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Friday, October 29, 2004

Dad juz got home.. and i'm still stuck in last nite's clothes.. it wun be long till he notices.. and then he's gonna scold me.. my dad.. pantang kalau i tak mandi..

Hahahahahaha

But if that's the way to make him talk.. to hear his voice.. then i'll do this more often.. every friday i wun bathe till he gets home.. hahahahahaha..

I juz vacuumed and mopped the house. and it feels good.. the floor is not dusty.. and i did my fair share of the housework.. and that was my exercise for the day.. haha..

Can't wait for the fasting month to be over.. cos i wanna get back to my normal exercise routine.. i wanna be fit and tone all over again.. i'm not growing sideways.. but each time i wiegh myself i seem to be putting on mass.. so.. yup.. i need to do smth abt that..

Me and sayang buka-ed at lulu's house yday.. heh.. had macaroni.. cos we reached her place quite late.. so when we wanted to leave it was close to buka time.. so.. yup.. her mom told us to stay over.. heh..

*malu*

*shy*

Hahahahahahaha

Well.. we cld haf reached her house earlier.. but it was cos i wanted to take 10 from kent ridge all the way to tampines.. so it was like a 1 1/2hr bus ride.. at first me and sayang juz kept talking to each other.. we had to entertain oursleves cos there was no tv in the bus.. but then we got tired.. so sayang slept on my shoulder.. and i put my head on top of hers and slept too..

To those ppl who boarded 10 yday..

WE ARE STRAIGHT!!!!!!!

Actually i've been getting up to lots of nonsense lately.. like on tues evening.. after i ate my sandwich.. i threw the wrapper out the window.. out of the moving bus mann.. if it had hit anyone.. my deepest apologies..

And yes.. i've been talking toooo much.. and at nite.. my eyes will be sleepy.. but menatlly i'll be too hyper.. so i start spouting nonsense.. like the classic qn that i asked sayang.. sheesh kebab.. i cant believe i actually asked her that..

And i've been laughing a lot too.. making stupid jokes out of everyhting.. nad ppl.. especially a certain someone..

Trust me i was laughing so hard in the bus yday.. even when we told lulu abt it.. i still cldnt control my laughter..

My interest in camel is waning.. simply because he's tooooo shy.. not fun anymore laaaaaaa..

So i'll set my sights on someone else.. unless by some sort of miracle.. camel actually says hi to me and look at me at the same time..

Brudder.. i wanna hear ur voice.. and brudder.. i'm on ur right.. dun look to ur left and say hi.. cos the wall is on ur left brudder.. and brudder.. when u see me.. MAINTAIN EYE CONTACT.. dun look away.. and brudder.. smile la.. dun smile and wave at me from afar.. i dun bite brudder.. despite me being bigger than u.. i wun squash u brudder..

| 10/29/2004 04:50:00 PM

Wednesday, October 27, 2004

Crank up the volume.. listen carefully to the song on my blog..

JIWANG SIAK AZREEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahahahahahahahaha

Eh.. i like dis song ok.. besides enjoying watching mr bean.. this is the next best thing my dad and me have a common interest in..

I like all these slow rock ballads.. power mann!! i'm not a jiwang person laaaa.. trust me i'm not.. juz.. well.. these songs are nice to listen to.. and it doesnt help that dad always listens to them in the car..

Brings out the old soul in me..

Hyak hyak

I'M STIL LOVING YOOOOOOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I finally got to see the man for myself.. the kuat man..

Hyak hyak

Kaklar mann.. the situation was juz funny.. cos there i was.. juz staring at him at the bar.. while he was doin my latte.. i continued staring wif a smile on my face.. and i think he muz be thinking:

"Why in the world is this gal staring at me?? No wait.. she DOES look familliar......."

So yeah.. finally mann..

Brudder.. i'm the gal that u added on friendster.. brudder.. i'm the gal that u replied one liners to.. yes brudder.. i'm the gal who visits SB-HV..

So what comments do i have abt him?? hahahahaha.. shall keep it to myself.. i told sayang abt it already mann.. smth regarding the size of my palm..

But he's cute la.. much cuter in person.. totally unexpected mann.. really really cute.. and taller in person.. and the smile.. ok not a dammit smile.. but quite nice la.. those kind of sheepsih smiles..

Hahahahahahahaha

Yday.. yani took up more than half the bed.. she slept smack in the middle of the bed facing me.. i treat her like my own sis.. it was nice having her around.. someone to kid with.. someone to argue with at nite.. someone i can pamper..

U know what.. from now on.. i'm gonna pray for 3 things..

That my parents will be in good health always..

That i'll get a responsible and loving husband..

That my kids will grow up to be sensible ppl.. of course i cant deny the fact that probz wld occur along the way.. but i hope they wun give me major probz.. like getting involved wif the law.. or runaway from home.. i hope they wun be rebellious..

I dunno.. it's kinda scary dun u think?? i'm not really a good daughter.. but i've never caused major probz.. i think my parents get worried only when i come back like really really late.. but i try not to do that now..

I've been sensible.. i know my limits.. i dun think my parents had a hard time bringing me up.. esp me being the only kid.. i may be mad.. i like to go out with my frenz.. i'm seldom home each time u guys come back from work.. but like i said..

I know my limits..

I dunno what tactic shld i adopt when i have kids.. i dunno how my parents managed to give me my freedom but yet i dun get led astray..

But then again.. at the end of the day.. it's up to the individual to differentiate what's right and what's not..

Ok i dun wanna talk abt this.. it makes me sad..

I dunno.. it feels like i've been cheated.. i'm not mad at u.. but how cld u do that?? if u had probz.. u cld talk to me.. u didnt have to lie.. u shldnt have kept me in the dark.. u have to face the consequences for doing what u did.. i love u.. a lot.. i treat u as my own flesh and blood.. but why did u have to lie?? why did u have to do that??

| 10/27/2004 01:35:00 PM

Monday, October 25, 2004

That pic of me on the right was taken by sayang.. while i was yakking away on the phone wif azian.. and if it looked as if i was crying.. no i wasnt.. it was juz the lighting..

It was taken outside SB-EP..

Yesssss.. i remembered how irritating me and sayang were.. we dragged lulu there.. without telling her where we were going.. throughout the entire train journey from town.. she kept asking and begging us to tell her where we were taking her..

And me and sayang.. being us as usual.. we got up to our nonsense and refused to tell her.. we talked abt every single thing except answering her qn.. the train was very crowded and we were very noisy.. i cldnt bear to look at lulu's face.. cos she looked so pathetic trying to get an ans from us..

Haha

It was totally hilarious i tell u.. we started introducing lulu to our new frenz.. Sam and Pam.. Ed and Edd.. we actually were referring to our buttcheeks.. and then lulu's was known as Jen and Berry..

Hyak hyak hyak

And the neo print below.. haha.. i dunno what all of us were doing.. and i dunno why sayang pinched my nose.. so the next thing i knew.. i decided to put on a really shocked look.. and ta-daa!! a shot of us was taken.. haha..

I did lots of cleaning up over the weekend.. threw away lots of rubbish.. like 3 bags full.. mann.. didnt know i had sooooooooooo much rubbish!! but hey.. i'd rather do the cleaning up now.. rather than wait till Hari Raya eve and get screwed inside out by mom..

So came across lots of things la.. like the birthday prezzie liza gave me earlier this yr.. finally i can hang it on my hp.. cos there wasnt a place for me to hang it from on the sony ericsson hp..

But liza.. WHY ORANGE?????? i know la.. ur fave colour.. but it was supposed to be MY birthday gift.. u cld haf at least bought it in pink.. or purple.. or red.. or green.. NOT ur fave colour orange.. sheesh kebab..

Speaking of colours.. i wanna tell u guys that not my fave colour is green.. hyak hyak hyak.. it's no longer pink.. hoho.. cos all things green look good on me.. so.. yup.. besides my superhero outfit is green.. so.. yup..

Speaking of which..

Sayang.. when u wanna put up episode 3?? ala.. quick la.. juz think of some nonsensical story.. like searching for a cat for legger woman.. or white undies for man eater.. or kinky underwear for murmur woman..

Hyak hyak hyak

I also came across.. the pics i took wif lulu, hunny bunny, glady and sherry in the school toilet.. haha.. dun ask me why.. at that time taking pics in the toilet seemed nice.. besides i wanted to finish my roll of film..

And there was this pic of lulu and hunny bunny in the sports hall toilet.. they climbed onto the bench.. so basicaly their faces were above the wooden beam.. hahahahaha.. hunny bunny looked like a dog.. she looked like brownie.. cos her hair was falling all over her face.. mann.. the dog and the owner are 2 peas in a pod!!

I really came across lots of treasures.. like this really HUGE photo album that noreen gave me in pri sch.. it was her brithday gift for me.. still in good condition cos its been stuck under my bed for the longest time.. so after my exams.. im gonna compile all my pics and put them in the photo album..

But i think i need to get another big photo album.. cos.. heh.. if u look at the amt of pics i have taken so far.. heh.. i really really need lots and lots of photo albums.. and trust me.. there'll be more pics of myself to come..

Hyak hyak hyak

Alamaaaaaaaak.. Naz brudder doing closing on fri, sat and sun.. sheesh kebab.. how to visit him like that?? unless i drag yani out for a movie on sat.. and we buka together.. but macam malas gitu.. haha.. well i'll ask her if she wants to la..

Kinda excited that Yani will be sleeping over tmr nite all the way till sunday.. heeeee.. ala.. tak payah balik sudah.. stay here for the rest of bulan puasa.. den i haf a fren.. heh..

Yes ppl.. sometimes it gets lonely not having any siblings.. like how i was chatting wif sayang last nite.. and her bro was talking to her.. sometimes irritating la.. but at least she's got someone to talk to.. someone to argue wif.. someone to do nonsensical stuff to..

But being the only child is also good la.. very nice.. i have lots of space to myself at home.. i dun have to share the toilet with anyone.. i dun have to fight for anything.. except currently it's with my dad.. over the tv..

When will i get my new tv.. i also dunno when.. only God knows.. if i can afford a tv by myself.. i wld have bought one a long time ago.. maybe i shld try calling up one of those charity lines to ask for a tv..

How dare my dad switch the channels while i was watching The Ashlee Simpson Show on sat.. toot.. tooooooot.. tooooooooooooooot.. he juz nonchalantly took the remote and switched to ESPN.. and he continued watching as if he did nothing wrong..

I WAS WATCHING THE SHOW FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!

It wasnt as if the tv was on but i was reading the papers or talking on the phone or smth.. sheesh kebab..

Oh well.. where was i?? yes.. how did i get from the subject of siblings to my dad?? ok nvm..

If i cld persuade yani.. to take up permanent residence at my place.. i can kiss her u know.. haha.. but i dun think she wants it.. my kiss i mean.. haha.. if she stays here.. it's soooooooooo much nearer to get to sch.. she can come out at 7..

Oh well.. that's all for today..

Ciao!!

| 10/25/2004 02:36:00 PM

Friday, October 22, 2004

Of all things.. i got picked up by an anneh yday morning..

Yessssssssss

An anneh.. who's moustache was sooooooooooo thick.. u noe the brand of potato chips called Mr Potato?? ok.. and u take a look at the caricature of Mr Potato on the pack..

The anneh's moustache was thicker than Mr Potato's!!!!!!

Pls dun laugh ok.. it was truly truly disgusting and gross!!!!!!!!!!

And it was all sayang's fault.. she came late.. so i waited for her at Harbourfront's taxi stand.. and pls.. i wasnt wearing anything sexy.. i was seriously decently clothed..

"Excuse me.. is this Harbourfront?"
"Umm yes......."
"Do u noe where the main office is?"
"I haf no idea. Perhaps u cld ask the info counter"
"Oh its ok. Actually i juz won 4D. So i think i'll go look for the main office myself"
"Ok"
"Btw.. are u working around here?"
"No"
"Studying?"
"Umm yes"
"So wat are u doing here?"
"Waiting for my fren"
"Going somewhere?"
"NUS"
"Ahh i see"
(silence from me)
"So i suppose i can give u a treat sometime?"
"HUH???????????"
"Since i won 4D i thot i shld give u a treat"
(wat the fuck!! i swore in my heart but i hope God forgave me)
"It's ok. Thank u very much"
"No really"
"And it's really ok. I dun want it"
"So wat time do u end today?"
"Umm.. late.. i dunno.. 4?"
"How abt i meet up wif u tmr"
(wat the fuck?????????)
"No i've got plans tmr"
"Then i guess i'll make it next wk then"
(doesnt dis guy get the drift?? take a look at urself brudder)
"No its ok. U dun haf to"
"It's ok. Cmon give me ur no and i'll call u up to arrange"
"Dun need la"
"Aww cmon!"

So me being me.. wanting to get him off my face.. i gave him.. my Hi-card no.. which i seldom use.. and the bugger wanted to shake my hands twice.. again i hope God forgave me.. i was stuck in a rut..

Sheesh kebab

Yday.. comel was SOOOOOOOOOOO IRRITATING!!!

God!! if i wasnt fasting.. i wld haf shown him my middle finger..

Watever it is.. the moral of the story is..

NEVER SIT IN FRONT OF COMEL

NEVERRRRRRRRRR

Maybe it was his revenge.. cos i stood behind him and snorted..

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

He juz told me smth funny happened to him while he was in the ps lec yday..

Oh well.. too lazy to type it out here..

Nvm..

I've only got 1 qn..

What is written on my face?? Why do i attract weirdos??

| 10/22/2004 02:16:00 PM

Thursday, October 21, 2004

HAHA

HAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Im seriously laughing so hard.. and its like soooooo early in the morning.. but i really cant help myself..

And it's all cos..

Naz brudder wrote me a testi mann..

And im laughing so hard cos his testi sounded so cheeky..

Firstly.. the thing abt "he know i know".. hahahahahahaha.. what the...................???????

Ok ok.. i know what he's talking abt.. but.. haha.. it's juz funny laaaaaaaa.............

And at the end when he told me and sayang to visit him.. it made him sound like a male hooker.. hahahahahahaha..

Sheesh kebab.. and to think he finds me cheeky..

Naz brudder.. i dunno if ure reading dis.. but thx for the testi.. definitely very sweet of u.. u may not know me well.. im NOT quiet ok.. wait till u see me in my true glory.. but hey.. its the thot that counts.. thx brudder..

Now now..

Naz.. do u haf a younger bro who's of my age.. who is half as nice as u.. who is as good lookin as u?? cos if u do..

INTRODUCE US BRUDDER!!

| 10/21/2004 07:26:00 AM

Wednesday, October 20, 2004

Camel looked goooooooooooooooood in this white mandarin collar top yday.. yeah mann!! he was lookin goooooooooooood.. wif his sharp features and all..

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And it didnt help that he was smiley yday.. and the goatee mann..

GOAAAAAAAATEEEEEEEEEEE

Ok stop it!!

Yes comel.. camel wore smart yday.. and he might not be as eye candy as u.. but at least..

HE IS NOT FULL OF HIMSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!

COMEL IS FULL OF HIMSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUUUUUUULLLLLLLL OF HIIIIIIIIIIIMSELFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Brudder.. ur goatee has to go brudder.. it had better be gone by tmr mann.. pls la.. U DUN LOOK GOOD IN A GOATEE AT ALL!!

And i knew u heard me anorting away yday.. so puhleeeeeeese.. stop trying to act cool abt it k!! my snort was loud enuff to be heard despite the amt of noise in the lt..

And why were u so rude as to not offer a seat to uk shyam?? cmon la.. u know the brudder is interested in u.. U HAF A GAY FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And dun wear ur jacket like a girl... DUUUUUUUUNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!! one day.. i'm gonna steal ur jacket.. muahahahahahahahaha..

And pls la.. nobody's fart smells goooood.. including urs.. and the nice smell that's wafting into ur nose right now.. is NOT ur fart.. but meeeeeeeeeee.. yeah despite me still in last nite's clothes.. I STILL SMELL GOOOOOOOOOD..

Unlike u ok.. wat a pig!!!! slept from subuh until now.. im a different case.. cos im not feeling well..

Oh comel has another fren.. he's called CHIMNEY MAN.. cos according to sayang the brudder smokes a lot..

So sayang.. when are we gonna get the Mexican Hat for Speedy Gonzales?? we shld thank him for getting camel back from comel.. and always making sure camel gets to school on time.. and he needs the good luck charm for the exams too..

And wif the Mexican Hat.. he wun need to bring a bag to school.. he can juz hang all his staioneries and rotate the hat around his head if he wants smth..

Hahahahahahahahahahaha

| 10/20/2004 02:47:00 PM

Sunday, October 17, 2004

I HAAAAAVE FREEEEEEEEEEE INCOMIIIIIIIIIING!!!!!!

ALL DAY LONG I CAN CHAT ON MY HP!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!

Although right now i hate to think abt last month's bill.. it has yet to reach me.. so i shld really prepare myself.. and hide it from mom..

Shhhhhhhhh.. dun tell her..

I feel so useless right now.. cos.. I DUNNO HOW TO USE MY NEW HP!!!!!!!!! i've been meddling wif it.. but.. haha.. it's not that bad la.. but i juz cant seem to get certain things rite.. and yesss.. i've been busy taking pics of myself.. juz me.. me..

MEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Ok.. changed the pics on my blog again.. from the pic of me looking so happy drinking my iced tall hazelnut latte.. i've changed it to me.. making this really silly face.. hahahahaha.. taken at SB-FE..

Speaking of which..

NAZ.. WASSUP WIF THE BRANDON NICK BRUDDER???? WASSSSUPPPPPP???????? NO WONDER I CLDNT FIND U ON FRIENDSTER.. GOD!! BRANDON OF ALL NAMES?? UR ALTER EGO I SUPPOSE..??

Anyways.. back to the pic.. am i pretty?? better say im pretty.. or else.. I WILL CRY.. wekkkkk.. hahahahaha..

And if u scroll further down.. u'll see a neo print.. taken on thursday.. all 4 of us.. an as usual.. i simply had to do smth wif my nose.. hahahahaha.. but pretty rite?? rite?? rite??

Lalalalalalala

Dis morning.. i experienced this really horrible pain in my tummy.. it was hurting so bad.. i cldnt even move from the bed.. and i was trying my best to find a spot.. so that my tummy wun hurt.. u name every possible spot.. from curling up to lying on my tummy.. nothing worked..

And at the end of it all.. i vomitted.. but luckily i managed to make my way to the toilet.. if not.. haf to change the bedsheets.. which i juz changed yday..

Ohhhh.. yday kan.. had dinner on top of a tree.. haha.. went to the same place at jb again.. and this time.. it was buffet.. so wat else.. me.. i took lots of food la.. but i finished everything ok!! abang and ijal juz stared at me in amazement as i ate all those stuff..

Well.. wat's new rite?? me and food.. i always eat a lot.. hey!! im a growing gal.. and i dunno if the weighing scale lied.. but im 65kg.. but i dun care already la.. really dun care.. i told aidi abt my weight.. but he said i dun look fat.. and its good for a gal to eat a lot.. hahahahaha..

I told him im a big fat baby elephant.. which was a mistake cos his next reaction was to say that baby elephants are cute.. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. and he say i look sweet..

Ok wadever brudder..

Wanna know wat i ate?? i had:

Plain rice
Kerabu rice
Ayam masak cili api
Ayam goreng
6 slices of BIG parus
Hati and mempedal
Ikan Bakar
Kerang
Soup lembu
Potato cakes
Teh tarik
Many many glasses of air mata kucing

And i hereby swear that..

I WILL NEVER MARRY SOMEONE LIKE MY DAD

NEVERRRRRRRRRRRR

Yday he pissed me off sooooooo much.. he kept on nagging and nagging.. but it wasnt at me or mom la.. he juz continued talking abt the same thing.. and he looked so glum.. can somebody puhleeeeeeese tell him to smile?? sheesh kebab..

Wish i cld perform a surgery on him.. tuck in his cheeks.. and.. Voila!! he will haf a constant smile plastered on his face.. hahahahahahahahahaha..

Oh oh.. yday i woke up around noon.. and without bathing i plonked myself in front of the tv.. and this time dad didnt scold.. cos he also didnt bathe.. and then.. HBO started showing Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets..

I was supposed to help mom wif the hsework.. but i had no mood.. so i did the next best thing.. i hid behind the door.. haha.. yesssss.. i sat behind the living room door.. watching HBO in glee.. wif dad looking nonchalant.. and mom kept calling out for me but i kept quiet..

But alas!! she decided to sweep the floor.. and she found me.. ahhh.. drats!! dammit!!

Lalalalalala

I dunno wat to say.. oh tmr i'll be cooking.. SOTONG!!!!! anybody wanna taste it??

Haha..

Love u all!!

| 10/17/2004 08:53:00 PM

Friday, October 15, 2004

My hair.. is like a lion's mane.. it's soooooooooooooo huge at the top.. that i look like an ikan bilis wif a helmet!! and i thot only peepz wif afro hair wld look like that..

Hahahahahahahahaha

Ok that was an exaggeration.. but ya.. my hair is getting kembang by the day.. and it doesnt help that the weather nowadays is always fucking hot..

Yes yes.. im allowed to swear cos i cant fast..

So anyways.. i was practically melting when i went to the shops juz now.. it was juz a short trip.. but i like la.. it's better to haf sunny days than rainy days.. rainy days are gloomy.. and yes.. right at this very moment i feel like hopping down to the beach..

I seriously do not know what to do wif my hair anymore.. i mean.. it's fine.. it's not so bad.. but shld i seriously continue to let it remain straight again??

I always spend lots of money on my hair.. its my crowning glory.. shld anything happen to it.. or shld i get a bad haircut.. i will definitely cry i tell u..

Oh well.. i'll juz go for the protein treatment.. or natural glossing at Salon4Hair..

Macs has this new range of Hello Kitty plush toys.. ala.. soooooooooo cute!!

This brings me back to exactly a yr ago.. when macs released the Alpha Bears..

Whoa!! i went crazy mann.. even sayang and neeta.. it didnt help that it was during the fasting month also.. so ya.. it was kinda embarrassing to walk into macs to buy an EVM in order to get the Alpha Bears..

And yessss.. i scouted for the bears at every macs outlet located in the east..

So now.. i'm tempted.. to collect all the hello kitties.. shld i??

SHLD I??????????????

Ok fine.. later i shall go macs.. and.. get one.. and i shall see if im drawn to all of them or not..

Time to scrub the toilet floor and the toilet bowl now.. juz now i already swept and mopped the floor.. and wiped the windows..

Lalalalalalalalalalalala

The pic on the right.. is of me.. smiling away in glee.. drinking my iced tall hazelnut latte.. it was the last iced tall hazelnut latte ever from SB-FE.. and my first in dunno how long.. hahaha..

Oooooh.. SB-PS has a new partner.. his name is nadim and he's eye candy mann.. but too bad.. he's younger than me.. oh shucks..

Oh god!! Aziela is gonna tell Taufik that i find him hot!!

Hahahahahahahahaha

Oh nvm.. watever.. she gets to meet him and i dun.. sheesh kebab..

The book is on the table.. table.. table..

| 10/15/2004 04:07:00 PM

Thursday, October 14, 2004

Lalalalalalalalalalala

Hee hee

TAAAAAAAUUUUUFIIIIIIIIIIIIIK

U ARE ONE HOTTTTTTTTTTTT FELLAAAAAAAAAAA

U ARRRRRRRRE A GOOOOOOOOD ENTERTAINERRRRRRR

U ROCK BRUDDDDDERRRRRRRRRRRRR

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Lalalalalalalala

Watched Oujia Board juz now.. fucking scary mann.. it didnt help that we were seated smack on the 1st row.. so when i think a scary scene will come up.. i will cover my face wif my jacket n juz read the subtitles..

But the movie was gooooooood laaaaaaaa.. go watch..

Camel.. comel.. bilal.. sheep shearer.. nirfana.. speedy gonzales..

Hoho..

Ok i shld stop it..

Lazy to update..

Till then..

Cheers!

| 10/14/2004 09:57:00 PM

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

who stole azreen's camel???? where has azreen's camel gone to???? HUH? SIAPA CULIK CAMEL AZREEN????

Saya pun buat persiasatan sendiri...dan...ta-dah!!! Kisah tentang apa yang telah terjadi!!!

Chomel (hehe..hot fella!) !!! Penjaga Camel di Jeddah dan kawasan2x yang sewaktu dgnnya..sedar yang dia sudan terhilang...CAMEL!!!!

Jadi beliau meyuruh sahabatnya, Speedy Gonzales (his fren who disappeared v quickly after gettin off the bus) untuk mencari Camel...

Setelah bercari lama..dia berjumpa Camel bersama...Nirfana!!!

Nirfana dan Camel dibawa pulang ke Base Kamp..

Nirfana kata...dia culik Camel kerana dia mahu minum susu Camel untuk menggemukkan badannya!!!

Chomel kesian tengok Nirfana kurus banget..jadi dia pun menjual camel kepada Nirfana..

Nirfana suka..sekarang dia boleh minum susu untuk menggemukkan badannya..

Si Bilal pula sedang ber-azan..

Dan Chomel dan rakan-rakannya..sekarang di-join oleh Tukang Jaga Lembu(Manly guy)..pergi sembahyang jumaat bersama...eh...CAMEL pun ikut tau..
haha

al-kisah lelaki-lelaki baru di dalam hidup kita..amin

| 10/13/2004 11:55:00 PM

This song.. never fail to strike a chord in me..

The lyrics.. juz listen to them carefully.. as much as i dun wanna think bad abt a certain someone.. i haf to.. cos that's the only way.. for me to stop liking him..

But no matter how hard i try.. at the end of the day.. my feelings for him will ever change.. he was a very special person in my life.. i ever told him.. that no matter what happens.. he'll always haf a special place in my heart..

And true to my words.. i've given him.. a special place in my heart.. a place so deep.. it's untouchable.. no matter how much Azian tells me to forget him.. no matter how much Azian say all the negative stuff abt him.. no matter how much Azian detest him for doing this to me..

It's a place.. that even the most sarcastic words cant hurt him.. i've put him in a safe place.. no matter how much my dearest kukuz wanna try to get thru to him.. no matter how much they wanna resolve this issue for me.. i'll never let them.. this is btwn me and him..

Someday.. when the time is right.. when im abt to burst.. i'll do smth abt it.. but as for now.. im not gonna do anything.. i love him too much.. i treasure him too much.. i dun want him to hate me.. i dun want him to find me too pushy..

I know what kind of person he is.. and nobody.. i repeat.. nobody can touch or destroy.. all the wonderful memories i've had wif him.. no matter what u all say.. no matter what u all tell me to do.. i will not do anything to hurt him.. no matter how much he used to hurt me..

I lied to all of u.. on the surface.. u might think i dun care abt him anymore.. u might think i dun think abt him.. i do.. but i've stopped hurting.. i've accepted things the way they are.. despite not getting answers.. despite not knowing what went wrong..

He's a good guy.. trust me.. u might tell me.. if he's a good guy.. he wun hurt me.. but things happen for a reason.. i dunno what actually happened.. that's why i see no reason in hating him.. i see no reason in getting upset over this..

Someday.. when i find out the truth.. then i'll take things from there..

I'm a happier person now.. i do think of him.. from time to time.. it only made me realise.. how much i treasure him..

Things may not seem bright for the 2 of us.. i dunno what's in store for me in the future.. all i know is.. if i cant get him.. i hope.. there's someone out there who can love me as much as he did.. i hope there's someone out there whom i can give all my heart too..

I wun ever forget him.. he'll always be my first love.. i guess im juz unlucky that i dun get to spend the rest of my life wif my first love.. but its ok.. things happen for a reason..

God has his own plans for me..

I've quit searching.. i've quit questioning..

The more i search.. the more frustrated i get.. the real world is scary.. despite all the lobang pantats i've met.. i've gotta thank them.. for turning me into a mature young lady..

Solo Con Panna was a lobang pantat.. i might call him names.. but trust me.. deep in my heart.. i dun hate him.. i haf to thank him.. for making me see the world from a wide angle lens.. he taught me a lot..

Love is a sensitive thing.. the more i search for it.. the more it will run away from me.. i realise.. i cant search for love.. i cant see it.. i can only feel it.. for those of u who watched A Walk To Rmbr.. i treat love like the wind.. i muz feel it..

I dun wanna question what God has in store for me.. cos it's juz not right.. it's juz so wrong.. He might make me suffer now.. but im sure He wun make suffer throughout my life.. only He knows wat is good for me.. what is the best..

I wanna apologize.. to the guys i've rejected.. to the guys whom i said that we can nvr be more than frenz..

It wasnt my intention to hurt u all.. u haf to understand.. feelings and emotions.. they cant be explained.. it's smth tricky.. love cant be forced.. u cant expect me to love.. or like u.. in the same magnitude that u do..

If i dun feel that way for u.. then i juz dun.. maybe we're not meant to be together now.. i dunno.. ask God.. only He knows who i'll end up marrying.. or whether i'll continue to remain a spinster..

If He decides to move my heart.. to make me fall for any of u.. then i'll accept it wif all my heart..

U may see me like dis.. u may see me not wanting to engage in serious conversations.. each time a guy tells me that he has smth serious to tell me.. i'll try my best to change the topic..

It's not cos i'm immature.. i juz dun wanna think abt any of those things right now.. i juz want a happy life.. juz for once.. let me go wif the flow.. juz for once let me follow my heart.. wherever it'll take me to.. juz for once dun make me feel guilty for having to reject u.. juz for once.. i dun wanna make the wrong decision and hurt any one of u..

I'm ready.. i'm ready to fall in love again.. i'm ready to be swept off my feet.. but since i'm not looking.. since i'm leaving everything in the hands of god and fate.. i'm juz gonna sit by the sidelines.. i'm waiting for cupid to strike..

I'm waiting for a guy to send my heart into a frenzy.. i'm waiting for a guy to love me wholeheartedly.. and me doing the same to him.. i dunno who he will be.. i dunno how he's gonna look like..

None of the guys i've met so far haf managed to send my heart in a frenzy.. none of them haf managed to warm up the coldness in my heart.. none at all..

If it's meant to be.. then it's meant to be..

If it happens.. then it happens..

If the feelings are right.. then they are..

I juz wanna be happy..

| 10/13/2004 09:21:00 AM

Dis is for lulu who can't open my blog for some godforsaken reason...

Dearest loveliest Kukuz (Nurazreen,Nurul Asyikin,Norliza,Neeta Rai),
Today is the day i tell you all how much all of you mean to me..you know..the happiest times i've had these past months were with the 4 of u..i laughed, i cried, i laughed even harder....they have been the best times i've had this year...

First i want to explain something..i cannot explain why i become sad at the end of a long day of madness and happines..But i will try my best...usually..i feel sad bcos sumthin happened dat day struck me real hard..it could be wat one of u said to me or it could be that nothing happened at all..if u get my drift...partly, it's cos i noe i'll be goin home..and i will be parting ways with u guys..i cannot put into words why i get sad..i just do..

i look back at my life dis year and i think, "Wow..i'm really lucky to haf the 4 of u..in ur own quirky ways..u make my life...livable.."

Through all the lobang pantats we met..thru all the guys that just up-ed and disappeared..thru all our disagreements...u guys haf been there for me..

we supported each other when we were faced wif lobang pantats...and we gave each other advice on wat to do and wat not to do..

the guys that came into our lives..and then suddenly walk out..our hearts get broken...and i think we're still recoverin from them..at least i am..let me tell all of u...my heart is still in pain..i never fully recovered from my personal heartbreak..eventhough it was clearly one-sided...my heart broke into so many pieces..it's still healing..i dunno if can ever let myself go again..love is so complicated..but wif u guys..it's so simple..all 5 of us love each other unconditionally without any qualms and reservations...loving a guy..is just so much harder..

Neeta...my sweet darlin...i haven't seen u for a while..i miss u like crazy babe...i spent so much time wif u at the beginning of dis year...and now i hardly see u...i still love u so so much...i'm so happy u finally found sumone neeta...u make me laugh wif all ur antics..and u're so bold and straight-forward..having u around never fails to make me laugh...u noe i believe in u..no matter wat happens...do ur best girl...who cares where u went to? It's how u make use of wat u've got...ok....sometimes when i look back on these last 3 years..i think of how lucky i am to haf u...we bitched together, criticised together, and even cried together..u've had a few problems along the way..and i hope i managed to help u get thru them..somehow..u can count on me always being ready to help u..u noe that...haha..u better take good care of him ah..i dun want ur parents having to matchmake u wif sumone else ah..but if that happens..u know where u can runaway to right??? i love u..

Liza...My lil' Lizzie seemingly unemotional on the surface yet u are one emotional mess inside aren't u? I noe u too well..i noe wat u're feeling inside...u think i cannot read u? Haha...i can...despite me making fun of u so much..i still love u..i just say all those stuff to evoke some form of emotional response from u..dats all..sumtimes u may think i get angry wif u...i don't lah...angry is too severe...irritated maybe...haha..but truthfully...i care so much abt u..i worry abt u so much...after results..after ur fall...those were the times i cried so much bcos..i came so close to losing u dat day..and after the results..i knew that u were upset..yet u tried to look happy for me..i felt so sad..so helpless..just like the day i saw u lying on the ground..i didn't know how to help u...for that few moments in my life..i didn't noe wat to do...i can only pray for the best..but i'm glad u're finding ur direction..everything happens for a reason..and i will always be here for u...u can count on that...I love u..

Lulu...My Baby Boo..i also cannot explain how we got close..i cannot explain how it is 5 girls wif 5 diff personalities can gel so well together..best of all..i cannot explain how we can love each other so much..we're sisters...we're best friends..we're each others confidantes...lulu...dis year has been one emotional roller coaster ride for u, me n azreen huh...u...i did the best i could..i'm glad u worked things out for urself...sometimes i wish i can just find ur Mr Right for u...but i dun haf that power unfortunately..i wish i can help u so that u won't be put thru the whole process of searching again and again and again...i wish i can do sumthing..anything for u..how can i not love u lulu? U are the kindest person i noe...everything abt u is wonderful..sometimes i wonder why guys are so blind to how special u are...i can't understand how someone as beautiful as u..cannot even find one guy who can love u till the end of time..sure u're young..he will come..u noe the drill..but honestly..wat's takin so long??? Lulu..i want to tell u today..there is nuthin wrong wif u...u are in every way..a good girl...i love u...remember that ok?

Azreen..my sayang..wow..where do i even begin to tell u how i feel abt u? I cannot...i'm crying as i write this..thank u so much for telling me wat u did...if i had remembered..i probably wouldn't haf done wat i did...i wish..i can turn back the clock..i wish i can get all the answers for u...i wish i wish..i wish i can bring u the true happiness that u are seeking...i'm so afraid..of letting go..so so afraid..i'm taking ur advice..as much as i'm hurting right now..i'm taking ur advice...we've been thru so much together...so so much..all the laughter and all the tears..all the madness u and i get up to...idz not ur fault sayang..u did the right thing..i finally understand..after reading ur letter...u only help to re-affirm wat i'm doing..i'm not ready to find sumone else after HIM azreen..i think i've never been..a part of me will always be in love wif him and the memory of him...i wish u could haf the power to read their minds azreen..that would make things a whole lot easier...especially for us...i wish i knew..u noe..i wish....i miss him..i miss him...wat did i do to deserve all the pain? Wat did we all do to deserve all the pain?i wish i had the answers as well..i thank u today azreen for everything..for EVERYTHING..for sacrificing ur time..ur energy...ur money..to spend time wif me...i appreciate everything u do for me..thank u...i love u so so much..

I wish i could take away all our pain..but i can't...Kukuz..we're mad and fun..but we're suffering on the inside aren't we? Wat else can we do but rely on each other?

That's why eventhough i look forward to the fasting month.. i dread not being able to see all of u..i dunno how im goin to cope without all of u...u guys are my pillars of strength besides my mum..i've been leaning on u guys for support all these while..and i dunno how i'm goin to cope without all of u..

I'm so afraid of waking up tmr..and realising u guys are not in my life..i'm so afraid of losing anyone of u...How did our friendship come to this?

I wish i knew..but i'm glad it did..cos' without all 4 of u..i dunno how i will be now..i love all of u..thank u for everything..

let's stick together...ok? Forever..

Love,Shaikhah..

| 10/13/2004 01:50:00 AM

This is Shaikhah!!

Just want to tell my sayang..I LOVE U!!!

I LOVE U!! I LOVE U VERY VERY MUCH!!!

thank u so much for telling me wat u told me today..

thank u for everything..

thank u for loving me..

thank u...

MUACKS!

And..u did the right thing..dun blame urself ok?

I LUB U DEEP DEEP

| 10/13/2004 01:13:00 AM

Monday, October 11, 2004

I am having a very horrible stomachache.. my tummy feels like its being wrung hard.. its like trying to wring the water off a pair of jeans..

Wekkkkkkkkkkkkk

It hurts so bad.. and to make it worse.. my backache is back.. sheesh.. "my backache is back"?? haha.. well.. yeah.. it's almost that time of the month.. so excuse me for complaining too much.. excuse me if i get tired easily.. excuse me if i feel like sleeping a lot..

Excuse me for any emotional breakdown ya??

SAKIT PERUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok i dunno wat song to put on my blog.. and yeah.. the song actually suits my mood right now.. very loud.. full of angst.. well.. not at anyone in particular.. juz full of angst at my tummyache..

What do u want from me oh dear tummy?? nak berak pun tak boleh.. so what do u want?? i fed u more than enuff yday.. and i cant feed u anymore.. cos it's tooooooooooo full.. u haf yet to help wif the excretion of the past few days' food..

Hahahahahahahahaha.. ok crap..

Is anybody interested in knowing abt my date?? i dun think so.. simply becos it's wif aidi rite?? Humph!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well.. even though he doesnt read my blog.. i wun divulge too much info la..

All i can say is.. the date was surprisingly nice.. he was very sweet.. but of course i was mean and sarcastic.. and not to forget.. irritating..

The cable car ride wasnt scary at all.. and i was sooooooooooo fascinated at the view of the cruise ship from the top.. oh ya!! we got a pink coloured cable car!! wooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahahahaha

So ya.. took monorail around the whole island.. sat at tanjung beach.. la la la.. went to bugis.. looked at clothes.. i didnt drag him ok.. he wanted to look at tees.. so we ended up looking at every shop.. he asked if there was anything i fancied.. yes.. A LOT.. but of course i refused his offer to get me smth..

Walked all the way from bugis.. to sim lim.. to little india.. to farrer park.. to boon keng!!!!!!!!!!! hahahahahahahahahaha.. had dinner at the macs near my hse.. then he wanted to walk me home.. which was fine wif me.. but then my mom called telling me to make my way to parkway.. so he sent me all the way there..

So yup.. i really had a wonderful sunday.. im glad i went on the date..

It felt so nice to hold someone's hand.. it felt so nice to haf someone feeding me.. it was so nice to haf a shoulder to lean on.. it was nice to haf a shoulder to rest my head on.. in fact he made me feel secure and protected..

But it was nothing la.. i dun feel for him THAT way.. i did clarify wif him that since it was a date i let him off for holding my hand and putting his hands on my hips.. but at the end of the day.. we can only remain as frenz.. cos im not rushing into anything right now..

So there u go.. my nice wonderful date..

Wld i wanna go out wif him again?? yup.. i dun mind.. i shall keep my options open..

Im juz waiting.. waiting for that special someone.. to take over his place in my heart.. a few guys did come close to it.. however.. why is it.. at the end of the day.. there will always be a 'BUT'?? i dunno.. my heart is ready.. im ready to be swept off my feet.. so now.. all i haf to do is.. to wait patiently.. for that special someone to come along.. and be mine forever.........

| 10/11/2004 02:49:00 PM

Saturday, October 09, 2004

Life is good

Life is great

Life is unbelievable

Oh yeah oh yeah

Hehehehehehehehehehehehehe

I LOVE ALL OF U

I LOVE MY KUKUZ

I LOVE MY LIFE

But most imptly

I LOVE MYSELF

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Lalalalalalalalalalala

Lalalalalalalalalalala

Life is wonderful

Wonnnnnnnnnnderrrrrrrrrrfuuuuuuuuuuuuuul

And all the more.. it makes me wanna say stay single

| 10/09/2004 10:59:00 AM

Thursday, October 07, 2004

TAAAAAAAAAUUUUUUUFIIIIIIIIIIIIIK

U WERE HOT BRUDDDDDDDDERRRRRR

SEXXXXXXXXXXYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

PAAAAAAAAAANAAAAAAAASSSSSSSSS

MELECUUUUUUUUUURRRRRRRRRRRR

SIIIIIIIIIZZZZZZZZZZLIIIIIIIIIIIIINGG

Hehehe.. although ur voice aint raspy like wat rock n roll singers shld sound like.. but still.. u did gooooooooood.. u're suited to sing fast cheerful songs..

And that dance mooooooooooove..

BALLS OF FIRE DUUUUUUUUUUUUDE!!!!!!!!!

Hahahahahahahahaha

I really shld control myself.. dis isnt gooooooooooood.. cukup cukup azreen.. dah nak dekat puasa.. kena maintain..

Ok now.. let us mourn.. for the closure of SB-FE..

Once the clock hits midnite on sat nite.. SB-FE is NO MORE..

Do u read me??

NOOOOOOOOO MORRRRRRRRE

The entire store.. all the partners will be relocated to the one at Suntec.. which will be opened next yr.. so for now.. temporarily.. they'll be working at Bugis.. which is closer to home.. yeah..

FINALLY!! bugis will be HAPPENING for the next few mths..

But now.. wait go Far East macam tak fun gitu.. i'll go there to buy clothes.. but there'll no longer be Naz.. or the Twins.. or Jeremy.. so sedih!! the thot of having to walk thru Citylink to get to Suntec juz to see Naz.. is very.. YUK!!

But then again.. Suntec.. City Hall.. near Esplanade.. wah!! romantic la like that.. hee hee.. and shaik.. umm umm.. SB-OE.. dekat je eh.. hahahahaha.. dun do anything funny without me ah..

*wags fingers*

Today.. Naz was very hyper.. laughed at every single thing.. felt goooooooood to hear his laughter again.. it's this rhythmic kinda laughter.. not infectious.. but ya.. nice..

Alaaaaaaaaaaa.. he's getting engaged.. next month.. heeeeeee.. and me and sayang.. tak tahu malu.. we invited ourselves!!

WE ARE INVITED TO NAZ'S ENGAGEMENT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cant wait actually.. soooooooooo exciting!! Naz is the sweetest thing in the world!! i feel like telling his fiancee-to-be.. Su..

"U are one lucky gurl.. he's HOT!! has a TIGHT ASS.. looks goooooood in WHITE.. dedicated.. fillial.. funny......................"

Ahhhhhhh!!!

When will it be my turn??

WHENNNNNNN WIIIIIIIILLLLLL IIIIIIIIIIIT BEEEEEEEEE MYYYYYYYYYYY TURRRRRRRNNNNNNN????????

Oh well.. tmr there'll be a performance at SB-FE.. oh dammit. one of the twins will be singing.. someone will be playing the guitar.. ahhhhhhh.. cant wait!! den can see jeremy also!! and.. umm.. the other nice twin.. hahahahahahaha..

I seriously need free incoming calls.. badly.. juz today itself.. aidi called me 11 times!!

11 TIMES!!!!!

Whyyyyyyyyyyyyy?? whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy?? why meeeeeeeeeeeeee???????????????

Lalalalalalala..

Do u haf any idea how much im in love wif myself?? yesssss..

IM IN LURRRRRRRVE WIF MYSELF.. EVERYBODY NEEEEEEDS SOME LURRRRRVIIIIIN..

Hohohohohoho.. me and sayang.. we were sooooooooooo NARCISSISTIC.. we took sooooooo many pics of ourselves.. and went to develop them straightaway.. but hey..

WEEEEEEEEE LOOOOOOOOOKED GOOOOOOOOOOOOD

Hahahahahaha..

Someone has made clear his intentions of wanting to woo me.. am i happy?? flattered yes.. but not happy.. not delirious.. i dunno why.. he's funny.. nice to talk to.. super lame.. but it's juz not right.. not right at all..

There's only one thing that i want.. only one person that i wanna spend the rest of my life with.. i dun wanna ask for anything more.. if being with him means giving up lots of things.. i wld.. i wld do it so gladly..

| 10/07/2004 09:53:00 PM

Wednesday, October 06, 2004

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I dunno how to begin my post

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Dis is soooooooooooooooooo funny

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Hilarious

Ok i shld stop it.. but i cant help myself.. trust me.. every single thing that has happened since monday is really cracking me up..

Oh God!! cannot cannot.. i cannot tahan already.. i need to laugh..

Ok think i shld start from friday.. i took a cab.. to lavender.. the driver was frenly.. nice.. wasnt cheekopek.. so bla bla bla we started talking.. abt lots of stuff la.. school.. religion.. and then..

"So ure going to meet ur bf?"
"Huh? uncle im juz meeting my fren"
"Ya la.. but BOYfren rite?"
"Umm.. no.. juz a fren"
"But this fren is a boy la"
"Uncle.. im meeting a fren.. a GIRL"
"Ohh.. i see.. but u do haf a bf rite?"
"Umm.. no dun haf"
"Sure or not? someone pretty like u" (waaaaaaaaat the...........?)
"Uncle.. im single.. no bf"
"Usually when girls say like that it means they haf bf"
"Ummm.. no i dun"
"But why?"
"Huh?? how wld i know?"
"But im sure u haf many guy frenz"
"Umm.. ok ok la"
"Then all these guy frenz like u rite?" (wat in the world?)
"Umm.. i dunno.. haha"
"I think sure got.. but u push them away"
"Haha.. not really la.. but i dun wanna rush into things"
"Ya true.. i think ure only 20? still young"
"Ya.. my studies come first.. if it's meant to be then it's meant to be la"
"Ya ya.. study first.. but got anybody that u like?"
"Umm.. got.. but i dunno la"
"Wat do u mean u dunno?"
"I really dunno.. if i like then i like.. and if he really wants me den he juz wait la"
"Yes that's the way"
"Haha"
"Ok that will be $10.70"
"Ok thank u uncle"
"By the way miss.. can i haf ur number?" (WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT?)
"HUH??"

Then the uncle smiled and i quickly got off the cab..

For those of u who dunno.. i was away at Bintan for the weekend.. it was kinda sudden.. cos actually dad had to go there for a conference.. and since his superiors gave him allowance.. he decided to spend the money on ferry tix for mom and me..

So ya.. then there was this one time.. i was looking at things.. u know those roadside markets.. so ya.. looking looking.. then i saw from the corner of my eye.. a group of guys.. my first instinct was to clutch my bag la.. impt belongings.. and then.. of all things..

SOMEONE PINCHED MY SIDE

I'm serious.. not kidding.. it wasnt a light brushing of the fingers.. his fingers were practically pressed into my side.. due to shock.. it took me a while to react.. so by the time i turned the group of guys were already in front..

God!! that was sick!! and mind u.. i wasnt wearing anything revealing nor figure hugging.. my pink 3/4 sleeve top..

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

And then on sunday.. on the ferry ride home.. i wanted to stand at the deck.. but mom was afraid and dad simply refused.. he cldnt be bothered.. so i went out wif one of my dad's colleague.. who is malay but look like a complete indian..

So as he opened the door.. i saw many many guys.. this one bunch of young mly guys and one of them was cute.. and these 2 guys standing right at the end.. it was nice feeling the wind in my face.. and i noticed the bunch of guys were looking at me.. smth happened while i was there.. which im gonna tell later..

So i stood for almost the entire trip.. i went in when it started to rain.. but by that time we were reaching singapore already.. as i went in.. hee hee.. the bunch of young mly guys smiled.. hee hee.. but ya.. cldnt do anything la.. wat happens if my dad's colleague tell my parents rite?

So after i went back in i told my mom this:

"Ibu.. smth happened when i was outside"
"What?"
"There were these 2 guys standing standing at the end.. then tengah enjoy the wind.. tengah berangan i noticed one of them holding up a bottle of mineral water"
"Okaaaay"
"I cldnt hear cos it was noisy.. but ya la.. i think he asked whether i nak air tak.. then i geleng kepala"
"Okaaaay"
"Then he pointed to Cik Rashid and mouthed smth la.. he asked if that's my father"
"Then wat did u say?"
"I geleng kepala aje.. then he asked who he is la and i buat bodoh"
"Ala.. kenapa gitu.. cakap je he's ur uncle ke.. tak baik tau"
"Eeeeeeee.. tak payah la.."
"Apasal?"
"He's got receding hairline"
"U mean the guy?"
"Yes!! and he was in a singlet!! with tight jeans that look sooooooooooo wrong on him"
"Ohhhh.. tua ke muda?"
"OLD!!"
"Like how old?"
"Maybe a few years younger than u.. to me.. that's OLD"
"Oh ok"

So yup.. that was wat happened on the ferry ride home.. sheesh..

Then.. monday.. went to sentosa wif sayang!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And it was like a dream come true cos the sun was shining brightly.. i didn't haf time to frolick at the beach while at Bintan.. cos again.. nobody wld layan me.. so yup.. Sunday nite me and sayang decided the time and where to meet..

We had breakfast at Harbourfront Macs.. then there was this group of ns guys.. they were going to sentosa too.. so all were chi except for one malay.. they left for sentosa before us.. so after that me and sayang made our way to the shuttle bus.. and yeah.. i stripped into my shorts and sports bra in the bus..

So after paying for our entrance tix.. we walked to the other end.. waiting for the internal shuttle bus.. and then..

Oh shit!! the ENTIRE group of ns guys we saw earlier practically stared at us.. and of course i mumbled to sayang saying that it was a mistake to strip so early.. so 2 buses came.. one was the blue line.. the other was the beach minivan..

So i told sayang we shld take the BIGGER bus.. but she insisted we take the minivan cos the guys got on it.. i was reluctant at first.. so i told her we're taking the front seat.. so when we sat down.. the one and only mly guy sat behind us.. then i heard this:

"Hello.. hello.. helloooooooo"

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaat the...........?? and there sayang was laughing away.. so i turned.. and that stupid asshole pretended to adjust his cap.. and then.. one of the guys at the back shouted:

"Horny ah!!"

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat?????????????

And yes.. sayang juz continued laughing.. she found it soooooooooooooo super funny.. now i know how liza felt when sayang laughed at her at sakura.. and then.. sayang had to rub it in.. saying that guys like me cos of my straight hair..

God!!

So the guys alighted first at Palawan Beach.. we wanted to go to Siloso Beach.. so after they alighted.. i turned to my left and look outside la.. and the malay guy waved!! and me being me.. i waved back.. but i didnt mean anything la.. although he was kinda cute.. but KUDUT NAK MAMPOS!!

U know.. when me and sayang got down at Siloso Beach.. we were practically jumping and screaming.. cos it was soooooooooooooo super sunny.. the first thing that we did was to jump into the water.. cos.. umm.. we decided that there was no need to bathe.. hahahahahahaha..

But then it got boring.. so we walked to Palawan Beach.. dripping wet.. and shiny cos of the tan oil that we sprayed.. i was half hoping we wld bump into him but yet a part of me didnt want it to happen..

Saw them playing beach volley.. so we put our bags at a safe place and walked and walked.. went to the suspension bridge.. lied down on the wooden planks.. i tell u.. 10 mins of juz sitting there.. i got a tan already..

Then we walked back.. as we walked past them.. he waved again.. this time with both hands!! hahahahahahahaha.. then we sat near where they played.. wah!! the water was nice.. the sun was shining brightly.. and a few times the ball came in my direction..

So anyway.. we finally started talking.. him and me.. cos sayang sat dunno where.. and he asked why i sat there alone.. asked if i wanna join them play beach soccer.. of course i declined.. and then i noticed sayang walk away.. to our bags that was at the other end.. tooooooooooot..

So that was when he asked if i wanna sit on the bench and we can talk.. so ya.. i sat on the bench and he sat on the table.. so bla bla bla.. we talked.. bla bla bla.. funny guy.. then we walked across the bridge together to get to sayang.. so bla bla bla.. bla bla bla.. bla bla bla.. me and sayang took some nice pics..

Then ya.. me and sayang wanted to leave already.. so we showered.. made ourselves up nicely.. then he saw us leaving.. so we juz said goodbye la.. then after me and sayang walked for a few metres.. we heard someone shouting.. turned back and it was him.. telling us to wait so that we cld go home together..

Okaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

U shld haf seen how crazy i was.. i was soooooooooooooo mad and talkative.. and sarcastic at times.. i did all that hoping to turn him off.. i cant really explain it.. within that short period of time.. i felt so comfortable talking to him.. and.. yup.. i juz.. well.. oh nvm..

Took the monorail.. wif me snorting away like a pig.. and doing all sorts of nonsense.. then on the bus back to singapore.. me and sayang sat together and he sat behind us.. then he said:

"Why dun one of u come to the back since the other one has a camera"

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat?????????? fine.. he wanted me to sit with him.. but.. haha.. i didnt wanna move my ass cs i had the window seat..

Then me and sayang wanted to go to town.. and he had to go home.. so.. ya.. we stood at the bus stop together.. sayang sat down and him and me stood.. then he found a seat.. so i continued standing beside sayang..

"Azreen.. come here la"
(waaaaaat in the world? so i went over to him)
"Sit la"
(so i sat.. we faced opposite directions which means our faces were smack in front of each other and i almost put my hand on his thigh.. u know me.. i can be quite touchy feely.. and i dunno why i felt like smacking his thigh but i managed to control myself)
"Yesssssss.. howwwwwww caaaaaaaan i helllllllllp uuuuuuuuu?"
"Azreen.. wld u like to take the cable car with me?"
"Huh?? Wat?? Now??" (my eyes big big)
"Tadi i nak ajak u but terlupa"
(waaaaaaaaat in the worrrrrld??)
"Oh.. ok.. maybe some other time"
"U dun mind?"
"No la.. it's ok.. but promise me one thing"
"What?"
"When we're on the cable car u must layan me.. cos im afraid of heights"
"Oh.. kalau i tak layan?"
"Then i will smack ur face"
"Wah!! garang seh!!"
"Haha.. eh tapi kan naik cable car expensive??"
"Ohh.. my fren works there.."
"Ahh.. i see.. i see.."

Then i called sayang over.. and i started disturbing her.. telling her to choose 1 out of the 4 mapleks to marry.. i told her the one sweeping the road wld make a good husband.. she dun haf to worry abt housework.. hahahahaha.. and i saw him smiling away with a resigned look on his face.. he muz really be thinking im mad..

Then 65 came.. so i asked him:

"So when u nak naik cable car?"
"One of these days.. i'll call u"
"Cik abang.. u cant call me cos u dun haf my no"

Hahahahahahahahahaha.. i dunno if that was his way of trying to get my no.. but it was so LAME!!!!!

Hahahahahahahahahaha

Im sorry i haf to stop typing

So ya.. after he got my no.. he called me twice within 1 hr.. and at nite we talked some more.. and yday he called me thrice.. i dun find him irritating.. i enjoy talking to him..

Oh well.. that was what happened.. yday i found out some more stuff..

I dun feel uncomfortable.. juz.. well.. i dunno how to say it..

Oh well

And sayang.. he wasnt looking down my chest when he sat on the table.. i asked and he denied it..

| 10/06/2004 10:14:00 AM

Tuesday, October 05, 2004

My skin hurts.. so bad.. like hell.. ok not like hell cos ive nvr been there so i dunno wat it's like.. but yeah.. u get the drift..

The skin on both shoulders.. it's stinging wif pain.. and so is my nose.. the skin is tight.. which means..

I CANT SCRUNGE UP MY NOSE!!

Which happens to be one of my favourite daily activities other than snorting and flaring my nostrils..

And no.. i cant wear anything off shoulder.. cos of the tanline.. its soooooooooo freaking obvious.. hahahahahahahaha..

Tu la.. nak sangat tan kan.. see wat happens.. dah la exposed to the sun and sea over the weekend.. and yes.. today the sun is shining brightly again..

And im tooooooo dehydrated.. other than being exposed to the sun i kept peeing.. so now im thirsty.. very very thirsty..

Anyways.. i'll post the pics taken at the beach.. in the upcoming weeks.. i'll change my pics weekly.. hahahahahahahaha..

And the funniest thing i was talking about.. well.. i cant be bothered to post it.. cos i'll juz start laughing out loud.. cos the entire thing was so super lame.. super duper lame.. God!! i cant even think of it..

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Mind u.. i'm not laughing at any specific person.. it's juz that the entire situation was sooooo funny.. and it didnt help that i was behaving like a mad person.. which umm.. actually failed to irritate a certain someone.. oh nvm..

Yeah yeah.. i know the pic on my blog is beeeeeeeeeg..

HUUUUUUUUUUGEEEEEEEEE

But..

I LOIKE!!!

Hahahahaha.. im narcissistic.. i love myself.. im in love wif myself.. im all abt..

ME
MEEEEEEEE
MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Ok stop it already!

Last nite i fell asleep again.. no i fell alseep TWICE while conferencing wif lulu and sayang.. cldnt help it.. too tired..

And of all things.. both of them decided to interrogate me abt farid..

Whaaaaaaaaaaaat the................???????????????

Actually i didnt mind la.. i'll entertain their inquisitive minds.. if i know the ans then i'll know la..

Ok this is a bad post.. a very very bad post.. cos i'm neither reflecting nor filling in the details abt wat has happened in my life so far..

But i dunno where to begin!! i dunno how to say it.. oh well..

Honestly.. do i look like a Filippino?? cos many ppl say so.. shld i be flattered?? are Filipinos considered pretty??

What vibe do i give off?? Why do i always get hit on by:

1) Cheekopeks
2) Married men
3) Lame guys
4) Shorties!!
5) Taxi drivers ( recently)

Ok dis is bad.. i cant blog properly.. i've lost my momentum.. dis is baaaaaaaaaaaaad..

Oh nvm.. i'll juz end off here.. i'm tired.. i need to do other stuff online..

I'll update abt yday some other time ya?

| 10/05/2004 01:33:00 PM