((** My Life..My Love..My World... ** ))..

Thursday, April 29, 2004

Look & feel my soft wonderful straight hair.. *swishes it around*.. haha.. went for deionizing treatment today.. at chapter 2.. 60 bucks.. but ok la.. the price ain't that steep.. the thing abt me is.. i dun mind paying quite a lot for my hair.. as long as it turns out nice.. hee.. ohh.. miss neeta rai had a hair cut.. but u still look the same la.. lazy to cut bangs eh?? sigh.. u lazy bum.. dun want to change ur parting rite??

After that went to visit shake at work.. we sat on the couch.. wah.. very nice!! it's like tonnes better than the one at mc cafe.. so hard and grey and gross and fake and disgusting and ugly.. *bleugh*.. and i didn't wanna move my ass.. but what to do.. had to leave to teach tuition what..

And it started raining.. and it was a long walk in from the bus stop.. like 15 mins.. so yup.. i was late for tuition.. so yeah.. it continued raining.. so i called my mom.. she was home already.. so it's dad to the rescue!! haha.. i called him at 7.. and he arrived slightly after 8.. all the way from work.. my dad loves me mann.. today was the birthday of my student's younger bro.. so i had choc cake.. very nice.. the entire family very sweet.. hee..

U know.. i have a funny feeling that miss neeta rai is gonna be the first to get married among us.. heh.. me & shake were talking juz now.. so yup.. it's either liz or neeta.. haha.. then it's either me or lulu or shake.. so neeta.. marry him pls.. ur future wun be at stake.. c'mon la.. he's bloody rich..super duper smart.. fuck.. he's smitten by u.. he wld do ur every single bidding.. u dun haf to lift a finger to do hsework.. his ENTIRE family LOVES u.. haha..

Ok ok.. latest update abt me and ahem ahem.. haha.. umm.. we talked abt marriage last nite.. abt kids.. abt honeymoon.. abt weddings.. and he played the guitar for me last nite!! haha.. but the thing is.. ok.. get this.. i actually give him a points system.. nobody knows how i rank it except for me.. and it's very volatile.. the points go up & down every single day.. like it's super.. umm.. what was the word mr neo used to describe trends?? umm.. erratic?? haha..

So.. yup.. i guess it's juz a crush la.. ala.. dunno la.. watever la..

| 4/29/2004 10:21:00 PM

Wednesday, April 28, 2004

Somebody help to soothe my heartache.. I CAN'T DRINK ANYMORE RASPBERRY FRAPP!! it shld be made halal mann.. damn!! i can't even try out the new drinks that starbucks will be selling next week.. damn..

Serve u right for drinking an ice cold drink on an empty stomache.. now u've got a terrible tummy ache..

Yeah.. after i went to recruit plus at tanjong pagar i dropped by starbucks pp.. had a mocha frapp.. and guess who was on duty?? NICE ASS!! haha.. all alone at the counter.. he saw me walking from far.. wah!! he was smiling all the way u know.. haha..

Nice Ass: (smiling away) Can i haf ur order??
Me: Grande mocha frapp..
Nice Ass: Sorry.. wat was it again??
Me: GRANDE MOCHA FRAPP..
Nice Ass: Wif cream??
Me: Uh-huh..
Nice Ass: Nak tak nak??
Me: Yes pls..
Nice Ass: Nak tak nak??
Me: Eh ur sound rosak eh??
Nice Ass: Asal?? Tak boleh cakap melayu ke??
Me: Eh i want to ans in english pulak!!
Nice Ass: But i tanye "nak tak nak"..
Me: Ye la.. NAK!!
Nice Ass: (smile)
Nice Ass: Ok that'll be $5.65
Me: (hands him my NETS card & Starbucks card)
Nice Ass: Ok.. let me stamp ur card first..
Me: Okie..
Nice Ass: So u work around here??
Me: Nope..
Nice Ass: Then selalu nampak u kat sini..
Me: Ohh.. i teach tuition around here la..
Nice Ass: Where?? The tuition centre opposite..
Me: Nope.. Why shld i tell u anyway..
Nice Ass: Ala.. kat mana la??
Me: Haha.. marine terrace la..
Nice Ass: One student only??
Me: Nope.. altogether i haf 2 students only..
Nice Ass: U teach tuition everyday??
Me: No la.. Yang near here i only teach on mons & weds..
Nice Ass: No wonder i see u around on those days..
Me: (smile)
Nice Ass: Yang lagi satu u teach kat mane??
Me: Somewhere near my place..
Nice Ass: Where do u live??
Me: Bedok res..
Nice Ass: Ohh.. dekat je..
Me: (smile)
Nice Ass: Eh.. ur card ni for NETS rite??
Me: No la.. credit card..
Nice Ass: (stares at me)
Me: HAHA!! yes la.. NETS..
Nice Ass: (as i keyed in my pin no) So u take a levels ke?? Uni student ke??
Me: Yup.. waiting for uni posting..
Nice Ass: NUS??
Me: Hopefully..........
Nice Ass: Ohh.. ok.. here's ur receipt.. wait a while ah.. i make ur drink..
Me: No problem..

So yup.. i waited for a while la.. the place was empty.. and the store manager wasn't around.. guess that's why he dared to chat.. but quite nice la.. so far no cheekopek-ness.. haha..

Nice Ass: Wah.. pakai inai seh.. hari raya nampak..
Me: Hur hur.. ye la.. pakai in advance.. excited giler..
Nice Ass: (amused) U did it urself??
Me: Nope..
Nice Ass: Then ur fren do for u??
Me: No la.. did it outside..
Nice Ass: At serangoon??
Me: Haha.. no la.. tm..
Nice Ass: Ohh.. i see.. semangat..
Me: It's ok la.. once in a while..
Nice Ass: Eh.. haf i stamped ur card??
Me: Yes..
Nice Ass: Really??
Me: Uh-huh..
Nice Ass: Let me take a look at it again..
Me: (hands my starbucks card over)
Nice Ass: (stamps furiously till i got the entire card stamped)
Me: OII!! Wat are u doing??
Nice Ass: I think i didn't give u enuff stamps..
Me: Apeje!!
Nice Ass: Tak nak ke??
Me: (smile) Ok la.. THANK U la..
Nice Ass: Wld u like choc syrup on ur whip cream??
Me: Nak..
Nice Ass: Nak aje..
Me: My business ah..
Nice Ass: (as he hands my drink) Manis tau..
Me: I like sweet things.. anyway chocs are supposed to be sweet..
Nice Ass: Like me..
Me: (what the hell??) Hur hur..
Nice Ass: Ok.. be sure to come back again tau..
Me: Okies.. no probz..
Nice Ass: Cya!!
Me: Okies.. bye!!

So.. haha.. i dunno how long i was stuck there.. but ok la.. it was nice talking to him.. luckily explosive hair wasn't around mann.. shake & neeta has seen the both of them.. haha.. explosive hair has BIG EYES.. lulu.. u know like rafiz.. haha.. and neeta says nice ass is very short.. ya.. he is la..

Eh neeta.. u dun busybody hang around at starbucks pp ah.. nice ass noticed me first.. but then again.. i dun find him that cute la.. do u?? but wateva u do.. STAY AWAY FROM ANDI!! HE'S OFF LIMITS!! heh..

I suddenly feel hungry..
If u're hungry then go eat la.. afterall u've not eaten the entire day..
But it's in the middle of the nite..
Haha.. u takut u'll grow fat kan??
Well.. somebody said she can see my babat..
Haha.. No la.. i was kidding only..
But wait i becme fatter..
Eh pls la!! u're sooooo tall!! u WUN become fat from eating tonite..
Dun want la..
Okaaaaay.. at least drink milo.. it helps..
Dun u get it?? U're supposed to stop me..
But u're hungry!!
Ya.. but i dun wanna put down the phone!!
Eh ok la!! dun eat then!!

Damn.. another one of those conversations.. the other time it was like dis:

Ok it's already 10:30.. u're supposed to meet ur frenz..
Ya i know..
So we put down the phone now k??
Nvm la.. let my frenz wait..
Eh.. tak baik tau..
It's ok..
Serious la.. go meet ur frenz..
Are u serious??
Yes.. wait u lambat..
Can't u sense the disappointment in my voice??
But u're supposed to meet them wat..
But i dun wanna put down the phone!!
Ok fine then.. we shall continue talking..

URGH!! wat an ass!! u know.. most of the time he does the talking.. not to say i dun talk much.. but.. yeah.. he's got lots to say.. so all i cld do was listen la.. to his interesting stories.. and during that course i realise wat a kind heart he has.. i ever asked: Dun u get sick of talking to me all the time? He said: No i enjoy talking to u..

Sigh.. lalalalalalala.. juz keep it cool azreen.. dun read in between the lines too much.. if it's there.. then it's there.. the truth will come to light some day..

| 4/28/2004 01:26:00 PM

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

Yeah babe.. i'm GRIPPING TIGHTLY.. but.. as nite falls.. well.. i start to slip away.. UR FAULT LA!! not there to keep me in check.. not there to control me.. not there to make sure i'm safe..

*CRY*

Well.. neeta.. looks.. i mean.. yeah.. it's inevitable that first impressions are always based on looks.. i mean.. of course it wld be hard to stare at a face that's.. well.. that doesn't catch ur eye.. rmbr u asked me: Will I be able to wake up every single day wif de courage to look at his face? well.. i can't say for sure.. but all i know.. dis is absolutely true.. if de feelings are mutual.. if ur feelings for him grows.. well.. it wun matter whether he's good lookin or not.. cos when u haf fallen for him.. nothing else matters.. all u know is u wanna spend de rest of ur life wif him.. and dat he means de world to u.. love is blind.. so true..

Lulu.. hmm.. wateva i wanna say.. i already posted it on ur tag board.. i may not know wat's stopping u from letting ur guard down.. but i did go thru some horrible shit.. which i'm still trying to get rid off.. to completely leave all de shit behind.. and it's not easy.. so yeah.. take ur time.. take it easy.. wat's meant to be is meant to be.. each of us has been destined wif a soul mate.. so.. yupz.. if de 2 of u are meant to be together.. it will happen in de future.. well.. we do haf to kiss a few frogs before finally settling down wif our prince rite??

Shake.. it's hard having to face him almost everyday yet u dunno wat u shld do rite?? i mean.. yeah.. it's an incentive to go to work.. but deep down inside.. everything's a mess rite?? like.. u dun wanna lose de frenship.. but yet u wish something good will come out of dis rite?? well.. no specific strategy for u.. but.. i guess only time will tell.. who knows de feelings might be revealed in de mths to come?? i hope so mann.. u deserve to be happy.. u deserve to meet ur prince charming.. after de spate of ball-less guys u went thru..

So.. ppl.. as crazy as it sounds.. i'm holding myself back.. i mean.. i'll juz go wif de flow.. i shall juz secretly entertain thots of eternal bliss.. but i wun make it known.. ever.. it doesn't hurt dat way..

I'm falling for a guy rite now..
Who is he??
To start off.. he has a nice name..
I can't think of anyone else wif a nicer name than me..
Hur hur.. funny ah..
Really wat.. u haf a nice name too..

Oh fuck!! wat was that supposed to mean?? i really dunno..

If u like de guy u shld give it a shot..
But i dun wanna put our frenship at risk..
In wat way will u be putting de frenship at risk??
If he rejects me then we might end up not being frenz anymore..
Well.. then he doesn't know de true meaning of frenship..
Do u think it's a good idea??
If u dun try.. he might run off..
Run off to where??
He might run off if another girl comes along..

Talking abt himself again??

I dunno mann.. i really dun.. i mean.. u dun call a gal up every nite riite?? i mean.. if it's short conversations then it's ok la.. but it's like 4-5 hrs long!! i know i shldn't be reading into it too much.. but.. it's juz certain things dat he say.. URGH!!

Wat wld u do to attract de attn of de gal dat u like??
I wld get to know her more..
And then??
And woo her..
And??
And.. well make my feelings known..

Like i told shake.. maybe i shld start asking him wat's his purpose in calling me every nite.. oh well.. i shall give him another wk.. then i'll ask that qn..

| 4/27/2004 09:09:00 PM

Monday, April 26, 2004

Over de entire wkend.. i've been tripping and stumbling..

FUCK!!

I dun wanna experience dis.. NOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

I juz want things to remain simple.. ok ok.. i'll be lying if i say any thots of advancement hasn't crossed my mind.. yes.. occasionally i do entertain those thots..

But at de end of de day.. i dun wanna go thru de same shit again.. i dun want things to get complicated.. i'd rather haf his frenship than lose him totally..

But it's really hard.. i haf to say we haf become very very close lately.. de thing dat scares me is de absolutely short amt of time dat it took for us to click.. there's no awkwardness of any sort..

Dammit.. he makes me laugh.. he gives me de courage to ask qns dat i wld haf never asked guys before.. he makes me lie in bed de entire sat.. juz waiting for his sms or phone call.. he keeps me awake every nite.. he makes me feel tingly & excited each time i hear from him.. he makes me smile for no apparent reason.. he makes me realise wat passion & goals are.. he makes me realise it's ok to argue over stupid things.. that it's ok to be childish..

To think.. all those times i thot he was a jerk.. a stupid fucking asshole.. an aboslute loser.. i mean not that he isn't rite now.. ok.. let's leave out the jerk part.. but.. he's a nice asshole!! ARGHHHH!!! he's cute.. in every sense.. from his looks to de things he say.. fuck!! he sang de elmo song in a cutesy voice over de phone!!he has de dammit smile.. he has a kind heart.. in his words.. he's full of shit.. dammit.. he can talk rubbish wif me.. and he looks good in white!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Like neeta told me yday.. u can't deny it if he's nice azreen.. yeah.. i'm not denying it.. it makes me glad realising dat.. well.. dat he's a nice person.. behind every person there's a mean & nasty side of him waiting to emerge.. even he admitted dat he's not Mr Nice Guy.. wat u see is wat u get.. he reacts when provoked.. if he doesn't like a person.. he makes it known.. and if he likes a person.. well.. he doesn't hide it either.. he told me dat he's not de type to put up an act..

Hmmmmmmm..

Shld i believe wat he say?? actually.. i do.. dammit.. NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! de thing is.. he's an ordinary person.. there's nothing special abt him.. and no.. i dun haf like special feelings for him.. but.. i'm falling.. i'm falling into dunno wat..

Do i dare say i'm falling for him?? No la.. i dun tink so.. it's too soon.. maybe i'm juz attracted to de way he's being truthful.. his very colourful past.. he revealed a lot of stuff to me.. and before we end each conversation.. he wld always tell me dat i'm welcome to form any sort of opinions of him.. it doesn't matter as long as he knows he's got nothing to hide.. dat his conscience is clear..

I dunno wat i'm getting myself into.. all i know is.. both of us are enjoying each other's company.. ok.. it has developed into a kind of routine.. and de thing abt me is.. once i get into a routine it's hard for me to get out of it.. esp if it's a routine dat i enjoy..

All i'm hoping is.. i dun wanna get hurt all over again.. esp not after wat i went thru wif farid.. cos farid was a nice guy.. and i believe he still is a nice guy.. it's not fair to call him a jerk cos it wasn't as if he cheated on me.. de sad fact was.. he chose to juz walk away from everything.. it's as if wateva we shared.. wateva we went thru didn't mean anything to him.. at all..

I'm still searching for de answers.. but sometimes when it hurts too much.. i did feel like giving up.. i guess i can never get over him completely.. i choose to rmbr him for de good times dat we had.. i dun believe in rmbring a person for his nasty acts.. and those nice memories will constantly be replayed in my mind.. like a video player.. trying to search for clues.. u muz be wondering why i'm searching for clues among de good times..

Well.. i think smetimes we tend to overlook things.. esp when we are having a good time.. maybe de signs were there & i failed to notice them.. cos i was too immersed in all de good things.. i still keep his smses.. i go thru them before i sleep.. altho he can never ever spend time wif me physically again.. his smses are all i haf to stop me from missing him..

Oh well.. that's life..

| 4/26/2004 01:13:00 PM

Saturday, April 24, 2004

I'M IN LOVE..

haha.. rubbish la azreen!! u're mad.. juz talking cock!!

haha..

ok enuff of crap..

so.. miss neeta rai asked me to update u guys abt wat happened yday.. liz & lulu didn't join us.. so yup.. we went to visit shae at her workplace.. but she was very busy ah.. so no time to layan us.. even when she knocked off she was too tired to get excited over my story.. but i know deep inside ure happy for me.. rite shake??

so.. umm.. we developed pics from shake's digicam.. quite cheap know.. 40 cents per pc.. woo!! our asses!! ohh.. finally me & neeta took a neo-print together.. HEE.. very nice!! cos everything was bright & nice.. esp de one wif de red curtain..

den.. it rained.. like heavily.. so when crossing de road to shake's workplace we used neeta's umbrella.. it was only a short distance ah.. but the stupid umbrella gave way.. can u imagine we were yakking.. den.. we started screaming & running.. haha.. i tell u.. we looked like 2 mad women!! haha..

ohh.. had an overdose of coffee yday.. mocha frapp.. den a hot mocha drink.. den mocha frapp again.. maybe dat explains why i cldn't get to sleep till after 4 last nite.. but.. *winks*.. haha.. HEE..

umm.. oh ya!! do u guys know that black eyed peas are coming here for a concert?? 25th may.. last nite while chatting he asked me abt it.. both of us wanna go la.. but.. haha.. i dunno leh.. i mean.. umm.. it shldnt be me doing the asking rite?? like.. dun want la.. paiseh ah..

oh dammit.. dammit.. get a good grip on urself azreen!! dun fall!! dun fall!! buy shoes wif good grips.. so that there'll be lots of friction.. u know rite.. friction opposes motion.. so.. u wun fall.. wun slip.. den u wun hurt urself.. but i AM trying to get a good grip on myself.. i dun wanna fall mann.. but.. AHHH!! NOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!! ok.. i MUZ control myself.. that's azreen.. get urself a new pair of shoes!!

| 4/24/2004 03:24:00 PM

Thursday, April 22, 2004

The thing is..

I dun wanna misread or misinterpret anything..
Yessss.. i dun wanna get in too deep too fast..
I AM afraid of hurting myself..
It was the first..
And i definitely know there'll be more to come..

I hope ur actions & words dun mean otherwise..
I hope beneath all that there isn't a nasty side of u waiting to come out..
I hope things continue to be like last nite.. juz plain nice & simple..
Juz dun complicate things..
Like i said..
I dun wanna misinterpret anything..

Oh dammit..
As much as i try to deny it..
The attraction is there..
The old feelings are coming back..

Dammit..

| 4/22/2004 11:26:00 AM

I had dinner wif shuqing yday.. ok if u call eating a slice of chocoholic's dream & drinking a large double choc frappe dinner..

Ok.. i wanna tell u wat shuqing asked me to bring yday.. but.. heh.. no la.. it'll be too embarrassing for her.. so yup.. if u guys wanna know wat it was.. ask me personally..

Actually.. yday evening was seriously lacking in hunks.. maybe except for when we were in the train.. cos rite.. we saw this SUPER BABE.. like she was seriously a babe!! tall.. nice legs.. nice tight ass!! me & shuqing were practically in awe.. and we kept trying to take a peek at her.. commuters in de train muz haf thot we were mad.. we were kinda noisy la.. but wat de heck.. and there was dis guy in black.. eh shuqing.. MY RACE!! lay off!! haha.. she said he kept looking at me.. quite cute la.. but didn't fall in the hunk category..

So ya.. i was BORED TO DEATH.. so i smsed my gurlfrenz: I looked thru my phone book & there are no guys available for me to flirt wif!! AHHH!! I feel like wasting my sms!!

Call me mad.. but dis mth.. i mean as of yday when i sent out that mass sms i had only sent 125 smses.. so yup.. a good enuff reason for me to waste sms..

So i thot my evening was gonna end up B-O-R-I-N-G.. cos THERE'S NO MORE JOHN PETER LEWIS!! haha.. but.. HEE..

The evening turned out to be nice.. ok ok.. rather it shld be.. i had a wonderful nite.. quite unexpected actually.. i dun wanna divulge any details.. but.. yup.. it was nice.. as simple as that..

-smiles-

| 4/22/2004 11:15:00 AM

Wednesday, April 21, 2004

I'm supposed to replace the missing part on my hp.. u muz be wondering wat mising part rite?? haha.. well.. the part where u adjust the volume of the speaker.. it dropped off the other day without me noticing it..

Luckily the volume is at a level where it is neither too loud nor too soft.. luckily i dun haf hearing probz like liz.. heh.. but if i'm in crowded places i wun be able to hear wat the other party is talking abt..

So.. if i were to get it replaced i'm supposed to go all the way to wisma atria.. level 4.. dammit.. there aren't a lot of sony ericsson care centres in singapore.. URGH!! maybe one of these days i shld stay over at my aunt's at toh guan.. den i'll juz hop on down to IMM..

Lalalalalalalalalala..

LAZY BONES

| 4/21/2004 07:56:00 AM

Tuesday, April 20, 2004

I'M BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACCCCCKKK!!!!!!!!

haha.. missed me?? awww.. i know u guys do.. heh..

ok ok.. got lots of stuff to tell u guys.. HEE..

I've been having too much fun lately.. heh.. it's like total madness!! heh..

Let's start from tues.. umm.. abang benn called.. said he wld be coming to spore wif his uncle to see to some matters.. so they need my help to show them the way.. it turned out they had to see the brunei royal family.. so.. yup.. HEE.. i got to see them too.. they held a meeting at The Mandarin.. but i didn't stay for the entire length of the meeting la.. very boring wat.. so me & abang benn walked around town.. and u know wat.. his uncle brought his son along.. and this son of his has been married thrice.. and he was trying to be cheeky wif me u know!! he kept calling abang benn to ask where we were.. then he kept sending his regards to me.. he even tried getting my no!! what the hell!! then he even asked me if it's possible for him to take me back to msia.. oh puhleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeese!! wait long long ah!! u might be rich but NO WAY!! maybe if u're still single & if u do not haf a pot-belly.. i wld consider ah.. then later at nite.. close to midnite.. abang benn called.. he asked me to hang out wif him.. he cldn't get to slp.. URGH!! i was really tired.. cos the entire day we walked around town.. then in the evening i had tuition.. and i was almost late so i was practically running.. so.. i told abang he was mad la.. i mean.. look at the time.. of course my parents wldn't be pleased if i were to go out wat.. but after he talked to my mom.. ya.. i was allowed to go out.. my mom told me not to layan him sangat.. haha.. i know.. i know.. relax ah.. we wun get up to mischief.. so we went to newton to eat.. so shake.. that explains why i got home close to 4 am and why i was too tired to meet u & lulu..

Then.. wed.. slept over at my aunt's place.. helped her to paint her room.. then rushed for tuition.. since my tuition was at marine terrace.. heh.. apa lagi.. after tuition i went parkway ah.. starbucks.. had raspberry frapp.. i went there quite often for the past 2 wks.. so the barista sort of recognizes me.. after i gave him my atm card.. he said to me: I know ur pin no.. it's 12345.. haha.. funny ah.. then i said to him: Oh u know ah?? ok lor.. next time i come here u key in for me k?? haha.. very nice guy.. later at nite me & my aunt had dinner in front of the tv.. watched cinta bollywood.. and we were so noisy!! haha.. juz the 2 of us.. getting exasperated at the stupid plot.. then.. we watched american idol.. and she was laughing away at all those contestants who went for the audition.. very noisy u know!!

Thurs morning.. went to johore wif my aunt & her fren.. dis fren of hers.. guy.. married.. short & bald.. heh.. but he was very nice.. very patient wif us.. and ya.. he got along well wif me.. someone whom u can carry out a conversation wif.. dammit.. are all the conversationalists & guys wif nice personalities taken?? heh.. but i tell u.. the 2 of them really talk cock u know!! like utter rubbish!! faint!! now i know how i turn out like this.. then in the evening they sent me for my tuition.. when i got back to my aunt's hse she was curled up in her room watching tv.. so ya.. we watched tv together. i juz lay down beside her.. ohhh.. we watched fear factor.. and she was suqirming all the way when they had to eat the pizza wif blood paste, worms & fish eyeballs.. i told her to change the channel if she cldnt stand it la.. but she didn't want to.. so juz imagine her wrapped up in her blanket.. covering her eyes.. half screaming half laughing.. oh faint.. and cos i was lying down.. i watched american idol halfway & fell asleep.. that's the thing wif me.. u give me a pillow & a place to lie down.. i'll juz fall asleep.. and cos of that i missed meteor garden!! HUMPH!!

Fri.. off to kl.. me, my parents & my aunt.. hee.. abang benn & his gf met us at the hotel lobby.. heh.. finally i get to see his gf.. kak su.. very nice lady.. juz like us.. loves shopping.. u know.. at first abang was an ass.. cos he didn't introduce his gf.. the poor gal juz stood there.. seriously no manners u know!! but once we got introduced.. that's it mann.. heh.. my aunt told her not to be shocked by the way we talk.. cos our family.. besides talking rubbish we are also a loud bunch.. so yeah.. so as usual.. went shopping.. my dad & abang stayed at the hotel.. then.. hmm.. fri nite.. abang told me it was ladies nite at cuba.. asked if i wanted to go.. hmmm.. clubbing?? it's not really my cup of tea.. besides i told myself many times that i wldn't wanna step into that kinda place.. cos.. ya.. tempat maksiat.. abang said we cld juz sit down & enjoy the music.. dun need to dance.. and get this.. my aunt was asking me to go too!! oh faint!! and my dad gave me the green light.. said it's up to me.. so.. apa lagi.. i went to get ready la!! haha.. so it was abang.. kak su.. my aunt & me.. so.. first time i stepped into a pub in kl.. ok la.. quite tame.. the ppl mind their own business..

Then.. sat nite.. at 11 abang told me & my aunt to get ready.. he wanted to bring us to this pub called nouveau.. i was actually very tired.. but.. heh.. cldn't resist his offer.. but when we went there the place was playing salsa & jazz music.. so we decided to go to planet hollywood instead.. abang called our uncle & best fren to come down.. haha.. i think my family is dysfunctional.. even those yang dah pangkat pakcik & makcik are quite sporting.. so.. we went in.. this live band called Super Frenz were playing.. i haf to say they were very good.. the songs they played were my favourites.. so.. yup.. then at abt 2 am the live band stopped playing.. oh man.. that's it.. verybody came down to the dance floor.. then kak su & abang pulled me & asked me to dance wif them.. oh faint!! i was really enjoying myself juz listening to the music.. so.. ya.. i went wif them.. then they played Yeah by Usher.. oh man.. that's it.. i juz let myself go.. haha.. then my aunt and uncle also joined us.. then a while later abang's best fren who i haf to admit is very gd looking joined us.. heh.. so we were dancing dancing.. then i noticed this guy in red was inching his way in between my aunt & me.. he wanted to dance wif my aunt la.. haha.. i knew my aunt didn't want to dance wif him.. but i decided to be evil so i tunred away.. haha.. so she had to dance wif the guy!! hee.. the rule of clubbing is if u dun wanna dance wif somebody u politely decine his offer by turning away.. dun make way.. but my aunt didn't do that wat.. so not my fault.. then rite.. a while later.. this fella in white was inching his way.. wanting to dance wif me.. oh faint!! i tried showing him that i wasn't interested by turning my face in another direction.. but he was a stubborn ass!! ten out of nowhere abang came to my rescue!! heh.. he inched his was in between me & the guy.. heh.. so the fella got the msg la.. abang was telling me not to worry.. he wld keep a lookout for me..

But i tell u.. although my lifespan has been shortened due to the excessive amount of cigarette smoke in there.. i really enjoyed myself.. cos the music was good.. then when everybody starts singing to the songs.. u can't help urself but to follow along.. but i know my limit ah.. of course i wun do it often.. and i'll only go wif ppl whom i feel secure wif.. like abang.. he's very responsible.. as in he made sure nobody created trouble for us.. made sure we had a good time.. and fuck.. the waiter was damn good looking!! when he brought my drink.. CAIR.. haha.. and abang's very good looking best fren.. single but unavailable.. dammit.. that phrase.. "single but unavailable".. OUCH.. ohhh.. forgot to mention the fact that we met Aqasha at planet hollywood.. and since he's frenz wif one of abnag's colleague who was wif him at that time.. we got to talk to him.. heh.. but my camera was at the hotel.. so no pic.. but i'm not a fan la.. so juz shook hands..

Came home sun nite.. yday had to teach tuition at marine terrace.. after that met up wif shuqing at parkway.. i miss her wat.. heh.. it's been weeks since i last saw her.. so yup.. we had dinner together.. i tell u.. the chefs at Fish & Co were absolutely good looking!! ahhh!! dammit!! eh shuqing.. luckily they were MY RACE.. heh.. u go take ur race la.. the chef who looked like sean lean.. heh.. and cos the chefs were good looking we sat at fish & co for 2 hrs!! haha.. from 7 to 9.. heh.. and according to her.. they were looking at me.. haha.. funny ah.. watever la.. u talk cock only.. ohh.. the tv was tuned to mtv.. so.. haha.. trl.. and the host was.. SHANE WEST!! and they invited chandler from Friends as the guest.. so me & shuqing got excited.. cos i like shane west & she like chandler wat.. but we weren't making a lot of noise.. juz some tiny excited squealing?? haha.. then one of the male waiters came to our table.. looked at the tv & smiled at us.. he was amused at our excitement.. haha.. and u know.. that shuqing.. she was giving me lots of ideas mann.. stop it la!! she made me waste 5 cents!! then.. after that.. we went to the toilet to pee.. as we were going down the escalator we saw this cute guy.. heh.. even without me saying anything she knew i found the guy cute.. and when he stood behind us on the escalator.. WHOA!! CAIR!! shuqing kept talling me to relax & behave.. haha.. after our peeing session.. we walked around parkway.. and we were snorting the entire way.. liz.. u rmbr that time i came up behind u & juz gave a loud snort?? haha.. we were doing juz that.. so each time we came across some guy who's walking alone we wld juz snort near him.. HAHAHAHAHA!!! it was hilarious mann!! once shuqing snorted on the way down the escalator and the guy on the opposite side gave a smile.. haha.. he muz haf thot she was mad.. haha.. but it was absolutely fun!! u know.. on the was to the bus stop.. i juz suddenly exclaimed to shuqing I LOVE U!! it was very loud!! and this guys actually turned too look at us.. he looked so shock!! haha!! the look on his face was classic!! haha..

Ohh.. u know.. on the way to the bus stop i wanted to go starbucks.. cos this time they had a different bunch of baristas.. so wanted to see if there were any good looking ones.. the first thing we noticed was: WHOA!! his hiar looked as if it experienced an explosion!! haha.. serious know.. then rite.. as we were walking near the counter.. there was this barista in white.. stsnding outside the counter.. and i noticed he was looking at us.. and yup.. i found him good looking.. cos rite.. he was in white.. he had glasses on.. kinda intellectual looking.. even shuqing said so.. then i said to shuqing: Look at that ass.. haha.. personally i dun think i said it loudly.. but umm.. he kinda turned around?? haha.. oh faint!! but i cldn't be bothered la.. so i placed my order.. a tall rasp frapp.. this was wat happened..

Explosive Hair: Yes.. can i haf ur order??
Me: Tall rasp frapp..
Explosive Hair: Nak krrrrrrim tak??
Me: Huh?? U mean whip cream??
Explosive Hair: Ya.. krrrrrrim..
Me: Ohh.. yes pls..
(he keyed in my order)
Nice Ass: (loudly) Kau dah kasi dia discount 5% tak?
Explosive Hair: Buat pe??
Nice Ass: Dia order size ape ah??
Explosive Ass: Tall..
Nice Ass: Kau kasi dia yang besar la..
Explosive Hair: Kau buat sendiri ah..
Nice Ass: (super loudly) AKU NAK PERGI KEDAI LA!!
(then he purposely looked at me)

What the hell?? he had the cheek to talk abt it right in front of me!! URGH!! i told shuqing abt it.. then she said he guy was trying to play hard to get.. cos after we went down.. he came back to starbucks.. purposely la konon.. oh puhleeeeeeeeeeeese!!

Haha.. ok on thurs after tuition i'm going to that starbucks again.. purposely ah.. haha..

I'm having toooooooooo much fun.. and i'm enjoying myself.. HEE..

| 4/20/2004 01:22:00 PM

Monday, April 12, 2004

I juz had a venti raspberry frapp today.. haha.. my last dosage was on sat.. i really can't resist it.. each time i come across a starbucks outlet.. dammit.. got to order it.. so yup.. and dis time i ordered a venti size cos my parents were picking me up at parkway.. my mom.. each time she drinks raspberry frapp she can finish half of it in one sip.. heh..

CUTE WAITER ALERT AT Fish & Co PARKWAY PARADE!! WOO!! CUTE BARISTA ALERT AT STARBUCKS PARKWAY PARADE!!

Heh.. i cldn't help noticing.. altho it was kinda dark.. i'm only human.. heh..

U know.. on sun.. i washed my dad's white uniform.. so i soaked it wif his brown jeans.. normally if i soak them together nothing wld go wrong.. but i didn't know that his brown jeans were new.. so the colour wld run during the first wash.. so.. haha.. his 2 white tees turned BROWN.. only the sleeves and collar remained white.. so.. haha.. i smsed my dad abt it.. and he actually took half day leave to take a look at them!! haha.. luckily he didn't scold.. he was more amused.. he even said: "This two tees u can't find anywhere even if u go to every single shop in the world".. but seriously it wasn't my fault wat.. i didn't know his brown jeans were new..

So peepz.. might be busy for the next few days.. wun be blogging much..

Dun miss me too much!!

MUACKZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

| 4/12/2004 09:57:00 PM

Saturday, April 10, 2004

I think i muz be mad.. Early part of the week i felt so down in the dumps.. can u believe that i cried my eyes out on wed nite?? yup i did.. i only fell asleep at 2.. and trust me.. it was such a pain to open my eyes the next day.. and the puffiness.. so ya.. felt blue the entire day.. but i didn't know why but towards the evening my mood apparently turned better and i was grinning like a cheshire cat.. so can u imagine me HEE-ing all the way.. i think during tuition on thurs my student muz haf been thinking: What the hell is wrong wif kak azreen?? haha..

So ya.. i told u i was like HEE-ing away on thurs evening rite?? after tuition i dropped by bedok lib for a while.. had to return my bk which was due on the day itself.. anyways on the way home.. in the bus.. i was reading my course manual.. and dis mat.. he sat beside me.. ok.. for a while i was fine with it except that u can hear the song blasting away from his earphones.. den.. well.. den..

Him: U ambik course tu??
Me: (wat de hell??) - looked at him
Him: (looking at me)
Me: (okaaaaaaaaaay so he's talking to me).. Umm.. ya..
Him: I ingat nak ambik course tu jugak
Me: (eh wanna take ur business ah).. Hur hur..
Him: Mahal tak??
Me: Kind of.. a bit..
Him: Eh?? Berape ah??
Me: .. umm.. i suggest u call up the centre urself.. got different rates..
Him: Ohhhhh.. Abih.. siape bayar?? ur parents eh??
Me: (oh god!! wat business is it of his??) ya..
Him: Ohhhh.. Ok ah.. my gf kat depan.. aku nak duduk dengan dia ah..
Me: Go ah!!

It was seriously.. i dunno wat to say.. i mean.. it was already embarrassing enuff that he was talking loudly cos the song was blasting away.. and the bus was crowded.. wat was he thinking?? he shld haf kept his mouth shut la.. i dun want his gf to be thinking that i was hitting on her bf.. NO WAY!! OH PUH-LEEEEEEEEEEEESE!! not even if he was the last guy on earth.. no thank u..

I guess thurs was a mat-ty day for me.. cos earlier on.. i was at the centre.. as i was walking out.. this grp of mats started making loud funny noises.. then they started shouting.. ACROSS THE ROAD: Baju merah.. muka serious seh!! WOO!! WOO!!.. oh god!! it was bad enuff that i was walking alone.. i mean.. u dun expect me to be smiling while walking rite?? that is utter madness.. when i told lulu abt it, she was like telling me to get a bf quick.. haha.. if only it was that easy.. but i haf to admit i'd rather get hit on by ppl my age.. i mean.. at least the mats were around my age.. imagine having an ah pek hitting on u.. FAINT.. -shudder-

Ok.. i've seriously digressed.. the mat thing wasn't what i wanna talk abt.. the reason why i put up this post is.. cos.. i wonder..why does pms always make us.. gals.. unstable??

For me.. i dun get cramps.. thank god!! i experience very horrible mood swings.. haha.. ok.. ok.. i've toned down in the last one yr.. juz ask shuqing.. she's always at the receiving end.. sori ah babe.. i cldn't help it.. but THAT'S WAT FRENZ ARE FOR rite?? we titorses muz be there for each other.. HEE.. too bad u're stuck wif me.. there's no running away.. MUAHAHAHA!! last time in j1.. when i suffered from the occasional mood swings.. whoa!! u wldn't wanna be in my way mann!! juz dun mess wif me.. cos i'll either be complaining complaining & complaining.. or spewing out expletives.. or.. i'd be so super sensitive that i'd take offence to every single thing u say.. but.. now i've seriously toned down la.. luckily i dun suffer from pms every month.. juz occasionally..

Let me further tell u the pms i went thru dis week..

Tues nite.. i was watching Smallville.. Ok ok.. i was unhappy during the day.. but i cheered up when i watched TVism.. cos each time najip laughed, i also laughed.. altho sometimes i didn't get the joke.. when i normally watch smallville.. i dun cry.. it's juz fiction.. those kinda things dun happen in real life.. but i teared when lana told clarke that she shld stay away from him.. it was like.. -CRACK-..

Then.. on wed.. i even cried while watching Cinta Bollywood!! pls la azreen!! wat's wrong wif u?? if i had cried while watching hindustan.. it wld haf been ok la.. but.. my mom was thinking i was mad.. cos i was lying down in fron of the tv wif tears rolling down.. i repeat.. it wasn't full force crying.. juz some tearing.. then.. i switched to american idol.. and john stevens was singing.. and INSTANTLY i started grinning.. like wif the blink of an eye my mood changed.. trust me.. i didn't feel anything for john stevens before.. no dislike.. nor like.. but.. haha.. maybe it was cos of the red coat.. but.. haha..

Now.. on to thurs.. when i got back home.. of course i was in a gd mood la.. didn't let the mat get me down.. so.. ya.. i watched american idol.. JON PETER LEWIS and JOHN STEVENS.. WHOA!! ok ok.. i admit i was ecxited.. and frustrated at the same time.. cos.. at 10pm.. there was american idol.. 10:45 there was the debut of Meteor Garden 2 on ch 8.. then at 11 The OC debuts.. so.. at 10:45 i started channel surfing.. and i was HYPERVENTILATING.. anxious abt the results.. and.. when i saw Daoming Si on ch 8.. -CAIR-.. haha.. let me make dis clear.. i dun like F4.. i only like Meteor Garden.. then.. The OC started.. ahh.. dammit.. i dun find the blonde guy that gd looking.. like shake said.. eye-candy.. i prefer the other guy.. the dark-haired one.. wat's his name?? so.. told u i was in a gd mood rite?? then while i was watching meteor garden.. my mood swinged from excited to envious.. to jealousy.. to frustration.. back to jealousy.. then to the "wateverrr" mood.. then.. frustration.. then finally.. to sadness and anger.. me and shuqing were like.. haha.. we had too many reactions..

Then.. yday.. i went out la.. was in an "ok" mood.. then i started getting irritated when shuqing smsed me.. she smsed me to ask a harmless qn but i got irritated and told her not to disturb me.. haha.. when i got home in the evening i read my bk.. left a few pgs.. and i got so engrossed in it that i started to have visions of me becoming the lead character.. so ya.. i was kinda living in the fantasy world for a while.. i cld actually feel what she was going through.. so imagine.. one moment i wld be smiling.. then i wld feel sad.. then laughing at the sarcastic remarks.. FAINT..

So.. does pms really make me emotionally unstable?? haha.. guess so..

Oh ya.. i've been wanting to change my hp.. but when i watched Meteor Garden 2 and saw that all of them were using sony ericsson.. like me.. HEE.. i dun feel like changing already..

Haf to apologise for the recent spate of unfrequent updates and sentimental songs.. dun worry ppl.. i'm not becoming jiwang or anything.. juz.. umm.. dunno la..

Ok.. that's it..

MISS AZREEN HAS GONE BONKERS!!!

| 4/10/2004 08:00:00 AM

Monday, April 05, 2004

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm laughing till my sides ache!!!

wanna know why??

i received a msg on Friendster.. from this user: sgSWEETSMILES..

they are actually scouting around for ppl with SWEET or CUTE SMILES.. what the hell??!! haha.. i was seriously laughing like mad when i read it.. me???????? sweet smile?????? -FAINT-

Interests: Looking for people with sweet smiles
About Me: If you think you have SWEET SMILES or CUTE SMILES, please do drop me a message! =) I'll check your pictures to be sure that you are qualified for it. If you are NOT qualified for it, WE ARE SORRY. =D DO NOT PUT UP FAKE PICTURES. Lookin for forward to more smiles! =D
Who I Want To Meet: People with NICE AND BEAUTIFUL smiles. We just started, so please be more spontaneous! Thanks!

the thing is.. ppl actually bother to set up an account on friendster juz to do this?? it's seriously.. well.. it's seriously.. umm.. kinda like a waste of time rite?? i mean.. yeah.. of course i'm flattered.. but..

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!

dis is so hilarious!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

| 4/05/2004 04:38:00 PM

Last nite i was reading "The Third time He Left Me" by Sarah Harris.. It's abt this woman.. whose husband left her when she was pregnant with their 2nd child.. and.. 18 wekks into her pregnancy she found blood clots in her urine.. So ya.. a few days later she suffered a miscarriage.. it's kinda scary cos at first she didn't feel any pain.. she juz called the ambulance as instructed.. only when she lay down in the ambulance did the contractions start to occur.. it's juz sad.. cos.. well.. when she was wheeled into the emergency room.. she felt like peeing.. so.. ya.. she had the energy to get out of bed.. then rite.. she squatted beside the bed.. and she could her baby slipping out of her.. like in one swoop her baby was out of her stomach.. it's not a true story la.. but these kinda things happen.. and I CRIED.. i mean who wldn't rite?? the depression she went thru after that.. her husband didn't even show his concern despite knowing abt it.. MEN ARE BASTARDS!!

It's been exactly a week since i met up with rahman.. 2 days later it'll be exactly a week since he went tekong.. do i miss him?? of course i do!! cos he's like one of the sweetest guys i know!! correction.. rahman is a rare breed.. he's from a dying species.. ppl like him, irfan, wei tong.. who else ah?? oh ya!! umm.. one of the prom king finalists besides rahman.. they have the looks.. the brains.. the charming personality i.e. sweet.. polite.. sensitive.. caring.. basically they have the entire package la.. and its these kinda ppl that are so near yet so far.. i mean with the exception of wei tong of course!! ok ok.. wat i'm trying to say here is.. although i might be cair-ing at rahman's niceness.. i dun think i can ever fall for him.. cos he's like.. too good to be true.. that dammit smile.. that sweetness.. always there to listen to my complains and grumbles..AHHH!!! everything abt him juz screams HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!! but ya.. can safely say i've got no special feelings for him.. so gurlfrenz.. any of u wanna try giving it a go with him?? go ahead.. i'll juz sit by the sidelines and watch.. and be happy for u..

This song.. Take My Breath Away.. i know it's not the original version.. i dunno who was the original singer.. i was wtaching Newlyweds the other day.. Nick & Jessica recorded this as a duet.. but why can't i seem to hear his voice?? speaking of which.. believe me.. SHE IS SUCH A BIMBO!! i'm not saying this cos i'm jealous or anything.. of course not!! i never like Nick Lachey in the first place!! although his bro was cute.. dun u think jessica is too young to get married?? I actually like her voice.. as compared to britney spears.. and how can nick fall for someone like her?? she's really a toot toot toot.. if u guys watch the show u will know what i mean.. ok ok.. why do i even bother abt otehr ppl's lives when i can't get mine sorted out?? The thing that i wanted to say was.. well.. jessica said this song is very significant to her.. because since young.. she told herself that she wld marry the guy who takes her breath away.. and so nick was the guy.. dun u think that's kinda sweet??

And how many ppl end up marrying their childhood/highschool/college sweethearts?? that's another sweet thing dun u agree?? cos personally i dunno any such peepz.. so when i read abt such stuff.. i'll juz melt.. but i guess that can only happen if the guys have enough balls to start with in the first place.. and somewhere along the course of their courtship the guy managed to stay true.. he didn't give one of those silent treatments.. he didn't leave things hanging and expect the gal to figure things out.. and to last that long.. those kinda relationships need to have constant communication.. that's why IT'S IMPORTANT TO TALK!!!!!!!! dun juz shut up.. PUH-LEEEEESEEEE!!!!!!! come to think of it.. how the heck did my mom fall for my dad?? not once did muttered those 3 words.. I LOVE U.. none of those.. he didn't even make the first move!! he engaged the help of his fren.. who was also my mom's fren la.. and this fren that he asked for help from actually liked him!! but she helped him anyway cos she wanted him to be happy.. how nice of her.. anyways my mom married my dad cos he's a gd guy.. my dad used to smoke.. occasionally.. but he managed to give it up when i was born..

Ok.. i think i've side-tracked too much.. sori la.. in one of those moods.. and i think i better stop before expletives start spewing out of my mouth..

Sheesh.. why am i starting to tear?? I hope it's pms.. URGH!! i dunno..

Ok peepz.. juz leave me alone from now on.. i dun feel like meeting ppl.. juz wanna coop myself up at home..

| 4/05/2004 07:47:00 AM

Sunday, April 04, 2004

it's been some time since i updated.. sori la.. very busy.. MY ASS!! haha.. juz didn't haf the mood to blog..

was supposed to update u guys abt wat we did on liza's bday.. basically.. we went sentosa.. had heaps of fun.. gossipping.. did lots of catching up.. and i know liza was TOTALLY embarrassed by us.. cos rite.. we sang her a bday song.. like SUPER LOUD in public.. and shake & lulu kept saying: LIZA ROCKS!! haha.. den while waiting for the bus, me & shake told liza that we had a surprise performance.. so we started gyrating by the pole.. and even when we got on the bus, we continued doing it.. it was our lil pole dancing performance.. but of course it was more of a turn off la.. cos we purposely did it stiffly.. haha.. and the pics that we took.. WHOA!! u guys shld take a look at them mann.. there's a pic of me & lulu's ass.. haha.. basically we did lots of poses la..

then on thurs.. i taught tuition.. had 10 mins to kill before my time was up.. so me & the student started talking abt stuff not relating to math, eng or science.. haha.. but it was fun la.. i told her abt all the famous ppl i've met.. and she was jealous..

ok.. i've eaten like soooooooo much over the past few days.. and i only shitted very little.. u know.. i was reading my bk yday.. and nearing to midnite i suddenly had a craving for pizza.. and the hotdogs in the fridge were practically calling out to me to eat them.. and i couldn't stop thinking abt the ice cream in the freezer.. so at midnite.. i ate ice cream.. yesssssssssssss.. brought it into my rm & ate it while reading my bk.. haha..

and today.. i went to mustafa centre wif my mom & grandma.. and i bought lots of stuff.. any food stuff that looked interesting went into the trolley.. i tell u.. i was going crazy.. then after that we ate soooooooooooooo much!! haha.. then it started raining.. as we were waiting for a cab at the bus stop.. the buses went by so fast that we got TOTALLY DRENCHED by the splashing water.. of course me & my mom started screaming.. haha.. and all the while i was telling myself: It's ok to get wet as long as my eyeliner & mascara do not get smudged..
so.. yup.. too lazy to talk abt anything else..

ADIOS!!

| 4/04/2004 09:22:00 PM