:: CATWOMAN ::
Nurazreen. Azreen. Az.
Loves Kukuz. Filial Daughter. Devoted to Batman.
20 yrs YOUNG. 15 January 1985. Capricorn.
SHOPAHOLIC.
School of Cookery. School of Flirting. School of Camwhore. School of Videowhore. KukuzRuffbabezInc. TLC. Bruce Wayne Enterprises.
Crazy. Stubborn. Loves To Eat. Complains abt Fats. Dunno how to swim. Dunno how to cycle. Nice Long Straight Hair. Sweet Fone Voice. But scary in real life.
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"Pozi pozi suka makan kuaci,
Sebab itu dia kurus macam lidi.
Lepas makan kuaci dia pergi mandi,
Alamak! Dia terlupa gosok gigi."
Dis is SHAIKHAH blogging for AZREEN!!!!
Today was a very nice nice day...
The guy who tears the ticket at Cineleisure was CUUUUUUUUUUTE!!!!!
SPARKS flew between them...sampai the guy couldn't tear the ticket correctly!!
Hahaha!!!!
KAKLAR SIAAAAAAAAK
AZREEN...
ZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIN ISSSSSSSSSSS MIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINE!!!
MINE MINE MINE MINE MINE!!!
RJEWOJROEWIJRIOEWJRIOEWJNRVPUN8OEW7UR802W74R83274032840!!!
FNDOWFHOWIUT8RWUTR840U4R23-94029432!!!!
NORUN0E8URQIR3Q!!!
haha
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Im soooooooooooooooooooo seriously laughing out loud now..
Practically clutching my sides..
I juz hope i dun roll onto the floor..
Ok shall get back to reading reading "guy wif small tee" testicles.. oops!! i mean.. TESTIMONIALS!!
And yessssssssss.. i found out THAT asshole fren of his has an account..
Muahahahahahahahahahaha
Bwahahahahahahahahahaha
I'm up early.. like very very early.. it's cos i'm soooooooooo very excited about what's in store today.. let's see.. the stuff i haf to do:
1) Write another testi for Azian (*&^%$!!$#$$*&%@!!#%&%!!!!!)
2) Make my bed
3) Sweep the floor
4) Mop the floor
5) Clean the toilet
6) Wash clothes
7) Cook something for myself
8) Study (%#^!!#$#%^$%*#!!!#@$@%%$^&&#!!!!!!!!!)
Yes.. a whole lot of things to do.. most of it involves cleaning the house.. not that i'm complaining actually.. cos i've not done that in a long long time.. and i cant stand the state of the house right now.. actually it's not that bad.. except for the fact that the floor is ALWAYS dusty.. and i haf absolutely no freaking idea what's the reason..
Besides.. it's a good way to get my exercise right?? Seeing that the reservoir is waaaaaaaaay too far for me.. i shld perhaps consider.. jogging all the way to the reservoir.. and juz as i'm about to reach.. i'll hop on the bus home.. ahhhhhh.. the air con..
*heaven*
Actually i haf a tummy ache right now.. its been nagging me since last nite.. and i think i've shitted all there is for me to shit.. so now there's absolutely nothing left for me to shit.. so i haf completely no idea why i'm still having the stomachache.. maybe it's cos of tooooooo much coffee?? but then again.. stomachaches dun make me lose my appetite.. and since there is nothing left for me to shit.. the more reason i shld eat.. and eat.. and eat.. and eat..
Ok i'm seriously crapping..
I'm sorry.. it's very early in the morning.. and i'm still happy.. as happy as can be.. hoho.. lulu shld know the reason why..
Azian is mad!! maaaaad!! maaaaaaaaaad!!
Last nite.. around 9 i felt soooooo hungry.. cos the only thing i had for the day was maggi.. and mom didnt cook when she got home.. so ya.. i searched the entire house for food.. i cldnt even find chocolates.. so i seriously felt like crying..
No let me correct that.. i was on the verge of tears.. Azian told me to move my ass and go to the shops to get something to eat.. but u know me.. and then she did the unthinkable..
She called her grandma who lives at the block next to mine to send food!! haha.. God!! wat muz her grandma be thinking?? me asking for food so late at nite..?? but ya.. it was faster than calling for a pizza.. but still.. i was soooooooooo embarrassed when her grandma actually called me to tell me food will be sent right to my doorstep..
I.AM.TOO.LAZY.TO.MAKE.MY.BED.
This is one of the reasons why i dun like sleeping in my own room anymore.. cos i will haf to make my own bed when i get up.. which isnt actually such a chore.. but it is one of the household chores that i absolutely abhor!! and since i study so late into the nite.. i wld normally fall asleep on the sofa in the study room..
Mom bought Manja on the way home from work yday.. and me being me.. i always read it first.. i tell u.. this particular issue was sooooooooooo super funny.. i laughed soooooooooooo hard!! if i were to say it in malay.. ketawa tak maintain siak!! haha..
Ok that sounded kinda crude.. when things come out from my mouth in malay.. it wld sound funny.. and crude.. and of course that started a string of smses to lulu and sayang in malay.. which again.. got me bursting into peals of laughter..
Now i know Norfasarie likes Baihakki Khaizan.. see.. i told u all he's HOT!! can u juz imagine.. him standing in all his glory at 1.89m.. running around the soccer field.. beads of sweat trickling down his forehead..
TURN ON!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haha.. i shld seriously stop all this nonsense.. but of course he still doesnt beat Zain la.. unless he can sing and dance.. then at least there's someone closer to home i can fantasize over..
Enuff azreen.. enuff!!
Suddenly i wanna be like Rita Zahara.. i know not many of u know who she is.. but.. ya.. i think she's a very successful lady.. see.. now i'm so jealous.. she has a career.. a very successful one.. and she's getting paid for doing something that she has lots of interests in.. she has 2 kids.. she has a husband who's totally supportive of her..
Do u know that i enjoy doing housework?? sometimes i wish that i can juz get married now.. get married to someone who's very successful.. rich.. someone who has all the moolahs.. but we dun need to hire maids.. cos i'll do the cleaning personally.. from the laundry to the toilet.. to umm.. cleaning up my husband as well.. hahahahahahahaha.. i'll make sure he's clean.. and smell good.. and.. umm.. hahahahahahaha..
Basically half of yday's evening was spent laughing over Manja.. and then.. laughing over Friends.. i muz haf made lots of noise.. considering that my parents slept super early last nite..
And i watched The Ashlee Simpson Show.. which got me wailing at lulu..
"I want her eyes.. i want her hair.. i want her style.. i wanna look like her.. I WANNA BE LIKE ASHLEE SIMPSON!!!"
Right now i'm seriously considering curling the lower half of my hair.. juz so that i can haf her hairstyle..
But..
Oh nvm..
Last nite Liza told me that she fell asleep while working.. and a lil boy even laughed at her.. and she said "Damn".. haha.. i found it funny.. cos hearing Liza say "Damn".. it means she's really pissed about it.. hehehehe..
Tonight.. channel 5 will be showing Punk'd.. i dun really watch it even though it's shown on MTV.. but since tonight's episode features Adam Brody getting punked.. hehe.. MUZ WATCH!! and then got this new show by Vernetta Lopez at 9.. but cannot.. cannot.. i need to study.. if not i'll be stuck in front of the tv..
Right.. i think that's enuff for now.. i might go online again later and blog some other rubbish..
For now.. i haf to write Azian a quick testi.. or maybe not.. hehehehehehe..
Ok haf a great day folks!!
Guess who juz pm-ed me??
Guess who juz pm-ed me??
GUESSS WHOOO JUZZZ PM-ED MEEEEEEEEEEEE?????
ZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNN!!!!!
Hahahahaha..
Well.. he did pm me.. his starting line was.. to sing Zain's part in Bila Rindu.. hahahahaha..
"Jauh akan ku lena.. ku rasa kita bersama"
*cair*
I cant say his name here la.. who knows he's reading my blog.. no wait.. i dun think so laaaa.. eh why the hell am i sooooooooo stooooooooopid?? we haf a nickname for him waaaaaat..
Ok ok.. cicak pm-ed me!!
God!! why do i sound so excited?? haha.. well.. it's cos.. well.. it's exciting.. cos he pm-ed me even though he was busy at work.. and coming from a guy who dun talk much.. except for "haha".. "yes".. "haha"..
All i can say is..
Well done cicak!! ur conversational skills haf indeed improved within the space of.. a few days!! haha.. chat wif me more often.. and u'll become a chatterbox like me.. haha..
Ladies.. i know when the string of Konsert Solos will be shown on Suria.. come on mann.. pay me 5o bucks and i'll tell u.. haha..
Actually.. Suria will only air the Konsert Solos.. in.. February!!
FEBRUARY 2005!!!!!!!!!!!!
Which is like.. umm.. let me do my math.. umm.. 5 mths away!!
Tidaaaaaaaaaaaaaak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Like what cicak told me.. wait macam dah basi.. the excitement wld haf worn off..
Cicak asked if i'm excited to see myself on tv..
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Firstly.. u wun even get to see my nose on screen.. unless of course the cameramen took a shot of me without me realizing it..
Secondly.. i look so buruk screaming away.. so that is definitely something i'm not looking forward to.. and if the cameramen were stoooooooooopid enuff to take shots of me screaming.. well..
Kids.. u better sue all the Mr Cameramen for the Ruffedge Konsert Solo for giving u nitemares.. hehehehehehe.. it was certainly wasn't my fault.. 100% NOT MY FAULT AT ALL!!
Hohohohohohohohohoho
I'm mad.. i'm maaaaaad!!
I AM MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm sorry.. i'm juz in a hyper mood now..
Too much coffee i guess..
Lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala..
Let me take out my whip.. yesss..
WHIP=KINKY
Hahahahahahaha..
Right now.. i feel like whipping somebody's ass.. like seriously whip and whip and whip till the skin from his ass comes off.. padan muka dia.. dah la he ever got his ass burnt.. so now.. it's time to rip off whatever skin there is left on his ass!!!!!!!
YEEEEEEEE HAAAAAAAAAA!!
Hahahahahaha..
Imagine me lasso-ing my whip.. hohohoho.. ooooooooohhhhhhhhh.. wooooooooooooh!!!!!
I'll do it wif soooooooo much style.. hehehehehehe.. and i'll send him flying to mars.. let him stay with the martians.. let him make frenz with all the martians.. let him!! let him!! and i hope one day the martians get very hungry and eat him up..
LETTTTTTT THEMMMMMM EEEEEAAAAAAT HIIIIIIIM UPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!
Hahahahaha..
And i found out something.. if someone blocks me.. then his status on my msn will always be Offline..
Hmmmmmmmmm...................................
Now i seriously think someone has blocked me.. well.. no.. not the guys whom i met at eunos mrt.. cos if he had blocked me.. he wldnt haf brought up the topic in the first place..
But it's somebody else.. oh well..
IT'S HIS LOSS!!
Prrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrt
"I walked across an empty land.. i knew the path like the back of my hand.. i felt the earth.. beneath my feet.. sat by the river.. it made me complete........"
I love this song.. so mellow.. so nice.. the guitar strums.. lalalalalalalala..
Ding dong ding dong ding dong bell..
Naughty pussy cat.. u are very fat.. u've got chocolate on ur whiskers.. naughty pussy cat..
Hahahahahahaha..
Pls excuse me.. i'm maaaaaaaaaaad.. feeling kinda hyper.. and i dunno why.. maybe cos of all the super heroine thingy.. hehehehehehe..
Oh oh.. i'm using the Clairol Herbal Essences Fruit Fusions..
Hee.. very nice.. very sweet smelling.. like duh!! cos made from fruits waaaaaaaat..
Mandarin, Starfruit and Papaya..
"Clairol Herbal Essences Fruit Fusions Hydrating Shampoo replenishes moisture and shine for Coloured/Permed/Dry/Damaged Hair.."
Dry and Damaged Hair.. that's mine mann.. and being a medusa means.. i need to take care of my hair.. if not it'll become brittle.. wait i cant capture the bad guys.. no wait.. maybe i shld let my hair turn all smelly.. so when i entwine them round my hair.. they'll die of the bad smell mann.. hahahahaha..
"Herbal Essences Fruit Fusions gives u and ur hair a totally revitalising experience. A special blend of natural organic fruit extracts and pure mountain spring water will awaken ur hair's natural beauty. Specially formulated to restore shine and vitality, rejuvenate dry/damaged hair and help protect colour-treated hair. Fruits grown under certified organic conditions - no petrochemicals or pesticides"
Prior to this i was using the Clairol Herbal Replenishing Shampoo.. it contains rose hips, vitamin E and jojoba..
"Clairol Herbal Essences Replenishing Shampoo for Dry Hair.."
"Herbal Essences Replenishing Shampoo gives u and ur hair a totally revitalising experince, while it moisturizes and replenishes dry hair leaving it luxuriously soft and healthy looking"
Personally.. i like the smell of the Fruit Fusions.. but i like the fresh feeling that the Replenishing Shampoo gives after each wash.. it's like my hair feels so much lighter..
God!! i'm seriously crapping.. i shld juz shut up.. my hair feels so thick.. i need to trim it.. oh well.. nvm.. i'll let it grow.. let it look like a lion's mane for now.. and will trim it 1 week prior to raya.. and go for the protein treatment.. if i have the money.. i'll settle for natural glossing.. cos it's been a month since i went for a hair treatment..
Anyway.. nobody is gonna look at me now....
Do u haf any idea how sleepy i am right now??
Dooooooooooooooooooooooooooo yoooooooooooooooooooooooou?????????????
I am so super sleepy that i can fall asleep in front of the monitor as i'm typing away..
-thud-
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There u go.. my head juz fell onto the keyboard.. that explains the one line of nonsense typed above.. haha..
CRAP
Juz take a goooooooooooooooood loooooooooooooooooook at the sky.. can u see the sun shining brightly?? well if u're reading this at nite.. of course u can't see the sun la.. but u know what i mean..
Do u know what i feel like doing right now??
What i really really wanna do right now??
Get my ass down to Sentosa and get a tan!! not that i didnt do it yday.. but it was a spur of the moment thingy.. unplanned.. so i wasnt in the right attire.. cld only spray some tan oil on my arms and legs.. and face..
I tell u.. if i live in a condo.. i will get my ass down to the pool area and lie down to get a tan.. and if i live in a semi-d.. i'll lay out a mat on the grass and haf a tan session..
Oh shit!! i forgot to buy my Herbal Essence shampoo.. ahhhhh.. silly me.. tooooooooot.. there's only so little left in the bottle for 1 time use.. toooooooooooot.. and now i'm too lazy to move my ass to the shops.. but if i were to get dad to buy it for me.. he'll be stubborn and stick to plain old rejoice..
Ok shut up Azreen!! shut up!!
I need to shit.. excuse me ppl.. i'll be right back..
Baaaaaaaaaaaaaaack!!
I like ashlee simpson.. i really really like her..
Especially her dyed black hair.. and eyes.. i wanna haf a fringe like hers.. and i want her eyes.. but of course she has stylists and makeup artists to make sure she dun look like shit.. imagine me.. having eyeliner drawn around my entire eye!!
Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. i bet even my loved ones wld run 10 km away from me..
I seriously think.. ppl wld take ashlee simpson more seriously now that her hair is black.. when she was a blonde.. she looked more like britney spears.. and puh-leeeeeeeese.. ashlee is nothing like her dumb sis..
Ok ok.. i shld stop it..
So what do i talk about now?? i dunno.. having writer's block.. no wait.. it shld be blogger's block..
La la la la la la..
Drinking too much coffee based drinks has stained my teeth.. now i no longer haf the perfect set of pearly whites.. my teeth haf turned yellowish.. which is not good.. no no.. and when i pay a visit to my dentist.. she's gonna start nagging..
I love dentist visits.. i love getting my teeth cleaned.. polished.. whatever the dentist does.. and yes.. i miss my dentist all of a sudden.. and i want her to do whatever she can to turn my teeth white again..
I shld reduce my intake of caffeine.. this is bad.. really really bad.. i used to not like drinking coffee.. or anything that's coffee based.. that's why when i step into Starbucks i only drank cocoa or raspberry cream frapp..
But i guess.. i'm a convert.. my short stint at starbucks has turned me into a coffee lover.. and now i'm addicted.. and it's not good.. cos that means i need to get my frequent starbucks fix.. cos the coffee at home juz dun taste the same..
And since now i'm addicted to coffee.. this means that.. the caffeine wun haf any more effect on me if i wanna burn the midnight oil.. oh shit!! shit!! shit!!
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Sorry.. my head juz fell onto the keyboard again..
Oooh.. oooooooooooh.. The OC is back!!!
Oooooooohhhhhhh.. i get to see Adam Brody again..
Oooooooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
No correction.. I get to watch Seth Cohen on the silver screen..
Oooooooooooohhhhhhh.. ooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. oooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhhhh..
TURN ON!!
Haha.. yessssss.. now my thursday nitez wun be so boring anymore.. for the past few weeks it was Wednesday nitez.. cos of The Amazing Race.. but now that The Amazing Race has ended its run.. luckily Colin and Kristie didn't win.. if not i wld haf blown my top and thrown my shoe at the tv..
So now.. i've switched to Thursday nitez.. 11pm.. The OC.. hehehehehehe.. Seth Cohen turns me on.. cos of his witty one liners.. cos of the way he talks.. cos of the way he pronounces his 'S'.. and the way he dresses..
The Blue concert is on.. tonight.. in a few hrs.. the doors will be opened.. and all the fans wld be running into the indoor stadium to get the best spot.. heck.. some of them might haf started to queue up since last night!!
So why am i here??
Ah shit!! my coffee is finished.. i'll be right back.. gonna make myself a new cup of coffee..
Ok.. so where was i?? yup.. the Blue concert..
It's funny a few months ago i was "duncan-ing".. tagging on everybody's tag board.. and i cldnt stop blogging abt Duncan.. but now.. a few mths down the road..
I've managed to stop myself from "duncan-ing".. cos.. well.. now there's..
ZAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNNNN
Haha.. ok ok.. what i was trying to say was.. i wun fork out money for a Blue concert.. no way.. $150 for the Linkin Park Concert was worth it.. every single bit of my $150 didnt go down the drain.. it was money well spent.. and i enjoyed myself very much.. enjoyed myself to the max.. despite having been hugged by a drunkard..
Maybe if Azian decides to pay me back my $50.. i wun mind buying the $24 tix.. i wun even mind giving any one of my frenz a treat..
But i juz can't bear the thought of.. having to be stuck in a crowd full of kids.. and teenagers.. and of course.. u will haf parents in the crowd as well.. telling others not to push or squeeze.. fearing for the safety of their kids..
But having parents at concerts is a good thing.. cos i love seeing the classic startled look on their faces when someone screams into their ears.. hehe..
"LEEEEEEEEE!!!!!! I LOVE UUUUUU!!!!! MARRY MEEEEEEE!!!!"
"DUNCAAAAAAAANNNNNN!!!!!! U'RE SEXY!!!!!!!! TAKE OFF UR TOPPPPPPPPPP!!!!"
Although this time there definitely wun be any lip synching cos there'll be a live band on stage.. and the tix are cheap.. but nah.. i'll pass.. having met Blue on valentine's day was good enough..
So now.. can anybody sponsor me for The Eagles Concert?? not necessarily the most expensive tix.. but yeah..
ANYBODY??
I know.. what i said last nite.. was like a smack in the face.. it was as if my hands went thru my own monitor.. came out thru urs.. and slapped u left and right.. but.. it was cos i cared.. its true.. u can say whatever u want on ur blog.. but i'd rather u hear all those stuff from me.. instead of having other ppl read ur blog and telling it to u.. i know it hurts.. especially since it came from me.. i'm juz sorry cos i shld haf been more sensitive to ur feelings.. so anytime.. when u've cooled down.. when u're feeling better call me k??
I dunno how to put it in words..
From the 2 Italian guys in Speedos who said "Hi"..
To the apek who suddenly stood next to me at the traffic light and practically thrusted his face into mine and smiled pervertedly..
To the golden monkey at Beach Road who wanted to know where i live.. what i do.. and why i request for no veggies this time..
*sigh*
TIRED
And yes noreen..
I MISS U TOO!!
And Wicker Park was sick and frustrating..
DEAD
Tuesdays=Tution at Marine Terrace
Marine Terrace=Visit to Mc Cafe East Coast
But..
IT'S RAINING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk
Getting to Mc Cafe from my student's place is not a problem.. cos her house is right smack in front of the underpass which directly leads to Marine Cove..
But getting from my place to hers.. that's where the problem lies..
For the uninitiated.. i dun like carrying umbrellas.. it's juz not my thing.. i wld rather remain stuck in school than having to go home wif an umbrella in my hand.. i wld rather remain hungry at home than having to go to the shops to buy food..
I wld rather get wet playing in the rain!!
I dun like rainy days.. i only like it when i've got absolutely nothing to do.. then i can juz sit at home.. laze around.. watch the damn tv.. and make myself a cup of hot milo..
Dun u think the rain makes people sad?? ooh.. abang mas has juz logged on to msn.. dun pm me.. dun pm me..
Ok where was i??
Yup.. the rain.. rainy days are depressing!!
U dun get to go out.. trust me.. being stuck at home.. is such a torture for me.. it feels like i'm an animal in the zoo.. stuck in that small space.. and making the best out of whatever tiny space there is..
The last time i felt like an exhibit was.. i cant recall actually.. but i know it was quite recent..
I prefer sunny days.. i like the sun.. and it doesnt matter if the weather is scorching hot.. i wld much orefer it that way.. thank u very much..
Guess i dun like to be restricted.. a sunny weather means i get to run around orchard.. it means i get to scream while walking down the streets.. it means i'm able to get from one place to another faster.. dun have to rely on underpasses..
Sunny weather means.. i'm able to check out guys on the streets better.. hehehehehe..
And it also means i shld slap on my tan oil!!!!!!
By the way sayang..
I HATE UR PIYO PIYO UMBRELLA!! i'd rather get wet than to be seen walking underneath it.. hehehehehehehehehe..
Sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepy
Ate at Swensens wif yani yday.. its been ages since i had anything from Swensens.. so.. yup.. she ordered the chocolate nut thingy of an ice cream.. i really cant rmbr what she ordered.. i ordered the sticky chewy chocolate and chicken baked rice..
Then it was back to my place.. yani slept over.. had lots of fun.. she fell asleep while studying.. so in the end neither of us slept in my room.. we slept in the study room instead. i let her haf the sofa while i slept on the floor..
Last nite.. it was record breaking!! cos me, lulu and sayang were on conference call for more than 6 hrs!!!!!!!!! haha..
At first it was sayang who called me.. then we decided to ask lulu to join in.. so i put them on loudspeaker.. while they talked i continued doing my essay..
Shoot!! the rain juz got heavier..
Wanna know the details of our conversation??
Do u really really really wanna know??
The uncensored version??
Oh!! i cant say it!!
I really cant!!
Haha.. actually it was nothing explicit la.. not to me anyway.. but it did involve fantasies.. super heroes.. and smouldering the bad guys wif breasts and thighs..
Hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
And the thing that we did.. well.. although i think the subjects in mention dun read any of our blogs.. but we still cant afford to risk anything..
So ladies..
Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
So we only put down the phone at 4:45.. cos lulu had to sahur.. and sayang was babbling nonsense about someone called Bakhtiar.. and my eyes were dangerously heavy..
U know what??
I really really dunno what's going on in their minds.. sheesh.. i dunno if they recall whatever they said.. i dunno if they are aware of anything.. i dunno if they know they were and still are asses.. i dunno if they know that they are the ones at fault..
To a certain someone.. thank u soooooooooooo very much for boosting MY OWN EGO.. yes u read that right.. thank u sooooooooooo very much for making me feel gooooooooood inside.. thank u soooooooooooo much for thinking in that way.. thank u soooooooooooo much for jumping to conclusions.. thank u sooooooooooooo much for making that assumption.. thank u soooooooooo much for being a down right BALL-LESS creature.. cos of ur BALL-LESS nature.. u indeed made me feel all gooooooooooooood inside.. it really boosted my confidence and pride.. thanks ah brudder.. and i mean every single word i said.. no sarcasm whatsoever..
To another certain someone.. maybe ure INDEED ronald susilo.. and ure juz too afraid to tell me that u cant let things between us continue cos u realise jiawei is the love of ur life.. or maybe ure being trained for the upcoming olympics in 2008.. and ur coach told u to concentrate fully on ur training sessions.. on ur passion.. and that relationships can wait.. maybe u got hit by the damn shuttlecock during training that whatever memories got knocked out as well..
Or maybe what sayang said was true.. the other 2 possibilities proposed by sayang.. kinda valid.. whatever it is.. i dunno.. i still dun haf any freaking idea.. so for now.. i'll let u concentrate on ur studies.. no actually i dun feel like knowing anything at all.. i dunno la.. juz forget it la.. we shall see in due time..
Ladies.. are u ready to paint the town red on thursday??
POOOOOOOOOOOOT
Can anybody smell my fart?? hahahahahahaha..
First and foremost..
Ladies.. i'm sorry i fell asleep while we were having the conference call last nite.. umm.. when i fell asleep the receiver dropped from my hand.. and so i got disconnected.. hehehehehehe.. really really sorry mann..
Hey!! u gals cant blame me.. i had a long day yday.. yes..
A VERY LOOOOOOOOOOOONG DAAAAAAAAAAAAY
Had to be up at 7 for my day trip.. ooooooh yes.. the day trip that i was sooooooooooo looking forward to.. hur hur.. boarded the ferry at 9.. then i ate my pringles and watched tv.. totally ignoring mom..
Did a bit of shopping when we reached the place.. u know me.. clothes clothes and more clothes.. the food was good though.. this is what i had for lunch:
Rice
Sayur Asam (the person said so and cos it was nice i ate the veggies)
Sweet and Sour Garoupa
Chicken in Oyster Sauce (4 large pieces mind u)
Tofu with Sambal Belacan
Rojak
Then when we took the ferry home..
WHOA!! got many guys u know!! well.. not realy handsome ones.. but ok la.. pleasant to look at.. after i got on the ferry.. i continued to eat some more pringles and crackers.. then this lil kid was looking at me.. so i gave her some crackers..
Then i slept.. hopefully i didnt look buruk in front of those guys..
To the guy boarding bus no 35 who waved at me while i was going out of Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal in the blue Suzuki Liana.. sorry ah have to be specific..
PLEASE TALK TO ME WHEN U BUMP INTO ME NEXT TIME
Hehehehehehehe
Then got home.. bathed.. changed into one of the new tops that i bought.. made myself up pretty pretty.. then off to the family dinner..
24 of us.. at Mak's Place.. Of course i chose to sit with ppl who dun eat much so that i can get a bigger share of the food.. hehehehehe.. evil.. i know.. but cldnt help it la..
So i shared a table wif yani.. mak busu.. cik yah.. kak ain and the rest of the kids.. hee hee..
So basically this was what i had at Mak's Place:
Fried Rice
Fried Noodles
Butter Prawns (2 large plates)
Char Kuey
Hot PLate Tofu
Spicy Fish
Black Pepper Crab (most of it was eaten by me and yani)
2 Teh Tarik
Ice cream
So yup.. basically i ate a lot yday.. me and yani fed each other from time to time.. haha.. and before she went home.. she salam me and i made her kiss both my cheeks.. hehe.. mind u.. yani is a beeeeeg beeeeeeeeeeg gal.. 14 yrs old.. hehe..
I swear.. i'm gonna castrate his balls.. sayang is gonna castrate his entire manhood.. or perhaps wat's left of it.. if i ever bump into him.. that's it..
Andi u better beware.. u are sooooooooooooo gonna get it from me..
What else to talk abt?? oh ya!! i wanna watch Wicker Park.. and not cos Josh Hartnett is in it.. i never liked him anyway.. but the movie sounds very intriguing.. hehe..
And i actually need to buy new pumps.. so much for saying i'm not gonna enagage in retail therapy.. but this time its not retail therapy la.. i need to get a pair of pumps.. actually i already haf 2 pairs of pumps at home.. the white one.. and blue one with white, yellow and green flowers..
But some of the blue colouring got scraped off.. thanks to my own smartness.. sulking away.. i scraped the side of the shoe by the road.. so ya.. i need to get a new pair.. perhaps one wif a slight heel..
Oh dammit..
I need my starbucks fix..
Grande cocoa?? Iced tall hazulnut latter?? Raspberry Cream Frappucino Blended Cream??
I'm pissed..
But not as mad as juz now..
But STILL pissed..
Ok wateverrrrr.. i shall not even go there.. shall not touch on the subject.. the mere mention of it can make my blood go upstairs..
Moooooooving onnnnnnnnnn..
Ladies.. if any of u felt uncomfortable watching Kumar and Harold.. my deepest apologies.. very deeeeeeeeep deeeeeeeeeeeeep apologies..
Cos i didnt know it contained such stuff.. i thought it wld haf been a comedy.. slapstick kinda thing.. besides they rated it M18 cos of.. strong language.. i suggested watching it cos i wanted to laugh till my sides ache..
But then again.. watever was shown.. it wasn't as if they were anything new.. i mean.. 's WE HAVE WAT THEY SHOWED.. so ya.. chill k??
And no.. i didnt watch it juz cos he watched it.. betul!! really!!
Kebab..
KEBAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAB!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sayang is making me hungry..
Haha.. yday me, neeta, lulu and sayang went to beach road to eat.. cldnt find rojak mama.. so settled for kebab.. glad u gals liked it.. hehe.. and the rojak mama at tekka.. nice tak??
I feel.. i feel..
I feel soooooooooooo satisfied.. haha.. ok ok.. what i was trying to say was.. i dun think i'll engage in retail therapy for the next few weeks.. unless of course something happens.. when the situation arises.. which i seriously hope it doesnt..
But ya.. hee hee..
I like my new denim skirt..
I like my hair..
I like my fringe..
I like my lips..
I like my ass..
I like my breasts..
Haha.. ok.. CRAP.. i'm juz spouting nonsense.. cos i'm actually too lazy to update about what has happened so far but yet i do wanna update..
Errrrm.....??
What in the world are u talking abt Azreeeeeeeeeeeeeeen??
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat?????????????????????
To all the male species who are reading my blog.. to whoever u are.. apek jual suratkhabar ke.. abang abang maner ke.. my male cousins ke.. the mama from the shop downstairs ke.. pakcik yang jual kuih ke..
GREEN IS THE COLOUR OF THE SEASON!!
Trust me mannnnn.. it as to be BRIGHT GREEN.. u know like what taufik Batisah wore?? yeah..
GREEN IS THE HOTTEST COLOUR OF THE SEASON!!!!!!!!!!!!!
GREEN IS ATTENTION GRABBING!!!!!!!!!!!
But if u guys wanna wear pink also can la.. nice wat.. one of my fave colours.. but then again.. nowadays every other guy seems to be wearing pink.. den not nice la..
So i guess.. at the end of the day..
If u manage to look goooooooooooooooood and hottttttttttttttttttt in WHITE.. well..
URE MY MAAAAAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Haha.. ok crapping again..
Let's seeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. waaaaaaaaaaaaaat elllllllllllllllllse toooooooooooooo taaaaaaaaaaaaalk aboooooouuuuuuuuuut?????????????????
Ok miss lulu asked me to talk abt Harold and Kumar.. the movie ok.. cos i dunno any Harold or Kumar..
Basically it showed breasts.. breasts.. and MORE BREASTS!! but NO PENIS..haha.. ok ok.. i sounded really crude.. i shld learn to talk more like a gal..
But very hard laaaaaaaaaaa.. i'm a very frank person..
Next topic.. my obsession wif flaring my nostrils.. and taking pics wif my nose flared.. haha.. been doing that a lot lately.. i also dunno why laaaaaaaa.. ok watever.. juz check out the pics i put on friendster.. hoho..
And yeah.. if u ask me a qn and i flare my nostrils.. it means.. i disagree.. i disapprove..
And if i touch my nose.. it means i agree..
Understand??
And so.. on to my last topic.. ala.. tapi macam malas gitu nak talk abt it..
Welllllllllllll..
Of ALL the coincidences in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD.. ok that was an exaggeration..
Of ALL the coincidences in SINGAPORE.. i juz had to bump into HIM..
I know la.. singapore is small.. but of all places..
At eunos mrt??
I mean..
Tooooooooooooooot..
Actually it wasnt that bad la.. surprisingly there wasnt any awkwardness.. we got on fine.. so..
So....................
So....................
Well.................
Hmmmmmm.. ok whateverrrrrrrr..
Dun wanna talk about it..
I'm outta here..
Hahahahahahahahaha..
The news feature about the petani trying to catch the anak beruang with the help of ahli-ahli bomba very the funny.. in other words.. the news about the farmer who sought the help of firemen to catch a baby bear was so very the hilarious.. it really cracked me up.. especially since i had a tiring day.. the moment i got home and watched the news.. that's it mann.. i started laughing away..
Ok lots of things to talk about..
Got woken up by mom at 5.. yes u read that right..
5 AM!!
By the time i got back from yani's last nite.. it was midnite.. and i did my revision.. then ate rice at 2 am.. yes ladies and gentlemen.. i ate rice with paru at 2 am.. then i reflected for a while and fell asleep around 3..
So imagine how grumpy i was when mom woke me up at 5.. but it wasn't really her fault la.. cos the pain on her neck got worse so she wanted me to accompany her to NUH's A&E department.. so ya.. dad drove us there.. then i told him to go to work.. i can handle things myself..
So bla bla bla.. finally at 8 everything was settled.. mom had to go for an x-ray and the doctor gave her a jab to stop the pain.. so miraculously the pain on her neck went away and she could finally turn to her right.. well.. i guess she must haf felt so glad cos she cldnt turn her head for a whole week!!
So went to have breakfast.. actually i bought a sandwich from the vending machine.. hot dog melt.. but the doctor kept calling so i juz shoved it into my super big bag and forgot all about it.. after that i wanted to go study and didnt wanna go home.. so we took a cab.. mom dropped me off at marine parade CC and she went home..
I sat there for barely an hr and i felt sleepy.. no wait.. make that super duper fucking sleepy.. i was trying my very best to concentrate but my eyes turned watery and i swear my head cld haf juz dropped to the table.. and silly me.. i was afraid that i wld get scolded for sleeping in the library i actually stepped out of the library.. walked towards the bus stop ad told myself that i wld take the first bus that comes..
So 197 came and i boarded it.. went to the upper deck and fell asleep like a log.. my hp was off so nobody cld disturb me.. and i really slept all the way till jurong.. the entire journey took abt 1 hr 30 mins.. and i had a really good sleep.. i woke up in the nick of time to find the bus turning into the interchange..
Then i wandered around Jurong Point myself.. cos i wanted to get sayang's birthday present wat.. so walked here.. walked there.. called neeta.. didnt spot anything nice for sayang.. and in the end.. i bought myself an orange retro bag to put my make up in.. and a nice pink retro coin pouch..
Then i decided to take the train to town.. so iwas sitting comfortably.. and then i felt an immense pain in my tummy.. and an extremely urgent need to pee.. i mentally told myself that i cld tahan all the way to town but of course i cldnt do it la.. so i scurried out of the train when it reached buona vista..
After that i heard the announcement abt an incident that had happened at bishan and train services towards jurong east was disrupted from toa payoh to ang mo kio..
I mean.. what the heck was the old man thinking?? even if he had wanted an early death.. he shldnt haf done that.. go overdose on sleeping pills la.. i mean.. getting himself hit by a train wld result in an extremely bruised and smashed up face..
So ya.. i got on the train.. and a few stops later this guy came in.. he was in a white sleeveless tee.. well toned arms.. but he walked like a gay.. and he wore his jeans so low that i saw his tummy.. if u think that was bad enuff.. u're wrong.. cos when he stood up to alight..
HIS BUTT CRACK WAS EXPOSED!!
I'm serious!! betul!! tak bedek!! i'm not exaggerating things la.. i really saw his butt crack.. ok i haf to admit he has a nice tight ass but.. still.. oh nvm.. that was the first time i saw a guy's butt crack at such close proximity..
So i alighted at Somerset.. went to look for sayang's present.. and cos i was searching for her present.. it drove me mad.. cos i told myself i musnt buy anything for myself anymore.. i cld only get her present.. so i had the hardest time trying to control myself.. trust me.. i was literally talking to myself.. the salesgals muz haf thought i was mad..
Then walked to PS.. looked around some more.. popped into SB but no one i knew was there.. so sedih!! didn't buy anything.. and i chatted wif liza on the phone.. all the way to the bus stop.. till i got on the bus and bla bla bla..
Went to teach tuition.. after that i walked to parkway parade.. tried to take a peek if the new Mc Cafe wld be ready.. but sadly i dun think it wld be ready anytime soon.. then i walked around parkway for a while.. then i went home.. i slept as soon as i got on 15.. and i nearly missed my stop!! it was one of those moments that i woke up abruptly.. looked at my surroundings.. then suddenly my eyes widened and i quickly scurried down the bus..
So now here i am.. back home.. updating.. i'm tired.. and sleeeeeeeeeepy..
Ooh.. yday kan.. i was sooooooooooo super clumsy.. i ordered a grande cocoa.. and i wore my white SRJC bowling tee.. then i went off to meet yani at tampines mrt control station.. and then we missed both buses to her house so we decided to walk.. yes.. all the way passed masjid ghufran.. the field.. u know la.. the route that 72 takes.. and silly clumsy me spilled cocoa on my white top.. oh wadeverrrrr..
There was this datok.. yes.. and old guy fit to be my grandfather.. as me and yani walked past masjid ghufran.. he was standing wif his walking stick la.. and he cld clearly see the place wasn't big enough for 3 of us.. but he simply refused to move!! toot!! and when i got nearer he said something.. which i really cant recall.. but.. tooooooooooooooot!
Ok la.. i really shld stop.. wanna do some other stuff online.. then haf to wrap sayang's present.. and write her card.. and study.. ala so busy.. but excited to see my sayang tmr.. la la.. heeeeee..
This sux.. i juz saw cicak's picture wif the rest of the backup singers and....................
RUFFEDGE
Yes.. dearest ladies and gentlemen.. he got a pic taken wif the 4 members of Ruffedge during konsert solo.. and now i feel like crying.. cos all i want is to have a pic taken wif the members of Ruffedge.. and i wld be especially over the moon if it's ZAIN or AMER..
But of course.. i dun have the voice to become a backup singer.. neither am i pretty enough to be noticed.. neither was i lucky enough to be fat old Timah who got to call the shots onstage.. cos if i was lucky enough to be fat old Timah..
I WILL KEEP ZAIN ALL TO MYSELF
Yes i will.. i will not even share him wif my sayang..
NO WAY!!
By the way.. cicak was nice enough to approve me as his fren.. hehe.. will send him a message later.. he muz be wondering who the heck i am..
So ultimately..
I WANNA CELEBRATE MY BIRTHDAY WIF RUFFEDGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can they puhleeeeeeeeeeeeeese by some strange miracle be in Singapore during my birthday?? i know.. i know.. my birthday is not till next year.. it's in 4 months time.. hey!! 4 months IS a short time..
God!! it only feels like yday that i celebrated my birthday wif my dearest frenz.. the dinner.. and nice prezzies.. so now.. how shld i go about celebrating my birthday next year.......??
If the members of The Kukuz Club are smart enough.. and if u my lovely gurlfrenz care.. puhleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeese..
GET RUFFEDGE TO CELEBRATE MY 20th BIRTHDAY WIF MEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Actually if i do get to meet Ruffedge.. i wldnt know wat to say.. serious.. i'll juz freeze and clam up.. i think even before i get a chance to run over to Zain's chest i wld faint midway.. haha.. but hey!! if i do get to celebrate my birthday with them.. i wld wanna sit in btwn Zain and Amer.. hee hee..
Then Amer wld make me laugh non-stop wif his kaklar-ness.. and i can juz lean on Zain's chest.. get him to feed me.. hee hee.. oh.. then he can hold my hand while i cut the birthday cake.. heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..
And of course.. i wld want them to serenade me.. heeeeeeeeeeeeee..
And plssssssss.. they MUZ NOT sing Goyang..
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cos if they do, i'll juz start crying.. i guess Goyang is my weakness.. i can cry juz listening to it.. and it's not even a sad song!! the reason that Goyang can make me cry is cos.. well i dun haf to mention it here.. but for the benefit of those ppl who do not know..
Well.. the image of Zain.. twisting his wrists.. turning around.. swaying his hips and ass.. WHOA!! TURN ON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i swear i was so frustrated during Konsert Solo that i teared.. ala.. i was like a mad woman la.. telling Zain to stop dancing.. to stop doing anything..
Yday at sayang's hse.. we listened to Extreme Pleasure and i teared while Khayalan was played.. and then.. when we listened to Goyang.. i had to cover my entire face wif sayang's mega huge cushion.. throughout the entire song i juz stuffed my face into the cushion..
Not that it helped much cos my brain was running overtime.. replaying Zain's EVERY MOVE.. but at least stuffing my face in the cushion prevented the others from seeing me cry..
U know wat.. i seriously shld stop my obsession wif Zain.. but i really really cant help myself.. the first time when i saw Ruffedge perform on Anugerah.. Zain did set my radar ringing.. but.. it wasn't that bad la..
But when he walked onsatge during Konsert Solo.. he juz sent me into a frenzy!!!!!!!!!! all sorts of noises went off.. my radar.. my alarm clock.. my hp's alarm.. the grandfather clock.. the sounds of SAF's marching band.. the public warning system..
Haha.. serious!! i'm NOT exaggerating!!
Ok moving on.................................
My aunt came yday.. after i left sayang's hse.. my mom called to say that my aunt was on the way.. wif her wedding photos.. of course i was excited la.. been wanting to see the photos.. so ya.. basically.. all the gal cousins looked very pretty.. but the guy cousins..
-shake head-
They are beyond hope.. i dunno if it's cos they didnt know how to smile.. or if they were nervous due to the fact that other ppl were watching them.. abang erza looked serious.. nazrul looked stoned.. afiq and abang mas.. well.. i think they were trying their best to smile..
And the cute guy that i talked about.. i wanted to ask my aunt.. but my mom was sitting wif us.. so i didnt get around to asking.. so saaaaaaaaaaaaaaad.. but my aunt bought me a bag from her honeymoon.. hehe.. but she didnt bring it yday..
I thought my emotions wld be put into place since it's already here.. but no.. it hasn't..
So i've arrived at the conclusion that.. things are beyond hope.. and cos of that.. i gave up hope a long time ago..
Watching Windstruck a 2nd time made me cry.. i dunno how liz didnt cry yday.. that gal is seriously devoid of emotions..
I'm sick and tired.. of looking.. of being proactive.. cos things haf turned out so bad.. it's juz degrading my confidence.. i told lulu.. that i'm not gonna do anything anymore.. despite the fact that i really really want IT.. but.. guess i'll juz sit back.. wif my arms folded.. and see wat happens..
I'm worried.. and i fear.. it wun happen to me at all.. it's really scary.. cos i dun see it happening.. i can picture it.. but the party that i'm talking abt is always faceless..
Will it forever be part of my imagination?? will it juz be a dream.. that will NEVER come true?? am i destined to remain like this for a very long time to come??
My conscience got the better of me.. on sunday.. i made a confession to my mom.. abt Faizal.. all this while she didnt know.. i told her abt him.. except for the fact that we were actually together.. and that we have broken up..
And guess waaaaaaaaaaaat???
Cos since he's abang mas's fren.. and it doesn't help that my aunt keeps stressing that he's a very well-mannered boy.. my mom asked me to invite him to our house during hari raya..!!
I didn't know wat to say.. i juz kept quiet..
Oh oh.. forgot to say that me, lulu and sayang bumped into Leonard on sat.. hehe.. cos we were walking to the Esplanade after buying food from Mc Cafe at Great World.. it was such a coincidence.. cos i saw the Duck Tour boat.. then i wondered aloud if Leonard was on the boat..
After crossing the traffic light and leaving sayang behind.. hehe.. we bumped into Leonard.. that guy always cracks me up i tell u.. it has got to do wif the way he talks la.. so bo-chap.. hehe.. and he apologized to lulu and me cos he clcnt rmbr our names.. yeah rite!! like he ever asked!! he only rmbred me as the gal who ate cheese fries..
Oh shoot!! i'm craving for Mc Cafe's Darn Good Brownie.. and yes.. i was so over the moon when i found out that a new Mc Cafe outlet will be built next to the Macs near Parkway Parade.. now i can juz take 15 there.. dun haf to go to East Coast anymorrrrrrrrrrrrrrre..
Why oh why?? why do i meet disgusting creeps?? or ppl who are juz plain irritating?? let me list them for u..
When i was 15.. i got to know someone.. and well.. ok ok.. i was young.. we were young.. he was 1 yr my senior.. and that was the 1st time i got involved in BGR.. come to think of it.. it was silly la.. i was so young then.. but ya.. we broke off cos he was so over protective and jealous..
Then there was Irfan.. NOT irfan from NIE.. this irfan is from NUS School of Business.. he kept asking me out.. but each time he wld cancel at the last minute.. we only met once.. and then we walked by East Coast Beach.. and while we were sitting down he juz pulled me close!! toot!! then he started smeling my hair!!
The Irfan from NIE is nice.. we do get along well.. exchanging emails and smses.. and talk occasionally.. we went to Sentosa together.. but nothing came out of it.. cos he's juz plain nice la.. so no feelings at all..
And then.. i got to know Farid.. he was the best thing that ever happened to me.. we started out as friends.. and eventually.. those special 4 months.. but sadly.. i dunno wat happened.. i dunno wat the hell i did.. he juz decided to disappear one day.. he juz shut up and refused to explain wat went wrong.. when i asked for an explanation he said he still likes me.. toooooooooooooot!!
Then there was Faizal.. who was nice.. and sweet.. and caring.. but things juz didn't work out.. i dunno if it's the case of right person at the wrong time.. or maybe we were juz not fated to be together.. so now he's gone..
And who can forget the ever famous Shaik Mahmud!! god!! i tell u.. he juz gives me the creeps!! wif his HUGE EYES staring at me from the glass window at The Fullerton.. and he assumed he cld call me 'Sayang' after i talked to him on the phone once!! and he insisted on following me to Malacca wif my family!! and even when he wanted to find out if i'm attached or not.. he asked me like this: "So are u single or double?"
-drops dead to the floor-
Then there was this guy at Sentosa.. was there wif shuqing.. his name is Afian.. he asked for my number.. i admit i cld get along wif him conversationally.. but when he actually asked me to gather a couple of my frenz.. and wanted me and my frenz to actually camp wif him and his frenz overnite at Sentosa.. i'm sorry la brudder.. u can kiss my ass.. and me ignoring his calls and smses did nothing to get the msg across to him that I AM NOT INTERESTED!!
And then.. this SB guy.. i shall not mention his name here.. but ya.. i turned down several attempts from him wanting to watch a movie wif him.. we did exchange nos.. and this is another fella who actually calls me 'Sayang'.. so when i was finally ready to watch a movie wif him.. i found out something abt him.. juz in the nick of time.. PHEW!!
And then there's Andi.. well.. he's nice.. and HOT and stuff.. the first guy ever that i made a first move on.. ok how do i exactly describe him..?? he's.. HOT!! HOT!! HOT!! but sometimes he can be an ass.. an ultimate maplek.. he drives me up the wall wif his absolutely irritating antics.. and juz cos he's an insomniac he had to drag me into it as well.. making me sleep at 4am.. and sometimes when he dun do anything he also drives me up the wall.. this fella is fond of disappearing acts.. so now i will not do anything AT ALL..
Last but not least.. this guy came into my life when i was 15.. his stint at Cedar as my dikir barat coach.. well.. i dunno how to say it.. he's married wif 2 kids.. at the age of 15 i was so innocent.. not to forget FAT and CHUBBY to the max.. i thought he was juz being nice and all when he said all those stuff to me.. but boy was i wrong..
He kept asking me to follow him to take the rebana and stuff from the malay room.. there was once he put his hand on my back while i was going up the stairs.. i didnt know or thought of anything then.. and he kept asking me out for a movie.. and that time when i went to watch a recording of Anita Sarawak's show wif Azian.. he wldnt leave me alone after his work was done..
So recently we chatted.. and i found out some stuff.. confessions actually.. and..
*shudder*
I dunno wat to say la.. it's juz.. well.. horny and disgusting.. it's been 4 yrs brudder.. FORGET ABT ME..
So there.. those were some of the guys.. maybe it's juz my luck to meet them..
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There!! i've said it.. so many things on my mind.. and i dunno how to express all my feelings..
Wekkkkkkkkkk..
Wekkkkkkkkkk..
U know what??
Wat??
U really wanna know what??
Waaaaat??
U seriously really wanna know??
Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat??
I HATE U
Who are u kidding azreen?? even a little kid wun be fooled by what u juz said.. even the dumbest person on earth cld tell u didnt mean wat u say..
Things happen for a reason..
I cant say im pissed at u.. wat's there to be pissed about?? u didn't do anything wrong.. in fact u were being truthful..
I'm not upset.. cos if i am.. or if i was.. i wld haf wailed away.. but i didnt..
So how do i actually go about explaining what im feeling right now..??
I dunno either..
I juz cldnt do anyhing.. i saw u.. u smiled and waved.. i cldnt do anything at all.. the smile on my face disappeared.. i stared.. i froze.. i continued staring.. and i walked away.. without returning ur smile.. or wave.. i juz had to walk away..
Seriously though.. wat is in ur mind.. or wat was on ur mind when u said all that on 8th June 2004?? was it true?? sincere?? honest from the heart?? or did u feel compelled.. obliged to say that..??
To say it was awkward.. well.. there wasnt any awkwardness at all.. we got on fine after 8th June 2004..
Seeing u juz now.. i realized.. i really dun wanna push it.. i dun wanna do anything anymore.. i wash my hands off everything.. i dun wanna pursue anything..
Missing u was hard.. extremely hard.. it did take a toll on me.. bt i continued to be strong.. cos if i had crumbled.. it wld haf meant that i gave in to my feelings.. which wasn't wat i wanted to do..
Why shld i give in to my feelings when u dun?? why shld i be unhappy when ure happy wif ur frenz?? why shld i bother calling u when u dun?? why shld i bother smsing u when i know u wun reply??
Im glad i didn't crumble today..
I wld love to think u're worth it.. but juz not now.. maybe in the future.. all i know is.. i'll continue to hold on.. to hold on to a frenship.. that according to u.. u dun wanna end.. cos u treasure it too much..
I liked u from the very start i saw u.. u're a great person.. but i think.. as long as certain aspects of ur life.. u aren't willing to change.. or sort them out.. i'll juz continue to sit here silently.. quietly.. juz denying my feelings..
Things happen for a reason.. there was a reason u answered my call today.. there was a reason u told me where u were today.. there was a reason the trip to the toilet had to be made..
So near yet so far.. isn't it such a coincidence that each time i call u we'll be in the same area??
Things happen for a reason.. only God knows the answer..
I'm not gonna probe.. not gonna ask for an answer..
All i know is.. God has better plans for me.. he knows wat is best for me..
I hope and pray.. that i will see the light at the end of the tunnel..
Boo hoo hoo..
Wekkkkkkkkkkkkkk
Boo hoo hoo hoo hoo..
Wekkkk wekkkkkkkkkk
I want a digicam!!
I WAAAAAAAAAAANT A DIGICAAAAAAAAAAAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Atok bought the IXUS i.. 600 smacking buckeroos.. and he was busy taking lots of pics wif it during the wedding..
Boo hoo hoo..
Why atok?? Whyyyyy?? u cld haf spent $600 on me!!!!!!!!! or at least get me a digicam as an advanced birthday present!! whyyyyyyyyyyyyy?? why can't i haf my own digicam??
I know why.. cos according to my parents.. it's not a necessity.. it's juz wat i want.. and they aren't willing to get one for me.. for that matter.. they aren't even willing to let me fork out MY OWN MONEY for a digicam..
This sux.. dad can get a 20% discount from Fujifilm.. almost each month.. he gets to bring home a Fujifilm digicam and try it out at home.. before they use it at work.. but no.. he doesn't take pics of me.. he takes shots of the damn fucking tv.. or the stupid wall.. or the room.. in short.. he takes pics of every other non-living.. non-breathing.. super duper dead organisms.. that can't even smile sweetly and nicely into the damn camera!!
And..
I WANT THE TV BACK IN MY ROOM!!
Who gave u the permission to give it away?? ok fine.. i dun mind.. cos it was given away to a relative in malaysia.. who needs it more than i do.. but at least..
GET MY PERMISSION FIRST!!
Put urself in my shoes la!! imagine coming home.. entering ur room.. and.. finding ur.. bed missing!! or ur entire drawer of undergarments missing.. or ur make-up set missing.. i dunno.. juz imagine having smth precious that belongs to u MISSING..
I really dun mind having my tv given away.. but at least have the decency to replace it la.. it's not only me who watches the tv in my room.. if dad wanna watch soccer or formula 1 or the stupid fucking wrestling match.. we wld scurry into my room to watch the tv waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat..
And pls.. stop talking to me when im studying.. STOPPPPPPPPP ITTTTTT!!!! even if u dun talk to me.. pls juz leave the room.. dun read the papers in the study room.. dun sit and stare at me.. DUNNNNNNN!!!!!!!
Ok.. u haf to excuse me.. it's my pms acting up.. and yeah..
IT'S LATE
The freaking piece of shit is late.. and i hate it.. if u wanna come.. JUZ COME LAAAAAAA.. stop playing guessing games wif me..
Is it here?? or is it not here yet??
Are u there?? or are u not there yet??
I haf to meet my mom later at 2 at parkway parade.. alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.. I DUN WANNA MEET ANYONE LAAAAAAAAAA!!!! unless i get to buy clothes in return..
Speaking of clothes.. i've decided not to get the polo tees from Samuel & Kevin.. if u've noticed.. they haf polo tees in yellow, orange and green wif "Safari" written on the left hand side.. it's nice actually.. but i wanna be spared the agony of bumping into someone who's wearing THE EXACT same top..
Like how there was this girl who wore the same Esprit top when i boarded the bus at NUS.. except mine was green and hers was red..
See.. this is the reason why i dun buy tops from Giordano.. or Hang Ten.. or Baleno.. i dun mind if i bump into some young fella with the same top.. but imagine bumping into an auntie.. an ah soh who wears THE EXACT same top!! i will definitely run 10 km in the opposite direction..
I dunno whether i wld be more embarrassed for the auntie who actually wears a top that's more suited for the younger generation.. or i'm juz embarrassed cos of the fact that i fear my tastes are the same as the older generation..
Ok wateverrrrrrrrrrr..
Juz now.. i was standing at the traffic light.. waiting for the green man.. i dun dare to jaywalk.. cos afterall i was at the interchange.. dun wanna get knocked down by a bus.. and this apek on a bicycle.. he actually cycled so bloody close to me and almost knocked me down!!
Cos i was in a super short skirt.. and he was juz staring and staring.. i know la.. i haf huge disgusting thighs.. but u dun haf to stare!! i really really wish he wld cycle straight into the metal beams.. but sadly my wish didn't come true..
I dun get it.. havent u seen legs before?? doesn't matter if it's short.. or endless legs.. or fat.. thin.. muscled.. toned.. tanned.. ok la.. some male species find legs a turn on.. but that definitely doesn't apply to mine!!
Even if for some God forsaken reason some males do find my legs attractive.. puh-leeeeeese.. DUN STARE SO DISGUSTINGLY!!
I may like Zain's chest.. but i dun stare at it wif full of lust.. i only fantasize abt it and express it on my blog.. and i know.. some of u felt disgusted after reading it.. a certain miss lulu thought my entry was funny and laughed like mad.. luckily without rolling to the floor and injuring herself..
But it's my own blog!! i write wat i want.. and admit it.. u guys ARE entertained by it rite??
I may like Ronald Susilo's ass.. and sometimes i do make strange noises to express how i feel.. but i dun like seriously stare at it.. i AM able to get my eyes off his ass..
And ya.. i may like weitong's ass.. but i dun stare at it all the time.. only when he does a 180 degree turn towards the whiteboard and starts to rub it.. and i mean RUB THE BOARD.. and NOT his ass!!
God!! my nose is threatening to run away to KL to find Zain.. not that i actually mind.. but it musn't run away alone la.. muz bring all its neighbours and close frenz.. and whatever or whoever is attached to it.. dan yang sewaktu dengannya..
And no.. my fantasies abt Zain's chest hasn't stopped.. it's juz going on and on and on and on and on and on..
Especially when i listen to Goyang.. yes ladies and gentleman.. Ruffedge's cd has been on the repeat mode for days now.. and i can't get enuff of it!! before i go to bed.. i muz listen to Goyang..
I dunno wat is it abt the song.. but it juz.. TURNS ME ON.. maybe it's cos i saw Zain's moves for the song.. whoa!! super duper HOT!! POWER!! but ya.. the beats.. the rhythm.. juz the whole song.. it's kinda sensual dun u think?? heh.. kinda sexy too!!
Anybody watched 80'an Gerek last nite?? after a certain fella was featured on the screen.. i got goosebumps all over me.. and kinda freaked out.. the details of our conversation that we had on monday..
*shudder*
I printed out the conversation that we had.. i muz let u gals read it..
Not only is my nose threatening to run off.. my cough is back.. slight wheezing.. and i think it was due to my uncles smoking.. and me actually sniffing the unlit cigarette.. i cldn't help it!! abang shah told me to hide his pack of cigarettes.. he didn't want his pregnant wife to find out he's been smoking..
So i let curiosity get the better of me.. i actually opened the pack of cigarettes and put it close to my nose.. YUK!! the smell was gross!!
Right now my eyes are kinda watery.. my vision is slightly blurred.. know wat..?? i think i'm suffering from Dry Eye Syndrome.. i picked up the pamphlet from the doctor's office 2 weeks ago.. isn't it kinda contradicting that one of the symptoms of Dry Eye Syndrome is actually watery eyes??
*blur*
*scratches head*
Woo!! im happy that my weekend stint of being a matchmaker actually worked out!! hehehe.. me and my smart brains.. la la la la la.. things are going on fine now.. hope it remains this way..
It's unfair!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She's ONLY 17 and she gets to marry the Crown Prince of Brunei!! look at me.. i'm 19.. and sooooooooooo unsuccessful..
Not that i wanna get married at a young age.. but.. alaaaaaaaaaaa.. it's juz unfair la!!
Like i was telling Liz..
If we actually wanna get married by 25.. we muz actually haf a guy now.. cos afterall.. we shld like date for around 3 yrs.. and then prepare to get engaged.. then marriage.. but look at the state of my life.. i think even when i'm 30 my Mr Right is still trying to ascend Mount Everest..
Or maybe my Mr Right is the supposed Ronald Susilo look-a-like who has super powers..
Maybe my Mr Right is the commitment phobic artsy fartsy teacher who has completely NO BALLS!!
Or maybe i'm juz destined to be the subject of lust of big fat married chee ko pek fellas wif kids!!
God!! Zain's gf is 19 for goodness sake!!
Hoping to get married to Zain is far fetched indeed.. but pls.. juz give me that one chance to actually meet up wif Zain in close proximity.. or maybe.. there shldn't be any distance btwn us at all!!
But ya.. all i want is to meet Zain.. stand beside him.. have his arms around me.. and a shot of us taken together.. and perhaps i cld put my head on his chest.. juz for a fraction of a second..
I shall be realistic.. in terms of mly guys.. i wld wanna marry someone wif Azan's voice.. Amer's sweet and funny personality.. and of course someone who looks like Zain physically.. or at least someone who's able to send BOTH my radar and my heart into a frenzy..
Ohhhhhhhhh deeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrr commmmmmmpuuuuterrrrrrrrr screeeeeeeeeeen..
WHERE HAF ALL THE GOOD MEN GONE TO??
I think i've spouted enough nonsense.. i really shld stop it..
I saw u brushing her hair back using ur hands.. i saw u adjusting her specs.. i saw u putting ur fingers on her chin.. and slowly lifting up her face.. i saw ur mouth curved into a smile.. a sweet smile that wld haf even made the frostiest heart melt.. but all i cld do was stare.. i cldnt do anything much.. nothing at all.. i'm only there for u to confide in.. nothing more nothing less.. to u.. im invisible..
Boo hoo hoo..
It's raining.. what a gloomy day.. kinda sucky.. especially since i've been having loads of fun for the past few days..
STOP RAINING ALREADY!! I WANNA GO OUT LATER TO STUDY!!!
I just checked my calls history.. each month i have 200 mins free talktime.. and as of today i've already used up 108 mins and 30 secs.. and i've sent out exactly 100 smses out of the 360 free smses i get monthly..
This is bad.. really reeeaaaallllllyyy baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad..
I can't seem to control my usage anymore.. i need to pace myself.. i do not know how last month's bill is gonna be like.. i know it wld hit the roof!! i'm gonna be in deep shit if i do not learn to control my usage..
Ok that aside..
Does anybody know how messy the house is?? Huh?? Huh??
There are clothes to be folded on the sofa.. tonnes of dirty clothes to be washed.. the stove is dirty.. the sink is full of rubbish.. and the floor is dusty.. thanks to the renovation works going on at the neighbour's downstairs..
And here i am.. sitting in front of this damn computer with Ruffedge singing to me.. not doing anything to clear up the mess at home..
Mode.. wassup with the voice brudder?? and the slang?? WAAAAASSSSSSSUPPPPPPP????????? pls do not make the situation worse.. do not turn me off even more.. chill la brudder.. u're already married.. do not do anything to try to impress me la.. shaikhah will tell u to talk to her eczema foot.. i will tell u to talk to Ed and Edd.. or my huge flaring nostrils..
Cat.. u're very cool and romantic la brudder.. i dun have anything much to say.. but if i faint.. u carry me and get Zain to perform CPR on me k??
Azan.. each time u sing.. ur voice just turns me on.. I LIKE!! heh.. why must u be married brudder?? WHYYYYY??!! if not i'll get u to call me everyday.. then i can listen to ur voice.. alaaaaaaaaaa.. CAIR!!
Amer.. ala abang amet ku.. apasal la ucapan terima kasih mu macam gitu?? u just crack me up la.. dah la cute nak mampus!! ur sense of humour is also fantastic.. dun la.. plsssss.. dun do this to me.. the way u say ur thank u speech just turns me on.. and yessssss.. i wld love to see u in a kimono..
To my ONE and ONLY DARLING..
ZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIINNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!
Ok ok.. relax azreen..
Zain.. u dun have to do anything.. no let me correct that.. every single thing that u do just turns me on.. and send me into a frenzy.. when u dance.. shake ur ass.. do the shoulder thing.. i just go completely maaaaaaaad.. pls dun Goyang.. i can cry.. even if u sit on the stool.. i can just cair.. STOP ITTTTT!!!!! stop waving.. stop smiling.. JANGAN JOGET!! ur chest.. oooooOOOOOoooohhhHHHHHH.. i just cant get enough of it.. it's so.. yummy!! macam nak gigit gitu.. macam nak jilat.. hahahahahahahahaha.. pls pls pls pls pls.. I WANNA BE UR SAYANG!! serenade me anytime!!
Ok i really really shld stop it..
NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! it's Goyang!! NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!
-hyperventilation-
Ok i can't type anymore.. i'm gonna close my eyes.. cover my ears.. and start tearing........................
"Goyang lah goyang.. goyang lah goyang"
-me twisting my wrists and moving my head like a pigeon-
Ok ok.. i'm bad at dancing.. haha.. ok.. STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My aunt's wedding is finally over.. i'm glad it's over la.. if not everyone will be running here and there.. very busy.. i was so tired.. that yday i only officially woke up at 6pm!! even then i continued to roll abt on the floor.. refusing to move my ass till dad came home from work insisting that we go to nenek's hse..
Thankfully i cld fit into the kebaya.. i really was afraid the buttons might pop anytime during the wedding.. but good buttons.. -patting them-.. they stayed intact..
When i went up the hse.. to see my aunt cos i didn't see her on fri nite.. her first reaction was..
"Eh.. ini tak boleh jadi.. lebih lawa daripada tante.."
And me........?? i just said, "Aper la tante.."
Cos again i was uncomfortable hearing someone saying i look pretty..
It was a green kebaya.. wooooooo!! so sat morning.. i played my Ruffedge CD.. put on concealer all over my face.. foundation.. compact powder.. mascara.. lip gloss.. and last but not least.. the new bronzer from Bodyshop..
And my aunt asked if i wanna put on a corset.. cos she say.. it wld accentuate my figure even more..
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA..
Of course i opted not to la.. i mean.. oh nvm.. i dun wanna say it..
So me, azian, yani and kak ain were asked to give out the berkats.. like what is new right?? always 4 of us.. ohhh.. btw.. the berkat was an alarm clock..
Then when the groom came..me, azian and yani abandoned our basket of berkats.. heh.. exciting wat.. then abang mas said we shld go right up to the groom and buat kaklar.. haha.. then it's the norm la.. give money.. silat.. pictures..
Ooooooh.. i was standing by the pelamin with kak ain.. cos one of the guys from the grrom side was damn good looking.. so i told kak ain abt it and she agreed.. so i was looking.. and despite all the noise at the void deck.. i cld specifically hear my aunt over at the other side talking to me..
"Noreen (that's wat my family calls me) jgn nak termenung kat pelamin.. pergi buat kerja"
Boy!! was i embarrassed!! and me.. being the bloody bitch that i am.. hey!! azian said that.. i went to the table that he was sitting at and gave berkat.. and i pretended to ask them if they needed anything.. haha.. azian found him cute too!!
And after he had finished eating.. he hung around.. with his family.. and i cldn't help it.. but go up to them and asked if they have gotten the berkats.. i was sooooooooooo thick skinned!!
Oooooooh.. then.. i talked to my aunt and uncle..
"Cik Nor.. there's a cute guy tau.."
"Oooh.. where??""On my right.. the one in blue"
"YA!!"
(then my aunt talked to her husband, my uncle)
(and my stooooopid uncle looked hard at him)
(me slapping his arm)
"Oiiiii!! STOP STARING LA!!"
"Hehe.. i'm just looking.."
"Help me laaaaaaaaaaa.. get his no for me"
"Are u nuts?? if i ask for his no he's gonna think i'm gay!"
"Oiiiii!! it's for ME.. tell him I want his no.. not U!'
"Haha"
But of course i didn't get his no in the end.. i wanted to ask for abang mas's help but he was nowhere to be seen.. i asked afiq to call him and he said he's at the playground..
Hey!! he was the ONLY eye candy of the day!! trust me.. the guests that came.. none of them looked good.. cos my aunt married an indian.. so ya.. the cute guy looks gooooood.. tall dark and handsome..
But when i told abang mas abt it.. he said, "Eeee.. macam mama habis!! abang lagi lawa!"
Haha.. took lots of photos on the pelamin.. me and my parents.. me, azian, yani and kak ain.. me,
yani, azian, kak ain, nazrul, afiq, abang mas and abang erza..
Ohhhhhh............ the karaoke guys were.. VERY IRRITATING.. firstly they played super slow songs.. so me, yani and azian chose some songs.. then each time i walked past them they insisted i sing.. HELLO!! we pay u guys to sing for us..
"Dik.. nyanyi la"
"Eee tak nak la.. saya sibuk.."
"Ala dah pilih lagu takkan tak nyanyi"
"Eh awak la yang nyanyi!! kita pilih lagu untuk awak nyanyi!"
"Apa salahnya awak yang nyanyi"
"Saya cakap saya tak nak!! kita dah bayar awak kan.. awak nyanyi la!!!!!"
"Takpe la.. nyanyi sikit"
"TAK NAK!! nanti saya nyanyi hari hujan"
"Hujan kan bagus.. saya tengah panas ni" (cheeky look on his face)
YUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
U know.. on fri nite.. after i got back from Eastpoint.. as i was walking towards the void deck i saw abang mas sitting outside with his lap top.. i dun really talk much to him.. so i just smiled and waved.. then dunno how both of us started talking.. so basically we sat for 2 hrs and talked abt loads of stuff..
I really dunno u know.. i didn't want things to turn out the way they did.. i wish things had turned out rosy and nice.. but i dunno la.. i told abang mas that i'm at that stage.. where i want the next relationship i get involved in to last forever.. that's why i'm in no hurry.. i just wanna get to know more guys.. and whatever happens, happens..
So ya.. that was what happened during my aunt's wedding.. if u were to ask me to update on every single thing.. sorry i can't do it.. too many things to talk abt..
Was at nenek's last nite.. and the ad staring aaron aziz and the fiesta komedi thingy.. it got all 5 of us laughing like mad.. haha.. so tempting to watch it.. but i dun wanna waste money la.. who knows that is the ONLY kaklar part??
Woooo!! it has stopped raining.. i shall pack my books and go study outside..
Why must u look at me while i was talking to sayang?? why did u maintain my stare?? why?? stop it!! and why did i stare back?? and why did u smile?? and why did i tilt my head and smile?? STOP ITTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!