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Nurazreen. Azreen. Az.
Loves Kukuz. Filial Daughter. Devoted to Batman.
20 yrs YOUNG. 15 January 1985. Capricorn.
SHOPAHOLIC.
School of Cookery. School of Flirting. School of Camwhore. School of Videowhore. KukuzRuffbabezInc. TLC. Bruce Wayne Enterprises.
Crazy. Stubborn. Loves To Eat. Complains abt Fats. Dunno how to swim. Dunno how to cycle. Nice Long Straight Hair. Sweet Fone Voice. But scary in real life.
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15 days to my birthday.. MUAHAHA.. and i found out shake is gonna get my prezzie today cos she wanna avoid de 5% GST.. hur hur.. wat a great fren.. haha.. actually shake it doesn't matter la.. as long as i get my prezzie.. hee..
so.. de last day of de yr.. last day of 2003.. sigh.. time really literally flew by.. initially i wanted de yr to pass by quickly cos i wanted to get de A's done & over wif.. but looking back i realised there were certain things dat i overlooked..
guess it's only human nature.. we always regret.. regret over things we did.. regret over things dat we didn't do.. our lives wld constantly be filled wif "What Ifs".. u know.. like.. What wld de consequences be if i had chosen to do it?? What if i decided not to do it??.. If only i had told him.. u know.. dat kinda stuff..
De other day i read a bk.. it's aptly titled "What If..??".. forgot who de author was.. after reading it, i realised dat i dun wanna live my life full of regrets.. altho certain things didn't turn out de way i wanted.. i guess i shld be thankful.. i shld be thankful dat i made some wonderful frenz.. shake.. lizzy.. shuqing.. lulu.. neeta.. izati.. and all de other hot babes.. i shld be thankful to mr neo.. cos.. well.. he has made my life enriching thru his econs lessons (i know wat u're thinking shake.. juz shut up & dun laugh!).. and thankful to mr neo.. cos i got to see wei tong cos of him..
and i shld be thankful dat i got to know him dis yr.. sometimes i regretted knowing him.. i regretted for being so naive.. regretted falling for him.. but i gave it a lot of thot last nite.. altho i'm hurt by de way things are now.. guess i really enjoyed de times i spent wif him.. so i wld juz choose to rmbr those wonderful times.. wun wanna rmbr de bad times.. shuqing once said to me dat when we've fallen for someone, we wld choose to rmbr his gd pts.. guess it's true.. i dun wanna put him in a bad light.. so yeah.. only de wonderful memories shall be kept in my heart..
if u guys are wondering whether i've written de letter.. well.. nope.. i haven't.. seriously i dunno where to start.. dunno how to write it without hurting his feelings.. but i will write it.. eventually.. bit by bit.. i will bare my feelings..
so anyways.. to all my frenz.. i hope u all will haf a wonderful yr ahead.. i've decided not to make any new yr resolutions.. i shall live life one day at a time.. i really really miss all of u.. meet up soon ok??
MUACKZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
Ours is a strange story
Where did it start
Where will it end
What are we destined for?
He doesn't know
and I dunno
Ours is a strange story
We used to be so close
Now we're distant
It's a strange story indeed
k.. it's 16 days to my birthday.. MUAHAHA.. i'm very excited abt it.. cos.. hee hee.. i've got something planned for my close frenz.. hehz.. meanwhile u all better get my prezzies ready.. rmbr.. it's 16 days to my birthday!!
anyways i had lots of fun over de wkend.. yup.. was running around like a kid wif my lil cousins.. ohh.. juz yday alone i watched koi mil gaya 4 times & mujhse dosti karoge thrice!! haha.. wat is happening to meeeeee?? no la.. actually my lil cousins kept watching de vcds all over again so i cldn't help myself.. but at de end of de day i'm still in love wif shah rukh khan.. sigh..
speaking of which.. de deciding criteria for my future husband will be: Are u a hindi movie freak?? if u aren't.. den.. SAYONARA.. haha.. dat's my condition.. and i know shake's wld be: Are u a Star Wars fan?? heh..
umm.. shake.. i still haven't got down to writing de letter.. cos i dunno how to start it.. i'm trying not to hurt his feelings.. sigh.. shake.. i'm sorry if wateva i said on sun made u tink abt him.. yeah i know u showed me his 2 sms.. i know how u feel.. it's really very very very hard to let go.. it's much harder to remain frenz.. i dun wanna loose his frenship too.. but tmr is de last day for 2003!!!!!!! AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!
ohh.. lizzy dearest.. WHERE DE FUCK IS MY TESTIMONIAL?? pardon my french but.. i cldn't help it.. u're such a lazy pig.. shldn't haf told u de truth when u called me on friday.. heh..
oh shake.. since tmr is already de last day of de yr.. do u tink we sepatutnya beritahu kawan kita yang giler giler kan utt de truth?? tapi macam dah basi kan?? haha
ok peepz.. dat's all for today.. kinda tired.. umm.. so yeah.. i wanna rest & try my very very best to start de letter..
oh gosh!! can't believe de yr is going coming to an end!! am i excited?? oh yes i am.. cos it's 20 days to my birthday!! AHHHHH!!!!!!!! get it ppl.. 20 DAYS!! u all muz start shopping for my prezzie.. heh..
ok i'm pretty excited for sunday.. because.. hehe.. shall not divulge anyhting yet.. but juz pretty excited for it.. i'm praying very very hard something gd happens out of it.. heh..
umm.. i'll be away for a few days.. i mean i'll still be in singapore but i wun be able to go online.. so dun miss me too much k?? anything u guys can juz sms or call me..
oh peepz.. my cousin lost her hp.. so if any of u haf got a spare hp at home, tell me k??
MUACKZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
I'M DECLARING WAR!!!
yes ppl.. WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!
after wat happened last nite i realised dat i've been waaaaaaaaaay toooooooo nice.. so yup.. it's time i stop being so tolerant..
it's gonna be a verbal war.. ok.. no not verbal abuse.. but WAR OF WORDS.. u may wonder i'm staging a war against who.. well.. against HIM..
so gurlfrenz.. any of u interested in being part of my army??
i'm super pissed at my internet connection.. dunno wat's wrong wif it.. i can't seem to be able to send emails!!
anyways.. chatted wif shuqing last nite.. let's see.. from 11:39pm till 1:03am.. haha.. yes i took note of de time.. so now my head is clearer.. i know wat i shld do.. and i'm gonna do it.. yup yup.. get it over & done wif.. i wanna start anew in 2004.. ohh.. and i probably shld give something else a shot.. hee..
ok.. nothing much to talk abt today.. went to de lib.. was spoilt for choice as to wat bks i shld borrow.. den went to meet shake.. ok i'm at shake's hse right now..
k me signing off now.. cya around..
MUACKZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
I've not seen my mom since yday.. when i woke up yday she was already off to work.. yes.. on a sunday.. den when i got home last nite, she was already fast asleep.. only my dad was awake watching soccer.. correction.. soccer was watching him.. haha.. he was asleep on de sofa.. den today when i woke up, as usual both my parents had gone to work..
Went to zubaidah's hse yday.. she had an open hse.. it's at Balotta Park.. for those of u who dunno where it is.. hur hur.. -wriggles my fingers-.. anyways her hse was very nice.. and her rm faces de pool.. and she can easily climb out of de window to get to de pool.. or if she wants to sneak out in de middle of de nite for a rendezvous or something.. she has a toilet in her rm.. dammit.. i'm so envious.. altho i dun haf to share de toilet wif anyone i still haf to get out of my rm to use it.. can u imagine me & shake arrived there at 5:30 & only left at 9:30?? yup yup.. basically we were juz hanging out at her place.. left her place wif mas & nurul.. oh before i forget.. her bro is DAMN CUTE!! hee hee.. but too bad he's younger den us.. heh..
Ok.. can somebody get me a husband like jamie oliver?? I think he's HOTTT!! heh.. was watching Jamie's Kitchen juz now.. SWOON.. i mean i've always found him HOT but today.. he was juz IRRESISTABLE.. heh.. i mean.. he's got de looks.. and he can COOK!! yup.. dammit.. his wife is one heck of a lucky lady..
Oh.. den i watched The Oprah Winfrey Show.. today's episode was abt Oprah's Favourite Things.. It's abt de best xmas prezzies dat u can give to ur frenz.. and de best part was de audience got to go home wif every single item dat was featured on de show.. so basically she did everybody's xmas shopping.. let's see.. there was a Ralph Lauren cashmere top.. a camcorder worth US$1000.. a dvd player worth abt US$500.. a diamond necklace.. woollen boots.. and lots more.. like tonnes & tonnes of items.. she even said dat by de end of de show everyone will be going home wif stuff worth more den US1.5 million.. how i wish i was on de show..
Anyways.. last nite after i got home from Z's hse, i did de unthinkable.. ok it was nothing big but i did something dat i've been procrastinating for a long long time.. finally had de guts to do it.. u know i was peeing in my shorts when i first did it.. but things went smoothly & turned out fine.. and shake was soooooooooooo super jealous.. haha.. -thrusts my hands into de air- YES!!! YES!!! YES!!! and i was smiling to myself de entire nite.. grinning like a cheshire cat.. hehz..
Sigh.. but at de end of de day my thots still go back to him.. how shake how?? how to get closure?? wat to say?? i dun even know how to start?? i agree wif Z dat it's not easy.. really not easy.. and i haf to admit i still haf strong feelings for him.. tell me wat to do shake.. pls can anyone tell me wat is de right thing to do.. shuqing?? lulu?? neeta?? lizzy?? AHH!!! HELP MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
boy did last nite's rain suck.. i had planned to go out but had to cancel it.. but was pretty tired after going out wif my cousin during de day.. had a nice time spending de day wif him.. and he meddled wif my hp & saw stuff dat he wasn't supposed to see!! and he was laughing like mad ok!! i tell ur mom wat u did at boat quay last nite den u know.. HUMPH!! so much for bringing him out!!
so yeah.. since i cancelled my plans i ended up watching home alone on tv.. so i was curled up on de sofa wif de cushion.. and i fell asleep.. ok dat's not de thing.. i actually DROOLED.. haha.. yup.. on my t-shirt & on de cushion.. haha.. come to think of it i've forgotten which cushion i drooled on to.. it's one of de pink cushions.. haha.. so ppl if u come to my hse.. BEWARE!!
ok.. topic of de day: POSITIVITY.. went to bed feeling sad.. when i woke up today i felt happy.. dunno y.. maybe i'm excited to go to zubaidah's hse today.. ok.. more like i'm trying to make myself happy.. i dunno.. oh heck.. i'm crapping.. but take dis piece of advice from me: BREATHE IN POSITIVE ENERGY, BREATHE OUT DE NEGATIVE ELEMENTS..
ok i really shld stop before i go on & on abt some other stuff..
i forgot to mention de fact dat we took 7 mins to run to azura's hse.. and i think it wasn't a bad timing.. considering we were in baju kurung.. heels.. me being barefoot & all.. having to endure de sand & de rd.. having to climb de overhead bridge.. having to run thru de park.. yeah u guys get de drift.. it was only when we got into de lift at azura's hse dat syha told us we took 7 mins.. heh.. WELL DONE LADIES!!
ok.. found out yday dat i can't sleep over at my aunt's dis wkend.. it's cos my cousin is coming from overseas.. URGH!! and since my parents will be working over de wkend dat means i haf to be stuck wif him during de day!! dis is so unfair!! juz cos of him i can't sleep over at my aunt's.. dun get me wrong.. i like hanging out wif him.. he's fun to be wif.. yday i asked him wat time his flight wld be reaching, he said he dunno.. wat de toot toot toot..
ok for now i need to go off.. promised my 2 lil cousins dat i'll take dem out today.. god knows how i'll be able to handle an 8 yr old & a 3 yr old.. haha.. i'll probably end up becoming like dem.. u know.. running around.. screaming.. haha..
I had de hardest time waking up today.. got home 5 mins before midnite yday.. den by de time I slept it was after 2am.. before I proceed on to give u a comprehensive detail of wat happened yday.. I need to vent out my frustrations first.. I am getting soooooooo super pissed at my grandma.. I mean I dun mean to sound rude or wateva but I'm really very pissed.. she calls EVERY SINGLE DAY.. yup.. it's getting on my nerves.. esp now dat she knows I'm not schooling.. and if I dun pick up de phone she keeps on calling & calling.. and she talks abt de same thing over & over again.. she kept asking if I'm going anywhere on a holiday wif my parents dis hols.. and I said no cos my dad can't be granted leave.. and she's been asking me since last wk!!!!! URGH!!! a close family fren passed away a couple of days ago & she went on & on abt him.. I mean.. I DUNNO DE PERSON!! I really dun!! And her block of flat is undergoing renovation right now.. & she says dat de hse is dusty la.. noisy la.. bla bla bla.. I told her dat if she wanna sleep over juz say la.. my dad can pick her up.. but she dun want.. oh my god!! I dunno wat she wants.. I realy am sorry if I sound rude.. but put urselves in my shoes..
Ok.. now I shall talk abt yday.. yup.. it was a very memorable day.. let's see.. promised junaidah I'll meet her at 10:30 at pasir ris interchange.. ok ok I was 6 mins late.. but I took 21 from home ok.. den didn't see de others.. so we sat & talked la.. ya.. so long never talk so it was pretty nice.. it was already 11 & still never see de rest.. den azura called junaidah.. they were actually at de control station.. miscommunication la.. cos jun thot since we were going to lizzy's hse den meet at interchange cos we need to take de feeder service afterall.. so there was me, jun, azura, syha, mas & widad.. upon further questioning, we found out dat widad & azura arrived promptly at 10:30.. they had to wait for mas & syha who arrived at 11.. they even managed to eat breakfast at macs while waiting.. haha..
Actually very paiseh go lizzy's hse a 2nd time.. but wat de heck.. u know.. actually I didn't know widad was from opera estate too.. so now de peepz dat I know from oeps are lizzy, widad, farid, mariam & hafiz.. so anyways ate mee goreng at lizzy's hse.. her mom's cooking is quite nice.. I painstakingly had to separate de veggie from de noodles.. normal la.. den lizzy's dad let us view a tape of her dancing.. u know when we were small there were hari raya variety shows featuring kids dancing & singing.. had loads of fun watching it.. cos dat lizzy.. her dance steps were de exact opposite of de others.. when the hands are supposed to sway to de right, she'll sway hers to de left.. haha.. it was really very funny la.. u haf to watch it on ur own so dat u can laugh at her..
Den it was off to jun's hse.. again it's de 2nd time I'm going there for raya.. but not so paiseh cos he parents aren't home.. ohh.. I forgot dat jun's lil bro is cute.. yup he's gd looking.. but shy I think.. cos he juz sat in de rm.. eh jun how old is he again?? 15 rite?? Ahh.. too bad la.. if not I wld tackle him already.. haha.. ohh.. lutfi lives at de opposite block.. can his hse from jun's.. again he became de butt of our jokes.. yup.. we were gossiping abt him.. non stop.. pls.. we aren't interested in him at all.. we were juz going on abt wat a loser he is.. ok if by any chance he or his frenz read dis, I'm dead.. actually I think lutfi is pretty cute.. but his attitude juz turns me off.. I think if he tones down de "look-at-me-I'm-de-coolest-and-most-gd-looking-guy-dat-has-ever-walked-on-de-surface-of-de-earth" attitude, we wld haf liked him a bit.. juz a bit more.. ohh ya.. everybody got excited over de swing dat jun's neighbour had installed juz beside de lift.. heh.. it's really nice u know..
De next hse was syha's hse.. at tampines.. took bus no 3 from jun's hse.. or as farid always calls it: Bus 3rd.. u know.. bastard.. haha.. while walking to syha's hse widad & lizzy were telling me how shy farid was in pri sch.. haha.. I always burst out laughing each time they say he was a very shy boy.. cos de way they described him was so funny.. said he wore glasses.. den when u talk to him he wun look u in de eye.. he wld juz look down.. haha.. it's hard to imagine him being super shy.. haha.. I only believed de part abt him being de fastest runner in sch.. ohh.. there were cops at de void deck of syha's hse.. all we knew was dat there were a bunch of guys who were moving hse but de cops got dem to move back de items back to their flat.. of course we were very curious la.. lizzy went to de extent of asking one of de neighbours wat happened.. and de stupid fella shrugged his shoulders & said they were playing catch.. eh u think police & thieves is it?? Irritating la.. over at syha's hse we ate nuggets & beef curry..
Den from her place took bus no 8 to mine.. dis is de 2nd trip for lizzy.. nothing much to talk abt here.. except for de fact dat lizzy fell asleep on de sofa while de others were watching nickelodeon.. at first it was noisy.. den it got quiet.. den realized dat lizzy dearest had fallen asleep.. so we talked bad abt her a bit.. heh.. showed dem my prom pics.. den we left for masturah's hse at 5..
Took 22 from my hse to get to her place.. umm.. we had mee goreng at her hse.. but dis time got no bean sprouts.. woo hoo!! Made it convenient for me.. but got other veggie la.. which lizzy ended up eating.. heh.. I transferred de veggie on my plate to hers.. den we sat down & I finished de bottle of murukku.. ohh.. me, widad & jun noticed a man walking towards de hse.. den he stopped in his tracks & turned back.. haha.. it was actually mas's dad.. he thot he had gone to de wrong floor cos his hse was brightly lit.. haha..
From mas's hse we took 133, dropped at balestier den took 125 to widad's hse.. she lives at whampoa.. jln bahagia to be exact.. so while waiting for 125 (which took quite long to come), we were juz yakking at de bus stop.. found out dat lizzy had dis fetish of drying her hands behind car exhaust pipes.. everyone was like: EWWWWW.. den I said to her: No wonder u turn out like dis.. haha.. den syha kept saying dat she smells dis soapy smell.. den mas said she smelt it too.. den mas started getting near widad & smelling her.. haha.. she was like reaaaaaaaaaally close.. haha.. den widad immediately traded places wif syha.. haha.. so de bus finally came.. in de bus mas showed us her prom pics.. WHOA!! Haha.. ohh.. cos mas was sitting behind me den she called to me.. den she asked: Azreen, do u smell something?? De way she said it was as if she smelt something mysterious.. of course I was shocked fro a while.. it turned out she smelt durians.. haha..
Didn't know dat widad lives in a private hse.. actually I dunno a lot abt her cos we aren't close at all.. all I know is she's from oeps.. she's 169 cm which makes her de shortest in de family.. luckily she has stopped growing.. she's de youngest of 3 siblings.. she sleeps everywhere at home.. she has weird dreams.. and her bro is cute!! Haha.. Cos I saw de pic of his bro at her hse.. but I'm not crazy over him like mas la.. when we came her bro was upstairs.. and I think mas was hoping he wld come down.. we had pasta at widad's hse.. de stuff at her hse were quite posh.. so I was a bit wary of using dem.. I mean there was a separate plate for de kuehs.. and a separate one for eating.. den we took pics at de stairs..
Den went to azura's hse.. last hse.. but it was all de way at jelapang rd.. u know.. near bukit panjang.. we had to take 124 to get to Newton den take 700 to azura's hse.. while waiting for 124, mas talked abt widad’s bro.. mas told widad dat she was hoping she cld haf seen him juz now.. u know during hari raya we are supposed to ask for forgiveness.. she wanted to do dat u know!! She even said she wld say dis to widad's bro: See u in my dreams.. haha.. very flirtatious!! Anyways when we finally got to Newton, de strap on my shoes broke.. actually it was my mom's shoe.. but I cld stll walk properly..
We waited for 700 for ages.. den dunno y we started talking abt sequins.. cos lizzy's clothes had some sequins on dem.. in mly it's actually called labuci.. I haf to admit it sounds like a bad word.. den all of us started playing wif de word.. some said it wif a slang.. some went Laaa-bu-ci.. some went La-buuu-ciii.. haha.. when 700 finally came it was packed to de door.. there was no way 7 of us cld get on it.. so we let it pass.. it was already 10 & we were still at Newton.. so we thot of taking a cab.. but there were no cabs at de taxi stand!! As de taxi stand was behind de bus stop, me & mas didn't join in de queue juz in case 700 came & we needed to make a dash for.. den finally at 10 mins past 10, 700 came.. and everybody juz ran after it.. can u imagine us in our heels & baju kurung?? Haha..
So we got on de bus.. there was actually a bus dat went all de way into azura's hse but we were afraid it wld take forever to come.. esp azura.. she was anxious to get home cos she didn't wanna be scolded by her parents.. we were telling her to relax cos she's wif us afterall.. so anyways we alighted & climbed de overhead bridge.. it was actually a 15 mins walk into her hse.. but den it was already 10:30 & azura was afraid we wld be very late.. so she suggested dat we run.. yup.. run all de way home.. dunno y everyone agreed to it.. so in de end I took off my shoes & ran barefooted.. haha.. we ran thru de park.. we said things like: we are ex-cedarians!! We can do it!! Haha.. and of course we were very noisy la.. I ran across de rd barefooted.. up de stairs barefooted.. thru de mall bare footed.. thru de carpark barefooted.. I wonder wat de passers by were thinking.. 7 gals in baju kurung running.. haha.. so when we finally got to azura's hse I washed my leg & got her dad to fix my shoe for me.. we had spaghetti & nuggets.. her dad cooked dem.. very delicious u know.. pretty spicy.. juz de way I like it.. den my mom called & asked where I was.. so I told her la.. den said I'll be sharing a cab home..
So yeah.. we left her hse at around 11:30.. luckily we managed to get a cab pretty quick.. so me, lizzy, jun & shy shared a cab.. de driver dropped me off 1st.. I juz gave lizzy $12.. she told me it's too much.. heck la.. can return me de remainder another day.. u know.. I was pretty surprised my parents didn't get mad or anxious at me for coming home dat late.. guess their baby daughter has grown up afterall.. heh.. in fact when I got home, de lights were still on in their rm.. when I went into their rm, they smiled at me.. kinda freaky la.. cos I'm used to dem getting anxious & worried.. haha..
Den I bathed.. received sms from jun & lizzy telling me they are safely home.. after I bathed, I talked to my mom.. actually she was spraying ridsect at some roaches.. but I was so tired so I juz sat down on de kitchen floor.. and we talked & talked.. it was only at 1:30 dat we went into our own rms..
So peepz.. dat was wat happened yday.. I hope I get to hang out wif dem more often.. had a very fun day..
It's a very wet morning.. by right I shld be in bed.. all snuggled up.. warm.. haha.. but I'll be meeting junaidah, syha & azura at 10:30 to jln raya.. and if I were to continue sleeping I know I wun wake up till noon.. and I need to get myself ready.. muz look pretty.. actually very lazy to put on make up la.. but very funny rite if jln raya wif a bare face..?? no make up.. no lipstick.. ok ok.. I'll put on a teeny weeny bit of make up.. a gal's gotta wat a gal's gotta do.. actually last nite when junaidah called me she was giggling at de other end.. as in ketawa tersipu-sipu.. when i asked her why she said she malu nak say jln raya.. cos it's already like de 3rd wk of raya.. ala nvm la.. it doesn't matter.. speaking of which.. got no more kueh at home!!
I juz realized dat I wrote for lizzy dearest a 90-lined testi.. oh god.. wat's wrong wif me?? I was telling her dat I can't seem to write short sweet testis for everyone.. wassup wif me mann?? I really shld stop blabbering.. am I becoming like grandma?? Oh my god!! I hope not!! NOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! U know.. every single day my grandma will call me.. without fail.. den she'll start talking abt everything & anything.. even abt ppl dat I dunno.. I mean I understand la.. old ppl.. they are lonely.. and she only does dat when my auntie isn't home.. but wateva la.. not my phone bill.. luckily she doesn't know my hp no.. heh..
Managed to catch Maksiim's concert last nite.. was channel surfing den his concert was shown on Hallmark.. haf to say he's pretty gd.. I'm very impressed.. de way he played de piano was.. WHOA!! So now I'm thinking of getting his studio album.. I think it'll be awesome!! Did anybody see de trick MTV played on him?? Haha.. it was super funny!! But quite mean la.. I mean imagine urself getting arrested while doing an interview wif MTV.. and denise was a very gd actress!! Heh.. actually I think most of u probably wun know wat I'm talking abt.. ok.. I’ll shut up..
Ohh.. I watched de repeat of de 4th season of de amazing race on axn last nite.. actually yday was a tv day for me.. cos I didn't go anywhere.. decided to juz stay home & rest.. anyways.. I lurve watching de repeats of de amazing race.. I wld do anything to be on dat show.. yup.. I wanna experience de thrill & excitement of doing de tasks.. I can juz imagine myself.. running around.. screaming.. asking for help.. getting frustrated.. haha.. and being an absolute bitch juz so dat I'm able to get my way.. haha.. its de survival of de fittest.. who cares!! So who shld be my partner?? Neeta wld definitely be out.. I wun ever consider her.. cos she's so whiny.. walk a bit also complain.. and she can't run!! Yup.. and she'll worry abt chipping her nails.. getting mud on her face.. maybe I'll get shake.. cos she's super enthu.. in a gd way of course!! And she & me click really well.. so I guess we wld juz crap our way thru.. dat's de only way to motivate each other.. heh.. but come to think of it.. it'll be better if I haf a guy for my partner.. juz to be on de safe side.. generally guys are able to carry heavier stuff & all dat.. ok I'm talking as if I've qualified to be in de race!!
After reading lizzy's blog I suddenly miss my cousin.. yup my evadearest azian.. been quite some time since we went out.. de last time was de trip to orchard.. took a pic together.. bought some stuff.. ok one of these days I'll ask her if she's free.. juz to go out and chill.. or get up to some no gd.. or go for any recording at tcs.. or go Swenson's.. heck.. juz go anywhere!! And babe.. if I say I wanna go out wif u, pls leave ur bf at home!! Haha.. ok actually not ur fault la if he insists on following.. I know sometimes he can be a pain.. but try ur very best to convince him to stay home, k??
It's 2:30pm now.. I juz woke up.. heh.. very late I know.. call me a lazy pig.. wateva.. I'm juz very very tired.. been feeling lethargic lately.. dunno y.. ok.. let's get down to business..
Went out wif shake yday.. took our glam shots at suntec.. den went to catch a movie at cineleisure.. a French movie.. I've been wanting to watch it but didn't know of anyone who wld be interested.. den lo & behold as we were trying to decide wat movie to watch, shake asked if I wanted to watch it! Heh.. so yup.. de movie was called Love Me If U Dare.. in French it's Jeux D'enfants.. so was it a nice movie?? Was it worth my $6.50?? well.. yup.. cos de storyline was pretty gd.. it wasn't ur typical love story.. in fact it was a very frustrating one.. there were humorous parts.. and there were parts which juz.. well.. frustrated me & shake.. there was dis one time de guy was calling himself an idiot.. den me & shake said yes spontaneously.. heh.. but it was true.. he was such a toot toot toot.. u know up till now I still dun get de ending.. neither does shake.. after de movie ended we juz sat in de cinema & all sorts of questions came up.. we almost wanted to get someone to explain de ending to us.. but.. in de end we came up wif our own conclusion.. haha.. eh shake.. let's write to de director & ask him wat his ending was all abt la.. it was so ambiguous.. or maybe we aren't "deep" enuff to understand it.. ohh.. anybody who has music codes to "La Vie En Rose" pls send it to me.. cos de guy sang de song in de movie & now I've fallen in love wif him.. oopss.. I mean I've fallen in love wif it.. heh.. actually de actor was pretty cute la.. in my opinion he looked a cross between Jason Biggs ( from American Pie) & my very lovely mark.. heh..
Ohh.. we ate at Swenson's.. de one at Crown Prince Hotel.. juz found out yday dat de particular outlet is opened 24hrs.. heh.. so now I know where to go when I get hunger pangs in de middle of de nite.. each time I go to Swenson's I can't make up my mind on wat to eat.. cos everything on de menu look so nice.. I wanted to eat my chicken in mixed peppers.. but I felt like trying something dat I've not eaten before.. so in de end I settled for mushroom & salmon baked rice.. was it nice?? Ok la.. except for de fact dat de salmon was kinda salty.. eh chef.. de price of salt has gone down is it?? Dat's y u can afford to use so much salt on de salmon huh?? Shake had crayfish pasta.. after I finished my meal, I was still hungry.. heh.. I'm always like dat wat.. actually was so tempted to order something else but.. didn't wanna waste money la.. anyways.. next yr on my bday, we shall order de seafood platter k??
Den we went taka.. walked around cos shake wanted to get some bday prezzies.. thank god in de end she managed to get dem.. unlike shuqing who went around de whole of tm & century square but in de end didn't buy anything.. and de escalator wasn't working so we had to climb all de way up.. very tiring u know.. haha.. it's cos I've not exercised in a long time & de skirt dat I wore was a straight cut so I cldn't afford to take big steps..
Ohh.. I needed to pee so decided to check out de toilet at de paragon.. wanted to see if it was "paragon worthy".. haha.. umm.. actually de toilet wasn't dat nice la. De one at fullerton win hands down.. den as me & shake were walking around paragon we cld only afford to look at de things.. only de rich & posh can afford to buy stuff at paragon.. but let me tell u.. one day.. yup.. one fine day when I've earned my own money, I will get a top from Armani xchange.. juz u wait & see.. heh..
Den we went borders.. along de way we took some pics at de xmas tree.. heh.. eh shake.. send de pic to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. heh.. so when we finally got to borders, we didn't know which section to go to.. shake had a $20 discount voucher & she didn't know wat to get wif it.. went to de lit section.. religion section.. asian history.. new arrivals.. vcds.. in de end shake got herself a book.. not a chic book.. juz umm.. a book?? Haha.. ohh.. thx to shake dis bunch of mats got to know my name.. cos she got excited over dunno wat.. so she called me.. in a loud screechy voice.. den dis grp of mats went by.. actually I wonder wat they were doing in borders in de first place!! So anyways when shake called out my name one of dem ans.. URGH!!! So frustrating!! Go get a life la!!
Den when we went out, shake saw dis guy holding balloons.. imagine how horrified I was when she told me she wanted de balloon.. I was like: NO!! U ARE SOOOOOOOO NOT GONNA GET IT!.. den shake was like: BUT I WANT IT!! Urgh!! So she went up to de guy, donated some money & got de balloon.. oh my god!! I wldn't wanna be caught dead walking around orchard wif shake & her balloon.. den we saw wong li-lin & allan wu across de rd.. cos they were having de Lord of The Rings premier at lido.. and dat stupid shake she started running wif her balloon cos she wanted to see dem.. she even ran across de rd wif her damn balloon.. she didn't see it but I was shaking my head & going: WAT HAS DE WORLD TURNED INTO??.. haha.. at first she wanted to release de balloon right in de middle of de rd.. and I told her if she wanted to do dat I will stand far far away from her.. and dat idiot kept standing close to me.. so finally she released her balloon..
Den we saw ivan rantung wif lisa ang.. ahh.. bless dem.. cos of ivan, I managed to get de free hp.. heh.. he's a good man.. santa will surely give him a BIG prezzie.. heh.. den me & shake decided to go up to lido to see if there was anybody famous.. so we went all de way up, hung around but didn't see anyone.. so.. we went back down again.. as we were going down, dis woman was asking her fren: WHERE'S MY HUSBAND?? Den me & shake went: IN MY NOSE.. haha.. very funny.. I mean she cld juz call her hubby rite?? Hello.. de handphone exist u know.. haha.. ok ok.. it was mean but cldn't help ourselves la..
So we hung around downstairs.. outside lido.. hoping to catch a glimpse of other famous peepz.. we waited for quite some time.. den we saw denise keller.. u know de latest mtv vj.. ohh.. we saw utt yday too.. heh.. eat ur heart out neeta.. who ask u not to follow us?? Heh..
Ok.. I've not told u de highlight of de evening yet..as we were standing downstairs, dis cute Caucasian guy walked past.. he was in all black.. very cute.. a mini version of josh hartnett.. I think.. heh.. dunno if he's younger den me.. dat's de prob wif me.. I can't seem to tell whether de guy is younger or older den me.. anyways.. I was telling shake dat I found him cute.. heh.. so as he was walking, he sneezed.. and his mucus came out.. yup.. was hanging there.. heh.. of course it was like EWWWWW.. he had no tissue so in de spur of de moment I think he sort of wanted to "suck" de mucus up his nose.. so yeah.. juz visualize it in ur head.. lopsided mouth wif a sucking up action.. heh.. den I juz smiled.. wanted to laugh but tried to control myself.. cos I thot his actions were cute.. I managed to control myself till de moment he noticed dat I saw wat he did.. when he looked up & saw me looking at him, he was soooooo embarrassed.. dat was when I juz burst out laughing.. yup.. I did.. I really cldn't help myself.. it's seldom dat I get to laugh AT a cute guy.. heh.. but my greatest regret was not taking a pic wif him.. heh.. he was really cute!! Haha.. but nvm la.. if I were to ask him to take a pic wif me, he wld think I was mad.. heh..
So we finally left orchard.. found out dat there were specific times allocated to play wif de snow.. so we shall come back another day to play wif de snow la.. maybe xmas eve.. ohh.. beside orchard mrt there's a mini funfair I think.. I wanna get on de rides la.. it's been a long time since I did dat..anybody interested??
AHHH!!! shake's coming to my hse to use de comp!!!
so y am i getting all flustered?? cos de hse is in a mess.. heh.. my room is in a TOTAL MESS.. i've not made my bed.. and my teddy bears are all over de place.. thx to my constant kicking whilst i sleep.. heh..
ok ok.. i'm pretty excited actually.. gonna collect my glam shots later.. den play de 'snow' at borders & juz walk by orchard to see de lights.. it's gonna be soooooooooooooo super romantic wif shake by my side.. heh.. oh YUK!! 1 thing's for sure.. we are gonna get up to loads of crap.. so if u see 2 gals laughing like nobody's business & doing all sorts of funny stuff.. well.. dat's me & shake.. heh..
cya around!!
hee.. exactly 1 month till my bday.. am i excited abt it?? dunno la.. mixed feelings i guess..
i mean i'll be a yr older.. all grown up.. but dat means i haf to be more mature.. which i'm soooooooooooooooooooo not willing to do.. heh.. but wateva la.. as long as de ppl around me are able to accept me for who i am, den i'm ok wif it..
hmmm.. speaking of which.. i haf a list of bday prezzies.. heh.. a flat screen tv & a vcd player dat i wanna put in my rm.. juz for my own viewing pleasure.. den i can slack all day long in my rm.. heh.. already told my parents abt dis.. but they didn't say anything.. i take it as 'ok'?.. heh.. cos silence means consent.. heh..
and my frenz.. yup.. to all my frenz.. i know some of u wanna celebrate my bday at swensens.. anything la.. u guys juz want de free ice cream rite?? heh.. but if u dun celebrate my bday wif me also i dun mind.. as long as i get my prezzies.. heh.. individual prezzie from each one of u.. heh..
sigh.. actually all i want for my bday is to start anew.. yup.. wanna forget abt him.. juz like wat my cousin told me to.. but it's easier said den done.. definitely wun be easy for me.. but i'll take things one step at a time.. and de 1st step is to clear de air wif him.. again it's easier said den done...................................
140703.. de day u admitted ur feelings for me..
51 days ago de smses stopped..
51 days ago we stopped having a proper conversation..
51 days ago u stopped being sweet to me..
it was only recently dat I got to meet him.. yeah.. after 51 days.. but of course things haf taken a different course.. ppl say absence makes de heart grow fonder.. its true for me.. but on his part, I guess absence makes de fondness go away..
I seriously dunno wat went wrong.. we were chatting till late into de nite de nite before.. den de next day I juz stopped hearing from u.. I thot it was cos of exams.. didn't wanna bother u.. den even after everything has ended I still didn't hear from u..
Did I do anything wrong?? Haf I said something to hurt u?? I really dunno.. if I really did I'm really really sorry.. I'm terribly sorry.. I didn't haf any intention of hurting u.. and I will never hurt u.. not ever..
U know how I feel abt u.. right now all I want is for u to put a closure to things.. I dunno wat's going on in ur mind.. I dunno wat u're thinking.. I dunno wat u're feeling.. pls tell me.. pls make things clear wif me.. its either u like me or u dun.. pls.. im pleading wif u.. i'm pleading wif u to stop hurting me dis way..
Distance - Dat is how ppl lose de love between dem.. shld I believe dis quote?? I dunno..
U ever sent me an sms.. it went like dis: Though we are far apart.. I know exactly where u are.. every second.. every moment.. right here in my heart..
Dis is all I wanna tell u: I dun believe in long distance love.. if u love someone, he is always right there, within ur heart..
Tomorrow will be de 14th.. sigh.. i still dunno wat is de right thing to do.. dunno whether i shld talk to him abt it.. or maybe i shld let things be..
Guess de song by Nickelback fits de situation perfectly..
Someday by Nickelback
How the hell did we wind up like this?
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
and tried to turn the tables?
I wish you'd unclench your fists
and unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this,
but don't think it's too late
Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will
Someday, somehow I'm gonna make it alright,
but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow I'm gonna make it alright,
but not right now
I know you're wondering when
And I hope that since we're here anyway,
we can end it, saying
Things we've always needed to say,
so we can end up staying
Now the story's played out like this
just like a paperback novel
Let's rewrite an ending that fits
instead of a Hollywood horror
Nothin's wrong just as long as you know that someday I will
Someday, somehow I'm gonna make it alright,
but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow I'm gonna make it alright,
but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Went for jalan raya wif neeta, shake, lulu & liza yday.. well.. neeta had to leave early so she missed out on all de fun.. anyways planned to go to lizas hse 1st.. but I woke up late.. was rushing like mad.. took de bus den alighted halfway & hailed a cab cos I didnt wanna be late.. reached lizas bus stop at around 1005.. heh.. 5 mins late only.. luckily lulu juz reached.. she also woke up late & took a cab.. heh.. but shake was late..
So anyways.. neeta was already at lizas hse.. she borrowed a kebaya from lizas younger sis.. but de kain still singkat cos neeta is like super tall.. den I had to do some adjustments for her.. heh.. u know where la neeta.. ohh.. for de 1st time liza actually had makeup on!! Heh.. she put on some compact powder & a lil blusher.. way to go girl!!
Den went to nuruls hse.. at pasir ris also.. she has 2 cats.. me & neeta are kinda scared of cats.. but neeta is worse! She put her feet on de chair each time she thinks de cat will come near her.. den we walked to junaidahs hse which was juz a few blocks away.. its been a long time since I saw her.. she invited me to open hse on sat but I didnt go.. anyways liza cldnt make out which one wass junaidah which one was juriah.. wat la liza!! Its easy to make out de twins wat!! Took some more pics.. oh when I was abt to go home, junaidah gave me a hug.. yeah.. suddenly had dis rush of emotion in me.. cos ive really not seen her much ever since we went to diff jcs.. de last time I saw her was when I gave her a bday prezzie in jan.. so yeah.. felt kinda touched.. ohh.. one of her neighbours had installed a swing right beside de lift.. so everybody got so excited & started taking pics there.. heh.. we were so worried dat de owner might come out any min so yeah.. imagine us trying to take pics discreetly but getting all excited at de same time..
Den went to sengkang.. shakes hse.. ohh.. we were at de bus stop & neeta started to wave to de opposite side of de rd.. wanna know y?? cos one of de guys in de bus waved so she waved back for de heck of it.. den de whole grp of guys waved back.. wassup neeta?? Dun ever do dat when ure out wif us.. very embarrassing u know!! Heh.. it was de 1st time ever I visited a hse in sengkang.. haf to say its pretty small but cozy.. we took a pic in de lift at shakes hse without liza.. cos well.. she was cleaning de toilet bowl.. heh.. u know.. liza has dis tendency to visit de toilet juz when everyone is getting ready to leave.. and she stays in there for such a super long time!! I think she was in there for more den 10 mins!! We managed to take a pic, went to de 1st floor.. went up to de 18th floor & back down while waiting for her..
Lets see.. after shakes hse we were off to lulus hse at tamp.. de only hse dat served fruit punch.. de other hses all served gassy drinks.. so we ate.. ohh.. de brownies were nice.. dis was when neeta said she had to leave tamp by 5.. wat de toot.. cos she had to pick up something at her aunts place at jalan besar.. u know.. its always neeta who has to leave early.. its always neeta who has to go off somewhere.. not fun u know!! It was meant to be a full force whole day jalan raya.. I know ure Punjabi but ure part of our clique.. next time we wun allow u to leave juz like dat.. I told neeta since she had to take a cab to jalan besar might as well we share a cab cos we thot of going to serangoon.. and dat idiot told me shes not gonna pay & made a stupid face.. and yeah I juz showed her my middle finger.. heh.. juz felt like doing dat.. haha.. shake was so surprised.. she thot it was de 1st time I did dat.. but of course lulu told her ive been doing it since j1..
Many of our frenz in tamp were out.. so in de end we went to linas hse.. yup.. dis yrs prom queen.. she told us dat if we wanna see cute guys we shld come quick cos her sis frenz were there too.. heh.. but by de time we came, they were gone... but nvm la.. de guys were younger den us anyway.. had bbq chicken at her hse.. ohh.. one of linas neighbours was singing karaoke.. I tell u.. it was so super horrible.. I mean I know ive got a horrible voice.. but dats de reason y I dun sing karaoke.. I dunno how lina & her family cld tolerate de awful singing.. but I love linas bro.. hes so super cute!! Very soft spoken.. ans all our qns.. bespectacled.. but too bad hes waaaaaaaaaaay too young for any of us..
Den it was off to mdm anions hse at serangoon.. took 81 from linas hse.. took some pics in de bus also.. and we talked abt.. umm.. we talked abt asfar.. heh.. its nice when gals gossip.. heh..well.. mdm ainon is actually a gp teacher.. a fierce & bitchy one.. although shes never taught me but I like her.. I lke her bitchiness.. and I was excited to see how shes like outside sch.. we promised mas & gang to meet dem at serangoon interchange.. and we waited a whole hr for dem!! Heh.. didnt really mind cos.. well.. umm.. patience is a virtue.. haha..
So while waiting, we sat down at de interchange.. I dunno wat is it wif us but once de clock hits 7, we really go bonkers.. guess its de magical hr.. so shake suggested we sing hari raya songs & ppl wld drop money into our bags.. heh.. so we sang to our hearts content.. me, lulu & shake.. as usual liza was falling asleep.. felt like pushing her so she wld topple down.. heh.. at de same time she was embarrassed by us.. ohh.. as it was raining, some of de ppl who walked past us were soaking wet.. as de person walk past, I wld make dis coughing action (which sounded more like a sheep crying) & shake wld hand out a piece of tissue.. of course we did dis behind everyones backs.. heh.. but it was loads of fun la.. took some more pics at de interchange.. den finally they arrived!! Heh.. liza was walked right in front wif mas.. as it was raining heavily, there were puddles everywhere.. so lulu, shake & me were screaming & holding on to one another cos we were afraid we wld slip & fall.. heh.. and yeah we had loads of fun at de back.. cos.. hee hee.. cannot tell la..
So yeah.. finally reached mdm anions hse.. de 1st thing I noticed was: HER HUSBAND IS GOOD LOOKING!! Heh.. he seriously is!! But they match each other la.. in terms of looks.. and cos of dat, they haf a very cute & wonderful son.. heh.. but she was really a gd hostess.. and a gd cook.. I like her fried rice cos it was spicy.. but it was really nice talking to her.. cos she cld talk abt anything.. from de salam lebaran show to harry potter.. den we took a pic wif her.. ohh as were abt to leave & putting on our shoes, liza told us she needed to use de toilet.. of course me, shake & lulu were like: LIZA!! Den she told us nvm la she cld use de toilet at my hse.. but we told her dat she shld go use de toilet & empty wateva she has to empty.. den she insisted dat since we were taking a cab she cld control herself.. den I told her: NANTI APEK MARAH TAK TAU.. heh.. so she went back in.. den shake asked I f I wanted to take a pic wif rahman.. den shake juz went to ask rahman if he wanted to take a pic.. so yeah.. it was me, shake & rahman.. and rahmans kain samping kept flipping.. heh.. cos he wore it low den when he sat down, its macam open.. heh.. den mas told him dat she cld see everything.. heh.. of ocurse dat made rahman embarrassed.. but yeah after we took a pic rahman actually thanked us.. haha.. so polite!!
So finally de last hse.. MY HSE.. cos everybody were juz so tired so they wanted to slack at my place.. so we took a cab.. too lazy to take 22 to my place.. so when we reached my place, shake juz sat down & started eating macroon.. heh.. shes been searching for it at every hse.. so I told her dat she can finish de entire thing.. nobody else coming to my place.. den liza & lulu were lying on my bed looking at pics.. den my parents came home.. around 9 I think.. they bought murtabak.. my mom ordered pizza.. my dad bought a whole roasted chicken.. heh.. anyways de pizza guy came & nobody wanted to go to de door.. cos he wasnt gd looking!! Haha.. u all ah.. anyways yeah I juz put de murtabak & pizza (meat lover & seafood special) on de table for dem to eat.. sorry ah.. de whole chicken is for me only.. heh.. so yeah.. we ate & watched tv.. we were pretty noisy la.. my mom told me they can sit for as long as they like.. and I guess we were already so exhausted we took candid shots.. heh.. esp me.. I looked so super spastic.. but liza was such a spoil sport.. she refused to haf any candid shots taken.. so me & shake were holding on to her arms while I wanted to put my finger near her nose so it wld look like she was digging her nose.. heh.. we were making so much noise.. but in de end we didnt succeed la.. haha..
It was already 10 so they decided to leave.. ohh.. den we bermaaf maafan.. seek forgiveness.. heh.. very funny.. we pretended to cry.. were hugging each other.. actually it was more like mumbling.. heh.. it was all very crappy la.. I told dem it has to be sincere.. has to come from de bottom of de heart.. den when I asked fro forgiveness from liza she said she has forgiven me for wateva things I did even before I finished my sentence !! den before they left, I made a funny face & lulu took another shot of me.. heh..
So yeah.. dat was wat happened yday.. all I haf to say is neeta missed out on lots of things.. she really missed out on all de fun.. heh.. I miss dem already.. so gurlfrenz, when will be de next time we go out again?? Maybe for a movie?? Ohh.. and I dun mind watching kal ho naa ho all over again.. heh.. liza &shake u guys haf to watch it.. it’s a MUZ WATCH.. shah rukh khans acting is juz superb!! And de story line is really really very gd!! And shake, if we do a reunion.. dun forget to ask him, k?? like I said, we juz cant let his no remain idle in our hps.. heh..
Ok.. my dad's home.. and i've not bathed.. he will scold me if he sees me like dis.. if u guys wanna see de pics we took, u can go to lulu's blog.. i've also uploaded some of de pics on my friendster account.. ok.. bye ppl!!
MUACKZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!
A round up of wat happened today.. shuqing & me had agreed de nite before to haf nasi lemak at changi village.. heh.. of all places!! Cldnt help it.. we had been craving for nasi lemak since Sunday.. so yeah.. she took 22 from her hse.. as de bus goes past mine, I told her to sms me once shes reaching.. upon receiving her sms, I went out of de hse immediately.. was at de traffic light already.. oh shit!! Forgot to bring my hp.. so I ran all de way back home.. in de stupid rain.. den ran all de way to de bus stop again.. juz as I crossed de traffic light, 22 also came.. so yeah.. juz made it in time..
Ok den we took 29 from tampines interchange.. oh wait.. before dat, shuqing had to top up her ez link.. dat woman ah.. she told me.. I need to use de ti tit ti tit to top up.. OII!! Cannot say machine is it?? Oh den we were stopped by dis salesman.. said he was from daimaru.. wanted to clear their stock.. was selling dis watch & swiss army knife.. they always sell these kinda stuff.. and he was SUPER LAME!! Said dat he didnt cause daimaru to go bust.. ohh.. when he showed us de watch, he told us dat if we cld tell him something special abt de watch he wld give it to us for free.. and u know wat is de speciality?? IT TELLS TIME!!.. haha.. damn lame!! Me & shuqing juz rolled our eyes.. in de end I told de guy dat we dun haf money.. ok la.. we did but it was unnecessary to buy it.. not even as a gift..
Anyways when me & shuqing are together, we get up to lots of crap.. yeah.. normal la.. we were making so much noise in de bus.. and she has never taken a bus to changi village so kept asking me qns.. I felt like telling de driver to drop her off at de changi womens prison mann.. heh.. so we FINALLY got to eat nasi lemak.. drank sugar cane juice.. I sort of slammed de cup on de table.. so dat started our fake fighting.. heh.. we started banging on de tables.. den last resort: we fought wif de fork & spoon.. haha..
On de way back to tamp, we sang so super loudly in de bus.. heh..
Me: All I want for xmas is to make a cute fish (de ad from perfect 10)
Shuqing: All I want for xmas is for her to shut up
Me: All I want for xmas is to make a cute fish
Shuqing: All I want for xmas is my 2 front teeth
And we were singing in dis super childish voice.. heh..
Den went library.. borrowed some books.. den walked around tm & century sq.. she wanted to get a present for carol but in de end never buy cos she dunno wat to buy.. ohh.. we took a pic together.. and shuqing look super spastic in de photo card.. her smile is lop sided.. heh.. and we were making so much noise in de booth.. practically screaming.. oh speaking of which, shuqing gave a super loud squeak in public.. we were crossing de traffic light.. in de rain.. so I was doing de countdown.. 5, 4, 3, 2, 1.. so as it was raining me & shuqing were scurrying abt.. den when we finally got to de other side, she juz squeaked.. and de woman in front of us turned to look at us.. super embarrassing.. but I did embarrass her when I started to dance in public.. on de escalator.. heh.. we saw dis dancing santa at de converse store.. I told shuqing to stop.. she looked at me & she was like: Oh no.. I know ure gonna dance.. haha.. and I DID.. heh..
Ohh.. de both of us finally agreed on something.. a bag.. yeah.. cos both of us got extremely different tastes.. so we saw dis bag at montip.. very nice!! It only cost $19.90.. so I bought it.. shuqing was tempted to buy it but in de end she didnt.. cos she said she juz bought a bag.. hello woman.. dat was mths ago.. dun try to act thrifty ok!! Haha.. but its gd la.. we dun haf de same bag.. but its really super nice!! Heh.. but we ended up arguing at de interchange.. I was hoping it wld be a double decker 22 bus.. she didnt want it to be a double decker bus..
Me: Pls let it be a double decker bus
Shuqing: Pls dun let it be a double decker bus
And we were going on & on.. as if we were engaging in a tongue twister.. heh..
It was a very fun day la.. its been quite some time dat we went out.. as in de 2 of us only.. on a romantic date.. haha.. but I did enjoy myself.. it did take my mind off certain things.. no it didnt exactly.. cos going to tampines really brought back lots of memories.. but when im wif my frenz, I dun wanna talk abt him.. I may be thinking of him but I dun really wanna talk abt him.. its juz dat when im alone, I wld do dat.. esp now since ive got all de time in de world.. no school to distract me.. I hope de books dat I borrowed wld stop my me from thinking of him too much..
U know.. now I try my very very best to avoid certain places.. places dat we spent time together wif.. and de buses dat we usually take together.. but dis week has been exceptionally hard for me.. esp when I met him.. and ive been frequenting de places dat we used to visit.. I still regret agreeing to meet him.. I really really do..
So dats me.. laughing on de outside but hurting on de inside..
Haf u even woken up & felt as if a huge part of u is missing?? Haf u ever woken up & wished u cld turn back de hands of time?? Wishing dat u cld start all over again.. wishing dat u cld find out where things went wrong..
I felt dat way today.. when I woke up.. from a very exhausting nite.. checked my hp.. no sms from him.. I felt as if ive lost him.. lost him for good.. both of us were there physically.. sitting beside each other.. I still felt attached to him emotionally.. but I guess on his part all those feelings haf long disappeared.. juz like how he fell for me de 1st time we met, those feelings juz went poof overnight.. so near yet so far..
I saw things wif my own eyes.. y was I so stupid as to agreeing to meet him?? Y was I so stupid to harbour hopes dat he hasnt lost all feelings for me?? Y am I still carrying a torch for him?? Y cant I juz forget abt him?? Y am I still holding on to de wonderful memories dat are tugging at my heartstrings??
I guess its cos Im afraid of moving on & leaving him behind.. I will only do so if he tells me dat he doesnt need me anymore in his life.. dat he thinks things haf come to a stop between us.. dat he doesnt like me anymore.. yes.. I wanna hear those words from him.. I want him to give me de final word dat im history..
U know.. I feel as if ive been cheated of my feelings.. I told him everything.. my feelings.. my family.. stuff dat even my close frenz do not know.. I told him how I felt abt him.. was he juz playing wif me all along?? Is dis some kind of bet he made between him & his frenz?? I dunno.. I dun think so cos I know hes not dat kind of guy.. I opened up my entire heart to him.. den he had to drop me juz like dat..
His attitude towards me has changed.. he isnt sweet to me anymore.. he doesnt shower me wif attention anymore.. he doesnt think abt me anymore.. he doesnt care anymore.. I wanna talk to him abt dis but yet at de same time I dun.. I dunno how to start asking him & at de same time I dun wanna know de painful truth.. things dat I dunno wun hurt me.. but it hurts even more dat u know things haf gone wrong but none of us can put a closure to it.. .. .. .. .. .. .. ..
i dunno how to interpret de turnout of today's events.. no doubt i finally got to see wat i wanted to see.. its definitely been a very long time.. its been more den 2 mths.. but yeah.. guess it sux.. i dunno.. it felt dat way..
i knew i shldnt haf agreed to it.. i knew dat i shld haf followed my heart.. but den again like i said my heart has been broken into millions of pieces.. i dunno which way to go.. i knew i shld haf only done it when im ready..
guess im not ready.. i was chatting wif lulu.. i told her dat certain things take time.. only time will heal all wounds.. yeah.. mine will definitely take a very long time.. meanwhile.. im willing to wait.. im willing to wait till i get de ultimatum.. its gonna be a long & painful wait..........
If You Come To Me by Atomic Kitten
So long ago
I didnt have a care abt me
I didnt know my right from wrong
But now I know
That u left got love around me
U know it makes me feel so strong
Baby if u turn around
And prove to me its real
Maybe we cld work it out
Cos this is how I feel
Do u know where u go when u give it all away
Ill be there for u, care for u
Love u everyday oh baby
And do u feel the same for me?
Everyday ure away
And I feel a little low
I wld cry for u, die for u
Juz to let u know oh baby
And if u come to me u know ill make it right
Throughout all my life
I never thot id haf somebody
Someone to call my own
And now ive found
A little bit of heaven baby
A place to call my own
Do u know where u go when u give it all away
Ill be there for u, care for u
Love u everyday oh baby
And do u feel the same for me?
Everyday ure away
And I feel a little low
I wld cry for u, die for u
Juz to let u know oh baby
And if u come to me u know ill make it right
Hey there dun u know
U gotta slow down before u know
U gonna break down & turn around
Before u know, u go & break my heart
When will u learn to be
A little helpful when u think of me
A little careful when ure close to me
Cos baby I loved u from the start
I forgot to write one abt one thing in my blog yday.. abt de LEARNING EXPERIENCE.. heh.. shuqing kept bugging me to write it but I TOTALLY forgot abt it!! It juz slipped my mind.. no la.. cos as I was writing my blog last nite, my parents were reading de papers.. sitting behind me.. so I was afraid they wld be able to read wat I was writing.. so yeah.. yday I was typing super fast..
So u guys muz be wondering: WAT LEARNING EXPERIENCE?? Heh.. shuqing la.. she always talk crap at nite.. it was Sunday nite/Monday morning.. whichever way u choose to interpret it.. but yup.. it was like 1 am already & all she cld talk abt was de LEARNING EXPERIENCE.. almost every single sms we exchanged had de LEARNING EXPERIENCE.. OII!! Stop trying to sound wise, ok! Haha.. but actually wat she said was very very true la.. made sense..
Cos I always confide in her.. but she still doesnt know de full story.. abt me & him.. lets keep it dat way.. cos shuqing I dun wanna tell u everything abt wat happened between us.. cos I feel like Ill be disrespecting him if I tell u de full story.. and yeah de thing dat I was planning to do on de 14th?? Scrap it.. cos itll definitely hurt him.. actually nobody knows de full story.. not even shake.. so ppl dats for me to know & for u guys to find out.. heh..
U know.. its sad seeing couples who haf been together for a very long time go their separate ways.. esp when they had planned to get married.. I was watching temptation island at 2am on Sunday nite/Monday morning.. it was a repeat of de Australian version.. de reunion show.. although de australian show is nothing compared to de US version, I still watched it cos I wasnt sleepy.. normally I wld be happy if a couple on de show breaks up.. cos it serves them right for joining it in de 1st place.. I mean theres a high possibility dat ur partner is bound to fall in love wif another person..
But on dat nite, I cldnt help feeling sorry for those couples who broke up.. actually out of de 4 couples, only 1 remained strong.. its juz sad dat sometimes when u really love someone, u haf to learn to let him go.. sometimes u realize dat u can love each other as frenz only..
De gal fell for him when she was 19.. she thot he was everything & she loved him wholeheartedly.. de same goes for de guy.. but throughout their 4 yrs together, they were hurting.. ironic isnt it?? They were in love but hurting.. its cos they did everything to make de other feel partner feel happy.. so after joining de show, they realized dat they haf to stop hurting each other.. esp for de gal.. she realized dat she has to learn to do things for herself.. do things dat make her happy.. dun do things at de expense of her own happiness.. but im glad both of them realized it before it gets too late.. before they actually got married..
U know.. I guess it was very tough for them to come to such a decision.. I think its pretty hard to let go of a person.. esp if uve been together for a very long time & ure so in love wif each other.. it makes it harder to remain frenz after breaking up.. cos a part of u still loves him but de other part of u knows he is no longer urs.. do I sound like im speaking from experience?? Heh.. maybe yes.. maybe no.. I dunno... heh.. ok ok.. no.. of course not..
But wat happens if letting go of him means letting go of ur own happiness?? I mean its very cruel to force him to be wif u if he doesnt want to.. one cant love to order.. wats de use if ure happy & hes miserable?? Similarly wats de use if hes happy & ure hurting?? It juz sux huh??
Yeah.. ive learnt a lot dis yr.. learnt a lot from him.. he taught me a lot of things.. how to be patient.. dat no matter how tough it gets, I haf to continue wif my life.. I never thot I wld fall for him.. fall for him so deeply.. I tried to stop myself from falling for him cos I didnt wanna get hurt.. but again I made de fatal mistake.. but guess I dun regret it.. cos hes really a great guy.. hes taught me a lot..
So for now, im gonna live my life by dis quote: Never let someone go if u want to find out if what u haf is really love, cos they may think dat u want to move on to something better & they wun try to come back
Honestly I dunno if he knows im referring to him.. he shld be reading dis.. I juz hope he knows dat if he meant wateva he said on 140703 & if it still exists at dis moment, im willing to wait for him.. no matter how long it takes.. but if those feelings are gone, pls tell me.. I wanna move on wif my life.. I will definitely let u go.. cos like uve always told me its useless liking someone who do not feel de same for u.. .. .. .. ..
Ok.. dis blog will be pretty long.. cos ive got lots of things to talk abt.. and I didnt log on to my blog over de wkend.. cos I was sick on sat.. yeah had a fever again! Supposed to meet up wif neeta & shake.. dammit.. de fever came at de wrong time.. dunno wats wrong wif my body mann.. first I found blood in my mucus & phlegm.. now de fever is back.. but im ok now..
U know.. I feel sooooooooo super glad after ive had de talk wif my mom.. yeah.. yday I was at de bus stop wif my mom.. she wanted to go to shieng siong supermkt.. de one at bedok res.. so anyways.. I finally told her abt my As.. how I found it super tough.. so we talked abt it.. when we reached shieng siong, we kinda forgot abt it.. den once we got home, we talked abt it again.. told her dat I dun think Ill get into NUS.. cos ive got no hope in passing gp.. I dunno.. it was like damn toot.. told her dat if I can get into psychology in NUS I wld consider retaking my As (I know some of u are going WAT??).. haha.. but I dun wanna get into NUS juz for de sake of getting in.. I wanna do a course dat I really like.. either dat or Ill go to poly & take tourism.. my mom told me dat I dun necessarily haf to get into NUS.. NTU or SMU also can.. im not saying dat NTU & SMU arent gd.. but de courses they offer arent to my liking.. she said as long as I get to put on de graduation robe & cap, shes happy enuff..
So yeah.. now im so super relieved!! U know.. when we went for hari raya visiting, all de relatives were asking about my As.. and it was really immense pressure.. cos they kept saying I can do it & all dat crap.. and they started comparing me wif other cousins.. im not dat smart u know.. im juz like my other cousins.. doesnt mean I was in cedar it means dat im smart.. nooooooo.. I really am not.. they dunno how much I was struggling throughout jc.. they dunno how tough & shitty de As were.. I know dem asking me abt my As showed dat they care abt me.. but pls stop it.. I totally hate it!! Right now my future is really on de line.. I juz hope de Cambridge markers arent too strict.. pls think of all my oher cousins whom they are comparing me wif.. spare a thot for dem.. I hope all my relatives cld think rationally.. try putting themselves in me & my parents shoes.. do they like it if their kids get compared to others?? URGH!!
Ohhh.. lets go back to fri nite.. shuqing went to meet her ahem ahem.. heh.. felt happy for her.. she called me at 1145pm I think.. cos I told her dat I wanna know wat happened dat day.. heh.. so yeah she told me.. and I felt really happy for her.. cos things turned out fine.. as in nothing ugly happened.. so shuqing.. guess u winning de 1st prize on prom nite was a gd sign?? I know u told me uve not heard from him since den.. but at least he was nice to u wat..
Speaking of shuqing.. me & her were watching ch 8 last nite.. u know de annual star awards.. and I was totally drooling over tay ping hui.. u know I was sitting right in front of de tv.. my dad gave up on me.. heh.. anyways wassup wif dis yrs star awards.. de presenters talk damn long u know!! Even de acceptance speeches were long.. OII!!! Wats dis?? No time limit is it?? Ohh.. shuqing was telling me dat she cldnt understand wat they were saying.. normal la.. her mandarin is so super bad.. I cld understand wat they were saying.. but very tiring cos my mom kept asking me to translate.. anyways me & shuqing got bored so both of us actually watched suria.. haha.. and they were showing us places to eat nasi lemak.. so now both of us haf cravings for nasi lemak.. heh.. we wanna go to de one wif de very spicy chilli but dunno how to get there.. heh.. but we are still going.. do we haf a date on wed shuqing?? Heh.. anyways anyone of u reading dis & want to join us, come along, ok??
Ok.. so now lets talk abt wat I did today.. went to watch Brother Bear wif syarifah.. it was kinda like a spur of de moment thingy.. unplanned.. cos both of us had nothing to do.. saw her online den she wanna meet up & talk.. we didnt go far.. juz went tm.. we wanted to watch Love Actually but didnt wanna wit till 4.. so we settled for Brother Bear.. de show was quite sweet actually.. its not one of those shows dat will stay etched in my mind but it was nice.. and funny too.. catch it if u wanna haf a gd laugh..
Den I had henna done on my hand.. cos de henna lady at tm comes only once every 2 wks.. I tink.. so I paid $8 for one hand.. actually as im typing dis de henna is still on my hand.. and im gonna sleep wif it.. I will only wipe everything off tmr morning.. heh.. I hope it turns dark.. like de time I did at geylang on hari raya eve.. I dun want it to turn orange.. not nice la..
Den we went tampines mart.. sya owed her tailor $10.. u know.. we were sitting at de bus stop when sya & me noticed this grp of guys looking at us.. ok they were younger den us.. I think abt 15.. it was so damn irritating!! I didnt look at dem but sya juz shouted to dem: WAT ARE U STARING AT?? U know.. they had already crossed de rd & they actually crossed back to ask for our nos.. no I think they wanted syas no.. I dunno.. cos I cldnt be bothered at all.. de bus came so sya told dem dat we wanted to get on de bus.. ohh.. den we went to tamp stadium.. den as we walked out these 2 guys looked at us.. and me being de usual me of course juz went wateva..
I dunno if its me or sya.. she said she doesnt get such things when shes out alone.. heh.. no la.. those guys really dun haf a life.. they are desperate for gfs.. any gal they can pick up on de street, they will.. haha.. ohh.. I told sya maybe its cos she looks like a kid.. dats y those young boys wanted her no.. and she retaliated by saying its cos shes hanging out wif a kid.. OII!!! Im not a kid la.. pls la.. but sya, u really look like a kid.. ok.. u dun look ur age.. u dun look 18.. and I agree wif ur aunt.. once u turn 40, ull be glad dar ppl tink ure younger den ur age.. its really a compliment..
But u know.. walking around tamp really brought back memories.. lots of memories.. yeah.. actually nice memories.. but it hurts at de same time too..
Ohh.. today I did something.. yeah.. and I actually felt glad for doing it.. maybe its still there.. maybe it isnt.. but things didnt turn out dat bad.. for now I shall juz wait patiently.. I know most of u are going HUH but dats for me to know & for u to find out.. heh..
So anyways.. ill end off here.. too tired to type.. ohh.. before I forget.. I really haf to say a BIG THANK U to lulu & shake for helping me do my blog.. cos I really had probz trying to get de skin up.. so I had to give both of dem my passwords so they can log on & help me.. haha.. sori la.. I really know nothing abt all these html stuff.. so yeah.. once again THANK U shake & lulu.. MUACKZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
YAWN!!! Ive been yawning away but I cant seem to fall asleep.. juz now went to suntec wif shuqing & haze to collect our glam shots.. boy do I look damn ugly!! Haha.. ok.. not ugly but not pretty either.. out of de 5 or 6 shots dat de guy took, we were only entitled to 1 free glam shot.. any extra wld cost $9.. so anyways.. yeah de guy said he wld do de final touch up for us.. u know like removing our eyebags & stuff.. he told us to come back an hr later to collect de pics.. but I was in a hurry so I told him Ill collect another day.. and datll be wif neeta & shake..
Ohh.. found out dat haze didnt go home straightaway after prom.. she went to mdm wongs instead.. I think its at de Clarke Quay area?? I dunno cos I dun go clubbing.. but yeah.. after shuqings dad & my dad came, she headed off to mdm wongs.. haha.. and she was busy yawning away today.. she only got home at 5:30 am den had to meet us at 4 pm at suntec.. haha.. haze dun come back so late la.. not gd for ur health if u dun get enuff sleep..
After dinner we went hari raya visiting again.. me & my parents.. den since my aunt had nothing to do, we brought her along.. it was already 10 so we decided to drop by my grandmas.. and my baby was there!! Ok I mean my cute & irresistible cousin nadiah.. I simply love her to death!!! U know.. I was running around de entire nite wif her.. my dad told me dat next time I go jln raya I muz wear pants.. cos I tend to run around wif de small kids.. haha.. cant help it wat!! Im still a kid at heart..
Oh shit!! I forgot to watch de bachelor tonite.. see la.. saw nadiah & played so much wif her.. I didnt realize it till shake smsed me.. ok shake.. dun tell me anything abt it.. juz shut up.. I told shuqing to tape it for me.. after Ive watched it den u can tell me de whole story.. till den.. SHHHHHHH.. .. ..
Today yq asked me for shuqings no.. on prom nite, I asked him to help carry shuqings tv up to de lobby.. hes really a big teddy bear.. he may look fierce & unfrenly on de outside but hes really a nice person.. at least he doesnt bully gals.. there was once I was down wif detention.. den I had to carry a box from de hall to de general office.. but I was too tired from wiping de tables & chairs in de hall so I asked him for help.. and he did it willingly.. very nice guy..
Me & shuqing are currently on de same boat.. we are feeling really down over de way de most special person in our lives treat us.. shuqing was telling me dat it was flattering when yq wanted her no.. haha.. shuqing actually when dat nite u took a pic wif him after he carried a ur tv for u, I cld see dat he was very shy.. heh.. in fact he was blushing.. I suspected something but didnt wanna say la.. hello.. its seldom dat a guy like him blushes ok!! So ya.. now I know y.. and Ive still not told u wat he said to me abt u.. heh..
U know.. when shuqing told me how flattered she felt, I kinda knew how it felt.. cos on sat, I went to one of my cousins hse.. den his cousin from de paternal side was there too.. dat nite I was so very sick so I sat on de sofa like some sick puppy.. and I looked horrible wif my red face & red lips.. I looked like a drunkard.. anyways his cousin was sitting on de floor watching de tv.. I noticed dat he kept turning back & smiling at me.. crazy fellow!! My dad was right beside me & he had de cheek to do dat.. haha.. anyways dat guy left 1st.. den before I left, my cousin told me dat his cousin wanted my no.. of course I was like HUH??.. haha.. I think he muz be blind.. 1stly.. he was from rjc & I was from srjc.. 2ndly.. I looked like shit dat nite.. but wat de heck.. I cldnt be bothered.. I mean deep down inside I was very flattered.. but yeah im nursing a broken heart rite now.. anyways.. dat guy will be going into de army on 10th dec.. so.. haha.. guess he wun haf de time to contact me.. but hes gd looking though..
Am I upset?? Maybe I am.. I mean im not upset over de fact dat yq asked for shuqings no.. hell no.. haha.. yq is juz a fren.. got to know him thru gp class.. but it juz sux cos im not opening up my heart to other guys.. im trying very hard.. im trying very very hard to forget him.. ok we werent in any relationship to begin wif.. it was juz a platonic relationship.. but he did express his interest in me.. and we shared many happy times together.. dinner.. movies.. walking around.. those smses which I still keep.. although hes not given me de ultimatum dat hes no longer interested in me, I cld sense it.. I dunno.. maybe its cos ive not heard from him for 41 days.. im trying so hard to move on but its very hard..
Ppl say to follow ur heart.. but which way do u go if ur heart is in a million pieces???
Back from prom.. well.. I shld be sleeping rite now but im not really sleepy.. tired but not sleepy.. so how was prom today?? It was.. ok I guess?? Haha.. Ive got no idea y but I simply wasnt excited abt it at all.. in fact I didnt feel like going at all.. after my make up was put on, I told my aunt dat I wanna sleep.. god I muz be crazy.. y wasnt I de least bit excited..??
So yeah.. after my make up was done, I went to shuqings hse.. as it was a long walk into her hse (dats de problem wif ppl living in private hses), I told shuqing to get her maid to pick me up.. no 1 its cos I dun like to walk alone.. no 2 who knows some dog might come running out of one of de hses.. actually im used to having dogs running out of de gates from all those yrs in cedar.. but at least those dogs were tame.. shuqing once told me dat she came across a big ferocious dog while walking home.. I wldnt want dat to happen to me..
So yaya (shuqings maid) picked me up near de bus stop.. no actually she saw me from far & started waving to me, asking me to come over.. u know, yaya is actually 55 (is dat de right age shuqing?).. but shes really healthy.. she walks faster den me.. oh she even skips when she goes down de stairs.. I guess its cos shes worked for shuqings family for more den 2 decades.. but shes really frenly.. since yaya is a filippino I found it hard to comprehend wat she was asking me.. so my replies came a bit slow..
Yaya: Today is ur graduation day?
Me: (silence).. umm.. ya..
Yaya: Go hotel for graduation.. Excited?
Me: .. .. ..umm.. .. .. ya at fullerton hotel.. quite excited..
Yaya: U all so big already.. Next yr go university?
Me: (staring at her).. ya next yr go university.. haha
Yaya: Last time u come here wif shuqing.. cannot remember de way?
Me: .. ..ya Ive forgotten de way in.. ..
Yaya: So many houses do renovation (she started counting).. 1, 2, 3..
Me: .. .. .. .. ..
Yaya: Ok we turn here.. Now u can remember?
Me: .. ..ahh.. .. yes.. can can..
So when we reached de front gate, my immediate reaction was:
Me: Wheres de dog?? (referring to shuqings disgusting dog)
Yaya: Hes hiding at de back.. Dun worry.. Come in come in..
As I was abt to go upstairs to find shuqing, yaya told me to wait..
Yaya: Wait wait.. I give u drink.. Den u go up.. Shuqing upstairs..
Me: thx..
So yeah.. when I got upstairs haze was already there.. and shuqing was being made up by her elder sis.. true enuff shuqings hair looked like a rooster (she said so herself!).. so me & haze juz sat there waiting for her.. I tell u.. dat shuqing damn fussy.. 1st she said dat she cldnt see any eyeshadow on her eyelids.. den when her elder sis applied a bit more, she complained it was overdone.. den cos shuqing had SUPER SHORT lashes, it was impossible to curl it.. so her elder sis put on fake ones for her.. again she complained: Look so fake!! Can see dat Ive got 2 lashes on!.. eh woman.. pls la!! Nobody is gonna stand so near to u.. nobody is gonna stand near to u for de sole purpose of looking at ur lashes!!
Shuqings dad cldnt send us cos he was busy.. so we booked a cab.. and in de cab, dat shuqing was complaining how she looks like her mom.. wat do u expect?? Like mother like daughter la.. shld I go into details wat shuqing did wif her double sided tape?? Haha.. ok ok.. I wun probe into dat..
We reached fullerton quite early.. at 6.. dammit.. de cute doorman wasnt there.. me, haze & shuqing took pics outside fullerton.. den we went in.. visited de toilet & took pics in de toilet.. haha.. hey!! De toilet was nice ok!! Den haze did wat she had to do.. after dat, we went back up to de lobby.. I tell u.. de gals were immaculately dressed & all of them looked nice.. but wassup wif de guys mann?? Wassup wif all those dyed hair.. those punk hairstyles.. I dun mind glitter on their hair.. but some of de guys were juz so.. .. .. .. oh well.. I guess dats y most sr guys dun catch my eye..
Den neeta & shake came.. we took more pics.. den we signed in.. had our glamour shots taken.. ohhhhhhh.. den neeta & shake told me a certain someone looked hot.. haha.. ok ok.. Ive always found him cute.. but on dat nite.. WHOA!! He was juz HOTTTTT!!! (shake, kita patut adakan nama samaran untuk si dia.. and im talking abt peserta no 1 bagi pencalonan untuk prom king).. and yeah of course I didnt miss de chance having my pic taken wif him.. heh.. put my arms around his.. ok.. I haf to do dis.. CAIR.. haha.. ok.. and if he reads dis I tink hell know dat im talking abt him.. sori if I scared u away.. im juz being very frank.. but dun worry.. im not interested in u.. juz frenz ok..
Of course de highlight of de nite was de prom king & queen thingy.. so they chose 8 finalists out of all our votes.. haha.. so de guy I voted for was selected as one of de finalists.. wat to do.. Ive got great taste in guys.. ohh.. and another one of de finalists also caught my eye.. I mean hes always been cute in sch.. but weve never talked.. but yeah wif de suit on & when he catwalked wif a serious face.. he really set temperatures rising.. at least for me, neeta & shake.. glady.. tell me wat to dooooo...
Ohh.. and our dearest izati was one of de finalists for prom queen.. WAY TO GO GIRL!! But sadly she didnt win.. almost everybody in de ballroom wanted her to win.. in de end amalina won.. guess its cos she sang onstage.. but wateva it is, im proud dat a cedarian is de prom queen dis yr.. heh..
Ok dammit.. shuqing won de first prize for de lucky draw.. it was a 14 inch tv.. and me?? I won de 39th prize.. a musical jewellery box.. Ive got absolutely no use for it.. so guess Ill give it away to one of my lil cousins.. shuqing was telling me dat next time we shld choose our anniversary no for lucky draws.. haha.. hers was 1405.. mine was 1407.. very special dates for both of us.. im not superstitious but I hope me & shuqing winning was a gd sign.. I dunno.. im praying hard it wld be a gd sign.. ok.. now im tinking abt him.. nooooooooooooooooooooo
So I guess shah rukh khan has flown back to India?? Dammit.. I didnt get to see him at all!! If I found out he visited the Bird Park or the Zoo or the Night Safari I swear im gonna kill my dad for keeping secret such a vital information.. so anyways.. yesterday when I met up wif shake & neeta, I had a camera wif me.. cos shah rukh khan was staying at the Swissotel.. who knows I might catch a glimpse of him.. I wanted to hang around at the hotel lobby.. but u know.. when gals start to do their shopping, they forget all about other stuff.. ohh.. my aunt called & our conversation went like dis:
Me: Hello..
Aunt: Eh I want to tell u something..
Me: Yeah wat?
Aunt: I was so near yet so far..!! (excitement in
her voice)
Me: Huh?? To wat??
Aunt: I had my annual d&d on sat.. and it was at
Swissotel!! (excitement in her voice again)
Me: !!!AHHH!!! pls tell me ure not gonna say wat
I tink ure gonna say..
Aunt: No.. when u find out, itll show u how dumb
I was..
Me: TELL ME!!!!!! (I was screaming into de hp)
Aunt: I got out of de car & saw de banner..
WELCOME SHAH RUKH KHAN.. I was already late so
very blur.. It didnt cross my mind dat he was
staying in de hotel..
Me: OIII!! U nvr read de papers is it?? U.. U..
(I managed to censor myself)
Aunt: (laughing) sori la.. I was really really
late.. when I entered de ballroom, buat malu
jer.. everyone looking at me..
Me: HAHA!! Padan muka!! So wats de use of
telling me dis?? U didnt get to meet him
afterall..
Aunt: Juz felt like telling..
Me: Well.. dis is wat u get for not sponsoring me
wif de $500 tix to de concert..
Aunt: U tink I print money is it?? Ala u can
anytime come to my hse & watch Hindustan wif
Nabilah, Nadiah & Nazurah..
Me: Its not de same!! When ur lil girls start
dancing & singing, I cant concentrate.. tak boleh
feeling feeling.. tak best.. I wanna see shah
rukh khan in person.. hes HOT!! U know.. de duit
raya u gave me.. u multiply it by 10 den I can
afford de $500 tix already..
Aunt: Haha.. Ala told u to buy de $30 tix u tak
nak..
Me: For wat?? I’ll be waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay at de
back.. nak tengok apa seh!!
Aunt: Can watch de screen wat..
Me: Noooo!! I wanna feel shah rukh khans sweat..
I wanna see him upclose.. Hes HOT!! HOT!! HOT!!
Even hotter den Kevin.. (she finds Kevin
Richardson hot! Hehe)
Aunt: Excuse me.. my shah rukh khan at home
handsome enuff (referring to her hubby)
Me: Ok BYE!!
Aunt: (laughing) Bye!
Haha.. so yeah.. dats how our conversation
went.. no parts of it were edited.. dats how I
talk to my aunt.. sigh.. so near yet so far..
piece of shit..
Ok prom is tmr.. am I excited?? I dunno.. excited cos its at the Fullerton.. fond memories of 25th Jan.. haha.. neeta, shake, lulu, liza & Noreen will know wat im talking abt.. but at the same time im super duper lazy to dress up!! Yes... I really hate it when I haf dress up & sit properly.. and my aunt is doing my make up for me.. so dat requires me to sit still.. NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! Cannot!! I cant stand dat..
Ok wateva.. I juz wanna get prom done & over wif.. I wonder whos gonna be prom king.. and prom queen..
Met up wif shake & neeta today.. boy do I miss them.. so we ate at Magic wok at Capitol Building.. den we went shopping.. cos both shake & neeta wanted to find prom shoes.. but in de end neeta bought shoes & g string.. shake bought.. well.. she bought a bra.. haha..
Anyways.. I really like neeta shoes.. throughout the entire thing she insisted she wanted the tie-tie ones.. u know those wif straps dat u can tie around ur legs.. well.. she got her wish.. its grey in colour.. or was it silver.. nvm.. but it was really nice!! And cheap too.. 24 bucks I think.. from where ah?? charles & keith right? and dammit.. cos neeta is like so damn tall.. how tall are u neeta?? 170cm?? So anyways can u imagine how tall shes gonna be on prom nite?? Ohh.. and I chose her g string for her.. dat idiot was afraid dat she wld feel uncomfortable wearing one.. no doubt u wld feel uncomfortable wearing it at first but once u get the hang of it, itll be ok.. take it from the expert mann..
Anyways, neeta left early.. so it was only me & shake.. we went to marina square.. saw the location for the Hi-Fi autograph session.. 1, 2, 3, 4 Hi-Fi!! Haha.. I admit I do watch Hi-Fi occasionally.. cos Tim is juz sooooooo good looking.. if ure wondering which one is Tim.. its the one wif the spiky blonde hair.. not the other ugly guy.. shake wanted to bring her sis to the Hi-Fi autograph session which happens tmr.. since its only eligible for the first 100 kids, well shake doesnt haf a choice but to come early.. so shake.. gd luck mann!! I really wanna go.. well I wanna bring my cousin & ogle at Tim.. but my aunt wun let me bring her daughter la.. and shake, dun u try anything funny wif Tim..
Finally im well enough to get out of bed.. I was sick over the weekend.. lets see.. on Friday nite, I slept over at my cousins place.. cos my aunt was doing an open house on sat so me & my mom helped her wif the cooking.. it was very fun.. cos we cooked outside.. using charcoal & stuff.. ok actually it was fun cos it was only me & my cousin doing the cooking outside & we got up to lots of crap.. yeah TOTAL crap..
Firstly.. both of us haf got a fascination wif the fire starters.. yes.. we simply love adding fire starters.. guess its cos the fire gets so big & its juz.. well.. amazing?? Haha.. dunno how to describe the feeling.. but it was really nice.. ohh.. and we started burning tissues.. haha.. ohh den we went into the hse & stole a piece of chicken.. haha.. cos we felt like barbecuing something.. so while my aunt was busy frying the chickens in the kitchen, we took a piece out.. and it tasted really nice.. nope.. I didnt taste it.. my cousin & my aunt did.. my aunt liked the taste of charcoal dat comes wif the chicken..
We didnt sleep till 4.. I think.. yeah we watched mtv for a while.. I wanted to sleep in the living room.. in front of the tv.. but my mother wldnt allow.. ok.. lets juz say my aunt has 3 boys & a gal.. so.. get the idea?? Me, my cousin & my mom slept in 1 room.. the next morning when I woke up, my throat was hurting badly.. real bad.. I knew I was gonna be sick.. told my mom abt it & she said I drank too much cold drinks.. where got???
So anyways, my uncle sent us home.. den on sat afternoon, we went out for visiting.. although I was sick (38.3 degrees) I still wanted to go out cos I WANT THE MONEY.. hehe.. visited quite a few houses.. and it was very hard for me to eat & drink cos of my throat.. so finally when we reached home, I took my temperature again.. 38.9 degrees.. actually it felt really horrible.. cos my head was throbbing.. my throat hurt.. I felt very miserable..
But im ok now.. ohh.. did anybody watch Ada Apa Dengan Cinta on Suria?? Nico Saputra was damn HOT!! Haha.. the story was very realistic.. I especially like the ending.. cos the guy still cldnt figure out wat love is.. he had to leave for new york.. so he wrote the gal a poem.. told her dat although he doesnt know what love is, all he knows dat he wld come back for her.. AWWW.. so sweeeeeeeet.. im melting.. ok shake.. 1, 2, 3 cair.. hehe..
Oh shit.. im supposed to meet neeta & shake at city hall.. im late.. ok ciao!!