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Friday, July 30, 2004

Andi has chosen to be a complete ass by not tagging after he has read my blog..

Oh well.. it's ok.. it's really really ok.. i wasn't expecting him to tag anyway after he called juz now.. i'm not angry.. how cld i be angry.. at him?? cos afterall.. andi is in my list of hotties.. this.. shall be up soon.. really really soon.. hehe..

Juz got back from dinner actually.. and there's hindustan showing on suria.. and the songs are super duper nice.. and i'm like shaking away.. but SEDIH!! it's salman khan and sanjay dutt.. no hrithik roshan.. or shah rukh khan.. of course i prefer the latter..

Mann.. if only i can find a guy like shah rukh khan.. he can dance.. he's charming.. good looking.. funny.. hot.. oh la la la.. he's juz too good for words!!

La la la..

Shaikhah.. really thanks for announcing to the whole wide world what i did outside SB-PS.. seriously i didn't know what came over me.. cos when we walked past.. the partner at the POS was lookin.. then he smiled.. of course me being me flashed back a smile.. dun want ppl to think i'm stuck up.. then automatically my hand went up and i waved!!

God!! judging by the look on his face and the way he waved back.. he muz have thought i like him or something.. oh mann..

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TIDAAAAAAAAAAAAAKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Now i'm really embarrassed to go back there again.. i WILL NOT step into SB-PS when the guys are doing closing.. NO!!

But it's ok la.. i know i kinda embarrassed u a lot yday evening.. but.. u had to endure me too.. my constant fartings.. yes.. ever since monday i was farting like twice every 5 mins.. and occasionally u cld smell it.. and my bladder was working overtime.. so i kept going to the toilet while she had to wait for me..

And that woman.. while i was in the handicap toilet.. simply because the main toilet was locked.. she started to pretend as if she was with the police and i was the suspect.. and so.. ya.. u cld hear her talking to an imaginary walkie-talkie.. what with all the sound effects.. and me.. after i was done with everything i opened the door slowly.. looked to my right.. pretended to be scared and started running and screaming!!

Haha..

MADNESS!!

And according to her.. when we walked into SB-HV on wednesday.. and apparently.. the partner at the POS looked so dazzled when he saw us.. haha..

Dazzled..

But of course i cldn't sense that.. because the manager who was on duty had an absolutely fucked up face.. i was used to seeing Man each time i walked into SB-HV..

I'm not exaggerating.. the moment i set my foot into SB-HV.. my radar sensed a very unfrenly vibe from her.. and she stared daggers at me.. and maybe shaikhah.. i dunno.. but the look on her face was so menacing that she spoilt my mood totally..

Even when farid walked up to the 2nd floor and our eyes met.. and he smiled so sweetly and widely at me.. my mood didn't get better.. in fact it got worse when i went down for a 2nd helping of marquise and iced tall hazelnut latte and SHE had to take my order..

And I HATE HAVING MY DRINK GIVEN TO ME AT THE POS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I wld really appreciate it if u cld juz let me walk to the bar and collect my drink there.. i dun mind the wait.. esp if farid was the one making my drink.. but his iced tall hazelnut latte is still not as good as nas's.. heh..

But ya.. the stupid fucking woman.. URGH!!!!!!! twice i had my drinks given to me at the bar.. and because SHE was working.. all the partners seem scared to talk to any of the customers.. it's like..

TOOT!!
TOOT!!
TOOT!!

Ok enuff abt her..

What else shld i talk abt?? oh ya.. i promised liz i wun blow my top.. i promised liz i will talk abt it.. soon.. and she had better do it soon before i turn into a roaring donkey..

Ya ya.. with regards to my new nickname.. haha..

AZREEN NO GULI BABELICIOUS ROARING DONKEY

AZREEN - that's my name.. duh!!

NO GULI - cos i'm the president of the club.. and yesss.. i have long lost my gulis.. all my mabrles have gone to dunno where.. so it explains why i'm like this..

BABELICIOUS - i am a babe??

ROARING - cos i often do that?? if u get on my bad side.. if u make me pissed..

DONKEY - i'm stubborn.. really really stubborn

So there.. the reason behind my new nick.. heh.. i kinda like it.. sounds really nice..

So what else shld i talk abt..

Kinda excited for the NDP Preview tmr.. hee.. it'll be me, my aunt and all the other small cousins below the ages of 9.. trust me.. i will be like one of those kids.. i really realy will.. i told my aunt to be prepared to endure absolute crap and nonsense from me..

I WANNA GO TO THE FIREWORKS FESTIVAL!!

I WANNA GO TO THE HOOBASTANK CONCERT!! actually the tix are very very cheap and affordable.. anybody wanna come along?? pls?? pls?? the more the merrier??

Oh shaikhah.. thx for letting me sleep on the couch.. it's a bit dusty though.. but not like last time.. josh told me he cleaned it last week.. well.. tell him to vacuum it again!! nothing beats the couch at SB-HV..

And.. la la la la..

Hee.. i am mad.. mad.. mad..

I really shld stop acting this way.. i muz pace myself mann.. pace.. pace..

But.. but.. hee..

Oh ya!! i need to look up in the dictionary for the meaning of tempestuous.. anybody knows??

I have lots of things to say.. i wanna update all of u on what happened since sat.. but i'm tired.. and kind of lazy to type everything out.. but i dun wanna stop updating either..

Ok i seriously need to change my mobile plan.. I NEED FREE INCOMING CALLS ALL DAY.. like the iPlus One plan.. cos mine is currently the Classic Plan.. which only has 200 mins free talktime.. and 360 free sms.. but it has the Pay-As-U-Roam service.. which means i dun need to pay subscription fee for auto-roaming when i'm overseas..

But i really really need free incoming calls.. the other day andi called.. and we talked for 45 mins on my hp!! simply because i wasn't home.. and i didn't want to put down the phone either cos i really wanted to talk to him.. so andi if u're reading this.. JANGAN NAK KEMBANG!!

Ala.. shld i change my plan?? shld i?? then if i go overseas muz change to my Hi-Card.. troublesome eh.. ala.. ala..

So now...................

I really wanna say something.. but i dunno how to say it.. i dunno how to express it.. for once i like a guy.. but i dun see the need for us to be together at all.. i dun see the need for us to take this frenship to the next level.. and even if he talks abt other gals.. like how he finds them cute i'm not jealous at all!! maybe it's cos i know he likes me too??

Ala.. i really dunno how to say it la.. dis is irritating.. but.. ya..

I really really like him.. i do.. but i dun wanna do anything impulsive to spoil our wonderful frenship.. after the roller-coaster ride for the past few mths.. i realise i treasure him too much.. even if it means us not ending up together.. i'm still happy to be his fren..

I dun wanna lose him.. no.. not ever.. never..

He seems too good to be true.. ala..

WHAT IS HAPPENING TO MEEEEEEEEEEE??????????!!!!!!!!

| 7/30/2004 09:59:00 PM

Thursday, July 29, 2004

ThErE iS sTiLL hOPe..

aLL hOPe hAsn'T bEEn LoSt..

mUAhaHa..

diS iS riDicULoUs..

I AM MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok.. i shld shut up..

I musn't vent my anger..

And like shake said.. i dunno who's reading my blog..

MY LIPS ARE SEALED..

| 7/29/2004 11:05:00 AM

Wednesday, July 28, 2004

Tipahtertiputertiputiputertipah

| 7/28/2004 07:15:00 AM

Monday, July 26, 2004

wooooooohooooooooooooo!!!!

and the bass keeps running running and running running and running running...

GUESS WHO'S HERE??? HUHHUHHUHHUHHUH????!!!!!

IT'SSSSSSSS.....

SHAKE JOHN GANAU MABUK MAPLEK JOHNSON!!!!!!!!!

Dis is an invasion on the request of AZREEN NO GULI BABELICIOUS ROARING DRAGON!!!

wat haf i got to say abt the madmadmad day we had today!!????!!!

MATRICULATIONNASFARID2HOLLANDVICEDHAZELNUTLATTESSCANDALSRUMOURS
PRIVATEPARTSSCREAMINGSNORTINGSINGINGINPUBLIC

haha..go ahead lah read dat..

ehehehehehhehehehehheehheheheheh..

I LUB U AZREEN!

I LUB U LULU!!!

I LUB U LIZA!!!

I LUB U NEETA!!!

I LUB ALL OF U!!!!

I LUB ME!!!!!

HAHAHAHAH

HAHAHAHAH

I DUNNO WATS WORTH FIGHTING FOR OR WHY I HAF TO SCREAM!! I DUNNO WHY I INSTIGATE OR SAY WAT I DON'T MEAN!!! I DUNNO HOW I GOT THIS WAY!! I'LL NEVER BE ALRIGHT!!!! SO I'M BREAKING THE HABIT!!!! I'M BREAKIN THE HABIT!!!! I'M BREEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAKIN THE HABIT.....TONITE!!!!

CIAO peepz...go read moi blog now~!!!!!

shameless advertising..

-shake head-

heh

| 7/26/2004 11:05:00 PM

MY LIFE IS AN EXTREME MADNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The wkend turned out to be something along the lines of these:

FROLICKING AROUND FORT CANNING-FINDING NEMO-GOT MY ASS TURNING COLD-GAYS-EATING BEN & JERRY'S AT MIDNITE-G MAX-GAYS-DEVIOUS SCHEMES TO GET HER OUT OF THE PLAN-AND MORE GAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha..

Will update later..

And now i'm known as

AZREEN NO GULI BABELICIOUS ROARING DRAGON

And noreen ur blog is IN MY NOSE!!

Haha..

I've got a breakfast date.. at Albert Court Hotel..

Hee..

CYA GUYS AROUND!!!!!!!!

| 7/26/2004 06:56:00 AM

Saturday, July 24, 2004

Psssssssssst..

Have u heard the latest news?? have u?? have u?? the very very latest news??

The absolutely latest and updated news??

Have u?? have u??

This is really really latest news.. hot from the oven.. very crispy on the outside and tender on the inside..

Haha.. ok no la.. that was a slight exaggeration.. oh well.. i guess i better not say it.. shall not create too much brouhaha..

But.. but..

Ok i can't stand it anymore.. it's juz that.. it's such a mere coincidence.. exactly a week ago.. i was at the beach with shake.. discussing the possibilities of a band.. say.. linkin park doing a concert right smack in siloso beach.. or maybe the tiny lil island off siloso beach..

So.. imagine my excitement when i was listening to Power 98 last nite.. and JA and JR announced it..

Of course my initial reaction was..

"Oh fuck fuck fuck!! Freaking pieces of shit!! I HAVE TO BE THERE!!"

And i straightaway smsed Azian.. i told her that i dun care what plans she have.. cos she has to cancel them.. cos i think it wld definitely be worth it.. and yes.. the 2 of us..

WE HAVE TO BE THERE!!

Ok ok.. i can't contain my excitement any longer..

HOOBASTANK WILL BE HAVING A ONE-NIGHT ONLY CONCERT AT SILOSO BEACH ON 14th AUGUST 2004, 7:30PM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MUST GO!!!!!!! MUST GO!!!!!!!!

And i can't bring anyone else.. cos it's all the way at siloso beach.. so if i bring Azian along.. at least my mom knows my uncle will be sending me home..

HOHOHO MERRY XMAS!!

This is so super duper EXCITING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Firstly.. Doug is hubba hubba good lookin.. if u dunno who Doug is.. he's the lead singer alrite.. and their songs.. i like their songs.. not as much as lp.. but ya..

AND I WANT U TO KNO-O-O-OW-W-W-W-W-W-W-W-W-W-W-W
I FOUND A REASON FOR MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
TO CHANGE WHO I USED TO BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
A REASON TO START OVER NE-E-E-E-W-W-W-W-W-W-W-W-W-W-W-W
AND THE REASON IS YO-O-O-O-U-U-U-U-U-U-U-U-U-U-U-U

Ok u get the drift.. so anybody else wanna go?? i absolutely welcome group outings.. be it a fren of a fren.. or a fren's cousin's cousin's fren.. or a cousin's fren's cousin.. or a fren's cousin's fren's fren's cousin..

Hoho..

Yday.. i watched the match between the Young Lions and Balestier Khalsa FC.. bet u guys are surprised huh?? i mean.. azreen-soccer.. well..

The match was interesting.. very aggressive.. that's why i like it la.. in the end the Young Lions thrashed BKFC 6-0..

And there's another reason why i watched the match.. cos Baihakki Khaizan is the captain for the Young Lions.. i have always thought he's HOT!! and his skills are superb too..!!

So yday i decided to check him out for myself.. very true indeed.. he was juz all over the field mann.. running here and there..

Fuck mann.. he's seriously HOT!! he's tall.. those endless legs.. good lookin.. talented.. ahh..

CAIR!!

Oh ya.. wei tong actually smsed shake to thank us for the gifts.. he didn't have my no.. but.. he didn't forget me too..

CAIR!!

I really can't help myself.. really can't.. he's juz.. oh well.. i dunno how to say it..

Yay!! Abang is here!! hoho.. last nite he smsed me.. while he was having a meeting.. it was like.. 11:40 pm.. basically this was what happened..

Sms from Abang: Can i call u later?
My reply: Huh?? Call me for what?? i think ur sms was meant for Kak Su (his gf).. but if u still wanna call.. u can do it anytime..
Reply from Abang: Thanx dear.. i will call u once i'm done with my meeting..

Ok.. firstly Abang has NEVER called me dear.. so i seriously thought he meant to sms his gf.. so yday.. around 1am.. he called.. as i expected.. he needs my favour.. for monday.. haha.. freaking piece of idiot!!

Right now he's busy.. can't wait to meet him at suntec later though.. heh.. lalala..got lots and lots of things to see..

With regards to my post the day before.. and shake's post yday.. well.. it really isn't a matter of money.. if u dun wanna spend money.. if u dun wanna get a drink from Starbucks.. then suit urself..

For your info.. Starbucks' pay isn't at all fantastic.. but we have to spend money.. to pamper ourselves for actually working hard.. and mind u.. we do not spend money on unnecessary things..

Right now i have 4 students.. the agency gave me 2 more students.. a Sec 4 Normal Academic gal who will be sitting for her prelims SOON..

And today i have to teach a Sec 1 Normal Academic boy.. Science and Math.. i called the mom juz now to confirm today's lesson.. and after that phone call i got even more stressed..

Me: Hello.. can i speak to Mdm Murlia pls?
Mom: Yes speaking..
Me: Hi!! I'm the tutor..
Mom: Oh yes yes.. Azreen eh?? i was waiting for ur call..
Me: Sori for the wait.. i was busy..
Mom: It's ok..
Me: So today is the 1st lesson rite??
Mom: Yes yes..
Me: What time??
Mom: I understand that kelly fixed the time at 5:30..
Me: Ya.. she did.. i hope that's a convenient time for u..
Mom: Oh it's ok.. boleh.. tak kisah..
Me: So ur son is in Sec 1?
Mom: Ya.. Normal Academic..
Me: And i'm supposed to teach him math and
Mom: (even before i cld finish my sentence) Ya.. his math.. terrible!! i dunno what happened!! he has been getting low marks.. and the coach has made him stop going for soccer practices..
Me: Oh.. ok.. and what about his science??
Mom: His science.. just borderline tau.. pass gitu gitu je..
Me: Oh.. ok ok..
Mom: I really hope u can help him.. he is so involved in.. what do u call it??
Me: ECA..Mom: (all excited) YA!! YA!! ECA!!
Me: Well.. i'll try my best..
Mom: Is there anything my son can do to prepare for today's lesson??
Me: Umm.. we shall see later.. i will have to ask him to clarify..
Mom: Ok so i see u later at 5:30.. u have my address rite??
Me: Yes.. i have all ur details.. so i'll see u later at 5:30 then..
Mom: Ok.. thanks Azreen..
Me: U're welcome.. bye!
Mom: Bye!!

God!! now i'm really really stressed!! so many responsibilities!!

All i'm hoping for is..

PLEASE LET HIM HAVE A CUTE ELDER BROTHER!!

*crosses my fingers*

Ok now.. i have to empty my entire wardrobe and look for something suitable and nice and yet casual and simple but yet pretty and chic to wear..

| 7/24/2004 03:54:00 PM

Friday, July 23, 2004

And now Seth has lost the frenship of both girls..

Maybe he thought his decision of wanting to be frenz with both of them was a good one.. but boy was he wrong..

Anna and Summer had told him to come to a decision fast.. cos if he doesn't, one of them will end up hurt.. and of course each one of the girls had secretly harboured hopes that Seth wld want tot ake their frenship to the next level..

Mann.. i felt the pain when Seth told each one of them that he wanted to be just frenz and gave them a "Chrismukka" gift each..

"I dun wanna be your fren"

That was how both Anna and Summer reacted..

I dunno whether to support them or label them stupid..

In a way.. saying that further proved to Seth how much each of them like him..

But seriously.. wldn't it be worse not to be frenz at al with Seth??

I dunno.. last nite's episode dealt with the more serious issues.. no sarcasm or witty one liners..

I'm sorry.. u juz have to endure with me.. from now onwards.. each time i update on a friday.. i will be sure to talk about The OC.. i really really love that show..

I am stressed..

My student's prelims will be on the 23rd August.. that's like a month away.. and i'm stressed cos she's still unable to keep within the time limit for her problem sums..

She takes her time to do her work.. and she's gotten used to me guiding her along that she has to constantly ask after each step if she's on the right track..

It's not as if she doesn't know how to do her sums.. she juz lacks confidence..

I dun want her mom to think the fault lies with me.. if she doesn't improve for her prelims.. cos according to her.. during the mid-year exams.. she didn't have enough time to complete her sums..

I set her time limits depending on the questions.. but she's still not up to it..

Each time she writes.. deep in my heart i'll be going, "Faster!! Write faster u toot!! And skip the liquid paper!! It takes up too much time!!"

And i try to say it to her nicely.. that she dun have much time to spare.. but.. ala dunno la..

How?? How??

This is only a pri 6 kid that i'm tutoring.. and i'm all stressed up..

*sheesh*

Wonder how all those school teachers cope.. what with all the stress from the principal and parents..

Ensuring that one kid understands is already a hard enough task.. what more 40 kids..

No wait.. it's not only 40 kids.. it's god knows how many classes.. and different levels at that..

A teacher has to be able to explain clearly.. and giving individual attention to the weaker students cannot be done all the time..

I will NEVER take up teaching.. no matter how much i know my parents want me to be one.. being the only child.. i know i'm expected to fulfill their dreams and wishes..

But there are 2 aspects of my life that are out of bounds to them..

Marriage and career..

The must NEVER interfere in my decision regarding these 2 issues.. they can give me opinions and suggestions but the final decision lies with me..

Back to teaching.. i have my own dreams and goals.. and teaching id definitely not one of them..

My career options.. there are 3 actually.. but i shall not mention them here..

And still on the subject of teaching.. i need to ask Irfan on his highly successful method at attempting compre passages.. that guy will make a fine teacher i tell u..

And marriage.. i will touch on that in my future posts.. not exactly in the mood to talk about it right now..

I juz realized.. that.. if we are indeed going to watch Private Parts.. i can't make it for the Saturday show.. cos i've got the NDP Preview to attend..

And i teach tuition from Monday to Thursday evenings..

So the only available options are Fri evening and the Sunday matinee show..

And Sunday is a family day.. so i'm reluctant to spend the day outside with non-family members..

As for Fri evening.. will everybody be able to make it?? ppl like josh and him?? and other peepz?? cos if they aren't able to make it then no fun la..

Maybe we shld juz scrap the whole idea..

I'm going to be really really busy in the upcoming months.. i need to prepare my students for their exams.. and i need to prepare myself too.. so whatever free days i have left, i need to spend it all by myself.. relax..

So this actually means..

I HAVE NO LIFE!!

I remember talking about this last year.. especially towards the A levels.. but then we still managed to squeeze in some fun in between studies..

But now.. i can't afford to do that.. no matter how much i want it.. cos this time.. when i say I HAVE NO LIFE.. i really mean it..

I can't afford to spend hrs outisde not studying..

Maybe occasionally i will reward myself with a movie treat.. but that has to be done alone.. cos if i were to do that with someone else, i will definitely end up spending the entire day outside..

Oh no!! Oh no!!

I have so many things to be responsible for.. my students.. the upcoming end of year thingy that ultimately determines my future.. how i spend my time..

Oh no!! Oh no!!

The stress is amounting!!

NO LIFE!!
NO LIFE!!

| 7/23/2004 05:01:00 PM

Thursday, July 22, 2004

"I want a boyfriend!!"

Shake said that while we were on the NEL going towards Harbour Front..

My immediate reaction was, "If ppl dunno u better, they wld have thought u were desperate"

Trust me.. it wasn't a desperate plea.. especially not when it comes from shake.. neither can i pass it off as a remark.. cos.. well.. it's not that i completely understand how she's feeling.. but ya.. i know what she meant..

So.. on to the subject of male bashings..

I admit.. i do engage in that.. i think half of my blog entries are targeted at males.. juz imagine.. balls of fire.. arrowheads laden with poison.. and what have u.. all aimed perfectly at them..

It's juz that.. i enagage in SELECTIVE male bashing..

And i certainly beieve these males deserve that kind of treatment from me.. i dun hate men in general.. trust me.. cos if i do.. then my life will become uninteresting..

I think.. hating men.. or being adversed to their constant attempts to.. well.. get to know u is a very sad case indeed..

I'm not saying we constantly need men in our lives.. or maybe it's juz me.. i dun need a man.. as of right now anyway.. shake and me discussed this earlier.. that men need companionship more than women..

It's juz that.. it comes to a point that u get tired of it all and screaming at them is the last resort..

Yes ladies and gentlemen.. my life has arrived at that point..

It has reached a point that i'm sick and tired of being treated like a piece of shit.. like a life-less doll.. i have feelings too..

I dun mean that u have to treat me with tender loving care.. and give in to all my demands.. cos honestly i wld love to argue over something silly once in a while.. besides if a guy constantly gives in to me.. there's no challenge.. and it sort of shows that he doesn't have a mind of his own..
I juz wanna be respected.. I juz want them to be mindful of my feelings..

If right now u are trying to question whether the fault lies in me??

To err is human..

I admit.. sometimes i say hurtful things.. and i'm really really stubborn by nature.. absolutely stubborn..

And i do question myself that sometimes..

Like..

Ok maybe i did something wrong this time..

And i wld gladly apologize when i'm in the wrong.. in my vocab.. sorry isn't the hardest word.. it's juz a matter of getting past ur pride and actually admit defeat..

I'm not saying i wasn't totally at fault.. but.. HIM and him..

They disappeared without a word..

I have asked them umpteen times.. whether i did anything wrong.. of course HE chose not to answer that and has avoided me for ages now..

And he.. well.. his reply gave me hope at first and then everyhting came crashing down..

I dunno.. so does the fault lie with me this time??

The only good thing that emerged out of cedar for me was..

Reflection..

I religiously engage in that before i go to bed each night..

So is it wrong for me to post my thoughts on my blog??

IS IT WRONG??

It's my own fucking blog.. and i say whatever i want.. at least i update it.. i dun get a blog.. type in a few posts and juz shut up..

I dun expect sympathy when i engage in male bashings.. cos if u dun wanna read abt it.. why visit my blog in the first place?? u can juz skip the whole chunk abt them and read the other parts..

At least i update my frenz abt what's going on in my life.. even if i dun sms some of u.. u know i'm still alive and kicking..

U know.. sometimes i take the initiative to find out how my frenz are doing.. and sometimes it feels as if i'm not appreciated.. AT ALL..

I sms u.. but u didn't reply for days.. i know u were tired.. and sick.. up to the point that u can't even reply and say that u'll sms me when u get better??

Telling me u can't find ur other hp charger isn't a valid reason.. cos afterall i smsed u at the other number..

Am i really irritating?? does it actually cost u a lot to reply once?? does it??

And if u say u're sick.. think of all the other terminally ill ppl.. who is trying to get all the love.. and spend their last few days with their loved ones..

I know that may have sounded harsh.. but i love u.. i care for u.. that's why i smsed u.. but then again.. u have loads of frenz.. guess i'm not needed..

Tuesday night.. my mom told me.. that the real world is harsh.. even frenz can stab u behind the back.. no matter how close u are..

I agree with her.. although it was irritating cos i was trying to study and there she was talking away.. she did that because she cares..

Right now.. i can count on my fingers the no of ppl i trust.. the no of ppl i can confide in..

Cos i dunno.. sometimes i confide in some ppl.. they might be all sympathetic and smiley on the outside.. but i dunno how they feel deep down inside..

I really know who are the ppl i can totally trust..

I've come to a decision.. if certain ppl dun make the effort to update me abt their lives.. i guess they also dun deserve my time..

I will juz shut up.. and not bother to sms them.. or call.. i will not even ask after them..

If u know who u are.. well.. u know..

I'm not raging a war here.. but.. why is it that.. it's either lulu, me or shake plan for meet up sessions.. why can't u all take the initiative instead??

If any of u reading this think whatever i said was not valid.. was uncalled for.. then forget that i said all those things k??

This is juz what i feel..

Juz look at noreen.. she's a good example.. even though she's so far away.. and smsing her wld be very expensive.. but she keeps in touch.. by tagging on my shoutbox..

I guess only she knows the true meaning of frenship..

Ppl tend to take things for granted.. i guess one day.. when distance set us apart.. only will u guys understand the true meaning of frenship..

We haf not met for quite a few days now..
I miss him.. and he does too.. heh..
We juz talk in the morning on the way to sch..
So.. things haf been going on well..
Things are pretty good now..
I'm glad i found him..
Hee..

| 7/22/2004 03:21:00 PM

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

Singapore is very very small.. i know many of us is aware of the fact.. cos when u actually compare the size of singapore to that of other countries.. well.. today it further proved the fact that singapore is waaaaaay waaaaaaaay toooooooooooo small.. very small indeed..

And the iced tall hazelnut latte is still in the fridge.. it's nice.. very nice.. tasted like nas's hazelnut latte.. but of course nas's was extra special.. cos.. well.. i dun exactly have to mention it..

But today my iced tall hazelnut latte was made by shawal..

U muz be thinking..

Shawal who???

Haha.. relax.. i didn't go around asking guys for their names.. for that matter this shawal wasn't even cute.. he WAS cute when he was younger though.. but now.. well.. he still hasn't changed.. still with specs..

Ok.. noreen.. rozana.. do u guys rmbr shawal from damai?? ya.. that shawal.. the one from cikgu asiah's class.. haha..

It's such a coincidence.. cos when shake told me SB-CP has a barista called shawal.. the first thought that went through my mind was: I used to know a shawal from pri sch..

So imagine my surprise when i actually walked into SB-CP and actually saw him standing at the bar.. he doesn't rmbr my name.. but he recognize my face..

Well.. that's what he apparently claimed when i asked.. i wun be surprise if my pri sch mates dun recognize me anymore though.. cos.. well.. i think i've changed quite a lot..

But today's iced tall hazelnut latte was special too.. cos.. it's afterall made by a pri sch mate.. who nvr fail to irritate the hell out of cikgu asiah.. the class clown..

I still rmbr.. i used to sit by the window.. the 3rd person in the row.. and each time i turn my back to the middle row.. shawal wld be making funny faces at me.. haha..

Well.. those were the days.. those childish pri sch days..

And speaking of pri sch.. i didn't get to see what that person looks like.. the one shake sometimes talk abt..

So anyways.. i finally saw how he looks like.. ya.. a less sissy version of that guy from anak metropolitan.. when he came down the escalator i did find him good looking.. but not like hot hot la..

But.. ala.. too bad la.. there wasn't any form of acknowledgement of reaction.. cos afterall.. train rides, slumberland and acknowledgement dun actually go together..

Although it was pretty kuku.. being reported as suspicious characters.. that WUN be surprising..

One was standing behind the pillar.. behind the damn public phone and peeking away.. trying to be discreet..

And the other one sat in front of the pillar.. inching her way from one end of the seat towards the lady who was sitting at the other end.. the lady muz have freaked out!!

And those 2 ppl.. the ones sitting and the one behind the pillar were talking to each other.. the commuters who didn't know what was going on must have thought that each one of them was talking to themselves!!

Haha..

Ok i seem to be talking in codes.. but who cares.. this conversation is meant to be between me and shake.. cos.. we..

MERAJUK!!

Yes.. we merajuk.. cos VP Lulu and Miss Neeta went back to sr to take their certs without actually asking us..

VP Lulu.. do u know that u cld have gotten suspended from ur position cos of that?? but i shall not let personal matters interfere with our club activities.. cos i'm a professional afterall..

Went back to collect our certs.. of course shake's one looked lovely.. and mine is like a piece of shit.. even the lady who gave the cert congratulated shake but said NOTHING to me..

And nigel smsed me at 1:30 saying that he was going home to sleep so he wun be waiting for us at sr.. awwww.. so sad.. so long nvr see him already..

Shake's fault la.. who ask u to work today??????????????

And i had to endure the auntie's incessant questions.. i was trying to do my stats at BK while waiting for shake to finish work.. and she kept asking if i was done..

Obviously NOT.. cos my burger wasn't even half-eaten!! i dun mean to sound rude to an old lady.. but.. ya.. she juz wanted to irritate me i guess..

And today was mr neo's birthday.. hoho..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR NEO!! WE STILL LOVE U DESPITE NOT BEING UR STUDENT ANYMORE!!

So ya.. we gave him the gift.. a peppermint foot gel for his feet.. we told him that he's always on his feet and always walking very fast.. so at the end of the day the gel wld be perfect for him..

And a hair and body shampoo..i forgot the name.. but he cld use it after using the gym.. 2-in-1.. and mr neo actually has the cologne!! hoho.. juz perfect!!

It was very nice to see mr neo again.. very nice indeed.. cos we sat at the bench outside the staffroom.. and talked.. and he actually read our letter.. and took a good look at the gifts..

Then he told us to wait at the canteen.. he wld come by shortly and we cld talk over drinks..

So ya.. did lots of catching up.. kinda surprising at how things have turned out at the sch.. not too good u know..

And we updated him about our work and love lives.. and yes.. the rumours.. hoho..

So got mr neo's new number.. he promised to keep in touch with us.. about EVERYTHING.. hoho.. decipher that urself..

And for a very valid reason.. i can't exactly mention names here.. but..

I was practically cair-ing when i saw wei tong.. like.. really melting.. it was juz nice.. that smile.. that familliar smell.. it was really nice.. brought back the sweet memories of.. well.. last yr.. hoho..

Private Parts!! Private Parts!!

Before any one of u actually start thinking waaaaaaaaaaaay out of line.. i meant the PLAY.. u know.. michael chiang's Private Parts..

So if he goes.. then i'm definitely going.. cos.. ya.. i wanna see him.. it's been like almost 4 mths now.. hoho..

My reaction to shake's claim that he was a driver was very very slow.. i was like, "Oh.. ok..".. then after like 10 secs i went, "HUH?? REALLY???!!!".. with my eyes wide open..

So now shake muz know how it felt when he actually agreed to my request the last time..

Yeah.. over the moon..

It was certainly a nice feeling.. which i can't describe..

But too bad la.. metrosexual.. nice.. snag.. hot.. dammit smile.. whatever u wanna call him..

NO FEELINGS!!

I do get excited by the mere mention of his name.. but it's juz plain pure excitement.. nothing more than that..

It's like he's too nice.. too good to be true.. which i think wld eventually lead to BOREDOOM..

So ya.. anything else to talk abt??

Oh oh..

Abang has gone home!!

TIDAAAAAAAAAAAAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha.. he went home last night.. but he'll be coming down sunday morning again.. to pick up his staff..

U know the heritage exhibition going on at suntec??

Yeah.. he's part of the organising committee..

So on sunday.. i was stuck in a car full of males.. and i was in the front passenger seat beside abang.. and i cldn't help noticing the cutie sitting in the middle of the back passenger seat..

He's not like really really cute.. but he's the nicest of the lot.. and the most responsible..

It was interesting listening to them talk about work in the hotel room.. but it did get pretty boring.. cos it was like already 11pm.. and they were talking abt work.. and i was half asleep..

And the best thing was.. after the entire thing.. abang drove me home and told me to take my passport and accompany him back to jb.. it was midnite for goodness sake!!

Oh oh.. there was a cute macs guy at suntec.. SOFYAN.. haha.. but he's indonesian la.. i ordered sundae float and both of us were grinning away at each other..

But i got reminded of neeta's cute macs guy who turned out to be gay.. that's what andi said anyway.. no wonder he didn't call neeta..

But i wonder what went through his mind when me and shake actually gave him neeta's no.. hoho.. without neeta's consent.. hoho..

Neeta found him cute cos of his indonesian accent and cos he gave her lots of chili sauce.. haha..

I flipped through The New Paper.. well.. he is quite hot.. the model type..
And so.. i've arrived to a decision..

That i'm gonna be part of it next year..

I SWEAR..

It's a goal that i will achieve in exactly a year..

Wanna know the reason why??

Cos i wanna make HIM and him regret..

I want the both of them to realise that they were wrong.. so very wrong.. for having done that..

Regret.. it's something that most of us will have to go through.. and i want them to live with it..

I want them to go, "Mann!! What was i thinking??"

I want them to realise that they missed out on a lot..

I want them to realise that..

THEY WERE SO STUPID AND IMMATURE TO HAVE DONE THAT..

I will..

And that's a promise..

| 7/20/2004 09:52:00 PM

Sunday, July 18, 2004

LOOK AT THE DAMN SUN!! JUZ TAKE A GOOOOOOOOD LOOOOOOOOK AT IT!! NOW I'M PISSED!!!!!!!! REALLY REALY PISSED!!!!!!!!

WHERE WERE U WHEN I NEEDED U YDAY MY DEAR SUN?? WHERE WERE U????????????? HIDING BEHIND THE CLOUDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! URGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok ok.. let me tell u what i did yday..

Fri evening.. smsed shake.. she wanted to eat the Bravissimo ice cream.. so yeah.. in the end we decided to go for a tan at sentosa on sat morning.. then eat her ice cream..

Then.. it started raining like very very early yday morning.. thunder and lightning.. which of course dampened my spirits.. cos i really realy wanted to get a tan.. so at 6 i smsed shake.. told her we shld probably give sentosa a miss and stick to ice cream.. but the sky cleared up.. yay!!

So slipped on my green dress and had breakfast at macs Hrabour Front.. NO CUTE GUYS!! except for the guy who served me.. but he was wearing blue contacts!! which is an absolute no no.. not natural la..

Den took the bus to sentosa.. so off to siloso beach.. i changed into my sleeveless top and shorts.. and that stupid woman.. SHE DID NOT BRING EXTRA CLOTHES!!

If she didn't wanna get wet it's fine.. but at least.. i repeat.. AT LEAST HAVE THE DECENCY TO BRING EXTRA CLOTHES!!

So no.. she stood in the water.. knee deep.. while i was wading about.. trust me.. she looked like an absolute kuku.. haha.. for a moment i wanted to splash water at her.. but no la.. wait she cry.. haha..

There was EXTENSIVE CLOUD COVER.. both dark and normal clouds.. as a result there wasn't much sunlight.. cos the clouds kept covering it..

Oh oh.. after i had enuff fun in the water.. we went up and started doing things on the sand.. hoho.. we wrote 2 words.. hoho.. that one i wun say here la..

So i slapped on more tan oil.. and shake sat on the mat that i bought.. while i sat on the sand.. my ultimate goal was to get down and dirty yday.. haha..

And we started talking about stuff.. which was very nice la.. we talked about everything from guys to linkin park.. haha.. cos she was blasting lp songs on her discman.. so we started thinking what wld have happened if lp held a concert at sentosa..

So we were chatting and chatting when i saw a group of indian tourists.. the ladies in saris i can understand.. but the men.. some were in SUITS.. yes.. with ties and all.. and some wore DENIM JACKETS..

Like seriously.. what the hell?? beach, suits and denim jackets juz dun go together.. and there was this indian guy.. he took off his denim jacket to reveal a purple tee.. so his fren took a photo of him.. and then.. when he walked past us.. he held out his camera..

I dunno.. was he taking pics of us?? that's what shake and me contemplated.. honestly we're not saying we looked great on the beach.. what with our fat thighs and all.. but it seemed like that.. i dunno la..

I really dun mind ppl taking pics of me.. as long as they ask.. i wun bite.. like the last time.. me, shake and lulu were at novena mrt.. and this european tourist asked if she cld take a pic.. so we presumed she wanted us to take a pic of her.. but no.. she wanted a pic of us.. on her digicam.. cos she wanted to bring back to europe and show them PRETTY ASIAN GALS..

Haha.. flattering eh.. absolutely flattering.. so next time.. juz ask.. i wld politely oblige.. i mean once in a while.. it's nice to be flattered.. haha.. but now.. i wonder what she did with our pics.. hoho..

So then.. tired of talking to each other.. we lied down.. me on the sand.. whatever la.. i ate sand.. and there were sand on my hair.. whatever la.. i covered my face with the towel and fell asleep.. both of us.. den shake woke me up.. she said she caught some guys LEERING at us..

Scary eh.. juz imagine it.. LEERING.. sheesh.. gross.. and shake took a pic of me while i was asleep.. hoho.. so went ot bathe.. dressed up.. make up.. pretty pretty..

We took the double decker bus with the open top.. ya.. that one.. ok ok.. interesting stuff happened here..

Firstly we thought the bus was going to go off.. so we started running after it.. turned out the driver wanted to stop for lunch.. so ok.. fine.. he told us to wait for the next bus and kept harping on the fact that he had to eat.. ok.. fine!! we got ur point!!

So while we were waiting.. those staff from Rasa Sentosa started looking.. staring.. whatever.. they juz looked.. i was half wishing they get knocked down by all those cars..

And then.. u know the beach train..?? ok.. this guy was driving it.. and he stopped in front of the entrance to the hotel.. and STARED.. LOOKED.. and then.. HE WAVED!!

Shake didn't see that.. but i saw.. and i was trying my best to get the message across that.. I CAN'T BE BOTHERED.. but no.. he was furiously waving and smiling.. in the middle of the road..

And then.. he drove past us.. with his shades and all.. and made a roundabout turn.. waving and smiling.. and then as he was about to leave.. HE SOUNDED THE HORN!!

What the hell?? God!!

The bus came.. yay!! we hurried to the upper deck.. went all the way to the back.. and we heard the Rasa Sentosa staff whistling and saying good bye to us.. ok.. whateverrrrrrrr..

It was a nice bus ride.. i told shake the next time we needn't sit at the beach.. we shld juz take the bus around sentosa for the entire day and we can get a tan.. haha..

Then of course.. how cld we forget shake's digicam!! with the wind blowing at our hair we took pics of each other.. like mtv shoot leh.. haha..

Then changed buses and stuff.. back to mainland.. so we went to town..

Hungry.. and craving for ice cream.. and yes.. we needed to find atms to draw money..

Went to Lido.. like usual the underpass was crowded.. and this group of ladies was standing right smack in the middle.. obstructing the way.. and i was in a rude mood.. so.. ya..

And i thought my day was going to turn for the better.. cos the guy who came down the escalator was so very good looking..

Actually there were 2 of them.. both were cute.. in police tees.. and when they came down the escalator.. one walked towards shake and the one i thought cute walked towards me..

He really really was GOOD LOOKING..

But..

He was walking like really really near me.. i'm not being a bitch.. but it seemed as if.. u know.. each one of them wanted to take a good look at us.. i dunno..

But.. when we were right beside each other.. HE DIDN'T EVEN LOOK AT ME!!

Urgh!! he juz looked straight ahead.. really la.. i'm not being bitchy.. but but.. oh nvm..

Am i really intimidating?? do guys juz chicken out when they are near me??

So.. ok.. whatever la.. but now i wish i had really been a bitch and bumped into him.. and pretended to be really really hurt.. trust me.. i can get up to anything when i'm with shake..

Den we went Lido.. wanted to eat.. den we decided to catch Mean Girls.. bought the tix then bought food.. and sat in front of the big screen.. and that was a good time to engage in people watching..

We saw lots of ppl i tell u.. all different kinds.. interesting..

After that.. off to Far East to get ice cream!! so we walked and walked.. and when we got down the escalator.. and saw who was inside Starbucks..

HYPERVENTILATION!!

Cos Nas was the manager on duty.. hoho..

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY MANN..

So we told each other to calm down.. and bought ice cream.. double chocolate flavour..

It was damn yummy i tell u.. and worth it.. it was a lot.. and juz really really super duper yummy..

All hyped up cos of nas and the yummy ice cream.. and the fact that ppl were looking at our delicious ice cream.. we decided to stand at one spot and exaggerated the yummy-ness of our ice cream..

We were making all sorts of sound.. ummm.. yummy.. delicious..

Then we took neo-prints.. haha.. i tell u.. we were so hyper.. and our poses.. haha.. it turned out very nice.. and we were dancing in the booth.. like serious shaking of the ass.. haha..

So after that off to starbucks!!

And nas was very nice.. all smiles.. frenly.. cair.. esp since he wore a white shirt.. and his ass.. mann!! it was tight!! haha.. his ass is juz so nice.. and yummy!! but too bad.. cos.. well.. oh nvm..

I'm sorry.. i have the tendency to look at guys' asses..

The hazelnut latte he made for me was damn nice!! it got the right mix of bitterness and hazelnut syrup.. u know.. some ppl make it but u can't taste the syrup at all.. but he made mine so super duper nicely!! it felt like heaven..

So the next time any of u wanna drink latte.. go to far east starbucks and get nas to make it for u..

And when he asked me to make sure what kind of milk i wanted.. i started to really cair..

"Regular or low fat??"
"Huh?"
"Regular or low fat milk?" (all smiles)
"Ohh.. regular.."

Cos each time nas talks to me.. i juz melt.. and can't think of what to say.. haha..

We were late for our movie of course.. but what the heck..

WHOA!! the actor was HOT!! Jonathan Bennet.. that's his name.. his hair.. his eyes.. WHOA!! HOT!! HOT!! HOT!!

After that.. went to pray.. then we went back to starbucks far east again.. cos shake wanted to buy the tumbler..

Nas was there.. but in tee.. he already punched out but was reading the papers.. and when he smiled.. again.. cair.. haha.. really nice frenly guy..

Bought mr neo's bday gift.. hoho..

And on the way home in the train.. we got stares from mamas.. yuk!! and it was really really crowded.. so shake and me got separated in the train.. and we still continued talking to each other.. juz shouting our conversations.. haha.. i think the commuters muz have thought we were mad..

So ya.. that was what happened yday.. nothing interesting.. dammit..

And the last thing i needed yday was to go to serangoon in my dress!!

As soon as i got home my parents brought me along to serangoon.. what the hell..

All the stares.. disgusting.. yuk!! yuk!!

Oh well.. i've gotta bathe now.. haven't bathed since i got up.. i even went to the shops in last nite's clothes!! haha..

After bathing going to meet abang..

Oh pls let this be a pleasant affair.. i really really dun want any sort of cheekiness..

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

| 7/18/2004 02:01:00 PM

Friday, July 16, 2004

Guess i was juz imagining things.. that my ears were playing tricks on me.. oh no!! am i becoming like liza?? pls pls.. dun let my hearing get affected..

I know i listen to songs loudly.. especially rock songs.. but.. no.. pls no.. dun let my hearing get affected..

So.. there's NO Ada Apa Dengan Cinta tonight.. juz checked the tv listings.. so ppl.. false alarm!! haha..

Right..

FAT!!FAT!!FAT!!

Those words are juz screaming at me..

U see.. i juz got back from lunch at breeks amk.. towards the end of meteor garden last nite.. i started craving for it.. so i begged shuqing to spare me 2 hrs of her time.. so ya..

Wanna know what i had??

Bibim Bap Beef
A korean food.. beef.. rice.. beansprouts.. sliced carrot.. egg.. and this veggie that i dunno what it is.. i didn't eat it anyway..

Chicken Thigh in Tomato Essence
2 chicken thighs.. tomato sauce.. lots and lots of waffle fries.. and veggies which i didn't touch at all..

Brownie with Ice Cream
Warm brownie.. with vanilla ice cream served on top.. with whip cream and cherry..

And last nite.. while waiting for meteor garden to start.. i had a packet of cheese crackers.. and chocolate ice cream.. which i had begged my mom to buy on the way from home yday..

So now now..

I AM 66 KG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Gosh!! this is getting horrible.. this is getting waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay out of control.. i'm really not kidding u guys.. i'm fat.. so super fat.. i had difficulty putting on my jeans.. and it was a size 31 mind u..

And i think as a result of gaining weight.. my breasts have grown.. haha.. it feels as if they are heavier..

OH YUK!!

I really muz do something.. i can't go on like this.. i think i wun eat for the rest of the wkend..
Yeah rite azreen!! as if u can do that.. u and food are juz inseparable..

When i got home.. i popped into 7-Eleven.. and i rummaged thru the ice cream box.. but they only had Ben & Jerry's in Berry Nice and Vanilla!!

WHERE IS MY CHOC BROWNIE?????!!!

And i was stuck at 7-Eleven for the longest time cos i juz stared at all the food.. and i didn't know what to buy..

So what do i do?? i know dieting is bad..

But..

It is NOT bad when u're fat!! i dunno.. what shld i do?? tell me.. tell me..

Maybe i shld start fasting.. ya.. i think i will..

But.. oh nvm..

I can't think straight..

Maybe engaging in a lil bit of hsework will help..

Ok.. i'm gonna sweep and mop the floor.. and cut up the crab.. and cook dinner.. hoho..

| 7/16/2004 04:55:00 PM

Maybe u've got the SUMMER flu..
Maybe u need some ANNAbiotics..

Mann.. did i tell u how much i love The OC?? if u had watched yday's episode.. ohh la la la.. firstly it was funny.. funny to the max.. cos of all the sarcasm.. very good script.. and then..

And then.. imagine this.. when u actually have a guy.. whom u're really really interested in.. but yet at the same time he's interested in u AND another gal.. and he has invited u to his house for Thanksgiving.. and then some time later the other gal turns up.. and he's sent into a fluster cos he's trying his best to not let ur paths cross.. but u bump into her anyway.. so bla bla bla.. both u and the other gal gets mad at him.. and then..

And then.. he comes up to the both of u and say this:
"I think i owe u an apology. No make it 2 apologies. (looks at summer then looks at anna) I'm really sorry for the way things turned out. But u can't really blame me for WANTING TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH EACH ONE OF U. Pls believe me. I wldn't do anything to hurt our frenship. FRENSHIPS (as he looks at both of them)"

Wun u juz melt when u hear that?? Wun u?? That was Seth Cohen's character talking by the way.. actually he said a lot of other stuff which i can't recall.. but those words highlighted in bold.. well.. dun u think he's sweeeeeeeeeeeet?? he's good with words..

Now being good with words doesn't mean one is a smooth talker.. Seth Cohen is very good with his words.. he manages to get himself out of trouble and yet at the same time makes gals feel good.. so.. la la la..

Ok ok.. i'm more in luv with the character than Adam Brody himself.. and cos of what Seth said.. now both gals are going crazy over him.. so he secured himself a date on fri nite with anna.. and a date with summer on sat nite..

For once i wish I cld be Seth Cohen.. then i wld have 2 gals going crazy over me.. by the way.. Adam Brody is actually dating the gal who plays Summer.. yeah.. in off camera they are seeing each other.. or better still.. I cld be the female version of Seth Cohen.. then i'll have 2 guys wanting to date me.. isn't that fantastic??

Now now.. why can't HE be like Seth?? why can't HE say things like Seth?? why can't HE take responsibility for his own actions like Seth?? isn't HE aware that if HE learns to be more like Seth HIS hotness metre will go thru the roof??

Trust me.. if HE is everything that Seth is.. excluding the rich part cos i dun think that's impt.. although HE does have a lot of money.. but whatever it is.. if HE is like Seth in some ways.. then..

Wo-o-O-O-O-O-o-o-o-o-O-O-O-O-o-o-o..

I juz can't describe it in words.. some of u might not share my sentiments..

But..

To each his own..

HE IS TOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HOT!!

Marriage is indeed a huge thing.. when u find out someone is attached.. it's like.. ok fine.. no big deal.. it's nothing rare or surprising..

When u find out someone is engaged.. it's still fine.. cos no date has been set yet.. so nothing is finalised..

But..

When u find out someone is engaged to be married.. now.. that's a huge thing.. i mean.. that's like really really serious stuff..

Especially when the guy is ONLY 24.. i'm not saying age is a factor.. cos if u think u're ready to get married.. then by all means.. go ahead with it..

But it did send shock waves thru my body.. cos afterall.. he's getting married next June.. and it's like..

WHAAAAAATTT??!!

Disappointment wasn't the word to describe how i felt when i found out yday.. it's juz that.. when i heard it.. oh dammit..

ALL THE GOOD GUYS ARE GONE!!!!!! TAKEN!!!!! GOING TO GET MARRIED!!!!!!!

What will i be doing in June next year?? probably wasting my life away.. probably doing crazy stuff.. probably.. well.. probably.. i dunno.. all i know is i wun be getting married in June next year..

So ultimately.. he has found the gal that he wants to spend the rest of his life with.. the gal that he loves so very much that he knows SHE IS THE ONE.. the gal that he wants to have kids with.. the gal that he wants to be with in sickness and in health.. and thru thick and thin.. and yes.. thickest..

And since this guy is 24.. it led me to think.. if HE gets married anytime soon.. or if HE even gets attached or engaged.. i will cry buckets.. i will juz start wailing away..

And trust me.. u wldn't like that.. when i start.. it's hard for me to stop.. i really can't imagine HIM being with another person.. not that HE wld end up with me.. i dun even dare to entertain that thot..

But.. ya.. it's juz.. noooooooooooooo.. not now!!

And the other him.. i know he wun be anywhere near there yet.. so i have absolutely no worries..
Oh get a grip on urself Azreen..

STOP IT!!

Meteor Garden 2 has ended its run.. and ya.. happy ending.. i wished it cld have been better though.. more romantic.. and the sequel was too short!!!!!!!!

Which is a good thing la.. at least i wun spend too much time watching tv on thurs nites.. now all i watch on thursdays will be The OC..

But but.. it ended juz like that?? daoming si got together again.. this is really a love that has survived all odds.. and meizuo is with that gal.. who's really very pretty.. i think they both suit each other.. and ximen will always be ximen.. he's the most unattractive out of 4 of them anyway..

But what happened to lei?? i know he likes shancai.. but he knows he can never give her happiness.. she's better off with daoming si.. but that gal likes him!! and he even said she's ADORABLE!!

If a guy says i'm adorable.. i wld juz start blushing away.. wun melt la.. and so far no guy has said i'm adorable.. simply because I AM NOT.. oh ya.. oh ya..

Latest update..

I AM 63 KG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes u read that right.. in my entire life of.. well.. being on the heavy side.. i have never exceeded 60 kg..

NEVERRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!

Imagine my horror when i weighed myself 2 days ago.. i really really need to renew my gym membership.. and get back to jogging.. but.. lazy la..

Yes.. it's the 'L' word again.. laziness has gotten the better of me.. i used to go to the gym and jog on wkends.. then beginning of last yr i kinda slacked.. cos of sch and stuff.. and towards the 2nd half of the yr i stopped completely.. although there was no more pe.. i still had to go to sch and stuff.. and all that walking and climbing up the damn overhead bridge managed to keep my weight in check..

But now.. i eat too much.. i juz keep stuffing stuff into my mouth.. and due to my irregular bowel movements.. it explains why i've ballooned up.. all this while.. i know i wld put on weight looking at the rate i was eating.. and the rate at which no exercise is done at all.. but when u actually see it in numbers..

TOOT!! TOOT!!

Abang is really coming this wkend.. and this is the first time i'm NOT looking forward to it.. i dunno why.. maybe it's cos he's coming with that disgusting cousin of his who has been divorced twice and now wants to make me his 3rd wife!!

NO WAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Do u understand that??

NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cos no matter how rich that fella is.. he is balding.. with a pot belly.. and..

He looks like shaik mahmud!!!!!!!!!!!!

YUK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And anyways.. abang will have to come over in September what..

Ahh.. no no no..

I AM SO NOT LOOKING FORWARD TO SUNDAY MORNING..

I dun care.. i'm so gonna be rude and sarcastic to that cousin of his.. that he is gonna be so turned off by me that he wldn't want to come back here again.. yeah.. i will do juz that..

My parents taught me manners alrite.. but they also taught me to beware of disgusting old creeps like him..

If i'm not mistaken.. there is Ada Apa Dengan Cinta on suira at 9.. i think so la.. cos the tv was blaring away.. and i heard it from my room.. or maybe it was juz an advert for something else..

But if it's really showing.. then.. i'm watching it.. and the rest of u better watch it..

WATCH IT!!!!!!!

Especially the last part.. when the guy had to leave for New York.. and the gal was broken hearted.. but when she read his letter.. he told her that he doesn't know what love is.. all he know is he'll be coming back for her..

CAIR!! CAIR!!

Ok ok.. i shld stop melting.. i really shld..

I guess we missed each other too much..
Today we met up again.. but he had a computing test at 4.. so.. ya.. he brought me into yj..
Me wif my sr uni.. very weird.. but umm.. i wasn't reprimanded by any of the teachers there..
So he studied while i did my stats..
Ting went home already.. and Azian wasn't in sch.. so ya.. i was all alone with him..
He told me ridzam was in the gym and i cld go talk to him..
FOR WAT??
Ridzam is Azian's bf.. i'm NOT interested..
So after his test ended he asked where i wanna eat.. at 1st we thot of goin to Banquet at East Point.. but.. nah..
So ate at northpoint..
Took a bus to tamp.. walked around..Then time to go home.. and this time i took neither 21 nor 22 nor 65..We decided to take 8.. but.. haha.. didn't take from interchange.. we walked the entire was from tamp.. all the way to..
Well.. u know.. juz follow the mrt line..
And ya.. today was very fun.. very very fun..
I realize i shld nvr ever attempt to push him.. cos no matter how much strength i use.. he wun move an inch!!
Haha..
So ya.. a very wonderful day indeed..
Hee..
Too sweet.. too sweet..

| 7/16/2004 10:20:00 AM

Thursday, July 15, 2004

I just got back.. from..

THE CARPARK!!

I was watching Fear Factor Championships Special.. totally engrossed in it.. and eating away.. when my mom came home..

She told me my dad wanted me to bring the torch light downstairs.. so i thought.. no big deal.. i'll quickly run down.. pass him the torch light and quickly come back up again.. i wun miss much of Fear Factor..

But i was WRONG..

SO WRONG!!

Cos i had to stand with the freaking torch light.. while my dad meddled with the headlight.. ya.. whatever that he had to do with it..

His hands are already HUGE.. ya.. really HUGE.. and he was stuffing it in.. and it was hot.. cos the engine was hot.. and i was getting tired from bending down..

Whatever it is.. i missed the 2nd half of Fear Factor.. now i have to try and catch it on AXN..

U know.. i can understand it why lil kids are so afraid to shake my dad's hands.. even i still feel funny when i hold his hands.. esp when we're crossing the road or something..

Not only will my hands be placed nicely in his.. it feels.. well it feels as if.. like.. well.. of course my hands feel puny la.. i dunno.. it feels like i'm juz fallin and falling into a huge gaping hole..

Like my hands will be trapped in his.. nvr to come out again.. haha..

Well.. guess that's all i have to say.. really can't wait for..

THE OC!!!

Well.. it's gonna be Meteor Garden at 10:45.. then switch to The OC once it hits 11.. then Meteor Garden.. then The OC.. then Meteor Garden.. and back to The OC again..

Ya.. ya.. u get the drift..

ADAM BRODY!!
ADAM BRODY!!
ADAM BRODY!!

Haha.. ok.. me signing off now..

Love u loads..

And oh.. applications for the club is still on.. so.. ya..

JOIN IN!!

And feel free to take up whatever positions u want..

I'm the PRESIDENT..

Lulu is the VICE-PRESIDENT..

Lalalalalalala

| 7/15/2004 09:51:00 PM

Miss Shaikhah kotek smsed me at 645 am.. without leaving any spaces in between her words.. and the entire sms was in CAPS.. she was screaming away..

I dun mind that she didn't leave any spaces in between.. cos that's how we sms..

I dun mind that it was entirely in CAPS..

But..

IT WAS 645 am..

Yesssssssss..

645 am and i was ASLEEP.. one of those mornings that i'm actually NOT supposed to be up at THAT hour..

And after i read her sms.. it sent me into a frenzy.. no no.. not cos it was sent at THAT hour.. rather the contents of her sms excited me..

So this is bad.. this is not good.. now i'm WIDE AWAKE!! wishing i cld get my ass down there.. but it's raining!! and even if it's not raining it's a crazy idea..

But then again.. me and craziness go together.. we juz gel together.. perfect match.. like.. like.. biscotti and kenya.. or is it biscotti and colombia?? haha.. if u dunno what that means.. well.. go figure..

So what shld i do.. what shld i do.. dammit.. dammit..

I think i'm seriously going insane.. here i am.. blogging away at this hr.. when i only officially slept at 3 last nite..

That's it.. i'm crazy to the max.. Lulu said that yday evening.. when i smsed her and told her that i wanted to watch tv.. and i cldn't wait for the amazing race to start.. and that i was all alone jumping abt to Hybrid Theory..

So yes.. i got so bored waiting for my parents to get home at 9.. that i.. actually..

COOKED DINNER!!

Haha.. u muz be thinking.. Azreen?? Dinner?? hey!! dun ever ever doubt my cooking skills.. i really can cook.. and trust me.. there'll be no food poisoning.. 100% guaranteed..

And when i say i'm lazy to cook.. i mean it.. it's not some dumb excuse to cover up for my lack of cooking skills.. which.. by the way.. I DIDN'T LACK IN THE FIRST PLACE!!

I'm RETALIATING to what HE said.. cos he always assume i'm using the lazy excuse to cover up the fact that i dunno how to cook..

Well..

I KNOW HOW TO COOK!!

Yday i cooked asam pedas.. hoho.. nothing interesting la.. the ingredients were pretty easy.. all available at home.. so ya.. my parents got a nice surprise when they got home..

And it was nice ok!! esp when it comes from my dad.. who can be really critical when it comes to cooking..

Oh oh.. did anybody watch The Amazing Race??

If u asked me to do that cow task.. well i dun mind doing it.. although i've never had any close encounters with cows before.. but it'll be interesting..

Cos i actually get to chase them.. i actually get to make them run!!! haha.. evil.. evil.. yesssss.. cos when u go msia.. the cows dun run away from u.. they stay rooted to the ground.. continue chewing..

But i tell u.. if i were to do the stunt.. i think the ENTIRE farm there will be drowned with my screamings.. haha..

Now THAT will defnitely set the cows on their.. hooves?? no.. they dun have hooves.. that's for horses.. well.. feet then..

MOOOOOOOOOO!! MOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!

Anyways.. in anticipation of ADAM BRODY tonight.. heh.. i've put this song by Phantom Planet.. dun u juz like the opening to this song?? nice rite??

So tonight i have to do a bit of channel surfing.. trying to watch Meteor Garden and The OC at the same time.. oooh.. oooh.. tonight's episode is PG.. cos got gay stuff going on..

Interesting..

Gays.. and HIM juz go together.. hoho.. and i assumed that even before i got to know him.. hoho..

Ok i shld stop it..

STOP IT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Didn't see him today.. cos we were both too busy.. didn't have the time.. anyways i wanted to go home asap after sch..
And he had to do pw.. until 9 i think..
So at around 7.. when he was abt to have dinner wif frenz he smsed me.. he told me he was trying very hard not to sms me.. but he cant help it cos..
HE MISSES ME!!
Awwwwwwww..
How sweet!!
Haha.. ummm.. i dunno.. shld i believe him?? despite him telling me that he really mean it??
Yday's confession still hasn't sunk in yet..
Haha.. ok ok.. i admit i like him..
I really really do..
But.. i dunno how to say it..
It's a nice feeling.. sends my heart into a flutter..
He makes me smile all the time..
Actually he was smsing me the entire day.. up to the point that i had to tell him to stop.. both of us shld pay attention in class..
So i told him to sms me when he's done wif school..
So.. haha..
Lalalalalalalala..
He wished me gd nite.. again saying he misses me..
Well..
I MISS HIM TOO!!

| 7/15/2004 07:19:00 AM

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

I'm listening to Maroon 5's album now.. i dunno what the hell is wrong with my cd player.. each time i wanna play the cd the volume is inaudible.. even if i increase it all the wasy to 20.. which is the max by the way.. but when i wanna tune to the radio it's fine.. so now i just have to be contented to listening it on the computer.. so sad.. can't blast it away..

Mann!! i didn't know that all their songs swayed to the sexuality side.. i mean not crude and disgusting sex.. i mean the album is afterall about the lead's ex.. so i guess his relationship with hers was more of the sexuality kind.. i dunno.. i mean as i was reading the lyrics.. i realised every single song was about their sexual encounter.. so.. ya.. go figure..

The album is great though.. u can really hear the guitars and drums.. by the way.. the lead and drummer juz look so good!! yummy.. haha..

But of course this album still doesn't beat Hybrid Theory or Meteora.. LINKIN PARK RAWKZ!!!!!!! juz imagine me doing that action mann.. i will always love Linkin Park.. i mean aren't u just amazed at how they are able to fuse everything into their songs?? their end products always manage to sound great.. and chester's voice.. well.. his voice just adds the magical touch to all the songs..

Met up with Azian after tuition.. i was practically rushing home.. reached home a lil bit after 8.. met her.. we talked for a bit.. watched Anugerah.. i tell u.. if the judges had kicked out helmi ali.. that's it mann.. i will go right up to them and give them a piece of my mind.. then i'm gonna boycott the damn show..

And yday.. my auntie and uncle juz cldn't stop saying things.. like how i dah jambu.. whatever crap la.. i really feel uncomfortable when people say such things.. like.. i dunno.. just dun say it.. and after they said that they started assuming i'm attached.. of course i was like, "Huh?? What?? No.. where got.." and after much protesting from me.. they started talking about something else.. they asked the ages of my other cousins.. then they started comparing.. those cousins who are of the same age as me and azian.. which one of us will get married first..

I mean i do think about marriage.. that i admit.. cos i think getting married is a wonderful way to show the other person how much u love her and wld wanna spend the rest of ur life her.. i mean.. u will have to be committed to each other.. unlike co-habitation.. and who wldn't want a grand marriage.. but.. it all comes down to whether u can afford it or not.. i mean if u dun.. then it's ok.. juz a small intimate affair will do.. i dun care.. as long as i'm legally married in the eyes of the law.. and i can have un-sinful sex in the eyes of Islam..

Hoho.. did i really say that last part?? guess i did.. haha.. hey!! at least i'm being honest with my thoughts!! ok what were we talking about earlier.. oh ya.. my aunt and uncle.. dun u think when the adults actually talk about it and asked u straight in the face.. it's like.. "Umm.. can we change the subject here?"..

So by the time i reached home it was 11 plus.. and my parents were already asleep.. which means up till this very moment i've not seen them for roughly 36 hrs!! see.. this is what happens when both my parents come home late.. and by the time they reach home at 9 i'm out.. and they leave so early in the morning.. so in the end we dun talk much or see much of each other.. only the occasional lunch time calls..

I know what HE must be thinking of right now.. or rather what went through HIS mind when SHE said to HIM that she's frenz with HER..

"Oh my God!! i was trying to get away from HER fren.. and now my classmate knows HER!! these gals are juz EVERYWHERE!! first THEY hung out at my work place.. then THEY got my no.."

Well.. let ME correct that for YOU.. WE are not everywhere.. YOU think WE go around stalking YOU?? give US a break!! WE just know the right people.. WE just know lots of people.. so if YOU are doing YOUR best to run away from US.. or rather from ME.. i wish YOU the best of luck.. i'm sure WE are bound to bump into EACH OTHER.. afterall.. singapore is VERY VERY small..

Maybe if I do bump into YOU.. I'M probably gonna ignore YOU.. because I did MY very very best to keep the frenship going.. in fact I INITIATED IT.. cos I'M sincere in wanting to be YOUR fren..

But YOU.. now I dunno if YOU wanna be MY fren.. tell me YOUR definition of frenship.. cos I really dunno.. maybe after YOU tell me YOUR definition of frenship will I be able to understand YOU..

YOU told ME not to judge YOU.. not to make assumptions.. well.. YOU just have to face the harsh reality.. PEOPLE JUDGE YOU BY YOUR ACTIONS.. yes people do.. i'm not trying to conform to the norm.. but put YOURSELF in MY shoes.. I think YOU will assume the same..

I called just to ask YOU how was sch.. I just wanted to know how YOU were getting along.. i dunno.. maybe YOU were asleep.. but YOU wld have seen MY number upon waking up.. it's not only this.. all those other times YOU were being a complete irritating ass.. do YOU know the meaning of REPLY?? DO YOU?? YOU often said it's always YOU who have to call ME.. so fine.. now I make things easier for YOU by calling.. but just look at YOUR attitude..

Look.. i'm NOT obsessed over YOU.. no matter how hot I might find YOU.. obsessing over YOU is the LAST THING ON MY MIND.. I really am sincere in wanting to be YOUR fren.. nothing more nothing less.. maybe YOU just treat our relationship as mere ACQUAINTANCES.. i dunno..

Why dun YOU tell ME??

Cos i'm still unclear.. even acquaintances talk to each other occasionally.. acquaintances greet each other.. acquaintances ask after each other.. even if it's for 5 mins.. ACQUAINTANCES ACKNOWLEDGE EACH OTHER..

Yes.. that's what i want from YOU.. some form of ACKNOWLEDGEMENT.. even if it's a grunt.. like my dad.. i dun understand.. what's with the human mindset that ignoring a person is the best way to get a message across..??

HELLO???? silence and trying to get the message across doesn't actually click together.. i dun even sense any morse code or any form of communication from YOU.. the ONLY way to get a message across is through COMMUNICATION..

Dun YOU think that wld just make people NOT like YOU at the end of the whole thing?? i know YOU dun care if people like YOU or not.. and so do I.. but dun YOU care what YOUR frenz think of YOU?? cos I certainly do.. no wait.. maybe I wasn't even YOUR fren in the first place!!

Cos if YOU know how to TREASURE a frenship YOU surely wldn't want YOUR fren not to like YOU.. the ONLY way for YOUR fren not to like YOU is because YOU did something wrong..

Ohhhh.. I get it now.. I NEVER WAS YOUR FREN.. I NEVER AM GONNA BE YOUR FREN.. guess i was naive.. really really naive.. if that's the case.. that I am not YOUR fren.. and YOU dun care what I think of YOU.. then..

I REST MY CASE..

I just have one last thing to say.. if YOU are thinking of.. well if the thought EVER cross YOUR mind.. that I am QUALIFIED to be YOUR fren.. well.. I'm open to it.. cos i seriously think YOU will make a wonderful crappy FREN despite YOUR irritating-ness.. should one day YOU realize that YOU wanna be MY fren.. well.. YOU have MY number.. YOU know what to do.. even if YOU dun have it in the future.. YOU can ask YOUR classmate to ask HER fren for MY number..

Cos that fren of HERS.. SHE and ME are so tight.. so close.. now that's what frenship is all about.. i shall not bother to go on and elaborate what frenship is all about.. cos i'm sure she knows how much she means to me without me saying it..

There.. i've said it.. notice i didn't use any swear words?? it's cos i'm not angry.. the thoughts have been on my mind for the longest time.. so it's time i let it all out..

Ok.. moving on.. i'm sorry this post is really long.. i just need to get lots of stuff off my system.. if not i'll go crazy.. ok i have some more things to say to another person.. to a very special person..

Today would have marked exactly a year.. are u aware of that?? guess u aren't cos i dun mean anything to u anymore.. well.. it wld have been a year.. if u had given it a chance to grow.. if u had given it time to develop..

But sadly u didn't.. u chose to walk away from it.. u chose to walk away from me.. without even saying good bye..

All those wonderful times we spent together.. those wonderful memories.. it seemed like only yday.. things were going on fine.. things were going on smoothly.. things were going on smoothly.. it's like u just disappeared.. we were not even drifting apart in the first place.. u were there for me the night before.. then the next day i heard nothing from u..

Nothing.. nothing at all.. and it has continued to drag on..

What happened?? where did WE go wrong?? where did I go wrong?? what did I do??

Was it something I did?? was it something I said??

I understand.. ur feelings for me might have faded.. and maybe i wasn't aware of it.. cos it's true.. love is indeed blind.. have u heard of the saying that love is the institution for the blind??

It's true.. in the sense that u become oblivious to ur surroundings.. u dun care what others say.. i didn't care when Azian asked me what did i see in u.. i didn't care at all.. cos all i knew was i had fallen for u..

I dun get it.. before u decided to get on with ur disappearing act.. we actually went out during the day.. we even chatted till late the night before..

So why?? what exactly happened.. if u realised.. on ur part.. that u dun feel the same towards me anymore.. the least u cld do was tell me.. u are another person who adhere to the same school of thought.. that ignoring a person is the best way to get the message across..

Seriously.. is there such a school in singapore?? if there is.. can some please tell me where it is.. i'm really interested to know.. about what they actually teach over there.. then one day i'm going to kill the principal and the teachers there and impart some useful lessons of my own to the students..

U left me feeling hurt.. and sad.. and angry.. and confused.. i asked u what is the state of our so-called relatonship.. u said u still like me.. when i asked u abt it again u denied saying all those things.. was it just a game to u?? was it?? was it?? tell me the truth.. i need to know..

U were the sweetest person i ever knew.. u were the best thing that ever happened to me.. and u still are.. always will be..

I'm sorry if being with me was such a torture..

I'm sorry if i was a pain in the neck..

I'm sorry.. i'm really sorry if i ever did anything to hurt u..

I hope u're happy where u are right now.. so much for the happy ending that i expected out of this.. so much for it..

I dunno what else to say to u.. i dunno how to tell u that the wounds u inflicted on me will be there forever..

I dunno how to tell u that those wounds dun seem to heal.. no matter how much i want them to..

Andrea Bocelli said the heart is the strongest muscle in the body..

So i'm directing this qn back to him..

If the heart is the strongest muscle in the body then why is it the easiest to break??

Tell me.. tell me..

Someone tell me..

It feels like i have spent a huge part of my life searching for answers.. and i'm getting tired of it..

No matter how i tell myself to stop.. it's really really hard.. i wanna give other people a chance.. i wanna give myself another chnace.. i wanna start anew..

I really really do..

U know.. there were many many nights that i spent crying over u.. cos i missed u so much.. i missed u so terribly that i wld just cry myself to sleep.. i never knew it wld hurt so much to miss someone..

The lyrics from Brandy's song "Have You Ever"..

Have u ever loved somebody so much it makes u cry?
Have u ever needed something so bad u juz can't sleep at night?
Have u ever tried to find the words but they dun ever come out right?

I cld identify with that.. i cld identify whatever she was singing..

U left me with a wound so deep.. that i fear it can never be healed..

Will it?? i dunno..

Somebody tell me..

Today was a very special day.. very very special day..
Cos now i finally know how he feels abt me..
He came to sr..all the way from yj.. we had discussed this earlier in the morning.. i told him we cld juz meet up somewhere after sch.. afterall yj and sr isn't exactly near.. it's like 45 mins..
But he insisted it was ok.. so i gave him directions.. and i was so afraid he wld get lost i gave him directions repeatedly.. he told me to relax.. that he wldn't get lost..
So after pe i had math remedial.. bummer.. and of course i cldn't concentrate at all.. haha.. cos he's coming what..
So math ended at 630 and i suddenly got nervous.. ask shuqing.. i was very very nervous..
When he came, me, shuqing and him sat at the void deck.. cos shuqing's dad was coming to pick her up and i didn't wanna leave her alone..
He wanted to see my new hp.. so i was showing how to use it and the functions and stuff when mr neo walked by.. oh mann!!
And that kuku shuqing.. she wanted to take a pic of us using her hp.. and she kept telling us to sit closer.. faint!!
So ya.. we went to tampines after that.. nowhere interesting la.. walked around the park..
Was it romantic?? errr.. dunno leh.. haha.. i mean it was dark.. and i had problems seeing around.. cos i was busy trying to keep a lookout for cats.. u know me and cats juz dun go together..
So he told me i cld hold his hand for guidance..
Aha!! that caught me totally off guard..
But i didn't hold his hand all the way la.. quite paiseh.. only when i sensed that there were cats around me..
Den went to eat at BK.. see i told u nothing romantic..
And he paid again.. ala.. i really feel paiseh..
Cos he's been paying for everything since the first time we met..
So ya.. den i think at BK he wanted to feed me fries?? i really dunno.. cos he told me to eat his fries.. but i was already full.. then he pciked up a fry and moved his hand towards my direction.. but i didn't move my head forward cos we were sitting opposite each other.. so he stuffed the fry into my straw.. haha..
Ohh.. den den.. he asked me abt my weight.. i told him that's a sensitive area which he shld never probe.. but he insisted kn knowing.. so i told him i tip the scales at 60kg.. yup.. fat heavy me..
Then.. he said that he 60kg is light.. he cld still carry me..
I know la.. he's got muscles and he goes to the gym everyday..
But carry me for what?? so i asked..
Then he said.. maybe in the future he needs to carry me or something..
HUH????
Haha.. den he said maybe if i need to cross the drain he cld carry me..
??????????????????????
Den.. almost 10 already.. shit mann.. i really had lots of explaining to do to my mom.. she noticed i kept coming home late.. so.. ya.. juz told her i 'studied'..
So when we left BK.. i cld have easily taken 22 or 65 from tamp interchange..
But no.. we decided to walk all the way.. cross the rd and take 21.. haha.. crazy mann..
So i got home.. bathed.. checked my hp..
Hey!! got sms from him!! i didn't tell u did i.. that my new hp displays the sender's name.. so u dun need to unlock the hp and open the msg and wait in anticipation to see who has smsed u..
So.. haha.. i got this sms from him.. haha.. so funny.. it said:
Try 2 read tis msg slowly: u r row man thick, sack sea, bee tea full, loaf lee, at track thief, i at my ear u so much. i hope my spelling is core rack.
I almost dismissed it as another forward.. but then something inside of me told me that things aren't as simple as it seems.. but i really didn't want it to seem as if i'm such a bitch..
So i jokingly told him that i'm smart.. dun play play.. that i know what the msg meant..
Then he asked me if i get what he's trying to say..
Oh-oh.. alarm bells started ringing..
I told him not to talk rubbish..
But he told me he meant it..
And so.. the fire alarm bell started to ring..
I told him that he sent the sms to the worng person..
So he replied.. told me everything.. u know.. bla bla bla.. how much he likes me.. and ya.. stuff..
So this time the public alarm system started to ring..
I really didn't know what to do..
So i told only 2 people.. Shuqing and Azian..
I mean i like him.. he's nice.. and i've known him for quite some time now.. i knew him since the start of the SARS hols.. and he's really a nice guy.. even Azian said so.. cos same sch wat..
But do i really want this?? i mean.. aren't things nice juz the way they are??
So ya.. after dunno how many sms.. we both decided to juz go with the flow.. no rush.. take things as they come.. studies come first..
Oh mann.. what an evening!!
I really dunno.. some of it was a bit funny..
But the confession part was shocking.. i mean i can tell he likes me.. but..
I juz wasn't expecting it tonight.. so..
Ummm.. dunno la..
But..
Hee hee..

| 7/14/2004 12:24:00 PM

Tuesday, July 13, 2004

I have juz emptied the ENTIRE contents of my wardrobe and i still can't find my tube!!

Mann.. where did i put it?? this is what happens when i have not worn a tube for so long.. i juz keep chucking it into my wardrobe.. my mom told me to hang it up but i refuse..

If i'm unable to find it.. i wun be able to wear my pink low cut wrap top today!! and i HAVE to wear my pink low cut wrap tube.. cos..

TODAY IS A DRESS UP DAY!!

And why is today a dress up day??

It's cos..

I'M GOING ON A HUNT..

Muahaha.. a hunt for what u may wonder.. well.. i'm not gonna tell u.. if i find a prey then i'll say la.. i wonder who the victim is gonna be.. haha..

Ok ok.. it's not as bad as it sounds.. really.. dun worry.. i'm juz gonna see if i can have a lil bit of fun today.. afterall i have been studying quite a bit.. and up till this day migration still doesn't make sense..

And i need to borrow from one of u gals ur Balance of Payments notes.. all thx to maurice who actually STOLE it.. i can't believe that fella.. i put my notes on the empty seat during geog lecture.. and when the lecture ended i realised it wasn't there anymore!! and so was he.. he had disappeared from his seat behind me..

*sheesh*

Till today.. talking abt it still makes me mad.. i make an effort to make my notes look nice.. all highlighted nicely.. written with coloured inks.. even if i borrow from any of u gals.. it wun be the same.. cos it's not my own handwriting afterall.. and yesssss.. i studied for my A levels WITHOUT that stack of notes..

Doesn't he feel any shame?? my notes still hasn't turned up till this day.. and pls.. dun say i'm jumping to conclusions.. cos there was absolutely NO ONE ELSE next to my empty seat.. and the only person who was near it was maurice who sat at the back..

Before i confronted him i had the decency to go thru my file and bag.. and i also searched the floor to make sure it hadn't dropped.. and how do u explain his disappearance even before geog lecture ended??

And he actually had the cheek to tell me if i'm unhappy we shld go to the OM.. the Operations Manager.. yess.. Mr Samuel Ou..

*in that raspy voice* SAMUEL SAMUEL

Haha.. if u know the joke behind that one.. and the joke i played on liza.. haha.. rmbr it gals??

But back to what i was talking abt earlier.. i mean.. HELLO?? why do u need to go to the OM for that?? God!! he doesn't even know our class.. i know maurice is famous with him la.. cos well.. maurice is maurice..

I guess he thought i'll get cold feet by juz the mere mention of the OM.. pls la.. u bring me to Philip Tan also i'm not scared ok!! cos i wasn't in the wrong.. why didn't he threaten me by saying he wld bring that up to Miss Ong our civics tutor or even Mr Neo our very lovely and HOT econs tutor??

It's cos both of them dun like him!! URGH!! HE IS SO IRRITATING!! no that isn't the word.. he is juz BEYOND DESCRIPTION.. his attitude really sux.. he juz brings shame to Saint Andrews.. doesn't he feel disgusted looking at all the pink and purple and red coloured inks on the notes?? it's so girlish..

No wait.. maybe..

HE IS GAY!!!!!!

Hee hee.. ya.. maybe.. i guess that explains why he always hangs out with Benjamin the super engrossed nose digger who was so oblivious that people were looking at him during gp class that he continued his nose exploration by pushing his finger DEEPER into his nose!!

Hmmmmm.. i wonder what's inside his his nose.. i once told andi that the entire galaxy is in MY NOSE.. to which he said that if he wanna explore he wld have to bring cutters to get thru all those hair..

So if u were to ask me if i wanna explore the world of Benjamin's nose.. i'll pass.. maybe for a million bucks i wld.. i mean it wld be interesting to see what goes on in his nose.. esp if u see the intense look of concentration on his face..

WAH!! u wld know how he looked like if u were there with me in gp class.. i think there was lulu.. glady.. shuqing.. bert.. ilyas?? yeah mann..

Ok enuff abt noses.. see.. i meant to talk abt one thing.. then i'll digress and talk abt other things..

Singapore is small.. so small indeed.. dah la Andi know Josh cos they used to work together.. now it's such a coincidence that Sophia and Andi are in the same class.. they are gonna be learning art history together which happens to be Andi's fave subject.. and they are gonna learn other arty farty stuff and become teachers!!

How Andi will be as a teacher i dunno.. i think he wld be ok la.. i mean he's used to teaching dance.. and was a facilitator for Mc Cafe.. but art.. hmmmmmmmm.. we shall see..

Oh ya!! i juz won a $100 voucher!! cos i was listening to the Late Night Show.. then carrie said she's giving out $100 Salon for Hair voucher.. so the first person to call thru with a hair problem gets it..

Ooh la la.. i was the first person thru!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The perks of late night studying.. so now all i have to do is juz wait for the letter to come in the mail.. which will probably take 3 weeks.. and then i can think of what i wanna do to my hair..

Or maybe i can start thinking NOW.. haha.. shld i curl it?? shld i?? shld i?? i know curls are in.. but.. will it make me look old?? i really dunno.. what shld i do.. what shld i do..

La la la la la la la..

Ok i better get back to searching for my tube.. if not i'll be late..

Love u guys!!

Hee.. can finally use my new hp.. the sony ericsson T68i.. not the latest model but it'll do.. now my parents dun have to find out abt my 3310 which i lost on the way home from the bbq.. dun blame me.. it was midnite.. and pitch dark.. i didn't realise i dropped it till i got home!!
Won this new hp yday.. was out with shake and neeta to the starhub rdshow at suntec.. cos they wanted to see utt.. haha.. it was a fun day.. cos we actually signed up for the MTV Get Spoted thingy.. rehearsed our lines and actions.. but in the end.. oh well.. it's MTV's loss!!
Him and me were smsing the entire day!! i dunno how many smses we exchanged.. maybe abt 50.. we seriously didn't stop smsing except when he had tuition.. and before we went to bed..
Haha.. he's jealous i have a new hp.. la la la.. his isthe 6510.. but ok wat.. quite a gd hp.. except that.. IT DOESN'T HAVE MMS!! haha..
So i dunno.. do i like him?? well.. i am flattered by the amt of attention he gives me.. but.. i dunno la..
Maybe it's juz me.. afterall he's a nice guy.. so this is his gesture of frenship.. ala.. dunno la..

| 7/13/2004 11:55:00 AM