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Friday, January 30, 2004

I'm starting to get worried over de way i'm eating.. yup.. i know it's dat time of de mth.. but it's juz scary la.. i've really eaten A LOT over de last few days.. even at nite i'll be craving for food.. but too bad la.. in my kitchen got nothing to eat.. if i wanna eat something muz go out & buy..

So.. i went back to sr yday & de day before.. talked to cikgu pitrah.. mr neo.. mrs goon.. it was really great to see dem.. esp when mr neo smiled & waved at me.. WHOA!! ok shake.. 1, 2, 3 -CAIR-.. haha.. den as usual mrs goon was very motherly.. very sweet.. very nice.. very warm.. didn't talk much to cikgu though.. she was more interested in talking to faizal.. HUMPH!! haha.. but i dun mind la.. cos cikgu likes to ask lots of qns.. i'm juz happy to observe de exchange of conversation between dem..

Had a great day on wed.. cos after going back to sr & seeing liza, shake & glady, we went to parkway parade.. ate like a pig at banquet.. den ate de Belgium Choc Chip Ice Cream from Andersen's of Denmark.. been craving for it for days!! den we went to east coast.. had a nice long talk.. when de rain finally stopped den we went home.. oh he got me a bear from Happy House.. it's got "Sweetheart" on de front.. HEE..

Yday was full of unexpected events.. firstly.. faizal didn't go to work cos there was an mrt breakdown.. so train after train dat came was pack to de max.. so he called me up.. met me at my place at 10 & we had breakfast together.. went to serangoon.. den we went to citylink mall.. he bought his adidas shoes.. colour chosen by ME!! den we went to marina square.. walked around.. i ate ice cream AGAIN!! yup de same one dat i had at parkway.. den we sat at starbucks.. den right.. on de way back to de mrt station.. guess who we met?? HIS DAD!! i mean i dun mind meeting his dad.. but we were actually holding hands.. ok not really holding hands but he was twiddling wif my fingers.. quite embarrassing u know.. but he didn't get a scolding or anything when he got home la.. his parents are pretty cool ppl..

Den i wanted to go eat at banquet.. so we went to de one at Raffles Hospital.. and his neighbour works there!! de western food stall.. and i ordered my seafood combo.. so she gave me a 10% discount.. u know wat she said to me?? Cik kasi u discount sebab ur bf cik punyer jiran.. haha.. paiseh ah.. so anyways after dat we went to pray at sultan mosque.. den went back to sr.. faizal got to talk to mr salahuddin for a while.. den as we were walking past de hall, i held his hand la.. den when faizal turned back, mr zaihan was behind us!! haha.. so of course we quickly let go of each other's hands.. den we sat by de track.. looking at de soccer guys & canoeing team doing their training.. den faizal asked mr teng if he wld like de present soccer batch to haf a match wif de seniors.. yup.. so they exchanged nos..

Today i watched The Oprah Winfrey Show.. it was abt powerful women of de world.. When will de day come dat i get to wear one of Vera Wang's dresses?? AHH!! they are all soooooooooooooooo nice!! den de next guest was dr condolisa.. she's bush's adviser.. altho i do not agree wif her stand abt saddam.. but i tink she's a great woman.. i'm not gonna dabble into politics here.. ok.. my feminist side is starting to emerge.. but it's great to be able to hold a high position in a job dat is infested wif members of de opposite sex.. den de next guest was de CEO of Ebay.. forgot her name.. but yeah.. wat i'm trying to say is if u've got dreams juz go ahead & pursue it.. like wat dr condolisa said: U need to haf limitless horizons in order to achieve wateva u wanna do.. and de CEO of Ebay said: U can choose to do wateva u wanna do.. and dis goes out specifically to lizzy.. where there's a will there's a way.. as long as u live ur life to de fullest, nothing else matters..

Ok ok.. i sahll stop babbling.. i'll be going away to malacca for a few days.. not sure when i'll be back.. so if u guys sms me i will choose NOT to sreply altho i've got autoroam.. so dun miss me too much k?? hope u guys enjoy de wkend.. Selamat Hari Raya Haji to all my muslim frenz.. i'm soooooo gonna be missing out on all de nice shows shown on suria..

MUACKZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

| 1/30/2004 03:04:00 PM

Wednesday, January 28, 2004

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| 1/28/2004 08:59:00 AM

Tuesday, January 27, 2004

I've been listening to lots of slow songs lately.. and some malay songs.. for those of u who know me well u guys will go: WAT'S WRONG WIF U AZREEN?? haha.. oh well.. guess i'm juz in de mood.. so yup.. i've changed de song on my blog.. it's de latest by Craig David.. and i kinda like de lyrics.. it's really true.. u dun miss someone till he's gone.. u dun miss someone till u realise u can't see him for de next 9 mths.. u dun miss someone till u realise u can only get to hear his voice occasionally.. so yeah.. even though i seldom say i miss u but u shld know how i feel for u.. HEE.. ok i'm juz blabbering..

I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOO BORED!! i need to get a job but.. i'm too lazy to look for one.. anyways i wanna work at RELC again!! kak jamaliah.. call me back ANYTIME.. I'M SO VERY AVAILABLE!! haha.. i think i'm going mad from either staying at home or playing wif nabilah, nadiah & nazurah.. haha..

I HATE de weather nowadays.. it's always raining!! VERY IRRITATING!! i wish i cld juz wake up to a very sunny day.. a day sunny enuff to be out at de beach.. SIGH.. dis is so depressing..

Another depressing thot is dat i wun be able to go to de MAA dis yr.. it's cos i didn't haf time to vote.. so my chances of winning is 1 to 1 000 000 000.. and i wun be able to go to any of de roadshows either.. and i wun be able to make it for de moshpit auditions either.. and.. SIGH.. actually i dun even feel like going at all dis yr.. and i've got no idea y.. maybe i dun wanna jostle wif de crowd.. maybe i tink it's gonna be a waste of time.. i really dunno.. i dun even wanna stake out de hotel..

Ok.. enuff of depressing stuff.. CH 8 has started showing de repeat telecast of Holland V.. YEAY!! at least there's something to watch at night.. at least de tv in my rm will be put to gd use.. so yup.. from tonight onwards i'm gonna be cuddled up under de blanket & watch Holland V.. YEAY!! and dis time i WUN miss a single episode..

And when is CH 5 gonna show de new season of Smallville?? I wanna see MY Tom Welling!! seriously there's nothing to drool over when i watch tv nowadays.. except for jamie oliver.. did u guys see him playing de drums in today's episode?? WHOA!! he's like super talented u know!! haha..

Oh well.. I'm going back to sr tmr.. wif faizal.. cos he wanna see his teachers.. is dat something to look forward to?? guess so la.. i can get to admire mr teng while faizal talks to him.. and.. oh yesssss.. MR ZAIHAN.. haha.. and hopefully i get to see wei tong.. speaking of sr.. has any of u all eaten de roti john?? did u guys notice how much it has shrunk?? sheesh.. can't we get a decent meal nowadays??

Ok ok.. i better stop complaining.. PMS.. yup.. so.. ROARRRRRRR!!!!

| 1/27/2004 03:20:00 PM

Monday, January 26, 2004

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| 1/26/2004 04:40:00 PM

Do u know how it feels to haf phlegm stuck in ur throat & no matter how hard u try it juz refuses to go away?? Yup.. i'm being made to go thru dat now.. i've been trying very very hard to clear my throat.. drink lots of water but de irritating phlegm continues to be stuck there.. it has made its home there for more than a wk already!! And it doesn't help dat my mucus is all yellow & green.. i bet all of u are going: EWWWWWW..

Haha.. k k.. sori.. i juz realise its been a long time since i submitted a proper post.. by my standards a proper post is one dat is super duper long.. wif every minute details included.. i guess most of u dun really know wat has been going on in my life right now.. except maybe shake & shuqing.. so.. shld i go abt spilling de beans on wat has happened since my bday?? HEE..

All i haf to say is life has been pretty good.. actually im no longer working.. my temp stint only lasted for 2 wks.. i seriously hope they'll take me back.. cos it's really fun to work.. i miss shuqing.. i miss matthew.. i miss kak chaya.. kak zubaidah.. kak jamaliah.. it's really fun to be around dem.. so nice.. so frenly.. so full of crap.. but wat to do.. im not wanted there.. SIGH..

So most of u reading dis wld tink dat im free to hang out wif u guys since im no longer working right?? well.. CANNOT!! i can only do dat after V Day.. after 14th Feb I'M ALL YOURS.. haha.. sori la.. for de next 3 wks or so i need to spend time wif faizal.. cos he'll be going back to australia on de 14th.. SIGH.. i wun be able to see him for 9 FREAKING MONTHS!! but i'm ok wif it la.. i can control my feelings.. see faizal.. i've got loads of self discipline.. altho my imagination gets pretty wild, i wun let it get de better of me.. heh.. ok.. wat de toot am i saying?? i'm sori.. i'm full of crap today.. and i guess it's dat time of de month.. MOOD SWINGS.. MAJOR PIGGING OUT SESSION..

U know.. i went to watch peter pan wif faizal on cny & i was soooooooooo disgusted by de couple on my right.. we were sitting in row b.. cos de show was almost fully booked.. and they were not even interested in watching peter pan!! oh god!! there are kids around u for goodness sake!! and pls.. i'm a kid too.. still young & innocent.. i think if de theatre wasn't packed they wld haf been all over each other.. if u guys wanna kiss & do it go & book a hotel rm la.. or go to a secluded place.. SHEESH!! it was seriously GROSS ok!! but i guess at de end of de day i had a really nice time.. walked by clarke quay.. fullerton (dat's when IT happened).. den walked past esplanade & stuff.. so.. ya.. it was a really gd day..

Den on sat went to de bodyworlds exhibition wif faizal.. was surprised dat they conducted SAT at hall 5.. haha.. saw de guy from de SAT dept.. i think his name is raqib.. dunno if he was surprised to see us there.. i think he was la.. i mean.. ya.. ok.. nvm.. and abang mas took his SAT too.. can u imagine wat wld haf happened if we had bumped into him?? haha.. it'll be hilarious mann!! he'll be sniggering away.. like wat he did on thurs nite when i went to his hse.. ohh.. saw lester & christine.. shake its not dat lester but de other one.. de one from A1.. den we went to de airport.. ate a lot.. so ya.. had a great time..

So.. umm.. errr.. i haf nothing else to say.. umm.. haha.. im going crazy..

| 1/26/2004 02:54:00 PM

Sunday, January 25, 2004

Hello everybody..

I went to the Bodyworlds Exhibition at expo yday.. it wasn't as gory as i expected.. in fact NOT SCARY AT ALL.. learnt some stuff abt de human anatomy.. cos i had an expert by my side.. HEE..

Den went to de airport.. had a nice time there.. ate at BK.. walked to T1.. den ate at Swensens.. heh.. so yup.. yday was a very nice day.. very sweet.. very memorable.. HEE..

| 1/25/2004 01:38:00 PM

Friday, January 23, 2004

anyways.. HEE.. MISS U!!!!!!! HEEEEEEEE

| 1/23/2004 05:36:00 PM

hello to all me peepz.. HEE.. how was ur cny hols?? mine was very very great!! very memorable.. HEE..

anyways.. went to watch peter pan yday.. nice show.. de ending wasn't very touching but nice la.. HEE..

ok ok.. i've been grinning from ear to ear.. i know.. but i can't help myself la.. cos someting wonderful happened..

ok crap.. i can't bring myself to write a proper post..

till next time..

MUACKZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

| 1/23/2004 05:28:00 PM

Wednesday, January 21, 2004

I MISS ALL OF U!! yupz.. i miss ALL of my lovely gurlfrenz.. i'm truly aware dat i've not been spending much time wif all of u.. sorry k?? but i will do it after v-day.. heh.. yeah.. after v-day i'll hang out wif u guys more often..

Shake.. long distance relationships do not work?? If u love someone he'll always remain in ur heart no matter how far apart he is.. u know.. ultimately if de 2 of u are willing to make sacrifices like phone calls & frequent exchange of letters/emails there's no reason for things not being able to work out.. u wun know unless u give it a shot..

I've got some stuff to say.. some stuff to tell all of u but i dunno where to start.. dunno how to say it.. all i can is de past 1 wk has really been very special.. something dat will remain in my heart foreva.. HEE.. shuqing will know..

I've got lots of things to say but at de same time i wanna keep things to myself.. heh.. ok u guys juz dun probe me on it.. i'll tell u guys soon.. when it's de right time.. haha.. i'm soooooooooo talking rubbish!!

But anyways.. I MISS ALL OF U!!!!!!!!!

| 1/21/2004 07:58:00 PM

Monday, January 19, 2004

I've not updated my blog for a very very long time.. and i say it's a very very long time cos i used to update it everyday.. been busy wif work.. i haf to admit i really enjoy working life.. it's cos de ppl are juz so frenly.. so nice.. so warm.. and of course there are certain things dat has created a deep impact on my life..

As of right now, I'm feeling quite sick.. my throat has been hurting since last nite & i went to bed wif a fever.. but doesn't matter la.. no big deal..

So.............. de latest updates abt my VERY interesting life.. hur hur.. celebrated my bday wif my frenz last wk.. yup.. went to amiran's cafe for dinner.. sori me & shuqing were late.. can't help it wat.. we're busy women.. haha.. but trust me.. we didn't mean to keep u guys waiting.. after we alighted from de bus, we ran all de way from far east to de mrt.. imagine both of us in skirts & heels.. haha.. VERY NOISY..

Wanna thank all my frenz for celebrating my bday wif me.. i really appreciated it.. and thx for all de wonderful prezzies.. they were very very practical.. bedside clock (shake & zubaidah).. door pad (neeta).. hp keychain & bands (lizzy).. dis self made thingy from mas.. bangle (izati).. necklace (junaidah).. pink pierre cardin bra (shuqing & de guys).. and earrings from peepz in de office.. HEE.. THANK U SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!

den went home wif de guys.. at first they said they wld share a cab wif me.. den in de end we took a train.. me, nigel & jianwei dropped at eunos.. but jianwei went to a diff bus stop.. anyways de guys were behaving like kids in de train.. haha.. but it was ok la.. i'm used to it.. and poor nigel still had hwk to do.. haha..

in de course of last wk, i got to know more abt matthew.. me, shuqing & matt had to direct de queue.. and he is one heck of a crappy guy.. but beneath dat crappy & sarcastic nature, he's a nice guy.. he's another baboon!! haha.. but i tink he's very sweet la.. got a chance to do counter duty wif greg.. WAH!! dat guy is one BIG flirt.. and he already has a gf u know!! haha.. no la.. he's juz very frenly.. he talks to EVERY single candidate.. topic ranges from eyelashes to de top dat de candidates wore.. and kak chaya, kak zubaidah & kak jamaliah are also very nice peepz..

thurs was very hectic cos i had to man de queue.. den fri after i took over faizal i continued sitting at de counter for de rest of de day.. i simply REFUSED to let faizal do counter 4.. so in de end he was stationed at counter 5.. den on sat matt didn't come.. so i had to take over his duty at counter 4.. and my partner was kak chaya!! HEE!! she's very cute u know!! supposed to end at 1 on sat.. but there were too many ppl so we finally left at 3.. den went to east coast.. took a nice stroll.. ate at komala's.. yup..

yday went to meet my aunts.. they bought me a top & a skirt.. VERY NICE!! my mom said i looked really feminine in dem.. haha.. OF COURSE LA!! went to chinatown.. den had dinner at newton.. chilli crabs.. spicy squid.. black pepper beef.. baby kailan.. i juz ate soooooooooooo much dat i really felt like puking after dat.. but it's not often dat i do dat.. so.. ya..

*I'm really confused over wat's happening right now.. I really really am.. Altho i cld figure out wat was happening wateva u told me was really unexpected.. It's not dat i dun trust u.. but like u said to me.. i'm going thru an ordeal right now.. u wen thru it before & u know how i'm feeling right now.. I really really need lots of time.. I can't give u any answers right now.. I can't give u any hopes.. cos i dun wanna end up hurting u.. and i'm scared of getting hurt in de end too.. I clearly rmbr wat u said to me at de bus stop.. "4-5 yrs down de rd any guy wld be lucky to haf me".. it was really very sweet of u.. when u come back here after 9 mths i'll probably be able to give u some answers.. Thax for being so understanding.. all i need is time.. yup.. time.....*

| 1/19/2004 10:19:00 AM

Sunday, January 11, 2004

Hey peppz!! Missed me?? heh.. sori for not updating my blog for de past 2-3 days.. been absolutely busy.. i've got no life mann.. work.. sleep at 10..

Firstly.. really sori to hear abt lulu's datok.. but babe it's part & parcel of life.. at least u know he's in a better place right now.. at least he's not suffering anymore.. anyways.. i really dun mind if u can't attend my bday dinner.. i understand..

Ok.. wat happened de last few days.. went to de robinsons sale at expo on fri.. wif my lovely aunts.. i didn't buy anything la.. cos they didn't haf de suff dat i want.. it was so tempting to buy some more bras (ya i know i haf a fetish for buying bras) but i managed to control myself very well.. anyways there were very limited pierre cardin bras.. and i think i've got most of dem..

Den yday.. it was very stressful.. cos it was a sat & many ppl came to register for their exams.. altho i wsn't stationed at de cashiers but it was equally stressful up at de office.. there was a super thick stack of registration forms to check.. den de incessant phone calls.. and these ppl asked to check de exam timetables la.. left stuff at de cashier la.. and they insisted dat i go down & look for their things.. wat to do.. it's my job.. anyways.. faizal.. did u check whether there was an envelope left at one of de nets counters?? if u didn't i'll get into a whole lot of trouble cos de person wants it back.. if u didn't check, i'm sooooo gonna kill u mann..

Den today.. helped my mom to finish baking de cookies.. her colleagues ordered dem for cny.. i was supposed to do it.. cos my mom thot i wld be free since i didn't haf a job.. but now.. anyways.. ya.. very very tired.. but now everything's done & nicely packed.. hee.. my mom told me dat she'll give all de profits from de sale of de cookies to me.. heh..

Juz now had to go to my dad's workplace.. he left some documents at home.. i cldn't email it to him cos hotmail only allows a certain amt of attachment.. so ya.. can u imagine having to go all de way to de bird park?? den while waiting for him to knock off i waited at de penguin parade la.. cos it's very cosy.. cooling.. and dis bird park staff started talking to me.. i mean he's ok looking.. he juz came up to me & passed me a piece of paper.. said dat he wrote his no on it.. of course i was like "What de hell?".. i refused.. den he asked me y i was sitting alone.. told him i was waiting for my dad.. he asked where my dad went to.. i told him my dad's working there.. when he asked for my dad's name & i told him.. HAHA.. u shld see de expression on his face mann.. he apologised profusely & quickly scooted out of there.. HAHA..

Den my dad told me to wait in de office while he packed up.. every single perso dat came in went: "OHH!! u're zainal's daughter!! wanna eat/drink?".. and they started telling me how great my dad is.. dat he's nice.. patient.. hard working.. bla bla bla.. HAHA.. tell me for wat?? u guys juz wanna get into his gd books right?? haha.. but i was tired of smiling la.. each time they praised my dad i was like hurhur..

Today i bought some stuff at jurong pt.. my dad gave me some money & told me to get wateva i wanted while he waited at de carpark.. so i bought lip gloss.. maybelline compact.. adidas shower gel.. adidas body spray & adidas perfume.. and i FORGOT to buy my baby johnson's shampoo!! of all things!! haha.. but nvm la.. still got a bit left.. i've run out of all de other stuff..

Ok peepz.. i'm super duper tired.. gonna check my friendster account den sleep.. u know.. i felt so tired on sat dat i actually cried.. haha.. come to think of it, it was very silly.. but ya.. my legs & back were aching.. felt kinda stressed.. sigh.. now still haf to think of wat to wear tmr.. muz look pretty.. hee..

| 1/11/2004 10:24:00 PM

Wednesday, January 07, 2004

I'M TIRED!! yes i am.. didn't even finish my dinner.. and it was only a bowl of maggi.. for those of u who know me well, u will go "HUH??".. ya i admit i eat a lot.. i eat too much.. but too tired la.. dun get me wrong.. work was fun.. i really enjoyed it.. but at de end of de day when u realise dat knock off time is near, ur brain juz shuts off & u feel drained.. i slept in de bus u know.. den as de bus turned into my area, i looked up & saw my dad's car diagonally in front of de bus.. when i got home i told my mom dat i saw dem after i woke up.. and she was like: OHH!! U were de gal who had her head down.. haha.. i thot it was who.. sheesh.. even my mom cldnt recognize me..

So wat happened at work today?? nothing much.. reached at 8.. called shuqing.. sat downstairs & drank hot milo.. me wif my runny nose & watery eyes.. it always happens to me early in de morning.. den benita came.. she wanted to buy some chips from de vending machine but it got stuck.. haha.. it always happens to her but not me.. had nasi lemak for lunch.. it was DELICIOUS!! and cheap too!! only $1.. den did de usual stuff.. answered calls.. arranged de registration forms accordingly.. attended to those who wanted to make payments for their UOL exams..

Juz now faisal asked me when's my birthday.. cos he heard me talking to shuqing abt it.. found out dat his birthday is on 19th Jan.. WOO!! a capricorn!! since i'm a capricorn he told me dat we're supposed to be bubbly & stuff.. of course i admit dat i'm bubbly.. but dat stupid shuqing gave an adamant NO!! wassup wif dat mann?? haha.. shuqing u freaking piece of shit.. i know u're jealous right dat he talked to me.. haha.. look on de positive side.. ur birthday is exactly 2 mths after his.. haha.. ok ok juz kidding!! i know u're not jealous..

While i was outside at de registration booth wiwin walked in.. den he asked me: "How's it goin?".. i said fine & juz smiled at him.. he's indonesian but speaks wif an american accent.. quite a friendly guy.. den on de way home.. saw mathew at de opposite bus stop.. he saw me & benita & he waved.. and i waved back.. haha.. i seldom wave back to ppl on de opposite side of de road.. but heck la.. so yeah.. haf to say de guys in my team are friendly.. alvin's nice too..

Ohh.. changed de song on my blog.. it's Hilary Duff's "So Yesterday".. well.. i think i am slowly letting things go.. i dunno.. maybe work is keeping me busy.. guess dat's gd.. cos i dun wanna hang on to something dat isn't there.. dun wanna try searching for a glimmer of hope when all de feelings are lost on his part.. but i'll keep de pic of me & him.. as a memory of de wonderful times we had.. i juz tink it's rude of him to not put a closure to things.. to give me de silent treatment & not put things to an end properly..

Ok peepz.. i need to shit.. yes.. de pain has gotten too immense.. so byez.. cheerios!!

MUACKZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

| 1/07/2004 08:42:00 PM

Tuesday, January 06, 2004

Wat a small world.. found out dat faisal was from sr too!! 3 yrs our senior.. shuqing told me.. i was wondering if he knew my cousin who was in sr 3 yrs ago too.. so yeah.. i asked him.. and turned out they were gd frenz.. yup.. from tk up to sr.. ok.. he seems like a nice guy.. always has a smile on his face..

Anyways.. started my job proper today.. and i haf to say it was VERY FUNNNNN!! yup.. i really mean it.. no sarcasm watsoeva.. we had to stamp on de receipts & registration form.. filled in de students' particulars.. help dem wif de payment.. but most of all i LOVED answering calls!! yup.. when i was 1st told to ans calls of course i was quite flustered.. but it turned out ok.. i cld handle most of de calls.. for those i can't handle i'll juz put dem on hold till someone else attends to dem.. ohh.. had dis china student who called up.. and she asked if i understood chi.. of course i understood la & unswered back in mandarin.. and i understood her queries but i didn't know how to say it in proper mandarin.. so of course i had to ask shuqing for help.. haha.. her mandarin ROCKS mann!!

Den met up wif noreen at toa payoh.. i felt like going home wif her.. she's now working at yellow pages.. handling calls for city search & orders for macs.. haha.. so anytime u guys wanna hear her voice juz call up.. hopefully u'll get thru her.. heh..

K guess dat's all for today.. nothing much to talk abt.. 9 DAYS TO MY BIRTDHAY!! pretty tired.. will sleep early tonite.. yday i slept at 10 u know!! so early mann..

MUACKZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

| 1/06/2004 07:47:00 PM

Monday, January 05, 2004

So.. had my 1st training today.. I'm doing admin work so they basically taught us how to key in de info & stuff.. make sure dat de form is correctly filled in.. make sure de right documents are produced.. de different methods of payment.. and we haf to ans calls as well..

I guess it's gonna be pretty ok.. i mean during de briefing it was as if there were lots of things for us to look out for.. but when we actually got a chance to do de real thing (as in keying in de info into de comp), it turned out to be pretty ok.. so tmr i'll be starting work officially.. WOO HOO!!

U guys muz be like reading dis in disbelief right?? I mean all dis while i've been saying dat i'm too lazy to get a job.. and i didn't even bother finding a job.. so u can say de job CAME to me.. yup.. someone offered me de job.. so i juz thot i'd give it a try..

I know some of u will ask me if there were any cute guys?? Well.. in my team there's dis mly guy called faisal.. stubble.. a bit chi looking.. i dun find him cute.. and i've not spoken to him yet.. and i dun tink i ever will.. i mean for those of u who know me well, u shld know i usually dun begin a conversation.. not to say i'm stuck up or anything but i juz dun.. and as for de rest of de guys in my team, forget it!! haha.. in de looks department they dun haf much to offer.. but hey!! i've yet to find out if they haf nice personalities..

Ok i've called most of de peepz on my 'guest list'.. except for nigel & sherry.. cldn't get thru dem.. will call dem up again later.. juz now i went to sch also never see nigel.. didn't see wei tong also.. but saw mr zaihan.. and mr teng.. WOO HOO!! haha.. ok most of de peepz on my so-called 'guest list' gave positive ans.. but i'm scared la if half of dem dun turn up.. den make reservations for wat right??

~Heartbreaks last as long as u want & cut as deep as u allow them to go~

| 1/05/2004 06:55:00 PM

I really enjoyed my wkend.. Up to de point dat i was too tired to update my blog.. Let's see.. on sat i woke up bright & early.. went to de bank to deposit some money & had my atm card made.. see now i've got 2 atm cards.. not dat i haf much use for dem anyway.. den went to buy some baking stuff.. my mom's colleagued ordered some cookies for chinese new yr.. den went back home.. later in de afternoon we went out again.. went to town.. den went to pasir ris park.. u know de one wif fisherman's village.. ohh.. Pasir Ris Park Car Park D.. i managed to finish reading my bk while sitting by de beach.. den had dinner at changi village.. ate so much!! den hung around at changi beach.. as it was high tide & de waves were crashing against de concrete wall, it felt so nice when some of dem got sprayed onto my face..

Den yday went to masjid mydin.. WHOA!! de ustaz ROCKS MANN!! he's really cool!! supposed to attend it wif noreen.. den she was late.. so didn't get to see her.. i was wif my mom.. Ustaz Fahrurrazi.. very funny guy.. noreen.. did u hear de part abt hari raya?? haha.. very funny mann.. after dat went to bedok interchange wif my mom.. HEE.. i spent almost $200 yday.. cos i bought 3 sets of pierre cardin undergarments.. black & pink, beige, blue & pink.. so dat cost abt $60.. den i bought 4 pairs of pants & a skirt.. WOO HOO!! eh shake, luckily la i didn't go out wif u all yday.. if not i wldn't be able to go on de shopping spree.. heh..

Ok peepz.. we shall eat at Amirah's cafe during my bday k?? I've already invited some ppl.. de rest later today den i invite.. De ppl on my guest list are:

Liza
Shake
Lulu
Neeta
Izati
Zubaidah
Masturah
Rahman
Shuqing
Glady
Sherry
Noreen
Nigel
Jianwei
Junaidah
Sarita

I need to make reservations if too many ppl are coming.. and i dunno how many of u can make it during de evening of 15th Jan.. If u guys dun confirm wif me by fri.. den SAYONARA.. heh..

10 days to my birthday!!!

| 1/05/2004 09:55:00 AM

Friday, January 02, 2004

I'm sorry but i haf to do dis: ROOOOOOOOOOAAAAARRRRRR!!! ROOOOOOAAAAAAAARRRRRRR!!!!!!

Does anybody know how frustrated i feel?? oh god!! help me!! did i do de right thing dis morning?? it was a spur of de moment thing..

Dammit.. i need an ans from u.. yes.. a fucking a reply.. juz 1 sms.. y.. y is it so hard for u to tell me de truth??

Are ur fingers glued to ur nose??

Haf u gone blind & cldn't read my sms??

U suddenly didn't know how to reply to an sms??

Ur hp fell into de toilet bowl??

yeah rite!! MY NOSE!!

ROOOOOAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRR

| 1/02/2004 02:33:00 PM

nothing beats listening to linkin park when i'm feeling totally down in de dumps.. when i'm feeling like shit..

so turn up ur speakers peepz..

| 1/02/2004 09:46:00 AM

My period has been late for 10 days.. yup.. 10 fucking days.. so u can say i'm having pms.. and i really hope it's pms cos i dun understand y i'm feeling so shitty.. i dun understand y my emotions are on a roller coaster ride.. one min i'm sad.. de next min i feel happy..

I'm feeling very sore dis morning.. very very sore.. de initial suggestion to haf a mini celebration for my bday wif my frenz was made by my mom.. yes my dearest darling mom.. yday when i talked to her abt it she started getting angry.. wtf.. i merely asked her if it's ok to book de bbq pit near our hse.. de one downstairs.. den she started grumbling la.. said i was giving her a headache.. bla bla bla.. i know la i'm indecisive.. dat's y i need ur opinion right?? i dunno wat de fuck is wrong wif u.. if it's financial issues den tell me.. if u think it's unnecessary to part wif dat sum of money, CAN U PLS FUCKING TELL ME?? i know u're my mom.. i dun wanna be rude to u.. i dun wanna be disrespectful.. but u juz dun go around blowing ur top.. raking up abt past events.. abt stuff dat i did dat didn't pls u.. it TOTALLY has no link to de qn i asked u.. de one abt de freaking bbq pit.. and since u're my mom, i respected u enuff not to spew any expletives..

u know.. i dunno wat is it wif ppl.. can't they be learn to open up?? wat's wrong wif telling me de truth?? i'm ur daughter for goodness sake!! not some bloody stranger!! u didn't bring me up to turn up like a brat.. discuss things wif me.. i wld understand.. i dun ask for a lot from u.. heck.. all these while dat i went out i didn't even ask u or dad for extra money.. it all came from de sch allowance dat i didn't spend.. u dun go around scolding me.. putting me down.. den a few mins later u turn to me & smile & pretend nothing has happened.. i haf feelings too u know.. i'm not some doll dat u can toss aside.. not some doll dat u can scream at..

dun get me wrong.. i haf a wonderful relationship wif my mom.. most of de time she's pretty understanding.. most of de time we haf a gd laugh together.. but sometimes her words really hurt.. really sting.. dat's y i'm very sore dis morning.. i dun expect an apology from u.. i know it was partly my fault cos i cldn't make up my mind.. but it was UR idea in de 1st place.. UR suggestion.. and i was asking for UR opinion.. i dun wanna make any decisions without U.. but u've done dis too often.. leaving me sore wif ur stinging words.. i respect u a lot.. de least u cld do is to give me a lil respect too..

and i hate de fucking silent treatment.. in fact I TOTALLY ABHOR & DETEST IT.. dun tink juz by being silent u expect me to get de hint.. ya i do get de hint.. i'm not dumb u know!! i may not be de smartest person on earth but at least i'm smart enuff to figure out wat is happening..

u dun give someone de silent treatment.. hoping dat she gets de hint.. u dun juz simply use dat to wash ur hands off a situation.. it's TOTALLY irresponsible.. y can't u juz talk to me.. y can't u juz reply to my fucking sms?? yes.. i smsed u dis morning.. only 2 smses telling u how i felt.. and u bloody didn't reply again.. can't u juz fucking do it?? scroll to de end of de msg, click options den reply?? it's not as if u're technologically challenged!! be mean to me.. show me dat u're a jerk.. show me dat u're de ULTIMATE jerk.. dun even bother to give me a tiny glimmer of hope.. and what glimmer of hope u may wonder?? next paragraph pls..

y de fuck is de pic of us still up there?? take it down!! dun juz leave it up there cos u wanna be polite.. cos u wanna show others dat u treasure wat we shared.. dat's y u're not deleting de pic.. i really wish u wld take it down.. i really wish i wld juz bump into u walking around wif another gal.. holding her hands.. sending her home.. i juz wish u cld bloody reply to my fucking sms and say dat de feelings haf been lost..

is it so hard for u to reply?? am i so irritating?? am i such an eyesore?? haf u deleted my no?? no wait.. u didn't.. cos u sent me a forward on new year's eve.. "Last gd evening for 2003".. MY NOSE!! more like de last ever msg from u right?? u broke ur promise.. all dat u told me were empty promises.. "spend more time wif me during de hols".. yeah rite!! MY NOSE!! where were u during dis hols?? where de fuck were u?? u didn't even haf to go for training dat often in de 1st place!! so where de hell were u?? out wif another girl?? tell me u idiot!!

I'm fully aware dat dis entry is full of expletives.. pardon my language.. but i guess those are de only words dat i can think of right now.. it's early in de morning.. wat do u expect?? wat do u expect from a pms gal who's juz faced some shit from her mom last nite & who woke up feeling sore by all dat & who did a bloody silly thing by smsing him & is now mad at herself for doing juz dat & now bloody wish dat she's better off dead?? heck.. it's MY blog.. MY own bloody blog.. i write WATEVA i want..

13 days to my birthday.. oh well.. FUCK IT!!

| 1/02/2004 08:17:00 AM

Thursday, January 01, 2004

First day of 2004.. WOO HOO!! how exciting.. i juz wonder how de yr is gonna be like for me.. i wanna be a good daughter.. a better muslim.. a wonderful fren.. a more responsible person.. less lazy.. more patient..

I wanna meet shah rukh khan.. everyone in linkin park (not only chester & joe hahn).. duncan james.. shane west.. justin timberlake.. jamie oliver.. tay ping hui.. prince william.. oprah winfrey.. mandy moore.. jason priestly.. eminem.. nico saputra.. and de list goes on.. haha.. and i miss mark.. yes.. my one & only mark.. i miss him loads.. ok.. maybe i shld try emailing him..

I juz found out neeta doesn't haf a clue when my bday is.. dat woman is horrible.. dat shows she doesn't even visit my blog.. and to think she's one of my closest gurlfrenz.. HUMPH!! neeta WE ARE THRU!! haha.. juz kidding.. now dat u know when my bday is.. pls prepare my prezzie.. dat is if u are even reading dis..

Can somebody tell me wassup wif de countdown shows?? oh my god!! it was horrible!! i mean i'm in no position to scrutinize it but pls.. at least make it decent enuff to be broadcasted live.. when i say decent it means dun make viewers get turned off.. dun make us swear in de middle of de nite.. i didn't mind de skimpy clothes.. afterall it was at de beach.. u didn't know de amt of expletives dat were stored in my heart.. i was watching tv wif my mom.. de swear words were dying to come out.. my chest cld explode any moment.. so i made do wif smsing shake & saying wtf.. haha

I was channel surfing bet suria & ch 5.. my mom even found anugerah era boring.. i was disappointed dat misha omar had to share de stage wif.. wif who ah?? forgot de name of de band.. she shld juz sing bunga bunga cinta alone.. she has a nice voice.. and on ch 5.. oh god!! and jamie yeo's boobs cld haf fallen out any moment.. cld she juz stop jumping?? and moses lim?? WTF!! and dat stupid band.. they were called swim something.. only MY tay ping hui was de highlight of de entire show.. altho i think he's put on weight.. he did look a bit fat.. as if he's developed a tummy.. even my mom said so.. but i still love him..

Oh i asked my mom abt her opinion of ppl who are in de mosh pit during concerts.. she said it's all in de name of enjoyment.. even she doesn't mind being in there.. so yeah.. she told me i can join de MAA mosh pit.. juz as long as i tell her.. so shake.. me, u & de mosh pit?? haha.. i know there's bound to be some kind of rubbing & contact wif others.. but.. at least it wun be dat bad.. no banglas.. no chikopeks.. haha.. so how?? set tak??

Do u haf any idea how fat i am?? I've been eating tooooooo much!! Let's see.. on fri.. had char kway teow.. chi rojak & prata for dinner.. went back to my aunt's hse ate some more potato balls.. ate quite a lot.. sat morning.. had nasi lemak & roti john for breakfast.. den lunch had beef kway teow.. den ate wateva rubbish.. u know.. snacks.. den at nite.. my uncle cldn't finish his fried chicken rice so i ate it.. den sun.. for breakfast had nasi lemak again.. den i toasted my own bread.. spread butter & put sugar.. den went to a wedding.. ate some more.. den met shake.. had seafood ho fun for dinner.. dat's wat they put on de menu.. but it's actually seafood fried kway teow la.. i know u all are stating to wonder whether i eat other things.. haha.. den before i went back to my aunt's hse i bought chocolate freeze.. hee.. shared wif my lil cousin.. den my aunt told me there's chicken rice in kitchen.. so i ate again.. and it was already after 10!! mon morning.. had toasted bread.. same.. butter wif sugar.. went to my grandma's hse.. it was like only 9 am & i felt hungry again.. ate fried rice.. a few hrs later i ate bread.. wif butter & sugar again.. den ate cookies.. hee.. for lunch ate rice wif sambal prawns.. damn spicy but i like!! dinner.. ate rice wif de same sambal prawns & satay.. den i packed de satay.. went back home wif my aunt.. and i ate de satay at nite again!! de next morning.. went to my grandma's hse.. it was only 8 & i was already hungry.. she still had de satay & sambal prawns so i ate dem again.. den for lunch.. had noodles.. snooped around for bread.. hee.. butter & sugar again.. den yday.. ate 2 plates of fries.. and de nasi lemak dat my mom cooked.. dis morning ate prata wif sambal prawns again.. haha.. ok ultimately.. I'M FAT!

Dis morning i was woke up by my dad's phone call.. as usual he has to work.. he called juz before 9.. told me to email him a file dat he had saved in de computer.. he forgot to save it onto de diskette.. so had to get out of my bed.. on de damn computer.. search for de file.. den after i emailed he told me dat there was no hurry.. can send it later.. GRRRRRRRRRR.. den call me so early for wat??

Ok.. dat's it for today.. i've changed de song on my blog.. hee.. anyways.. 14 DAYS TO MY BIRTHDAY!!!!

| 1/01/2004 04:29:00 PM