLE. I wana get those reali bug chunky ones.

I wana get some more hair clips. I wana get green and beige necklaces.

I need to buy shaving cream. I need to buy my body scrub. I need to buy my foundation. I need to buy shampoo. I need to buy a new bag.

I need to buy truckloads of stuff but i cant do that now cos i'll need the money for my shopping at Bangkok.

YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

In abt a week's time i'll be leaving for Bangkok. Haw haw haw. For ppl like neeta who doesnt noe that im leaving for Bangkok. No wait i think she noes but she doesnt noe the date.

I'll be leaving on the 18th. Flight duno wat time cos we havent collected the ticket from the travel agency. But it shld be in the morning. Staying at Bangkok Palace hotel. I wonder who i'll meet in my tour group.

-raises eyebrows up and down-

Dun wori i wun bring home some mat kotai from Bangkok. I think im better off bringing home one of the gorgeous transvestites. Oh Daddy can we go watch another one of those transvestite shows like we did in Phuket?? Caaaaaannnn weeeeeeeeee?? Den after that we take pics wif them. Haw haw haw. Sexy gilerrrrrr. Haw haw haw. Even their voices are sexy. Haw haw haw.

I rmbr i was chatting wif rahman abt my Bangkok trip. Den i told him it's been a long time since i took the plane so his next qn was:

"For how long??"

So i thot he meant for how long haf i not taken the plane. So i told him 4 yrs. Then he juz said:

"That's long"

And thennnn i told him that the last time i took the plane was during my trip to Phuket back when i was in sec 4. So in actual fact both of us got it wrong.

Rahman was referring to how long my trip was gonna be and i think he didnt see the part abt me saying that i havent been on a plane for a long long time. So there was a miscommunication somewhere. Haw haw haw. But imagine his shock when he read "4 yrs".

Haw haw haw

FUNNEH

Somebody pls help me. Im very hyper. Ive been hitting the keyboard since juz now.

Oh i forgot to tell u that i jumped last nite. Haw haw haw. After Get Real ended i was juz so psyhced up abt our win over msia. There was nobody beside me that i cld hug. I wanted to kiss the wall but that wld be a stoopid thing to do. My parents were already asleep so i cldnt possibly scream. So i did the next best thing.

I lifted my ass from the floor. Stoof in front of the tv. Now if u haf been to my hse u shld noe that there's enuff space in front of the tv to jump abt. That's where i always hold my mini concerts. So yes i stood in front of the tv and started jumping. From left to right. Right to left. Wif my arms flailing in the air. And do u noe how my arms were flailing abt?? U noe how when ure abt to fall backwards and ur arms start to go round in circles?? Yes. Like that.

Really. I kid u not. Haw haw haw. So Shaik ingat tak u prompted me but i took a while to reply?? Cos i was busy jumping. Haw haw haw.

Mann it has been more than an hr since i typed dis. Haw haw haw. Ok i shall touch on one last topic.

If u haf read Shaik's blog u shld noe wat i smsed her last nite. I think it all started earlier on yday's evening when she said she wanted to meet her prince charming. Shaik assumed that i wld wana meet my knight in shining armour.

WRONG

I dun want a knight in shining armour. All i want is a nice, irritating selenge guy who will love me unconditionally. To be honest i like to receive. A lot. Haw haw haw. It doesnt haf to be materialistic stuff. I like to receive lots of love. Haw haw haw.

I want a guy who can sweep me off my feet.
Someone who can be irritating wif me.
Someone who loves me unconditionally.
I dun want flowers.
I want lots of chocolates.
I want a guy to watch me eat.
I want a guy who will listen to all my crap wif a smile on his face.
I want a guy who who isnt afraid to make it obvious that he's looking at me.
I want to look at a guy and get lost in his eyes.
I want a guy who doesnt mind watching the sunset wif me.
I want a guy who loves the beach like i do.
I want a guy to play wif my hair.
I want a guy who likes to smell my hair.
I want a guy who has goals in life.
I want a guy who will hold my hands all the time.

I want a guy to hold me forever and not let me go.

I want a guy that i can bring home to my parents. Someone whom my parents will not object. I want a guy to actually be the one who asks me to bring him home to my parents.

Nenek Maimon can i be ur cucu mertua????????????????

| 6/09/2005 08:32:00 AM

Wednesday, June 08, 2005

WE WON!!

WEE WONN!!

WEEEEE WONNNNNN!!!!!!!!

Im reali reali proud of our national team. Reali am. Oh gosh!! I tink if i were at Bandaraya Stadium at Penang i wld haf been jumping and screaming and crying. Haha. And it's juz a frenly.

Oh well. Im watching Get Real. Diana Ser is soooo pretty!!!

And why is she doing a show on driving??

Ok fuck it.

| 6/08/2005 11:53:00 PM

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Alrite. Im feeling a bit better. Fever's gone down from 38.9 degrees to 38.6 to currently 38.2 degrees. Still high i noe. Still throbbing in the head. Still aching all over. Gosh i feel old cos my joints hurt. Especially on my shoulder blades and knees. Now i noe how those old ppl wif joint problems feel. Muz be a real torture.

Yday i was half crying going down the stairs and i reali walked as slow as a tortoise.

After a terribly long time i finished my dinner and it was only mee soto. 3/4 of it was finished by my mom. Then we went to the supermarket. I offered to carry the basket but i think i muz haf looked so pathetic that daddy juz snatched the basket from me. Haha. First time tau cos daddy hasnt done that for as long as i can rmbr. Yes he is like that. He's not really a gentleman.

Then Daddy sent me to AM's hse cos his mom wanted to being me to tm. So i was there and after some time AM walked out of his room into his sister's room. I was seated at the corner and when he saw me he got the shock of his life. Haha. Really!! U shld haf seen the look on his face. Classic!! Cos he was only in his super short black shorts. Haha.

Ive always known AM doesnt haf a toned body. It's fine by me. But yday i saw smth else. He had chest hair. Sikit je. Hahahahahahahahaha. Really!! It was setotet. I think i can practically count the strands of chest hair. Hahahahahaha. Oh gosh!! Funny!! Juz thinking of the look on his face is enough to make roll onto the floor.

Den he went to teach tuition. I went tm wif his mom. Den his mom insisted that i wait for him to come back so that he can send me home. Oh of course i wld welcome that anytime. Haha. Got into the car. He drove us to east coast and we sat there for a while. Very calm. Windy. Very nice. Heeeee. Den my fever started acting up so he rushed me home. Bluek.

Ok i shld go and bathe now. I need to get out of the house. Wana go to my grandma's at clementi. Along the way i shall buy my Thaksin Beef Noodles. Despite my fever im certainly feeling a lot better. I think after all those whinings and feeling all pathetic ive finally dispelled all the negative elements in my body. Hyak.

I received 2 missed calls last nite. No wait. I purposely didnt answer the calls so that's why it's stated as 2 missed calls on my hp. The number flashed. I stared at it. As far as i noe ive already deleted the number. U noe me. I haf a knack wif numbers. Of course i knew who it was but i continued staring.

Twice he called. 11:28pm. 11:30pm. Nak ape seh?? After all these while of keeping quiet. I thot u didnt wana be frenz anymore. Do u think u can come and go as u wish?? Am i juz ur fair weather friend?? Do u even respect me as a fren?

I still rmbr those exact words that u said in the sms. I still haf that sms. If u are indeed a man of ur words u wld haf stuck to ur words.

It's funny how u chose to call me. Exactly a yr after i confessed my feelings to u.

It's funny how u chose to call me. Exactly a yr after u said all that in the sms.

Pure coincidence??

I duno. All i noe is i dun want u coming back into my life and messing up my feelings anymore. I learnt a lot from u and im thankful for that despite it being one hell of a rollercoaster ride being wif u. Im more mature now but when it comes to u im still vulnerable.

Enough is enough MR JAHAT.

| 6/07/2005 12:06:00 PM

Sunday, June 05, 2005

Im sick. My temperature now is 37.5 degrees. I can deal wif that but when night falls it goes up all the way to 37.9 degrees. Bluek. The flow of my mucus is more viscous now. At least its better than it flowing incessantly like a broken tap. Yaaah. Yday in the morning it juz wldnt stop flowing. Thx Daddy for fixing this broken tap of mine.

(Yeah rite!! By forcing me to eat the medicine. Ewwww)

And when i woke up today i didnt dare to bathe. Bluek. Very cold la. But of course since Daddy was home i cldnt refuse and act like a brat. Bluek.

Yday's match was good albeit an unfair one. Sheesh. I told u if i were a ball-picker i wldnt hesitate one bit to throw balls at the referee. Obvious seh that he favoured the msia side. Wat an idiot. Stinking piece of poo. Then duno how to stand away from the balls and the players is it?? Stand in the middle for wat?? Menyibuk je. Ugh!!

I shld haf smuggled in eggs and tomatoes and bottles filled wif pee. As u can tell i was reali frustrated. Bluek. But luckily we won. Ooohh i hope we win the 2nd leg this wed. I reali reali do but too bad i cant go all the way to Penang to support. can i follow uncle Daddy?? Pweeese??

Then there was this drunk fella who kept going "Woooohhhhooooooo" when the match started. It was a very loud and long woohoo. Yaaaaa..... i tink he went:

"Wooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhooooooooooooo" (15 secs)

Hahahahaha. Wana noe how i noe he was drunk?? Cos there was free flow of beer for the Tiger FC members up above the grandstand. I was very amused but at the same time i was worried he wld topple over or smth. But even before the 1st half ended he was alreadi quiet. When the 2nd half started there was no sound from him. At all. I guess he muz haf gotten himself so sloshed and drunk that he passed out.

Amusing. Unfair. Irritating. Very good game.

| 6/05/2005 01:50:00 PM

Wednesday, June 01, 2005

I was doing some investigation work when Naz prompted me on msn. The news that he told me was very shocking. to tell u the truth im very saddened by the news. I duno if im juz being emotional but he did say that the rest of his partners cried too. So i guess it's only right that im feeling dis way. It's not wrong. It's my emotions.

Ok ok. It's not as bad as it sounds. Nothing major. Of course it isnt a matter of life and death. It's juz well..................

I have grown kinda attached to Naz. Despite his lame-ness and his shameless-ness he is fun to be wif. I can never forgot the way he laughs. His latte. Oh God!!

Get a grip on urself Az!! Pls!! U will be able to see him around. He can still make u ur latte. Bluek.

Bluek
Bluek
Bluek

So now im awake. Well kind of. At least it beats falling asleep on top of the laptop while investigating. Bluek. See la Naz. Juz when i thot i wld take an afternoon nap.

So i had my kebab dis morning. Yeah it was my breakfast. Reached there around 1030. And den i suddenly didnt feel like ordering. Cos it has been more than a mth since i went there and God noes wat Golden Monkey wld tease me abt. And trust me. The last thing i wanted juz now was GM trying to be all funny wif me.

Thank God he didnt. Today he was polite and less golden. Hahahahahahaha. Ok i duno how to say it but today he looked more normal except for that ugly pair of jeans. Ok i dun wana be reminded of it. As long as i got to eat my kebab which was very yummy today and generously filled up. Hee.

So i bought my tix today. Wat tix u may wonder. Hmmmmmmm............. Ok i only bought 1 ticket ah. Juz for myself. Haha. I've already asked my mom abt it. She didnt say yes. Neither did she say no. So i juz bought the tix la. If smth crops up at the last min then i juz wun go la. Can still keep the ticket. Hee.

Ok since ive not updated for a while let me tell u abt the events that haf happened for the past few days. Haha. Ceh!! Events seh Azreen. Haha. Actually nth much ah.

Monday morning i went to the library. So i juz sat there and read my book drinking my mocha melt. Oh yes the mocha melt from Galiliee Cafe was soooooooooo nice!! Yummy!! I ordered it cos the name was appealing. And then when i finally saw my drink i started smiling mann. Cos it had lots of mocha syrup at the bottom and there was vanilla ice cream on top!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So den my aunt asked me to go jb wif her. So my mom and me followed. Trust me. I haf never been teased so much before!! My aunt said that i'll probably get married in 3 yrs. HUH??????!!!!

And den rite on the way home only our car was given a thorough check up. The other 3 cars in front of us didnt even get checked. And then rite of all ppl i was asked to get out of the car. Bluek. The guy actually said to me:

"Kak boleh keluar sekejap tak?"

He called me Kak mann!!!!!!! Ok fine i noe he was trying to be polite ah but still. Bluek. It didnt sound nice at all. Bluek. Ape ni check bag org?? Bawah kerusi semua check?? Do i look like a criminal??

Gaaaaaawwwwd

If only i had stuffed my sling bag wif sanitary pads. Or my panty.

And den rite after we moved off my mom said:

"Ala dia sibuk sibuk sebab dia tahu ade anak dara kat dlm kereta"

Waaaaaaaaaat the..........??

And den she went on to say"

"Kalau tahu dia nak check i shld haf made the car messy. Keluarkan semua keropok and kain yang kite beli"

And den when we got on to the BKE my aunt said:

"Alaamaaaaaaak. Patut tadi keluarkan my uniform. Dah tu kebas kebas. Mane tahu coli kering jatuh ke"

-slaps forehead-

Ya i was at the front and i heard all that. Gaaaaaaaawd. And i noe they were juz trying to stress that the officer asked me to get out cos he wanted to take a good look at me.

Ok talking abt dis still makes me pissed. I duno why either but im pissed at the whole thing. Cos i knew he was staring at me when our car stopped. Admittedly he was good looking ah but wassup wif the attitude?? I bothered to smile and said thank u after he had finished checking the car. And he still looked serious. And continued staring as we went off. Ugh!!!!!!!!

And then that nite i continued wif my investigations. And it was fruitful cos i found out quite a number of stuff. And i duno why but Lulu reacted more than i did. Haha. When in actual fact i shld haf been the one getting upset. Come to think of it i had no reaction at all. Actually i noe why i didnt react to the results of my investigation. That has been explained to Lulu.

Den yday i went to meet Azman. But cos i was reali reali tired i was grumpy and whiny. Sikit sikit panas. He said i was worse than a baby and that my eyes were small. Fine!! So i did he next best thing. I opened my eyes wide and thrusted my face into his hoping to show him that i wasnt walking wif my eyes closed. And den he said:

"Ok pls. Stop. Dun do it anymore. I cant stand it"

I got wat he was trying to say ah. If u dun den tooooooo baaaaaaad.

And den while i was going home i received an sms. Den it got around to umm exchanging nos. Bluek. God!! Trust me i didnt noe why i did that. And then i started chatting online and i felt like slapping this particular person cos he was soooooooooo lame and he was bad at giving directions. Ok nvm.

So today. Dis morning i was on the train. Quite packed ah but not packed to the brim. So i was standing in the train. Minding my own business. I did notice dis lady staring at me. Ok wait. She was stealing glances at me when she was actuali right under my nose!! Haha. It was a bit scary ah. Cos i was wondering if my fly was undone but then i wasnt wearing anything wif zips today.

And den she talked to me.............

"The perfume u're using..... it's nice"
"HUH?? Oh ok...... thanks"
"Ya it's very sweet and girly"
"Okkkaaaaayyyy"
"What perfume is it?"
"Davidoff"
"No i mean wat brand..."
"Davidoff la"
"David waaat?"
"Davidoff.... D-A-V-I-D-O-F-F"
"Nvr heard of it"
"It's in a blue colour bottle"
"Oh ok"
"Haha"
"Anyway it's very sweet smelling.... juz like u"

Waaaaaaaaaaaat iiiinnnnnnn theeeeeeeeeeeee wooooooooorrrrrrrrrllllllllldddddddddd???????

So i juz thanked her and she smiled. So widely at me that i felt like running away. So after that happened i was juz wishing that the train wld quickly reach Lavender. Mann it felt sooooo soooooooooo wrong!! It was freaky ok!! Den as i alighted again she smiled at me.

Gaaaaaawwwwd!!

If it had been a guy who said all those stuff to me i wld haf thot he was trying to pick me up and thinking that he was being very original but in actual fact he was cheesy. And if it was a guy i cld haf juz brushed it off.

But since it was a lady who said all those stuff to me, it was certainly freaky!! First i had gals adding me to Friendster for God noes wat reason. They said it's cos they like the way i carry myself and i seem fun and carefree. Bluek. And now a lady complimented me. In a packed train.

Ohhhhh gaaaaaaawwwd!!

| 6/01/2005 02:19:00 PM